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1-13-12
Today if friday the restriction is over get to cum today no more sitting on the edge. get to release. Started the warm up this morning and Mandamheel came in the room with Master and me. I got shy all of the sudden and dont know why I dont mind her being in the room with us. Master had me finish warm up in front of her though and that was hard. Then when warm up was done and got to use my toy to cum ma'am was still there for some reason I dont understand had a hard time using my toy in front of her. But I let my mind go and just relaxed and was able to cum the frist cum was fast because I havent been able to cum. Master Made me do it again this time a little better didnt mind who was in the room with me I just went ahead and did what I need to do. Madamhell came in the chat room tonight and I was told my master I was to have her do session with me. But for some reason we ended up just talking and when I got the chance tp tell I was told to have a session with her we were already 2 hours into to it so it was short and sweet session had a small warm up and she had me use my vib to cum and then she had me do a cool down then it was time to go. I did sleep pretty good.
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1-10-12
was caught with clothes on was going outside to have a smoke can only wear a jacket and pants and i put my stupid shirt on so thought it was going to be a good night traing I ened up with a very red ass and pussy was getting ready for a good cum after wards but screwed that up by not putting to fingers in my ass while using the vib so now i cant cum for 4 days and now im laying here with a sore ass sore pussy and horney as hell and nothing i can do about it I could use a good cum right now and cant. Boy did i screw that up 4 days of traing and what ever else he has me do and i cant cum I hope i can make it
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1-8-12
toay traing wa interesttin Master asked me if I wanted to go all the way with training I am said Im willing to go what it taked. So now I opened the doors to a whole new experiance. I had to do something hard today Masterwants my pussy to be opend up so I had to try to shove a bottle in it was hard im not very big so that is a challange. I also use my vib on the kitchen counter which isnt bad cold wall but a goood cum. I also got to cum in my living room. I like that as well. then while talking Master was booted out or something and didnt see him the rest of the night. but ok Thank you Master
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1-6-12
today wa a better time when was on chat master told me to show parts of me and I did without hestitaion that earned me a good work out he said we could have a easy night ans I said no so he siad ok hard night I agreed. I took 1000 whiping didnt even think I could take that.That was a lot. the sting I got from it was intence I was so wet and horney i could stand it toward the end of the whippin though I acullay cam from the pain. Master also has been trying to strech me had almost the whole hand in pussy. He wasnt to see how far he can take me I want to also see how far I can go so lets do this. I may like to try to do something with a felmale my motto is at least try everything at least once. If I dont like it then we can talk about it and work something out. hard to write this since my mind is still spinning will have more intersting things to say when I can foucus more Thank you Master you are d'man
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1-5-12
got on line this morning to see master and he now whats me to stay on chat while I have nothing on and wants me to show my self. He says I have sexy body but its hard to have just anyone check me out. I know I said that I would but my mind shuts down and i get very shy and so its very hard to show my self. Something I have to over come but at the same time Im disobeying my master and the punishment he does is the hardest because he know how hard it for me to have the silent treatment. Two days with no pain no cuming it the hardest thing to go through when ur life has changed so much and all u think about is whats going to happen next. what am I going to learn tonight. But being shy has again had me disobey my master and he does not like when I do.well I need to learn to just FUCKING DO AS IM TOLD AND IT WOULD MAKE MY LIFE MORE EASIER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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1-3-12
Got up early today to see if master would be on was excited to see him. Big surprise he was on but angry I broke one of the rules and he doent like that at all and he says to me what happens when u break one of my rules? Of course I know what happens punishment and the worst things is getting punished when u know that ur Master punishes you the way he know what u dont like the most and of course I still have a hard time with thing in my ass so whats the punishment big vib in the ass. but at the end of the punishment he always forgives me and works me into a good cum. He has set a new rule when I am at home im not to wear clothes run around my place totally nude. After we were done with the punishment and session for the morning he wanted me to go to chat and have no clothes on and do my chat. I couldnt do it and since I didnt do as told he left the room without saying anything to me and he again know how I feel about that so he uses it when dont do as told. So I went and did the things I needed to do for the day came home and striped off my clothes and went on chat. Wasnt on to long whe Master shows up and thank god i didnt have clothes on. He stayed in the chat room with me for quite a bit tonight was shocked. We talked on that for while then I had to show my self hard but did it. He asked if I wanted to come well of course so what did i want to do to beable to cum tonight. So decided to show my pussy on live chat legs spread wide and pussy opened up for one min. struggled for a while with the tought but got it done. So cuming to night was interesting the warm up to it was more intense tonight lets just say steped it up a notch forgot I had a new toy dont know what u call it but it has long strands of leather strips comeing out of the handle.so I used that the belt his favorite {dont know now new favorite now} the dowel and the new toy. for more pain tonight I used it and touched places I havent yet and wow my body went through a shock mode at frist woke up some nerves that havent been active for along time and sent my body through a major wow. The cum after all that was the most Im sorry lost for words dont know how to explain it but OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!! Im sitting here writing this and still feel where the leather straps hit me it still stings a bit but doesnt bother me still enjoying the feeling I have from it. My back thighs and my ok all parts I hit with it I still feel. Master Thank You this wont be a night I forget for a while since I still feel it and its after mid night ur time and still feel it.
