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About XWickedHeatherX
"Life without pain has no meaning" - Schopenhauer
Worthless trash of CM I wish to give your life meaning.
I write and have spent the last few months observing on this, and other, sites the pathetic human stains that inhabit these kind of places your worthless existences serve as inspiration for my writing. I find misery, fear and pain to be amongst the most true and powerful of emotional experience and whilst my imagination is more than capable of creating when is required i find that your true and ungraded admissions carry with them a level of pathetic realism that simply can not be made up.
I should at this point say that my reply rate to messages will be seldom to never for the simple reason that i can get most of what i want from you via simple observation. The vast majority of correspondence will be read, cataloged when appropriate, and deleted i am after all here on a primarily professional basis. I wont say don't get offended at my predictable lack of response as honestly i don't care if you are I'm here to use you and take from you not to be friends with you. The only two exceptions to this rule will be if you are are a genuinely interesting person that warrants further inquiry and or someone i find to be potentially sexually stimulating. Both of the above are very rare and if on the off chance you do fall into one or both of the above category's you will likely wish that you hadn't especially so for the latter.
Ive always been a bully, a long time before there was any kind of sexual element to it i liked to hurt people weaker than me. I know so many people who talk about how much they hated their school days and couldn't wait to get away, it always makes me smile, I have so many wonderful memory's there all that uncertainty and angst and the silly little things that seem to mean the world at the time. As Ive grown older i realize what i miss the most is how much power the school environment can bestow and at the same time the fear it can cause it is in these early days that one begins to realize the contradictory nature of the human condition strength on the one hand and merciless weakness on the other. Of course being cruel and spiteful is so much easier in the school setting than in the adult world bulling there is a simply a matter of course and all but the most extreme examples are written off as little more than "kids being kids".
Ive always thought of the school environment to be a perfect microcosm of human behavior the way we group together in packs and slowly realize that each individual has their own place in the hierarchy of the group. The way the weakest are targeted are abused and of course how quick the crowd is to look the other way simply content that today it wasn't them that today they got to be just another face in the crowd. When you look at it that way bulling is a totally natural occurrence throughout the natural world the strong eat the weak we are the only species that has a problem with it. I plan on using my journal to post some of my school exploits in the hope that they can be used to cause a new generation to suffer.
Like natural selection my fetish for dominance has evolved over time at present and for the last several years it has been built around a terrible and dark secret that that i keep absolutely to myself. It was this particular "act" that played a very large part in making me what i am today you will never hear my perfect truth and it would only disgust you if you did so don't ever bother to ask. It has taken many years but I'm now totally at peace with the person i have become i have no remorse or pity for the toys i play with and break i will bring you only pain and and myself only pleasure.
As you have probably realized at this point i am an unusual character and fittingly my specific kinks and peculiarities are varied and strange. As well as writing i have a interest in human behavior and psychology the cognitive sciences have always been of interest to me and have influenced the fetish side of my life heavily. The majority of what interests me can be broken down in to several groups that together encapsulate the kind of dominant woman i am:
- Brain washing
- Hypnosis
- Character reprogramming
- Micro control
- Ruination
- Degradation
- Behavior modification
- Extreme pain
- Dehumanization
- Objectification
- Dacryphilia
- T.P.E
- Limit removal
There are a few others here and there but most of what interests me in submission is comprised of one or more of the above list. Some of these terms might be new to you and i plan on expanding upon them in the journal section of my profile. More than anything i get off on control and fear and I'm expertly skilled in both knowing me can and will have an adverse and very noticeable affect on that trifling little thing you call your existence.
Foot notes:
A few final points to consider before i depart firstly i wont post pictures it should at this point be abundantly clear that you have no reason to see me nor do i have any interest in being seen. I have noticed a curious phenomenon on here which is the aptly titled "proof pic" it is not something i have any intention of doing more as a point of principle than anything else as i find the idea of needing to prove anything to the pathetic trash on this site to be the height of ridiculousness.
