wildgreeneyed

i hate saying home on the weekends i should be out getting drunk now. no one should have to suffer this way

my appalling behaviour has once again got me in trouble. Now I'm grounded all weekend. Can't go to a party with my friends. No drinking. Grounded, all weekend... It's my own fault. Out of compassion and kindness for me I am not going to be spanked for this. So, I am really glad about that...  Still have 3 spanking punishments racked up. waiting for me.........Its so hard for me to be good.. I lie and manipulate and always try to find loop holes... I'm glad I have someone who cares enough about me to hold me accountable for my behaviour s I can change into a behaved person 

I am grateful I have someone looking out for me

So, my big stupid mouth has gotten me in trouble once again. It not only hurts me it hurts the everything around me. I'm not even sure why it's so hard for me to do the simplest things. It's like everything I do, I challenge others. I'm so ashamed of myself. I don't want to be some worthless person who has no self control at all. My self destruction is so bad now i don't even trust myself in anymore. I overanalyze my words and I can't keep my mouth shut when I need to. It's a sick war with myself, I don't want to win. I wan't to be well behaved. I'm so ashamed of my actions right now.........................................

I think having a Princess complex is a good thing... Just saying>>>>

I got called an instigator, at school today? wtf??????

I almost got a ticket today, I'm amazing out of getting out of trouble... Feels good to be me

My big stupid mouth has gotten me in trouble once a again. I took off one of my blog posts I wrote cause I found it humiliating. I don't like ppl.  in my personal life, AT ALL. The dom I have met on this site is mad at me, so for a punishment now I have to write about what is going to happen to me.. I hate doing degrading things..........Oh well, Its my own fault so here it goes......... So, now he is going to fuck me in the virgin ass, why I hold on to the bed post and cry in a pillow. 

drinking is not only a hobby its a lifestyle!!

OK 

I'm drunk and still pissed about my pics being taken from me...

Accountability, is a hard limit for me............ haha

I need to drink tonight tell i pass out to make up for last night......... Does that even make sense ? damn nitetime cough

some fucking hater is stealing my pics. so I am taken them down, hate worthless ppl..

I'm so glad this site is filled with the grammar, spelling police. How could i ever sleep at night if I misspelled something?????????????????

there is never any rain when i want it. 

I think its so cool in this day and age ppl. read my blogs and judge me. First, i honestly don't care 2nd get a life!!

I should have gone to school today, but too hungover 

errrrrrr my house is messy . I need a maid 

sooooooooooooooooooooooo sick of reality tv, 

this may be the nightquil talking but watching hoarders -  the tv show really makes me feel way better about myself i need to watch this all the time

how much night time cough could i drink to pass out???? Im sick i just wont to sleep 

I have a cold in jaw and I can't open my mouth. How the hell do I eat now? I never get sick ... this is suffering ..... 

my body is numb and dead inside, like me

the least you c.m ppl could do is amuse me in my time of need.

for the record , i have a cold ...... 2 more days of this???????????????? why ??

i can't breath, can't sleep, can't eat.... soooooooooooooo sick

I'm soooooooooooooo sick, no one should have to suffer this way. I have a cold and no desire to eat. 

You had a lot of moments that didn’t last forever
Now you in the corner tryna put it together
How to love

hummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

I'm starving to death and no one cares. errrrrrrrrrrrr

so hungry, but i can't eat or my dress wont fit me this weekend. errrrrrrrrr

Don't email telling what you want to do to me sexually I don't care, Trust me if i was looking for kinky sex i could find that anywhere 

This site has gone down hill. more and more hate mail

I love to roll around drunk on the floor. its my hobby 

I just wanna sleep all day

NO IM NOT MORMON NO I DONT"T HAVE TATTS> SOOOOOOOOO STOP FUCKING ASKING

I had a bad day. nothing went right. 

I  refuse to go on another date. Men are boring, little bitchy girls... errrrrrrrr   Is there a way for me to find a husband without the torture of dating?

so what is  corporal punishment?? does anyone know? i see that used a lot on here.

either I am more hateful or ppl. are more annoying 

So, I write and do everything with my right and left hand. I don't have a dominate hand . So, now I'm wondering am I a left handed girl living in a right handed world ??? OR OR  OR  Am I a right handed girl conforming to the normal? I'm so confused !!

I was forced against my will to attend a motivation self help, class. What is this world coming to?

I hate dating! 

I'm a submissive but I do what the hell I please and you can't hurt me or punish me for it.... hahahaha That's like the funniest thing ever

In some respects
I suspect you've got
A respectable side.

When pushed and pulled
And pressured,
You seldom run 

If I could get over my ex I might be able to be happy again??? 

So, I was out to eat with my friend and I meant to say how is it you manage to suck all the fun out of my day, instead I said how is it you manage to fuck the sun  out of my day. Then the waiter was like that't the hottest thing I have ever heard. WTF??? I'm confused

im still dying from my resent fall down the stairs...........

being nice to ppl. is a hard limit for me... ha ha

is it really possible for someone to have an identity crisis?

If i wanted to deal with this circus freak, stuff i would have joined eharmany.....just saying

I wen't on a date last night...... I had fun.  he showed me his whips and didnt seem to amused when i hit him with one.. ha ha it was funny to me. then he put them away. must have been scared .. haha

I fell down my stairs, im dying in pain

I asked my ex if we broke up cause I'm to pale or  to fat? He didn't answer 

i wake and think dream are real. i sleep so i don't have to feel

I'm still here breathing now...
until I'm set free.
Go quiet through the trees.

