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~Of reckless grace, decadent abandon and purity of the highest degree~
If you're here just for sex, we have nothing in common. Of course hot steamy sex is wonderful, but building a life around sex never works out.
My whole life is integrated. I don't believe that submission or dominance is something that can be shut on and off.
I was taught long ago, that even submissives and slaves have minds of their own and in order to expand their knowledge of life and lessons, they get to speak their minds... respectfully of course.
I am often told that I am a complex creature, elusive and aloof...but I'm rather reserved really - I take my time getting to know people, I do not rush into any thing. If you want to meet me after just a few emails, it may be arranged, though I really like to get to know someone as best you can in emails, prior to face to face. Different things, not just what people prefer to as *lifestyle* stuff, especially since I don't believe that there is a difference for me... it's all intertwined.
The quickest way for me to lose interest in you in the beginning..is to ask me questions like, what are your limits, what sexual acts do you like, what are your hard limits, just to let you in a bit, I don't believe in hard limits, I believe in limitations, things I have never done and would like to and things I have done but didn't like, though would do them again to please the one that owns me... then there are things I will *never* do - which for me are hard limits - just don't ask what they are in the first 5 minutes of talking.
I like to learn about vanilla things that one likes and how they seperate vanilla from *BDSM*...
I am an unpossesed slave, mother of two beautiful children, 43 year old scooter tramp, currently in Las Vegas, Nv and willing and wishing to relocate, preferably back east,though other states close to there would be nice too - I like seasons and I love the snow, not much snow in Vegas and the only seasons we have here are hot and hotter.
I do not identify as submissive. I am slave. If you believe that means *mindless doormat* once again I respectfully request you do not waste my time or yours. What you will find with me is a loyal, devoted, honorable woman with integrity, strength and honesty.
I am a published author and stuck with writers block as I try to write a book... I am a mixture of zen and tao, among other things, I do not practice orthodox religion, unless meditating each days falls under that catagory. I believe that people are put into your life for a reason, no matter how long they may stay, there are lessons to learn from all.
I search for the one that will touch my soul, hold me in his hands and let me soar. One I can grow old with, thus my taking my time to get to know someone. My heart has been broken before and so, I am giving this one more chance... while it seems to be more peaceful to be alone, I seek the man that will walk through the storm with me, only to come out stronger together when it ends.
I'd love to meet a man that is not married, that is emotionally available, self supporting, loves kids and pets. No games, no one night stands...
I'm keenly aware of when games are being played.. if that's your thing, please stay away from me. Life is too short to waste time on game players.
I love men that are over 6ft, I love bald heads, but of course having hair is great too. I enjoy movies, reading, riding both motorcyles and horses,camping, fishing, outdoors stuff. I would love to find someone that is compatible in most of those areas.... did I tell you I love to ride bitch on a harley? :) I also love to spoon, just for the intimacy and then what ever leads to that afterwards. Eventually, I would like to marry again, grow old with the love of my life, sitting on rocking chairs on the front porch of a home that sits in the mountains - close enough to a lake or river, but I'd settle for a stream running through the back or front yard. I love water, including the ocean.
I love Karaoke, singing is a passion of mine and even if the man who comes into my life doesn't like to sing, I would hope that he would take me out so I could belt my heart out. .
If you've gotten this far, then I suspect or hope that you will write me and tell me about you... and...
Yes, that is my picture on this site, taken last year, no Lea is not my birth name, but everyone other than my family calls me Lea. (pronounced Lee-Ahh)
Please be serious if you are going to contact me. That is a big MUST.
~She is the lighthouse, waiting patiently for the storm... When it comes, the storm pulls her away. Her only peace, is in the chaos of the tormenting storm. She shines brightly in her yearning, for the storm to find her
and sweep her out in a sea of emotion,
touching the fire that burns within her soul.
lea - copyright 2003
Please note: I am not a barbie type figured woman. I am a full figured, beautiful, compassionate woman, not ashamed of who and what I am, on the inside or the outside. I have children and I have pets and we are a packaged deal. And btw - my eyes are blue, not green :)
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While I am looking for a D/s relationship - please read my profile completely... I have children, which keeps me from being tied up all the time (realistically, how many people are really tied up all day long?) I also am not one that will be abused... if you are looking for, as one has written me, someone to rape and abuse - keep looking. Rape scenes are one thing, to think that you can keep me locked up for days on end and/or abuse me.. is not reality, not in my world. What shall I do with the kids while I am locked up in a closet? Duh!
