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I have been in the lifestyle for over 6 years now. I know exactly what i'm looking for. i know what is a good match for me. i know what kind of D/s relationship i seek. I am here for a ltr. No married men. No attached men. By day I have a normal professional job, but when I come home and let my hair down, my wild, vividly sensual and creative imagination takes over…. I'm attractive, intelligent and grounded & inside my sexy little brain is this alternative personality screaming at me nightly. …a princess by day, and for the right man, a naughty little slut by night. Throw in some great bondage and I’m your girl. LoL I realize now there is no going back to the vanilla sexual environment I was so bored with. I confess I'm probably more like 60/40 towards vanilla in most aspects of my life.....But there is more to life than just missionary and doggy style. Not to mention not enough appreciation for a truly deserved (or not ) spanking and how to execute one properly. When in a safe, secure and trusting environment, I'm a dream come true given my addiction for oral...

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2/1/2012 4:40:05 PM

if You are interested in talking to me... please include a picture... if you cannot,  don't email asking to meet... the answer is no thank you not at this time.  :)


1/16/2012 8:32:53 PM

“The quickest way to receive love is to give; 
the fastest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly; 
and the best way to keep love is to give it wings.”


1/11/2012 4:06:08 AM

After Awhile, You Learn...

by Veronica A. Shoffstall

After some time you learn the difference,
The subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul.


And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning,


And company doesn't always mean security.


And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts,


And presents aren't promises.


And you begin to accept your defeats,


With your head up and your eyes ahead,


With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child.


And you learn to build all your roads on today,
Because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans,


And futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.

After a while you learn,


That even the sun burns if you get too much,


And learn that it doesn't matter how much you do care,
Some people simply don't care at all.


And you accept that it doesn't matter how good a person is,


He will hurt you once in awhile And you need to forgive Him for that.


You learn that talking can relieve emotional pain.


You discover that it takes several years to build a relationship based on confidence,


And just a few seconds to destroy it.


And that you can do something just in an instant,


And which you will regret for the rest of your life.


You learn that the true friendships,


Continue to grow even from miles away.


And that what matters isn't what you have in your life,


But who you have in your life.


And that good friends are the family,
Which allows us to choose.



You learn that we don't have to switch our friends,
If we understand that friends can also change.


You realize that you are your best friend,


And that you can do do anything, or nothing,
And have good moments together.


You discover that the people who you most care about in your life,


Are taken from you so quickly,


So we must always leave the people who we care about with loving words,


It may be the last time we see them.


You learn that the circumstances and the environment have influence upon us,
But we are responsible for ourselves.


You start to learn that you should not compare yourself with others,


But with the best you can be.


You discover that it takes a long time to become the person you wish to be,


And that the time is short.


You learn that it doesn't matter where you have reached,


But where you are going to.


But if you don't know where you are going to,


Anywhere will do.



You learn that either you control your acts,


Or they shall control you.


And that to be flexible doesn't mean to be weak or not to have personality,

Because it doesn't matter how delicate and fragile the situation is,


There are always two sides.


You learn that heroes are those who did what was necessary to be done,
Facing the consequences.
You learn that patience demands a lot of practice.
You discover that sometimes,


The person who you most expect to be kicked by when you fall,


Is one of the few who will help you to stand up.


You learn that maturity has more to do with the kinds of experiences you had

And what you have learned from them,

 Than how many birthdays you have celebrated.



You learn that there are more from your parents inside you than you thought.

You learn that we shall never tell a child that dreams are silly,


Very few things are so humiliating,

And it would be a tragedy if you believed in it.
You learn that when you are angry,


You have the right to be angry,
But this doesn't give you the right to be cruel.


You discover that only because someone doesn't love you the way you would like him to,


It doesn't mean that this person doesn't love you the most he can,
Because there are people who love us,


But just don't know how to show or live that.


You learn that sometimes it isn't enough being forgiven by someone,


Sometimes you have to learn how to forgive yourself.
You learn that with the same harshness you judge,


Some day you will be judged.



