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First, I am owned seeking a sister sub/slave friend/lover.

I am a sub traveling the road to becoming a dedicated slave. I am being trained and cherished and protected by SenseiMaster. Collared submission has opened doors i never knew, feelings i never dreamed of, sensations i never felt before. i do not know when submission became belonging, devotion became my mission, and eroticism became my passion - but turning back is not an option. My servitude to my Sensei deepens with each passing moment.

i have found that with my Sensei's guidance i have learned to experience and crave things i never dreamed i would. Trusting Master has allowed me to feel safe in everything i do. He knows me and considers my reactions as He plans the next level of my training. If something new is not desirable or exciting, it merely points the way to other paths to explore --with maximizing the eroticism and emotion being the goal.

Sharing the journey with a sister sub/slave would make everything perfect. Having a loving sister to share the service to Master with, synergy building to make sensuous play even more erotic, halving the service of housework and share the joy of providing a loving environment for His family is my dream.

If you feel you might like to join us in this life journey, please write me or my beloved Master (SenseiMaster) here on cm.

Other submissive women friends are always welcome to write.

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1/22/2010 11:52:35 PM
Wow! I can't believe it's been so long since I posted on here. We've been busy with writing, videotaping, and just everything lately. It's all good. :) I'll post something soon that is brilliant, but just wanted to post right now to say I haven't posted. Silly, but true.

6/8/2009 1:59:35 PM

It's time for the trek up north. We'll be on the road this week and hope to be at our summer place by the end of the week. Looking forward to it, just don't like the long drives. :)


6/1/2009 10:24:07 PM
Just wondering why if so many people say they won't respond to one-line emails there are so many that reply with only one line responses. Curious hmmm? I'm not talking about those that are answering a simple question with a simple answer, but when you've composed a thoughtful email and the person responds with a one or two line answer, it seems a little tedious. Difficult to establish communication that way.

5/31/2009 1:26:07 AM

Summer is here. We're going to the big house in the Dakotas. We certainly have room for a sub to join us for a long or short term visit.
 
There seem to be as many wannabe subs on here as you read about wannabe doms.

Summer's here and it's time to relax and have fun in our playroom, hot tub and movie room. I'm surely looking forward to it. Wanna join us? ;)
~zen


3/31/2009 12:44:29 AM
i can't believe it has been so long since i've written in my profile. So much has happened, however, we are still searching for one to join us. We've been wintering in the Vegas area and enjoying the sunshine here. Our summer place is being inundated with winter, so we are so happy to be here in the southwest. i've been busy writing this winter and it has been great getting back into my creative spirit. Master has been learning about post production and filmmaking and i've been learning about that as well. It's been quite fun and our goal is to make a short film this summer. Those are the highlights for now.
~zen

8/10/2008 1:19:04 PM
This is so strange. I haven't written in my journal for a while, but when I checked it the other day suddenly many of my previous entries were gone and my most recent one was the only post left and that was repeated several times. Some kind of computer glitch obviously, but it is strange. OK i think i fixed the glitch. Hopefully my whole journal will be fixed now.

We have been enjoying our summer place and working on several projects. We always feel as though we accomplish things during our stay here, but things tend to move a little slowly.

We lost a big tree out front and that made me a little sad. (We had a severe thunderstorm clocking at more than 100 mph winds. Yikes!

Our seach continues. We long to find someone who craves to be part of a family and contribute intelligently and erotically to the family unit. I do know that communication is very important and it means all kinds of communication, not just about the kinks.
~zen

7/2/2008 5:41:12 PM

Some thoughts for today.

People seem to behave online in a different way than they do in person. We can't expect the same protocols in a written format, but there are some that just seem to be common sense. One is that in this day of instant gratification, we seem to want to know all the answers immediately. Things tend to move quickly on line, but in reality if you've talked to someone just a few days, you cannot KNOW someone.

This format is great for getting to know the thoughts of a person, but sometimes it is difficult to know how that person will be in real life. For example, someone can be quite talkative on line and then rather reticent and quiet in person. If you have developed a certain rapport on line it would be normal to expect some semblance of that rapport to translate in person. When it doesn't get there, it is sometimes a shock of confusion, where is the person i/we were talking to for so long.

On the other hand, to expect things to move quickly from online to real life is sometimes a difficult thing as well. Building a relationship (which is what we seek) takes time. People tend to forget that when they get on line. I can understand that subs on sites such as this one get inundated with emails. They don't want to waste their time talking to someone they don't feel will be a "match". However, sometimes "matches" don't happen automatically. Sometimes you have to work at them a bit, but the time and energy into making them work. If you aren't up for that, perhaps you aren't ready for a relationship of that type.

~zen


7/2/2008 5:03:07 PM
Hello ~ We have arrived at our summer place and are getting settled in and starting many projects. It is always fun here as we are always working on something and we see progress being made on an almost daily basis. We also tire ourselves out at times so make time for relaxing time as well.

6/5/2008 4:03:55 AM
We are getting ready to leave for our summer place so i have been negligent about updating my journal. We are looking forward to a busy but fun summer at our place in the midwest. We are hopeful the future will bring us a very nice surprise. :)

5/31/2008 4:13:47 PM
Hi~ Some thoughts for today~

Although some submissives might find themselves in a relationship that requires them to only speak when spoken to, there are many submissives, especially on line, that I’ve noticed seem to not know how to carry on a polite conversation. Conversational ability cannot be underrated for an intelligent Dom as it is one way He gains pleasure, through discussion.