I can't decide if I wanna be more goth or emo. .......... hummmmmmmm

after 300000 emails about my last post. dont be so self centered men, it was only directed to half the men on here . so dont take it all personal .just saying

You know why there is so many men on this site. there sooooooooooo boring ! no wonder they wanna beat woman into liking them.  here is a tip want to torment a woman? bore them to death, that will make them submit to you. no one could handle that kind of torment !

Love is pure magic,  just be an illusion !

Once upon a time, there lived a poor peasant girl, who live in a peasant hut.

One day, as she was eating dirt and graveling in the front yard, a handsome prince rode up on his magnificent steed, Wanna merry me? he asked. sure she said. 

and off they rode to the palace where they lived happily ever after,

Then she dumped the prince, took all his money , Moved to another village to set up the 

old ( peasant girl) scam again. 

I've learned to live half alive.

there ain't no rest for the wicked until we close our eyes for good. we all seek out to satifiy those thrills.

I can't help but cry in the never ending story when his horse dies in the swap of gloom....

I'm watching amime. death note. is this what rock bottom is???

No wonder over-seas everyone hates Americans, have you seen mtv's, Jersey Shore?????

I'm not anorexic, i just dont like to eat. fuck off everyone

i am so bored

I think I speak for all the woman on this site, do not send out cock shots or put them on your profile, it makes  you look like an idiot 

SO sick of the men on this site.... really? what is going on ? 

i have to get ready for church. NOOOOOOOOOOOO NOT LDS

So, last night I had another strange dream. not about being a vampire, This time there was snakes all over my room i was trying to leave. I was to scared I froze couldn't move and i wanted to scream,.... but couldn't just stuck frozen 

I'v been having dreams everynight about being a vampire. what does that mean?

Thank you for all the kind emails I have gotten from the real Doms on here. I've decided to stay on the site!!

Four letter word just to get me along
It's a difficulty and I'm biting on my tongue and I
I keep stalling, keeping me together
People around gotta find something to say now

Holding back, everyday the same
Don't wanna be a loner

hate this site im closing it out!! game players who just want to be lame and play on cam. soooooooooo done!!!!

I am pretty sure i feel better after my kickboxing class today. Maybe i have rage issues? I find myself more and more mean

I just got pulled over for speeding , WTF,  what a white girl can't be driving in the suburbs while blasting Britney Spears??? without being  hassled by the man. 

why am i sleeping so much??? I missed class. what the hell is wrong with me??

I would have cut it myself if I knew men could climb hair, keep away from the window--rapunzel

I think this world is so disgusting, when all the can do is attach and make fun of Amy winehouse, poor girls is dead now, she was obviously suffering,  of course ppl. can never seem to leave well enough alone. R. I. P Amy

im drinking tell i cant feel feeling anymore. 

I'm worthless, i don't belong or fit anywhere. Life has lost all interest, meaning and control. I'm empty and dead inside. Everyday I suffer more. One day all these bad memories will be lost like tears in the rain> 

ohhhhhhh and no I am not a virgin ,

here is the deal losers, first I don't have sex before getting married, 2nd I'm not some whore you can manipulate. 3rd yes i will get on cam so you can frolic in my adorableness . THERE IS NO WAY IN HELL I WILL TAKE OFF MY CLOTHS. SO value my morals or fuck off. and no im not cutting my hair. its past my ass and i am keeping it that way.

im tired of this site. i just wanted a husband not this game playing crap. im done. i check out

just so it slows down all the mail. im only looking for a husband to be a sub to ...so i need a husband asap ,,,

i need to find someone on this site ..........

my kicking boxing classes are not helping me with my rage...... what the hell am i to do, drink more? hitch hike, pick up an eating disorder, cut my flesh to feel something? take my meds to feel numb? im so confussed

some loser, has stolen my smurfette lunch box, what kind world do we live in?

since when is my suffering such a bad thing???? i thought you ppl. on this site would get off on it

Anybody remotely interesting is mad, in some way or another.

what am i going to do when the whiskey"s not wotking no more??

And I cry in my sleep
And I tear up your letters
And I burn them in heaps
And I gather the ashes
In that hole in the ground
Where i fell

My hate keeps me alive. That can't be healthy, can it?

i'm going to try and do anything to just better!!

i would rather check into a mental word then deal with this is this is what real life is about, pain and suffering, really? what the hell is the point , everything is meaningless and out of control

hey for the last time. I AM NOT MORMON! assume much?

I'm not cutting my hair what is wrong with you ppl

I may  have a shopping addiction, I love to spend money on cloths

"Everyone should have an evil secret plan

Depression is just anger without enthusiasm.

ERRRRRRRRR so Guam may not be happening............. I need to find a place to , I tired of my life here

It's not ok, its not alright........ Why they hell do ppl. say that? its never going to be alright.

I'm moving to Guam cause I don't know anyone there and I think it would be a good start. Plus, I have heard its alittle dangerouss ( I don't believe that) however, makes me want to go even more.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fuck everyone in Utah, I'm moving to Guam

i'm so lost right now

if i ripped my heart at the seams then maybe my ex would know how i feel?

ran into my ex. i'm drinking tell i can't feel feeling, anymore. I just want to be numb and dead inside. I'm not asking for much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm spiraling out of control, again. errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

I'm so frustrated now.

Maybe, I like ranting on here? Maybe, I'm looking for something? 

Why do I keep coming back to this, site?????