I will not argue with you at any time i am almost impossible to offend as a simple result of not valuing your convoluted "thoughts" and opinions whatsoever. Any messages of an inflammatory and deliberately provocative nature will be discarded and forgotten instantly. I will not rant about you publicly or complain to anyone you will simply be examined and discarded just like the rest.
My sexuality, i suppose, is lesbian in as much as i have never had any interest in having a penis anywhere inside my body ever. From a BDSM perspective however i consider myself bisexual and whilst i do undeniably prefer to play with little girls i do have the occasional interest in dominating boys. This is limited specifically to pretty young boys (18- 21) who are also struggling with the acceptance of their pitiful submissive natures. In such a case i admit i can take a degree of pleasure from tearing at the male ego and crushing a boys silly masculine pride. I am however almost unimaginably cruel to boys, it is punishment for them being so easy to control and manipulate, and every boy i have ever used has left with lasting scars both literal and psychological so be warned.
Finally we get to the biggest issue.......Money. Let me be clear i don't want it , at least not from you, i have everything i need and i certainly don't require any kind of contribution from the likest of you never offer me money under any circumstances i consider it the height of bad manners and will not be amused.
So that's about it i suppose i have done my best to frighten you away but some people really cant ever be taught can they little one?
"The difference between us is like the distance between Heaven and Earth, insurmountable"
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Ive always loved being in control that feeling of having a little pet doing exactly what shes told. Removing a persons will and desire and replacing it with your own is such a wonderful feeling but what i really love is micro control which in particular concentrates on an act that your pet would otherwise do as second nature and with out thought. The game works by reversing that concept and forcing them to concentrate on it in excruciating detail.
I find micro control to be a wonderful method of punishment as it gives you a huge amount of control over your pet and at the same time presents them with a constant challenge that is both difficult and potentially very boring. One thing i have never been able to stand is punishing a girl in a way that she enjoys a bad girl should, naturally, be punished but i believe that punishment should be something she hates to ensure the little slut behaves better in the future.
There follows one of several examples that i have had success with each one had a noticeable effect on the slut in question and ensured her behavior improved though i do sometimes like to instigate these rules as simple amusement for myself rather than to punish a particular misdeed.
Numbers are fun:
Did you know the average westerner takes approximately 4000 - 6000 individual steps per day? There is a good chance that you didn't and certainly don't keep track of the number you personally take per day that after all would be insanely O.C.D wouldn't it?
Now imagine not only having to count every single one but being given a quota for the day and when you reach it? No more moving for you slut. This is a fun way to control a pet as it will cause her to constantly think of how many steps it will take her to perform a certain task and will even force her to change her gait making her strides longer in a desperate attempt to preserve her step quota. This i think is reasonably cruel but naturally can be made much worse.
Harder version:
If you really want it to be hard on her give her a number that she must match EXACTLY a single step too few or too many and it starts over the next day and the next and the next until the slut understands who her feet belong to. This works best i think when the number is either very low or very high. Personally i like to go with the very high option the look on her face when you put her in high heels and say "24,697 now get walking slut" is, i promise you, utterly priceless. A good way to control this game is to attach a pedometer to your pet that has the screen obscured that way she must keep a mental note at all times and if her count and the pedometers count aren't the same at he end of the day? Well it looks like she hasn't learned her lesson after all perhaps she will do better tomorrow?
I have yet to find a girl who enjoys this as a form of punishment and that in itself is reason enough to do it. Enjoy hearing "thank you for owning my foot steps mistress" over and over and over. More to come |
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My favorite thing on this site? it would have to be the personal notes option you can build quite the portfolio of information up in a short while that and the "who's viewing me" which lets you know you have been watched and used without consent or even knowledge. |
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I plan on using these journals to, amongst other things, vent my thoughts, confess past cruelties, play games and create new methods and ideas of submission more to follow. |
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