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Although i have been quiet on here, my humiliation from my Mistress continues unabated.
She has however pointed out that i have been lying on my profile, and that i now have to admit that i am not in my thirties, but am actually over 40 - i was foolish (as ever) to lie like this.
Sorry Ma'am |
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my Mistress has made me realise that She is totally in control of every aspect of my pathetic life |
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i tried to be clever and decieve my Mistress but She found me out. i now wait in trepidation for my punishment for misleading Her and being such a pathetic useless horny dinky dick of a wimp. |
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Mistress is enjoying that i am now being humiliated on line by a male |
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the wimp is in such big trouble - more than once i have caught it wanking - if it was not so pathetic in bed it would not need to wank |
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lets just clarify - wimp was not ASKED to detail how tiny and patheitc his cock is - he was TOLD to. |
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Miss has just asked me to mention my cock if you can call it that is 2 1/2 inches long and less than an inch thick, and is dwafted by a credit card. |
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S says: get ur diaper on
ian says: must i
S says: yes
ian says: cant i cum
S says: u wanted to get dressed just now
S says: so get dressed NOW
ian says: may i sit Miss
S says: yes
ian says: so ashamed
S says: why boy
ian says: because what you have seen
S says: and what i will see again
ian says: yes Miss |
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Miss
Has me waiting upstairs in a nappy while she watches TV and says I will be spanked later when she can be bothered. |
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Mistress is out all day today, but she made me put on my diaper before she went out. i had no choice in this, when do i ever have a choice!
She told me i had to phone her to ask to use the toilet, but when i did she would not give me permission until i was absolutely desperate. i did not dare go without her permission. she also made me take off my diaper and smell it, that was so humiliating. She says i must put it on as soon as i get in from work tonight, and (for the first time ever)i will be sleeping in it overnight. i can not believe she is going to make me sleep in it, to have my pathetic little cock next to the diaper, i am not sure i will sleep much at all. Mistress is also leaving for work before me tomorrow and i am not allowed to take the diaper off until i phone her and plead with her, i am worried that i will be so ashamed by this in case she does not give permission in time and i have a slight accident in my diaper.
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Mistress came home early today and caught me wanking. She was not at all happy with me, called me a cheap pathetic little wimp, with no self control over my maggot like cock. i wanted to stop wanking when She saw me, but She would not let me and told me to keep wanking. She timed me on her phone, i lasted two minutes and 37 seconds. She then made me lick my own cum up from where i came onto my hand. i was totally humiliated by that, especially even more so as she has not yet allowed me to clean my teeth tonight, it tastes horrid. i am having to sleep in the spare bedroom tonight for being so very weak-willed. |
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the boy wimp has been extremely disobedient - i hope he knows how unhappy that makes Me, and that he will face severe consequences for doing so. |
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My Mistress and i had this conversation today on messenger while i was at home and she was at work - she made me post it here to add to my humiliation and as further punishment for messing her around and disobeying her
S says: still need a piss?
i says: you know i do
S says: just checking
S says: i hope its not too desperate
ian says: it is
ian says: please can i its No.2 too
S says: oh dear
ian says: please
S says: u have to ask properly
ian says: please Miss may i go to the loo , thank you
S says: why do u need to go to loo
ian says: i need to pee Miss
S says: what else
ian says: and pooh Miss
S says: so ask properly boy
ian says: please Miss may i go to the loo as i need to pee and pooh
S says: and how do u feel asking me?
ian says: even more pathetic |
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Mistress sent me to bed early last night - she had no time for me as She was talking to another sub online. it somehow felt worse being put to one side for another sub than it does when she brings her lover home |
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as i thought, Mistress spanked me hard, She lay me naked across Her lap and spanked me so very hard, i started to cry but She just laughed at me and told me not to be such a pathetic cry baby. when She was finished i was sent to the spare bedroom to spend the night, i was not even allowed to have the feel of Her laying next to me. what was even worse was that She had Her lover with Her and all i could do was lay in the darkness and listen to the enjoyment at pleasure that i am not capable of giving Her. |
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Mistress is not happy, I know I am in huge trouble and will be spanked until I am so sore. I know i am a naughty litlle boy and she is going to treat me as such. |
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my Mistress has for a long time threatened to come in and see me at work - my colleagues obviously know nothing on my life, i thought She was joking, but today she arrived at work during the day and demanded to see me, i have never blushed quite so much, but She made it quite clear that she would not leave until i saw Her. for as much as i have asked Her not to come into my work i know really know that She is totally in control, and my asking and pleading Her not to do something holds no water as She does exactly as She wants, especially when it comes to humiliating me, as i so deserve |
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Mistress was very pleased with me today as i was very good doing the household chores. However i am not sure if she was as pleased as she made out because she made me clean the bathroom and toilet last, wearing my diaper. |
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why do i always let my Mistress down? |
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my Mistress is getting harsher and more strict by the day. I know it is what i need, but She is much more strict than she ever used to be. and much more so than i ever thought she would be. |
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Mistress had me in my diaper again today, she does not want me to dirty it (fortunately) but today i had to ask her permission to take it off and go to the toilet. She actually made me ask her if i could take it off, and refused to let me until i had asked her politley. |
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Mistress had me talk to the other sub this week - it was worse than humiliating - she made me tell him how tiny my cock is - she takes pleasure in making me measure it to prove how tiny it is. |
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Miss has told me due to my poor behaviour she can no longer show any mercy and has told me that if i am to learn then it seems it will be the hard way. |
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my Mistress has been talking to the sub who looked at my profile, he now knows how totally pathetic i am and my Mistress has also told him how i have to keep the house clean and tidy and cook for her. She has also told her how she punishes me for failling to please her by making me wear a diaper. i thought i was humiliated by having to tell other Dommes about this, but to have Her tell another sub how worthless i am - well that makes me feel so humiliated and pathetic - just as i deserve i suppose. |
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i have had another wimp look at my profile and when i told my Mistress she said that she may like two pathetic wimps who deserve no more than cleaning her, so she has made me send him a message. |
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my Mistress has taken me back, i have apologised for not being as comitted as i should have been, she has suitably punished me (it was so humiliating - wearing a diaper - and not being allowed to take it off to go to the toilet) - but i am so grateful to be given another chance. |
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My Mistress is giving me a break, as i am having trouble coming to terms with my humble pathetic place. She has been very kind to me, and i am sure that i will miss her, but she knows i will no doubt return to her very soon. |
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my Mistress and i had a long chat today, she has made it clear what i am to do if i am to continue to please her. i am to ensure that her house is kept totally clean and tidy at all times, as well as doing all the shopping and washing and ironing. When i do the washing i am to pay special attention to her underwear, to her knickers. She has told me that i have to inspect and sniff each pair of her knickers, and attempt to clean them first by licking them. i can think of little more humiliating than having to clean her knickers in this way, and then to wash them all by hand after, but if it pleases my Mistress then i will do it for her, i have no option but to obey her. |
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Miss made me wank in a towel today then lick it up she has this understanding just how to makre me feel worthless |
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my Mistress is back from her break, thankfully.