This site really attracts a lot of losers and idiots... too bad they feel the need to flock towards me.
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I'm taking a break from this site and others that I might have an ad up on...
To much going on in my life right now with my grandmother dying and my kids need more focus on them -
If I have not returned your emails, I apologize - there's just way to many things happening in my life right now for me to even begin to think about having a relationship.. hopefully that will change soon, only the heavens know. |
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I'm giving this site till the end of Novemeber a chance... then I am done. Seems like everyone is the same on here.. or is it me?
I don't think my expectations are too high, an intelligent dominant man who doesn't lie, cheat.. has honor, is respectful, can hold a conversation online, on the phone and in person. Who's looking for a slave that is devoted, loyal and dependable, among other things.
I'm tired of the liars, of the Oh I want you so bad and then poof they are gone.. once again, that's not dominance.. I think there are more game players here than anything. |
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I've come to the conclusion that 99.9% of the people on these sites are fakes, wannabe's and well... quite frankly liars.
I've clearly stated what I'm looking for, I've been concise in what I am not looking for, yet people continue to want to waste my time and theirs. How productive is that really?
If you can't be real - then don't contact me. And, I'll say it again - do NOT strike up a conversation with me, claim to want me, then disappear into the blue.... I won't be nice, in fact, I'll call you on your bs quicker than you can say - Dominant. Because doing that, makes you not dominant, just another loser looking for a cheap thrill, one you won't get from me. |
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This weekend, Ms World Leather is in Vegas. I am part of the press corps, so if you write me and I do not return your email immediately, know that I am busy working. Yes, working - even with this broken foot I will be working.
Someone has to.
As for this site, I've decided to give it one more month here. I've met some nice people, but most here don't seem very sincere. If you want to get to know me, than I suspect you'd take the opportunity to get to know me, rather than ask me "what are you into"(bdsm) or tell me that I am the one for you but don't contact me other than every 3 weeks or so...
Heh. There's better things for me to do then waste my time. |
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heh.
I'm out of commission for a while. Broke my foot at one of the casinos here after visiting a friend who came unexpectantly from out of town. I like being with him, though I don't think I could ever submit to him... I did however submit to a piece of plywood laying in the middle of the pathway at the hotel...
So, if I don't get back to you right away, it's cause I've been ordered to bed rest - lovely thing for someone who has much to do and places to be... |
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Apparently, I sound like a bitter person in my journal...
Couldn't be further from the truth, though I am tired of the game players on these sites.
I just happen to be a woman who knows what she needs and wants and isn't willing to settle for less then. Why should I?
I may not be a thin woman, which seems to be what most here are looking for, but I am an intelligent, loyal, devoted, passionate and more - it that's not good enough because of my outer shell - then it's your loss, not mine. |
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Holy moly...
I can't believe the mail I have gotten in just the one day that I became *available* again...
No, I don't want you to call me just because you wrote one sentence to me here. No, I don't want to move tomorrow, just because you think I am your one and only...
I'm still licking my wounds - having thought I found someone who was the real thing, only to find out that he didn't even have the balls to CALL me and discuss us not going further... yet I still miss him, his voice, his kindness (or was that fake kindness?) - and it's going to take someone very dominant and patient to get half as far with me as he did.
I know, most people jump right into the fire again - I am not most people. I don't believe in going from one to the other - especially after believing I was someones... I wonder now, if it was some kind of game..
Do you want a mindless doormat or someone that can sit down and discuss Descartes or Pascal with you? If it's the first one, don't even bother with me - I'm far from a mindless doormat and I don't just *submit* because you say you are dominant. |
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I hate to write things like this, just as much as I hate to read them...
I *thought* I was building a relationship, as it turns out - it was only one sided... mine. I'm very good at picking from the dysfunctional side of the line of men, so I won't be picking again..
Suggestion: Prior to calling someone, especially one who is slave, *Yours*, think long and hard about what you are doing. Slaves have a different mindset then vanilla people and even most submissives. We become *yours*....
Suggestion: When building a relationship with someone - don't just drop them on their heads to fend for themselves, especially slaves. The sight isn't a pretty one.