 

Submissives might take a lesson from the Japanese geishas who were trained to be able to converse on a multitude of subjects. This is very evident in communicating on line. If someone sends you a thoughtful email, then respond in kind. A one liner or silly comment doesn’t go very far to further communication. Another point to emphasize when chatting with someone through messenger and the person is sending you message after message of thoughtful conversation to reply with a simple ‘yes, uh huh, lol, or emoticon’ also does not further conversation. Conversation by its very nature is a two-way street. Both parties need to contribute to keep it flowing. If you haven’t received a message in a little while, the person may be having computer issues, but also it may be that you haven’t contributed enough for him/her to respond to.

 

Now if you are in training mode and He is talking/teaching a ‘Yes, Sir’ response would be perfectly appropriate, but if He is talking about the latest news item, it might be a time He is inviting your opinion. If He asks a direct question, answer that question. Be thoughtful in your response. Communication is most important in this lifestyle and in this format it is essential as you don’t have the body/facial language to go on many times.
~zen


5/28/2008 11:24:35 PM
Hi~i've been doing a lot of reflexion on submission. What is it? How is it played out in real life, lifestyle or other ways? i have read several things about non-sexual service and that has added to my thoughts on how to serve. Yes, i do serve sexually. i just want to serve more and better. :)
That led me to think about what draws people to this lifestyle. Some submissives i've talked to say that they are people pleasers, so that means they are submissive. Not so necessarily. Being PLEASING to one's Master is also part of this, perhaps a BIG part. Training comes in many forms and i think some submissives think they are not cherished if part of that training is training out the unpleasing parts.
 
For example if a submissive eats with her mouth open, the Master may try to train her to close her mouth. Now this may be something she's done for all her life, but if it is unpleasing to her Master, she should see it as a constructive criticism to make her more pleasing to Him.

However, sometimes these submissives think that "He wants to change me." He wants to TRAIN you. He wants you to be better, and pleasing for Him. If you don't like the idea of training to be better a better sub for Him, then perhaps there are other places you should be as a submissive. Just some thoughts.
~zen

5/27/2008 5:42:50 PM
Hi~Some thoughts for today. I've been thinking a lot on service. How do i as a submissive show service to my Master, besides the sexual? i want to be creative in this. So much of the time my service is related to keeping house which may include fixing meals, doing laundry, and bringing Him a drink when He may be thirsty. However, other kinds of service that i also like to do are foot massages, or full body massages. i know He appreciates the time i take in doing these things for Him. However, now i'm trying to think of other things i can do for Him. This is something i am going to continue to explore.
~zen 

5/26/2008 6:10:23 PM
Hi ~A lazy holiday around here. i've just been having another conversation with Master about the need to listen. He is the focus of my world and i truly try to listen to His needs and desires as well as His amazing thoughts. He is a person whose mind is always going and i am enwrapped when He lets me inside of His imagination. Sometimes we get used to communicating on line and having a couple of threads of conversation going at the same time, but in person we are sometimes guilty of talking at the same time as another. When we are able to be still that is truly showing our submission to Him. 

~zen


5/25/2008 3:50:06 PM
Hi
Another sort of dreary day here. It makes getting up difficult, i just want to laze in bed. LOL But here we are up at almost 4pm it is so tough being semi-retired.

Thoughts on the healthy submissive personality. I was reading an essay on this topic on a friend's website yesterday. It seemed to relate to what my last journal entry was about. i am not unusual, as a submissive, according to this essay anyway. Submissives are generally more in tune with the emotions of others. We take praise well and criticism can devastate. That is why submissives want to be good and do good so often. This just struck home for me within my relationships in general, and with Master in particular. I am continually seeking praise.
Something to put in the back of my mind to remember.
~zen

5/23/2008 11:22:04 PM
hi~The new bed is nice, but takes a little getting used to as i'm not used to sleeping with my feet up.

So thoughts for today. i need to really listen, i know as human beings we tend not to listen, but that isn't an excuse and i need to get better at it and not assume i know what someone means when they are talking. I am rather empathic and sympathetic so i can feel what people are feeling and sometimes that leads to thinking i know what people are also thinking and that is definitely NOT the case as i DO NOT read minds. LOL

Just a thought especially coming from a submissive point of view and relating to others. I just have to remember to LISTEN with my ears and not just my heart. :)

~zen

5/21/2008 8:48:07 PM
hi ~ It did cool down a bit today, but we were up to hot work. We went and picked up a king sized bed. It is really comfy and we took a nap this afternoon on it after we got it home. :) Now it is time for dinner and a movie. ~zen

5/20/2008 6:53:08 PM
Hi all- Another HOT day and night in the southwest. It is supposed to cool off in the next day or so.

I've already met some thoughtful people on here. It is so nice to have intelligent thought-provoking conversations. This is one thing (of many) Master and i love. It is like being in college again and just letting topics flow from one to another and building on one another so that everyone gains insight.

Be well and safe :)
~zen

5/19/2008 5:42:51 PM
Hi all~wow too hot too sleep...we are night owls anyway, but last night was way too hot. Today is 108!!!!!! Yikes...It does seem that May is a little early for that heat. We may end up leaving sooner rather than later for the midwest.

i have been reading some profiles and above all i find so many are saying what they don't want rather than what they do want. my guess is we all have a dream, and through living our lives we become disenchanted and feel the dream is unachievable. It is worth waiting for, believe me. Recognizing it when it comes is sometimes difficult though when we have set up preconceived notions as to what we will or won't accept. Keeping an open mind opens up all kinds of possibilities and opportunities.

It breaks my heart to see so many unhappy souls still searching for their One or their family. Unhappier still when I see those that have been hurt by the players and wannabes. So many say they won't reply to one word, or one liners yet i have also seen those that respond to a thoughtful message with a one word or one line response. It seems if you can't remain hopeful and happy in your search, then why go on?

Just some thoughts on a very hot day ~ zen

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Siesayashe
 
 Age: 25
 Long Beach, California