You learn that it doesn't matter in how many pieces your heart has been broken,

The world doesn't stop for you to fix it.


You learn that time isn't something you can turn back,


Therefore you must plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.


And you learn that you really can endure.


You really are strong.


And you can go so farther than you thought you could go.


And that life really has a value.


And you have value within the life.
And that our gifts are betrayers,


And make us lose
 the good we could conquer,
If it wasn't for the fear of trying.

 


12/31/2010 11:23:19 AM

Deep within the recesses of our being is who we really are. After many years of experiences, habits & influences, both good and bad, we find ourselves to a point of acceptance and denial. Some reference this as baggage… some people have a huge trunk and others a small carryon. For me and mine, I think its somewhere in between those and apparently its heavier than I wanted to admit.    

Part of my growth in my alternative life is to be the best submissive I was born to be… its part of my inner core of where I feel the safest and most happy. I’ve known for years that this is who I am but again years of experiences have clouded over the inner beauty that we all have and aspire to….When we make a conscious decision to make changes in our life for personal or relationship reasons, there needs to be a time of understanding acceptance and accountability. It’s good to have someone that you are accountable to… hard as it is to admit faults and flaws its extremely cathartic when the person who walks with you is compassionate, patient, understanding and loving. When the world outside the dungeon is crazy nasty and awful, we put on our amour and face it. 

Within a D/s sanctuary it’s only Your inner core, no walls, no facades only exposure of the purist kind. 

Nakedness. 
Vulnerability. 

Servitude. 
Love.

 


11/11/2009 10:08:48 AM
This is part of a friends profile... He's in cali and this is so right on topic. Probably why i moved to the south lol SOUTHERN DADDY First the southern concept, families in the south have been calling the man of the house Daddy, since there was a south. Its Old School at its best, this thinking is a sign of earned respect, given to one responsible for the life, behavior and discipline of an entire family. Daddy is firm and fair, but also metes out justice as seen fit. The concept of the woodshed, may come into some peoples fantasies, where Daddy took his belt out and made the shameful little girl drop her pants to receive the belt. The south is known for a few things, but often the most prevalent is the attitude of the women, where the phrase "cook in the kitchen and whore in the bedroom" was coined. A great phrase if there was one. One I have always heard said with pride. The better the cook, the bigger the whore, the better the woman. Old School thinking. The best of Daddies Girl subs are often successful and strong, other traits of the southern women is strength and defiance. She may be submissive to her MAN, but to no one else. I always enjoy that luxury as a Dom, she would prefer to take on the battles so that he can take on the wars. She will be feisty and once in a while you gotta take her down or even to the wood shed, but after she gets the belt in the woodshed with her wrists tied to the rafters with old rope, she needs her Daddy to take out that passion on her ass. In the end, as far as southerners go, Daddy is a term of endearment and respect. In the end, being a Daddy is knowing responsibility, teaching those you are charged with about life, in the BDSM Daddy role you have this and so much more. It is often a position of great generosity and great pleasures.