Suggestion: If you want to play games, do it elsewhere - I'm not in the mood and I won't be graceful and dignified the next time I come across someone like that.
Read my profile, read my journal - take your time, as I will with anyone that contacts me... slave doesn't mean I have to bow down to anyone that claims to be *master* - don't expect me to. I am strong, devoted, loyal woman, a warrior when called for and a little girl when inspired.
Peace,
Lea
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How odd it is when you quit looking, you seem to meet up with what you were searching for...
I don't know where it will go from here - beginning stages and all that jazz, but it's important to me to give my all and see where it leads.
For those of you that have written me, may the Universe bless you with what you seek.
Peace,
Lea |
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Once again, I find myself at a crossroads. Where do I go from here. I'm really tired of searching - so there's my answer....
I'm done.
May you find peace wherever you can, may life treat you like you deserve and may your dreams, desires and soul be fed and kept safe.
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Don't waste my time, or yours, if you think I am a dominant woman, not submissive, not a slave. I don't need to read your misconceptions of what a slave should or shouldn't be.
Don't contact me, talk to me for weeks, then out of the blue stop talking to me. At least have the courtesy to say we are not a fit - I would and I don't have balls.
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You want my phone number after one email to me? You think it is a mild act of submission?
Give me a break. I'm not *a* submissive. Nor am I so stupid to simply give out my number, because someone sends me an email.
I just can't help but shake my head in disbelief at the way so many people are. |
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Life takes us places, sometimes we don't want to go, most times we haven't planned on it... we fight it, we struggle or we surrender.
I said I wasn't looking, yet people continued to write me. Odd how that works...
It's not in my hands though. The Universe has plans for me that seem to have sent me in a direction I wasn't wanting or prepared for any longer and yet, it stares me in the face and I must make decisions. |
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How much fun is it when all you look for is a trophy to hang off your arm, seriously?
Physical attraction, is important, but if that is all that is important or the *most* important of everything, in order to talk to others and start a relationship, is it fulfilling?
I have no clue.... I'm just not that shallow. |
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Urghhhh!!!!!!!!
Thanks, just needed to get that off my err.. chest. |
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I guess I can use this like I use my blogger, but in more detail -
How can I be caged, 24/7 for *masters* pleasure only, when I have children, pets and a household to take care of?
But what is most scary... Caged in the *beginning* of a Master/slave relationship. The *beginning* - so, when have I had the opportunity to build up the trust to actually consent to caging *in the beginning*.
I see more and more each day, as I read emails from others and profiles, how people simply do not understand what M/s is really about and how difficult it is to find someone that meshes, yings to yangs.
The time it actually takes to get to know someone, patience and form - yet people seem to be in such a hurry - losing the patience, presence and form. It's a shame, since first impressions are so important... at least to me. |
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A PS -
No, I will not get rid of my cats, yes I really do have 5 ferrets and yes, kids, cats and ferrets are part of my life that aren't going anywhere but with me. |
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It never ceases to amaze me, the hoops that those whom call themselves dominants, will go to, to get some attention.
Should you be reading this with the thought of writing to me, please make sure you read my entire profile as well as the journal entries, prior to emailing me... it really does help.
I'm on hiatus. Oh and I find it difficult at best to read someone who is slave or submissive type in third person and embarassing to read it from one who says he is dominant. *note: these are called peeks into my mind as I write in this journal, for all to see - more insight into who I am and what I was seeking* |
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So, I check my mail here today. Few disappointed people it seems.. I haven't given up completely, only taken a break from what I see to be mostly game players and people seeking pretty people.
Although I must say, someone young enough to be my oldest child beginning an email to me with "Hi there sl*t" leaves the same distasteful stench in my mouth as the other bs I have read. |
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Well, I've given it my best shot. Thought this would be the place to meet someone, thought it was different then those other places - alas I was wrong.
While I've met some interesting people on here, only one really clicked with me and yet I didn't click with him - that's ok, I wish him all the best on his journey.
For me, well... I'm shutting up shop for awhile. Seems most are looking for barbie doll types or someone without children and pets - everyone is entitled to seek what they desire and all's good in the world, I just happen to not be that which I describe above.
May all of you who have written me and all who have thought about it, find what you are looking for. My journey will continue, just not on these types of meeting places for now. |
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