YOUR PAIN SLUT
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1-1-12
master got home from a long week at a class he had to go to and after a long drive home he didnt want me hanging since he woulnt let me cum for a whole week. My daughter moved out and so I had the whole place to my self and so master and I explored each room and see that I could enjoy my self where ever i wanted to I cam on my kitchen counter that I never did before Acully that was the second cum the frist one was after a good warm up with alittle pain mixed with it. after the second cum i needed a break and wanted a cig so master said the only way to have one is I could only go out in my jacket nothing else.so I gave it a shot froze my ass off. I had a cig outside just with a jacket on. Then came back in had a little warm up the a third cum it was the hardest one to do it took me a while but it was the hardest cum and the longest. Thank You master for not letting me hang and letting me cum 3 times.
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12-21-11
I was good today no atitude on anything and had a quiet day it was nice so not much to say today thank you
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12-20-11
Master askwd how my atitude was today and i told him all is good but again he saw right through me and new that something wasnt right. I didnt wasnt to tell him because I thought that evertyhing iI have done that i didnt want to bother him with any more problmems but im his sub and he said he is reposible for me and my actions and i can not keep anything from him. So again for keeping thing from him i had to pay the conaquences. When done this was frist time a had welts on my but and a very sore pussy. For me putting a huge dildo in my ass is very hard to do. when everything was said and done he let me cum hard and i did. I am learning and i will just tell him everything and hope I didnt do anything to stupid and have good sessions with him rather then punishment.
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12-19-11
I must have been really fucked up last night i dont remember writing that journal and my spelling was bad. I did fall a sleep with computer on so if i did write that i was totally fucked up. wow This morning started ok great Master was just talking to me for a long time then all of the sudden he hits me with a ton of bricks strip he says ok fine no biggy thought ok work out no problem boy was i wrong. I bought a brick of clips and i had everyone of them on. I had marks for hours the sad thing is he let me take them off that hurts just as bad if not worse then putting them on then says oh by the way u have to put them back on and take pic and put it on your profile.WHAT PUT THEM BACK ON GOT TO BE KIDDING. I acullaly E-mailed him and asked if i dont will i be in trouble but of course if i didnt i would and be back in front of u guys all over again dont get me wrong like u guys but dont like being punished in front of u.so I did put them back on dam it hurts and took pic. so if u guys see my pic enjoy but KEEP UR MOUTH SHUT I DONT WANT TO HEAR IT. just enjoy on ur own. After the frist set of clips he did let me cum which was cool but the sucky thing is he wouldnt let me cum after doing the second round that sucked.but at least he let me heal tonight and didnt have me do anything. thank you for that .My master is trying to see where my pain thrusthold is so u may get great stories fom me i dont even know where my limit is to pain yet but i guess i will find out.so if u want to know more read tomorrow night. Good night you all enjoy bye for now
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12-18-11
Being a sub is very challenging exspecially when u have a strist masterthat dont let u get way with anything and knows he has to break down wall which he did and punish u if u have bad atitude which lately I seem to have and he says he going to put a stop to it but lately my atitude hasnt been very good and u think id change it.I think i get better with it then something sets me off and i loose that. Only thing is master can tell when i do something he says i show it on my face. then he gets it out of what i did then he punishes me for it.says if can break down wall he can break my atitude. Well tonight he had me strip down and sit in displine pose on live chat for 45 min. in a conner. had 54 eyes on me it was not cool but i will get this atitude problem done one way or the other. after that was over he was nice enough to let me take break.then talk to me and have me come 3 times could only do to that is a workout all its own. I amgoing to do my damest to work on atitude so no more displine.I was getting over the last dislipline no more for I'll just lock my self in room and never get out then wont have to worriyer no more.Next weeks training so help me I dont know what it isoh well
The for now
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12-17 -11
got ur message i realise now not to bother u glad i didnt do anything wrong plus i know i didnt. got collar as u ask but not tag will get soon as i can sir. also tried shoe laces again funny not so easy sir.but i'll keep trying. miss u sir good night
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12-16-11
Didnt do anthing today but work was very tired so went to bed early sorry not much to say master
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12-15-11
today i new that i had to face ounishment yes again cam without permission so had to take conquence for it. the candle wax was not a good thing the is a lot of pain to take yes i do get wet from pain but i almost said my safe word. but took it. Using the vib in but is still hard to do thats one thats going to take time getting use to. I did cum alot though but it was harder to do this time. Didsnt know if i could but did. yes sir I learned from it i will ask next time
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12-14-11
Good start of day had good talk with masterdidnt do much it was nice talking sometimes without doing things. Left for woek just before ten and i good day until the end where i got into it with my manger. I was told i needed to change my attitude or leave. so i guess i still have a lot of work there and to be honest with the way my atitudes been i need a good spanking not from my self to put me back in place. Sorry i missed Master tonight and sir please dont get mad but a needed to cum so i did. not much more to say so closing.
