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Ha Ha Tina, you shouldn't leave your sign in info up!  You're lucky I'm in a nice mood, I could make some crazy journal entries.

*Angela

I really don't like being scheduled for an hour lunch break when I have nothing to do for an entire hour.  I'm often asked here why did you leave the relationship you were in.  I remember exactly the moment I knew I would be leaving soon.  I cuddled up against him after some early morning, mostly vanilla sex.  She was gone on her yearly week long trip to visit her family.  I was totally enjoying having some time with just him and getting to sleep with him instead of in my own room where I usually slept. I cuddled tighter against him and whispered I love you and  He just chuckled and said you do huh?  I thought you understood I could never love you, she is my world..you are simply a tool to enhance our love. He continued explaining how he certainly felt affection for me....but I quit listening.   

Today in my tip jar at work there was a $50 bill with a note attached to it saying you would be really hot if you had bigger tits, here's $50 to start saving for breast implants.  At first I was soo mad, my breasts aren't here for his viewing pleasure. Then I realized, hey I have $50 of the jerk's money, who cares what he thinks.  

Sometimes finding patience is so hard to do!  I need to remind myself change takes time.

We all are a work in progress, always adapting, but inside, we are who we are.  You can change my opinion, change my behavior, even change my appearance, but you can't change who I am.

What a great workout at the gym today, I really worked up a sweat.  I have a secret crush on my trainer, so that added to the sweating.

Its going to take some getting used to, being single and alone.  I enjoy it most of the time, but there are times I miss them dearly..crave their company, their touch, long to hear their voices. Maybe I should just get a dog to cuddle with.