11/10/2009 4:57:29 PM
A friend sent this article to me today after reading my previous entry. I didn't write this, but I do find it very relevant and informative. And maybe - just maybe - it may help someone out there.... Red Flags for Kinky People: 1) Tries to separate you from your friends, family or BDSM community. 2) Avoids talking about personal details. Gets mad when you ask or quickly ends the conversation or answers questions with questions. 3) Has no BDSM references or friends you can talk to. 4) Gets angry when you ask for references or ask around about them. 5) Is inconsistent with details about themselves. 6) Does not give you their home and work phone number at the appropriate time. 7) Only communicates with you at strange hours and gets mad if you try to contact them at other times. 8) Criticizes the BDSM community and refuses to participate, especially if they never were part of it. 9) Consistently breaks promises. 10) Always finds excuses for not meeting. 11) Always puts blame on others for things going wrong. 12) Does not take personal responsibility. 13) Has bad relationships with most or all of their family members. 14) Pressures you into doing things you do not want to do. 15) Does not respect your limits, negotiations or contracts. 16) Pushes you into a D/s relationship too fast. 17) Falls in love with you way too fast and swears undying love before even meeting you. 18) Hides behind their D/s authority and says that their authority should not be questioned. 19) Tries to make you feel guilty for not being good enough. Says that you?re not a "True" sub. 20) Loses control of their emotions in arguments & regresses to yelling, name-calling & blame. 21) Puts you down in front of other people. 22) Turns instantly on their friends, going from best friend to arch enemy at the drop of a hat. 23) Treats you lovingly and respectfully one day and then harshly & accusingly the next. 24) Goes to great lengths to get revenge on people. 25) Lies or withholds information. Cheats on you or is overly jealous. 26) Will not discuss what your possible future relationship could be like. 27) Tries to keep you in the dark about what might happen next in the relationship. 28 Does not respect your feelings, rights, or opinions. 29) Belittles your ideas. 30) Blames you for your hurt feelings. 31) Abuses alcohol or other drugs. 32) Is constantly asking for large amounts of money from you or others. 33) Threatens suicide or other forms of self-harm. 34) Deliberately saying or doing things that result in getting themselves seriously hurt. 35) Monitors your communications (emails, phone calls, chats) with others. 36) Only interacts with you in a kinky or sexual manner as if role-playing. 37) Will not have normal everyday vanilla conversations. 38 Never shows you their human side. Is emotionless. Hides their vulnerability behind their D/s role. 39) Has multiple online identities for interacting with the same communities. 40) Disappears from communication for days or weeks at a time without explanation. 41) Is rude to public servants such as waitresses, cashiers and janitors. 42) Never says thank you, excuse me or I am sorry to anyone.

11/1/2009 10:18:15 AM
i Love Fall :)

11/19/2008 1:58:19 PM
11-19-08  i cannot beleive that another year is about to cum to an end. wow... so much changes in a course of a year.  Where i thought i would be and where i am are two totally different worlds... the economy is not helping my goals and aspirations at all.  lol 


as some already know as of September i am a free un collared woman. Knowing this separation was cuming....it was planned to end in Dec... only i asked to have the date moved up to September so that i may start my own journey of seriously finding "the One" that fits me completely.


This is no easy task given that i'm a social girl but not a community whore.  in this lifestyle i think there is this expectation to "take it out for a spin" lmao ok whatever.... please.  i don't know where i fit in in the lifestyle but i know where i don't want to be.  i have been given a taste of what i want.  unfortunately those tastes were just the appetisers... now can someone bring on the entree????

Strong in character does not translate to mean bull in china shop.  i've been in the this lifestyle now for 5 years (and 2 Doms later).  i know exactly what i want... and its not some random man introducing himself via email then barking orders.  this journey takes time, patience and a certain level of humility.  i want a man who is experienced but is willing to start with me as if its day one... level one.... i want to build up to where You left off .... make sense?

i want to be owned, married, loved, complete.

i know You're out there... i can feel Your breathe down the back of my neck.... i'm waiting patiently to hear Your whispers.

6/11/2008 11:46:52 AM
6.11.08 LUCKY -  Over the weekend i decided to hit a local festival here in town.  Much to my joy and happiness there was a Henna booth at the Fair.  Two lil people from California had come to share their talents and this beautiful body art, for a small fee of course.  i do so love Henna, it can be enhanced, changed, or simply left to fade away and dissappear completely in about 2-3 weeks.  NO regrets of a night less traveled you'd like to forget or a relationship that ends but where the ink turns out was more permanent.

The decision was timely; i perused the samples book of examples of the typical ying/yang, Zodiac symbols, traditional weddinig hand work & and Chinese letters or characters.  Since my Sifu recently had his shoulder marked permanently, i have secretly craved a marking for myself.  On a recent trip to Hawaii i found myself ogling over some amazing intricate and stunning tats i have ever seen.  Paying many a compliment to the proud owners of such amazing body art, each one telling a story; Happy, Sad, Good & Bad.  Unfortunately here and now nothing in the samples book was speaking to me, no symbol jumped from the page screaming "yes this is the one you want!"  But i kept returning to the chinese character page.

i have traveled many times to China for business and leisure, WOW what an entirely different world. Smells sights and sounds.  Also i am attempting to learn Mandarin, and just when i think i'm doing fine i go to speak in my new tongue and i'm blatantly laughed at.  Miss Manners does not have school in Shanghai or Beijing.  So i'm lost in translation and trying very hard still... i'm impressed mostly i think with the characters themselves each one has a sound a meaning or story to tell. They are the art.

