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About x3Wishes
Currently working on developing a poly/BDSM house hippie commune thing. I've already met and experienced some WONDERFUL people in the kink scene and have two loving Owners, all of us being devout believers in ethical, open, and honest polyamory.
"We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars."
Hi there everyone : ). I am 3Wishes, but you may call me Justin, or by my sissy name, Caitlynn. I guess I should say, on that note, that I'd prefer if you didn't address me as your slave in your introductory message. Yes I am submissive, and I'm good at it, but I have the basic human dignity to choose who I submit to : P.
Anyway, I'm 22, though I am often found acting younger in a fetish setting, as I have a huge love for ageplay and infantilism. It goes hand in hand with my craving for feminization. I have an adult boy side that I am not willing to give up completely though, even if I think I could for the right owner. I enjoy make-up, diapers, dresses, but I also enjoy the androgyny of my life and the ability to take off my eyeliner and put on a tie and be a man.
I have a love of art and poetry that is the core of my soul, and the primary motivator of my life. I have studied classical music composition and am trained on the piano and am fluent in English, Mandarin, and Korean. My most satisfying vanilla night is normally spent indoors with a cold beer, a pen and paper, and some of my favorite music. Right now I'm really drawn towards Frederico Mompou. He is intoxicating, but some of my favorite composers personally are Satie and Debussy, although I also get all tingly listening to some of the more avant-garde composers blending classical roots with electronica. Other vanilla interests include swimming, running, nutrition, TRYING to learn to draw, photography, and cooking.
I'm also a nerd. A huge nerd. I used to play a ton of video games, and still do from time to time, but I found I can't waste a day in front of a controller without feeling unproductive any more. I love certain new titles but have a huge hard-on for retro gaming (which for me, means SNES and NES mainly). I also love board games and card games, mainly Magic the Gathering, although I've always wanted to try out some of the more complicated games like Dungeons and Dragons and it's ilk. I am not too too into Sci-Fi or Fantasy media itself though, although I have nothing against it. I love strategy games like chess, 象棋, and things like Stratego. I also love puzzles, and have a slightly embarrassing Rubik's Cube collection.
I am a professional just shy of his bachelor's degree with an associate in Asian Studies (it's complicated how I got that), though I can't go into too many details about my job. It's generally the sort of thing I can only let people know about slowly, though I'm trying to get out of it and into more overt work. Still, it's above-board and makes me a pretty penny, and I am still furthering my education.
I like to drink, but rarely enjoy the sensation of being drunk. I have about a beer a day, though it's not rare for me to have two. I have tried recreational drugs and still do from time to time, although I have never tried anything "hard" and don't exactly want to. I just enjoy the feeling of some of the newer synthetic substances in moderation with plenty of safety, knowledge, and discipline.
As a sub., my two biggest turn-ons are ageplay and gender bending. I have a butt-plug and love it. I have lots of experience as a submissive for both genders. I also enjoy toilet-play, bondage, sensory deprivation, cumplay, sissification, hypnosis, petplay, collars, branding, knifeplay, beatings, spit, strap-ons, anal, public play, severe humiliation, peril-play, breathplay, watersports, scat, rimming (giving), oral service, feet, pits, corsets, enemas, speech restrictions, choking, slapping, queening, bloodplay, spanking, diapers, role-playing, games, punishment, discipline, rules, golden showers, "forced" bi, and fear.
As I said I have not yet released my boy persona, and as of now switch in-between genders a lot when subbing. If I was with the right owner/s who desired me to become a full sissy though, I think I would be okay with that. I would never undergo surgery though, and hormones are AS FAR AS I WOULD GO AT THIS POINT. I would consent to a 24/7 babygirl environment.
As I indicated in my profile I am also willing to relocate. I believe I am a special and unique submissive and I have a lot to offer to the right person, but most people wouldn't know what to do with me. Fetishes wouldn't be so taboo if everyone enjoyed them, would they? I am nearing the end of my current job and once that is done will have complete freedom to relocate anywhere I desire to continue my education, and if I found the right person anywhere who made me feel the way I have felt as a submissive before I am sure that spot would be right next to them.
Well, that's all I can think to say for right now, send me a message? I promise to make an effort to reply to every message I get, even if it's just to say no.
Thank you for reading!
3Wishes/Little Caitlynn. |
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begin
waiting for the snow to fall in Florida
breath held
heart held
brain bated
your soul bound to the earth by dictionaries.
she flew away many nights ago
impatient
and freezing. |
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i can’t breathe when I don’t feel beautiful.
girls put their fingers on my closed lips
like the antennae of
heartless animals.
i am afraid to be here.
wandering drunk and half naked
which is what I call my skirt when I feel
trashy enough to smoke out behind the apartment
then and only then
i really breathe it deep into my lungs
feeling beautiful
the smoke is a
black seed among my black seeds
all trying to sprout into
yellow roses
through some miracle. |
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I don't remember spit as being quite so thick was all I could think, brain already half broken and lying somewhere between the spanking and the now slowly releasing fingers around my neck. But it was Master's, and her words, to plant her spit between my lips forever, were wholly unnecessary, for there was no singular collection of atoms in the universe, even the stars, at that moment, that meant more to me than the taste of her. The cuffs were as unrelenting as my heart, beating so loudly that I should have been able to hear it piercing the black anvil of the blindfold, but instead it was her voice in both ears at once, astonishingly: "Good Girl." |
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I ordered devious Christmas presents for those close to me.
It's hard, because I know that they'll just come back to hurt me <3.
Also, finally got new pictures up. |
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