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| heyo, Delia here (does a sexy little ta-da! pirouette).New here. New me in many ways. New world, new beginnings, new search. I'm a dancer in gentlemen's clubs for 3 years (please don't judge or insult me for it, it is a profession) who is now just returning to work after six months off. But also proud to now be clean n sober for first time since I was 14 and my mind blood and soul have been cleaned. I had a BDSM relationship with one older man when i was 19 to 21. Not fulltime but regular dating. I learned so much, but he let me go because of my bad social behavior, my own destruction he called it. Finally now I am building up not breaking myself down. I still have habits to break. I decided to wait to quit smoking until after my rehab. My counselors agreed, focus first on my other issues. I will soon now though. OK why I'm here: I would like to be a lil princess for a well off older Dominant man. One who will take care of me while I spoil him with affection and love and servitude and pleasure. My one Daddy Dom from the past said i am a pleasure doll. I wince and scream if i stub my toe. So i have no tolerance for pain. Of course I know i will have spankings and punishment to train. But not severe beatings or torture. I do enjoy sexual and sensual exploration, being guided and controled, told what to do, how to dress, what to be like, to submit and surrender to a man stronger in character and knowledge and the world. I am one week back to work after 6 months in rehab, living with my aunt and uncle, rebuilding from nothing. I lost so much, my apartment my car and many of my belongs. But i gained much more. i am happier than ever and know myself. I can be moody and bitchy and unpredictable and spontanous, but also playful and full of joy and energy. I am an addict who every day will remind myself to make it through the day without street drugs. I am however on medication for being bipolar. I have learned so much and am much better at knowing myself and that includes knowing when i am starting to slip and i am better at pulling back and making myself safe. I am three semesters away from a degree in business administration, so I am educated and I love to read and write (can you tell!!!). i am sexualy voracious--like many addict types whatever i like I do to extreme and as much as possible to a compulsive degree. I love men's bodies and their cocks and i am very skilled with all of my body from my throat to my ass and my smooth little babycunt. i am not shy about my body or talking about sex. i grew up catholic but even at a young age i was aware of my body and find men who can talk to me directly and erotically make me want to do eveyrthing possible to please them. My mind goes to this pleasure heaven where everything is amazing feeling. I love intensity in sexual play and being pushed and things like slapping, choking, pulling my hair treating me like a slut animal for that's what i become. But i also have my little girl side who loves cuddling and being talked to like a little girl with my teddy bears and soft brushed cotton blankies and my pink blush lipstick and being affectionate with my dear Daddy. As you'll see in my pics, i have my dark side and my blond side. Ha. I was blond for more than two years but black is my natural hair color. I will post pics of both sides of me because I would want to have the hair color that makes my Daddy Master happy.
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