xdressinguglyguy

I'm old, fat, never been married. I have bad habits such as masterbating alone 5 times a day sometimes 10 when I'm not working and really bored. I cross dress and have a big stash of women's clothes (in XLLL sizes. I look like Mrs. Doubtfire Robin Williams when I'm all dressed up, but I wear a brown wig) I'm an ugly big bulky kind of guy with absolutely zero confidence in picking up nice looking ladies, so I go for the down and out women I can find underneath the bridge and in the dingy bars in Springfield where I hang out quite a bit. ye, I live to drink ALOT (tried AA and it don't work for me so I will probably get cirrhosis sooner or later. I have alcohol induced brain damage at this point but I can still function and work) and dress up like an ulgy hag of a woman with huge hanging grandma cow tits that hang low and I'm seeking a dominant woman/women to put me in my pathetic place. ye, I'm the kind of guy you would never take home to meet your parents and I'm a nasty son of a bitch in every sense of the word when you get right down to it.
here, I am looking for a brave woman/women to use me, abuse me, degrade me, spit on me, hit me, kick me, punch me, slap me, tell me what a lowly piece of white trash I am...KICK ME HARD, I will only beg you for more!
I am only good to be made fun of, stripped of my cash, and treated like a piece of dirty white trash because that's all I am.
I would love to meet a superior black woman/women or ANY women lesbians too, who can do this all to me. I will also submit to big black or white men who can show me what a little twit I am and punch me and choke me like my own father used to do to me when I was growing up. Military men with a serious sadistic streak are tops in my book. I wish I was at Abu Ghraib and got the shit kicked out of me by my superiors. sometimes I wish I was in prison and made to become a prison bitch and gang-raped nightly. I crave to be beaten by men or women. I especially like to be hit with a man's leather belt while being tied up and forced to stand next to a wall. I will pay for my torture. I will give anything to be tortured. anyone out there please respond!