Unfortunately she has noticed that i have deleted journal entries without her permission though, that made her angry.
sorry Mistress |
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it has been a bit of a strange few days, i was extremely rude to my mistress earlier on the week, and now regret my rudeness and foolishness.
i have told a few lies to mistress, and i know that she knows.
she is going away with her lover next week for a few days, i am going to miss her humiliation, and will however feel so jealous that he has my mistress to himself, being able to give her the sexual enjoyment she so deserves, that i am unable to.
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my Mistress is so pleased with me as i have been able to have so many more superior women join in my ongoing and well deserved humiliation |
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My mistress has given me the recipes for the meal i have to prepare and serve this weekend, for her and her girly-friends. i am only allowed to cook and serve the food. if i do well, i will be allowed to try to give my mistress the orgasm she deserves. |
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i ignored my Mistress today - i dont know what made me do that, but i know she will be extremely cross with me, and with shout at me and put me in my place. i am sorry Mistress, please dont be too angry with me. |
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my Mistress has told me that i will be seeing her next week, this makes me very very nervous as i never know what She has in store for me. She has also told me that in a couple of weeks time i will be cooking for Her and her friends, waiting on them and being there for Their amusement. i know that they will comment on the size of my pathetic cock. i have no choice but to be totally humilated by them, to please my Mistress. |
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Once again i have let my Mistress down. I can not follow the most basic instructions. Mistress must have endless patience to cope with me. |
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Mistress is right i am such a let down and a true wimp, She deserves better than such a spineless pathetic boy. |
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once again i have let my Mistress down |
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although i am meant to be seeing my Mistress on Thursday, i am showing my true wimp colours and am very nervous, not least because i know She will shout at me, and that scares me a great deal. But i also know that if i let Her down again this time, She will quite rightly be even angrier with me and will shout louder and louder and will spank my naked arse harder and harder, laughing at my pathetically small cock. |
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If i travel with my Mistress in Her car She has told me i will have to put my towel on the seat before i am allowed to get in. i am ashamed to admit i came without my Mistress's permission last week, i know i have once again disapointed my Mistress. |
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Mistress
Is loving my humiliation, she makes me carry a towel around with me to constantly remind me of my place and that I am such a wimp. |
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Mistress is being very strict and humiliating me so much again she talked about cleaning her after her lover and once again did not allow me to use the loo, she is forcing me to meet her next week where she promises to be a real bitch. |
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Mistress was very angry with me today, i am not sure what i had done but i am sure i deserved it. She made me strip and sit naked on a towel with my cock in my hand. She said i had to keep my cock in my hand as it is so small she likes to keep check on where it is. While i was sat like that i had to take a personal phone call, it was so humiliating to talk on the phone when i was so naked. Mistress says i am to be punished further next week, punished and humiliated. Mistress was shouting at me and i found it so arousing, my cock became hard and i had to wank, as usual i did not last longer than a minute or so. |
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my Mistress has made it quite clear that i am a pathetic little worm who doesnt deserve to be allowed the release of cumming, but i am just so weakwilled i can neither stop myself wanking nor cumming so quickly with my tiny little cock when i do. Mistress intends to punish me severely for my uselessness, but i am very worried about how she will do this. |
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I have been rather ellusive from my Mistress, for which i know i will suffer in the long term. She started to show me once again today how much She can control me, once more She left me naked on a towel desperate to piss, which She totally forbade me to do. I can not begin to say how much this left me humiliated and how much i know how strongly She can control me.
Ma'am, i am sorry for being such a naughty pathetic little wimp. |
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Mistress decided i to do the housework today. She had me naked apart from a small apron, She told me i didnt need a bigger apron to hide such a tiny cock |
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my Mistress saw me at work today, she didnt say anything to me, she didnt have to, just her look made me embaressed and made me remember my inadequacies |
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my mistress had me wank for her this morning, i am such a pathetic thing - i did not last long at all - 23 seconds only |
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I am totally ashamed by being made to add this... ... ...
This morning i was totally unable to control my orgasm, cumming before any penetration took place.
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