There was something in this adventure that i was about to undertake that was always grounded in what would please my Sifu firstly.  i respect and understand that this body is His.  Great care is always given when prepping myself for Him and service.  So placement and choice were critical for sure.  First i thought my lower back for His eyes only but it was just way too hot to work with the Henna there.  So the final location was chosen; just above the right breast.  With the intention of adding to the other breast the next night.  This way i could maintain the Henna initially.  i could see it everyday as a reminder, i could cover it for work and be proud of it when baring myself for Him.  The bonus is being naked and exposed before Him i would be able to peak up from my downward gaze and hopefully cetch an approving smile.  That sweet jolt of pride or accomplishment in a mere glimpse of a smile from my Sifu.

So lastly i made the choice of what character to get.  it wasn't really between a final two, it was more about getting one now and finishing it with His name the next night.  Personalizing my body even more for my Sifu. 

Secretly i have envied the subs, slaves & sluts that have been marked with Sharpies with phrases like Fuck hole with an arrow to the ass, slap here, my whore, bitch etc.  There is something intimate in being marked, especially if its FOR someone else's pleasure too.  As the collar is a symbol of the ownership, the marking is a further action of that ownership and trust.  The bond.  My Sifu was not with me at the time, He did not ask this of me, yet i was drawn to do this for Him and His approval. 

i chose the Chinese symbol for LUCKY.  Now i didn't know this at the time but LU - the symbol means prosperity.  Lu is the God of high rank affluence, he sometimes holds a small child symbolizing wishes of healthy offspring's good fortune and hope of the future and the present.  He is also seen at times holding a scepter of power and affluence, Lu symbolized the opportunity to better ones self and receive High Rewards.  The Chinese character symbol means official's salary, prosperity or good fortune in the country of China.

Funny how fate plays a role in life.  This choice unbeknownst to me was a perfect one.  This symbol represents many facets of my personality, wishes and dreams.  Hope of the future and present, opportunities to better myself through training, and seeking High Rewards from my Sifu through unconditional submission and service of the highest level.  i have good fortune in my Sifu, which equals High Reward... i am a LUCKY lil girl.

4/6/2008 11:28:33 AM
4.06.08 - Into the groove... 

The biggest challenge to overcome for me is when i am being summoned to serve & i'm just not in the mood.  lmao given i'm a nympho & masochist, He will read this and laugh, hell it may garner a good beating for disclosing too much. 

But everytime i work through the lack of motivation to serve and be trained its in that groove that i am happy i am there and serving.  i forget how i moaned about having to get ready, i forget how i thought to myself ugh i'm not up for this, i forget how i almost said no.  lol

NO its in this groove that i find my true self and love it.

Its in the groove that i forget all that matters and let go.

Its in the groove that i don't want to leave.

As i'm secured tightly & spread properly, its in this moment i hear the sounds of my bondage.  The clinking & snapping of metal rings, i know what is expected of me.  Its the ultimate in Pavlov theory.... and i am wet. 

He knows my threshold but pushes me farther, He sees my body responding and He knows.  It only takes a few words from His deep voice and i am moved to stay there in that moment.  The outcum is greater than we both know & we grow from that experience.  We are spent and happy. 

There is still so much to learn as a subserviant lil girl, i thrive to do my best.  Its in that groove i find myself understanding the true meaning to serve & i'm so much better off in learning more about this gift i carry. It also becomes easier to be motivated to be with you serving whenever i can.   Thank you for another great lesson Sir.