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12-12-11
Being a new sub and having a master is hard because he has you doing things and punishes when u do wrong and then when its over and your sitting alone its like u dont get enough and you crave moe being a on-line sub sucks and there shoulnt be such a thing. But i will work hard to make it real but in the mean time I got to learn to control the feelings of always wanting him. But I do and cant change that.Master sorry but if Im to needed im sorry but u made me want and broke down walls and made me open up. Now i have to learn to control the feelings. Thank you for being to good of a Master
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12-11-11
Ok punishment done will say im still shaking I will never lie to my Master again yes i hurt like hell and learned from it i got it done though and hate to amit to it it did bring tears to my eyes writing this and still have tears.I guess i have to write what he did. I have or should i had a tight ass but no longer and doing some whiping i had to sit in my open pose for 20 min with a big ass vib in my ass. I thought it wouldnt be a big deal taking the punishment but i was wrong again i do regret it. That was a little more pain then i was expecting. Subs dont ever lie to ur master or they will get you. I sure know that im sorry.
Closing now with a sore ass.
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12-9-11
this morning start what Mater calls warm up to punishment ok so that means im scewed.
not a good day though got really sick my blood pressure and heart rate went out of whach ended up in hospital twice today. not much to say today
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12-8-11
Im supose to write in this every day dont really feel like it tonite. I screwed up big time didnt tell my master about my frist. So now i have to take the consquences for it and this is the frist time im scared to death. i know i did wrong so i will take whats coming to me know matter what it is. The best punishment u can give he just did so hopefully this is the punishment and its over but if hes not done and thinking about it im scewed. I will take with a smile or cry and then smile and say Thank you sir
Thats all i can write for now to many things going through my head.
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12-6-11
Easy day today not much pain and got to cum twice to nite which was sweet. But still learning Master always makes me wonder what hes up to.I think he likes that but so do i. Not knowing whats going to happen is an excitment all its own. It drives me crazy. Thank u for going on chat tonite. Not to much to say tonite but yes sir,yes sir. OH BY THE WAY IM NOT BACKING DOWN SIR.
Thank You Master
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12-5-11
Had another traing today and I think its the hardest I hope any way. streching someones ass hole that hasnt been streched before is very hard. I have done it again today and it hurt worse the yesturday for trying to get it in further then yesturday. I know the more i work at it the better it will get. but man The pain is worse then i thought I will work through it and get it done the great thing about doing it is the award after awards I will say the pleasure of comming after a workout it totally worth it. The only thing I do need to work on the most that upsets my Master is stop hestiting and just do it. I know that if i just get it done and quit fighting it it will bo over with and can enjoy the pleasure after awards. I was told after the streching part is over the feeling will be like no other so i cant wait for that.wish i had a smaller vib. not really love the size of it and the joy i get from it.Master cant wait to see whats next on your list of training.
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12-4-11
New sub here and I am in training as a new sub finding that i have to break down wall around me so i can open my self up to have a master tell me to do things is very hard but the strange thing is I found having the right Master that know what he his doing can knock down wall pretty easliy I have found that doing things for him is hard but the willing to please is over whelming and I do things I didnt think I would do. Yes i have hesitated but the punishment is harsh and painful but worth it if it teaches me to not say no and not heaitate and do as told. The frist couple of days was painful but to amitt it did feel good. It did clear my head and make me think about what i was doing. As having those sessions has broke down some walls never thought would come down. I am open to anything he may do to me painful or not. Last night after the punishment was over i felt good about my self and felt better. My Master is very strict but fair and know not to cross him or I will pay. I did wrong though last night by cumming with out his ok. wont do that again. Tonite was a challage for me I had to work on my ass that hasnt been touched thought it was exit only but not true. Master has me working on steching it which sucks because it hurts like hell I told him my vib would not fit but of course wrong again Didnt get it in all the way but got it in enough had to bere the pain and push thrugh it and do it. well i did CANT BELIEVE IT. i DID IT WOW!!! After the session I got to cum hard and it was wounderful the feeling was out of this world and i cam like I never cam before. Now i am writing this high as a kite on life. I will keep working on be comming a good sub and let all walls fall and just open my self to my Master. I am His and I belong to him and no one else and I am to do as told because he said so and have to do what he says because I belong to him and hes my Master what he says goes in of story.
Thank You Master
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