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My first day as a member of a  BDSM community..............

For so long I wasnt sure where I fit in, so to speak. I am truely a nice caring person. However I always had this underlying desire to control.  Maybe this is because I was raised to be such a sweet little princess.  Private schools,  School of the performing arts, Horse back riding ( English pleasure hunts y and dressage). Some say spoiled I prefer Blessed as a child.  These feelings of domination confused me,  I remember biting one of my first boyfriends lip and him looking up at me as if i were demon possessed. I remember grinding on  my pillow later that night totally excited because i laughed at his pain and because he kept calling and calling me in my mind saying "you want this I know you want this see how good i fuck myself how easy how many times i can make this sweet little pussy cum want it keep wanting it " Later those desires developed,  teasing and denial step one  control of time make him wait  step two  then deeds fix this  do that for me step three and at last financial domination.  Those words cause immediate assumptions.  she must be a prostitute or a cam model gold digger. However here in one of the chat rooms this morning I had a wonderful conversation with someone who accepted and helped me gain a better understanding.  Ive obviously just recently identified myself as a financial dominant. However I have been engaging in these types of relationships for a very long time.  so basically  two thumbs up  unless your a little sissy man whore than the only thing important is that u know youre pathetic