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So this last 12 mo has been such a worldwind. My whole life has changed in every aspect and I was told tonight ,"those that are one extreem in real life; crave the opposite behind closed doors". It made me think about how true it is I want no controll sometimes out side of work and friends. I often struggle with my Dom/sub because I want to be respected. I struggle with my Doms Respecting me or rather giving in that much controll.
I as a Dom know we respect our subs even if we do not show them that. It is what they desire strict unbinding controll, and as a sub I want a strong Dom to (make)controll me with out waivering disipline. I want honesty and that I can respect. I think the strongest Doms allow the most flexiblily when it comes to understanding. A bamboo stick that is rigid tends to break, but the bamboo that knows its limits and bends back sure hits with a force hard enough to leave a welp. (mmmmmmmmmmmmm...) heheh. I degress.
I have found three Dominant Men whom I would love to belong but I am scared my Dom side is going to ruin any of these. I need to be trained to be a sub rather than just step right into a sub role. I want some one who can tell me the feelings I am having is normal for a sub . Any ways Just my thoughts for the night.................... My question to myself is do I just want a Dominant Personality one who just takes me..or do I need A rEAL DOMINANAT AT ALL TIMES TO BELONG TO. |
