1/16/2010 7:27:39 PM

Anyone want to just.. runaway and go on an adventure with me? lol. I have money, you have money.. lets be friends and just... go..

1/14/2010 4:34:45 AM

...Yeah.. Grow up before talking with me.. please.

1/13/2010 5:03:32 PM

So.. I've decided I'm giving up for now. Washington.. while I know there are a lot of good people up here.. I only seem to be coming across, mostly, people who aren't worth my time. I have chatted with, and met some really awesome people.. but my search right now has been almost fruitless. So.. if you are a Male Dom from California and possibly interested.. I'll be down there, in SoCal, next month.. and I would love to at least meet friends. If you are looking for me to submit the moment I step off the plane.. don't bother messaging me. I will take my time.. and I expect to learn, before we meet, whether or not we are compatible as far as our vanilla lifestyle/personalities, and the bdsm lifestyle, and what you expect of a sub. I won't settle for the first halfway decent guy I come across, that would be stupid :p But I would love to find a chill dom who can be my friend, lover, and control me. What I am not looking for: -Sexual gratification. I can get myself off if I need relief.. you gotta offer more than sex. -someone who has had little success with Vanilla relationships.. yeah, shit happens.. but if you're in your 30's and older.. and have never had a remotely 'successful' relationship.. I think you have other things to focus on rather than finding a sub to bring into your unstable lifestyle. -Internet play. Not my thing, I don't like it, don't ask. -someone who I have to interrogate in order to find out anything about them. One person should not dominate the conversation. If I feel like I'm talking to a wall.. it's a huge turn off and I'll lose interest before you know what happened. You gotta have a brain. Otherwise.. you should be hunting for the wiz, not a partner. -Someone who 'knows everything'. I want a guy who may, just may be, smarter than me.. but not someone who thinks they know everything, and have nothing left to learn. If you ain't dead, you ain't done learning, bitches. -A child. I'm sorry.. but.. lol, i wanna have kids someday.. but I can't be with someone who is less mature than myself. I don't want to play games, I want someone on my level, or higher man. (hey, some guys like silly girls like me :p ) -Someone who expects me to act like their sub from the moment we first talk. Respect must be given and earned, same with trust. I don't know you. I don't know how much of a Dom you really are.. and I sure as hell am not the kind of sub who bows to anything with 2 legs and a whip, thank you. With that being said lol.. California guys, bring it on. Washington boys, I'm sorry, good luck to those of you I have talked to.. and an extra best wishes to those who almost succeeded in making me lose faith in finding a good Dom. ;) Sincerely.. Brat.

1/6/2010 3:47:49 PM

I.. don't know the point of my previous blog lol. Just.. venting I suppose, getting my thoughts out.

1/6/2010 3:34:49 PM

I could Domme.. I know I could.. I could tell a man.. I could.. call him 'boy'.. I could look him straight in the eyes and demand he kneel before me. I could stand close to a female.. I think I would be harder on them.. and stare them down. Wait for her to look away, wait for that tiny sign of submission, and then tell her to kneel before me. I don't know how it is for experienced Dommes.. but I feel.. I would be more harsh on girls. Topping them.. is like.. proving my superiority as a woman. In survival of the fittest.. I would be one of the last women standing.. does it make no sense.. that I would prefer a strong man? I have always acknowleged submission as a choice. It is a sign of strength to me. Many people have desires.. but how many people will truly fight for them? How many people will truly put their trust in the person they hope will fulfill those desires? I have submitted once in real time. It took.. all of my will, and I still did not 100% submit. I am ashamed lol, but I admit it. I did not commit 100% to my submission, but, neither did my dom. When He betrayed that trust I offered him though.. it told me why I couldn't commit 100%. It seems to me.. so many people either take the lifestyle too seriously, or too lightly. Being in the lifestyle is a serious choice.. But many take the wrong parts too seriously while overlooking others more serious components of the lifestyle. Other people.. take it too lightly.. finding a sub or Dom/me is nothing like finding a booty call.. sexuality.. is..well.. sexy.. at the appropriate times. Drugs.. drinking..  and the lifestyle don't mix. I was almost always under the influence when I was with my former dom, as was he and another party that was involved.. People don't think right when they are high or drunk, it's a fact. And I am a partier lol. when someone puts that much trust in you.. it's like.. being asked to babysit.. would you really be intoxicated while you were being trusted with someones life and well being? You can be an expert with whips, or choking someone out.. but how much of an expert are you when you've had a few beers, or have smoked a joint? Other people.. are just.. overconfident and don't realize it. So.. you've been in the lifestyle for 5 years.. 6 years.. 3 years.. maybe only 2.. How much do you really know? How much do you honestly have to offer a partner? Are you really experienced enough to take a sub? Are you really sure enough of yourself to find a dom? Or.. are you in it for fantasy fulfillment? or Sexual Gratification? So many people, Dom, sub, switch.. don't know the answer to basic questions about themselves.. and it gets so old, and so frustrating. Nobody knows everything.. but we all should know something. if you realize roleplay/cybering/online submission/Domination is all you want.. be straightfoward about it. There are many.. MANY people who want the same thing. if you are married.. and inlove but seek kink and your partner doesn't know: BE STRAIGHT ABOUT IT. If you are kinky like SUPER KINKY. Chances are.. you aren't as kinky as you think (unless you really know you are, and when you know.. YOU KNOW. lol) But.. be straight forward, and confident about what you like and don't like.    Compromise is good.. but too much compromise comes off as desperation. In the end.. I feel.. with the exception of some rare individuals.. People have lost the concept of having 'game'. The world, the internet, relationships.. are survival of the fittest.. at least that's what I think. You have to be the best, to get the best.

12/28/2009 8:56:59 PM

This is a site I found while talking to a friend.. well worth the read for anyone starting out, dom, switch, or sub! <3 http://www.xeromag.com/fvbdwanttobedom.html

12/26/2009 10:35:30 PM

someone.. invited me to chat just now, I didn't see it soon enough. Invite me again!

12/26/2009 8:57:03 PM

I officially... Challenge all dommes in the Pacific Northwest, and southern California to train me. By train I mean.. I prefer to be submissive, but I have some Domme tendencies.. I want a big sis, especially a full figured woman, to teach me how to be confident, and strong. I am a princess who wants to serve a strong, confident Queen. I think.. this could prove to be interesting and fun.. I can serve as a sub, while also being a Domme in training.. I will love you forever if you accept this challenge lol.

11/6/2009 4:26:59 AM

I love smosh. smosh.com if you love silly comedy.

11/6/2009 4:22:45 AM

I <3 the Romanians on here.. friendly. bummer.. that so many of the beautiful girls seem fake..

11/6/2009 4:22:26 AM

I <3 the Romanians on here.. friendly. bummer.. that so many of the beautiful girls seem fake..

11/6/2009 3:34:19 AM

don't get me wrong though.. I love my country... just not the guys with one track minds.. Come on... where are the well rounded.. sexy Americans? Not just the horny ones XD

11/6/2009 3:28:19 AM

Haha, I'm enjoying things this time around already... maybe... not looking for americans was a good start :p haha. I kid I kid.. kinda

11/6/2009 2:43:42 AM

So... I'm back, again. Hooray? hehe. I'm looking.. mainly for friends now. But you never know where things go.. if your interests are sparked. I'm not here... to be a camera whore.. or to submit to the first Dom/Domme that demands it. I want to have fun, learn new things.. Fun above all though ;)