ziaslavez on Collarspace

9/21/2008 3:43:30 AM

Morning,
I apoligize to those who have attempted to contacted me but never recieved a response. Used to answer every email I recieved in my inbox. Bulk mail only occationally. I always forget there is a bulk mail box. I do try and read each of them though. I always tell myself I'll come back later to answer them all. Even if its a brief, polite hello or appropriate return comment. If only it was a perfect world... I am as far from inconsiderate as one can be and very humble with very little attitude.
Until recently, everything from anywhere except in Arizona, has been sent to bulkmail. I have always lived in Tucson, for the most part and didn't want to waste anyones time knowing that a relationship with someone in another state would never work. I figured the sender could tell if their mail was delivered to bulkmail instead of ones inbox.
There's only been one occation where I wished I didn't have to go home. My two weeks in Wikiki! Wooha!!
Thing about Arizona is, there's plenty of sand but until California has an earth quake that breaks it off and turns it into an island, its just going to be a big dry beach waiting and wishing for some water.
Before my vacation in Hawii, my only experience with ocean waters consisted of two or three trips to the beaches in Califoria. To cold for my taste.
When I ventured the beaches of Hawii though, that was a completely different experience. I knew the minute I walked into that clear beautiful ocean water and felt its warmth surround my body, that I never wanted to leave. I expected to feel a cold wave across my feet and legs and imediately turn around and walk right back out again. The temputure of the water was the same as the temputure on the beach that day. Who woulda' thunk it?!giggle blush blush. Anyway, that was the only time I ever thought about living somewhere other then Tucson. Still, in the end.....I went home......
So please, forgive me if it seems as if I've just ignored You. I might not have even known I recieved Your message(s). By only allowing emails from Arizona addresses to come to my Inbox I always wonder if unknowingly I might miss, 'The One' I am meant for, to unconditionally serve. I removed that restriction.
  Please, in all due respect, don't take it personally if I don't respond. I would have to live on line to answer all my mail. If Your not in Arizona and you don't hear from me, once again, with all due respect please note that if there isn't something that stands out for me when I read my mail I might not respond. Wish I could, I just can't answer them all.
Thought when I found collarme.com my prayers had been answered. More than a year later now and all I am is more frustrated and still without my Master. I know You will find me. I just hope that moment comes soon. For You, I wait.
Insatiable, zia  [sigh]