1/5/2008 8:45:42 AM
1.01.08 - i so enjoy the roughness and edginess of play... to push the boundaries and limits of someone is so powerful.  During play the mind is racing, i ask myself over and over how much can i take for Him? Can i really give Him all he desires of me? He knows my body, the way it speaks to Him... i giggle when i think of "safe words".  Its not necessary, He senses where the edge of my pain threshold is.  this body that belongs to Him cries out for more and screams for Him to let up just a lil at times.  i want to please Him, i want to show Him how far i would go for Him if He'd ask, this is my gesture of respect for Him.  i love when He throws me up against the wall and has His way with me, making me feel all meek and doe-like. my big-blue-fucking-liquid-eyes make Him lick his lips like the strong powerful Wolf He is. and god, i love the way He hunts me down like the fucking submissive little girl i am.  His voice shudders through my body and i am mesmerized.  in a trance but so lucid to the moment of being there with Him. i serve Him at will, whatever He wishes.

lol one of my favorites is the moment immediately after on the floor amongst the toys, tools & furniture, caressing, re-living and talking about the journey and adventure we just took together.  They are initmate moments that mean just as much to me as do my actions towards Him that show how much i enjoy serving Him.

3/10/2007 6:43:05 AM
3-10-07   The four greatest words spoken from Him... I love My toy.  While we are apart the flame insdie me glows and grows yearning to please Him so.  He is my light, He is my source of happiness.  His kisses sooth the marks he's made on His new toy.  He has such great control and awareness always in the lead and always leading me into places i didn't know i could go.  He is the explorer, the designer, the one who knows His toy inch by inch, seeking those glorious buttons in which to push.  He asks for my trust and it is His.  He asks for my honesty and i gladly disclose all.  He asks for my loyalty and i am His.  It is He that i answer to and He that gladly submit my all. i will always be Your good girl. Thank You Sir.  ;)

2/28/2007 12:29:15 PM
2-28-07  my lesson is patience.  Patience is the ability to endure waiting, delay, or provocation without becoming annoyed or upset, or to persevere calmly when faced with difficulties. 
i have learned i am able to perservere calmly when faced with difficulties its enduring the waiting and delay without provocation that i fail miserably.  i am equal to a teenager who does not have patience to wait for a surprise or big moment.  The pushing for action does not deter Him.  He maintains control of me still at all times.   

while i'm being considered and fitted for my collar, i am being taught the simplest of things.  Patience is my first and probably not my last lesson.  as well as most important. my fault is that i am such an eager beaver to serve Him i cannot wait patiently for Him to call me to Him for that priviledge.  Oh how i ache to give Him all of me all at once.  there in lies the problem.  The journey is not about all at once.  And while He maintains open lines of communication at all times for His lil sunshine and He reinforces with words His gratitude in having me on His side, He keeps me under control.  Pacing me for His own pleasure.  building the anticipation when i am His again in the naked flesh.  i didn't realize how far 12 miles really is.  Thank You Sir for the small lessons You teach me everyday.  i am Yours.

2/24/2007 7:20:26 AM

2-24-07  Giving in to His forces i am naked before him exposing my body & all humanly flaws possible.  He is not deterred, He is determined to make me His.  To bend me to His will.  To show me His ways.  To  negotiate whatever needs negotiation as long as it's to His satisfaction. To take me by the hand and lead me into His world.  He brings out the best in me.  He encourages me to take more just for Him...He is real and grounded and i am His for as long as He will have me please Him. ;)


2/22/2007 10:24:23 PM

2-23-07   No expectations no regrets.  To come to the table as a clean slate...(helps to have some experience i think tho lol)  To be upbeat & be happy in the moment.  To be accepted for who i am and who i am about to become in His service.  To be on a journey, an expedition to the far reaches of the mind and body.  From that first touch to that first time He understands what makes me tick. It's All there ahead, ready and waiting for the right moment in time when i gladly give up, give out & give in.  He will know by the look in my eyes as He takes His new flogger to me one more time.


11/20/2006 10:05:55 AM
Need to clairify a few things on my profile to save some of you the time and energy of emailing....

I DO NOT TOP MEN.  I AM NOT LOOKING FOR A MALE SUB. 

Male dominants and fem subs only email.  Thanks

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 Age: 36
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