wickedkate

NOT TO be read by Doms ...

1. To the man who wants a naked picture of me with a sign hung round my neck implying nasty things about myself. after careful consideration I have decided to say this in a blog rather than in a message.
2. I do not have self esteem issues
3. I do NOT do humilation
4. I do not write nasty things about myself and than take pictures of myself wearing them 
5. I do not send naked pictures of myself to people I do NOT KNOW 
6. I do NOT submit in my first , second , third or even fourth fifth six seventh emails 
7. I do NOT desire to move
8. I do not WANT to be trained online its bollocks because I can turn off the machine anytime I want to therefore I am in control 24/7
9. I do not RESPECT strangers
10. I do not TRUST strangers
11. I do not CARE if you dont like my blog because guess what ITS MINE. I can write what I dam well please. even if owned 
12. Oh I am NOT a slob 
13. I hate mess
14. I do not do self loathing 
15. I may be submissive  but its got nothing to do with my shape or size
16. I have a lot of confidence 
17. I do not desire to be a stick insect 
18. I desire to loose about 40 lbs that will take me back to the body frame I look very well in. I will still take size 16 in clothes  I have always taken size 16 in clothes because I have huge tits I had them when I was fifteen and they have never grown or shrunk even when I have.
19. being ill has taught me to take better care f myself  instead of snack and not eat 

However I have not cleaned up my place in a week and I feel like its a pig sty my mates say its not its still clean BUT to me its not clean its a mess because I have not gone round each day doing the things I do to keep it at that level I like.

I have been feeling very sick on the steriods the GP has given me and so I have lived on cherios  and strawberrys 

I have allergies so cannot eat things that contain asphartime asulphamate  all things even juice that say no sugar or low fat contain these things therefore I cannot have them  not even in yoghurt So I have to read all labels of everything I am going to place in my mouth. its something that can blister my mouth in seconds So its something I live with.

therefore weight loss for me is harder because I have to make sure I do not place items in my mouth that can cause harm to me. I guess its like if you have nut allergies or any other allergy.

Just something the person who may be my owner will have to know.

I have never ever been dependant on anyone. So I dont intend to become dependant I do not think I could live having to ask, a MAN for everything.

I am very expensive very expensive indeed I only drink good brandy I hate whiskey even the smell of it on a mans breathe turns me putrid.

and I think that if a Master or Dom asks things off a slave he ought to have tried it first

Oh I do not clean the house in 5 inch heels and any Dominant that expects this has to wear the shoes first and clean the cooker in them and wear them to walk down my cobbled street. should be fun to watch.

I have sheepskin rugs on my floor so NOBODY wear shoes on MY rugs DOMINANT OR NOT Nobody ...

Someone said I was not a slave the other day How the hell do they know what or who I am or indeed what my preferences are.

I do not know why this blog spreads itself out so much I wrote it all squished up but its not squished up  now.

It appears when out I caught a virus that in turn has given me a chest infection so am unavailable to reply to messages right now as I am resting.

Life teaches many lessons and care of the self is one of them. I would expect to be able to take the same level of care of the self when owned .

having been reading around some of the things I knew nothing about I think I have some of it in my understanding  I am putting together questions to ask Dominants. 

I think right now I need to seriously get the next stages of my own development into action. I have applied to Leeds uni to complete my psychology and am waiting for a reference to be completed for me.

I also wish to do complimentary therapies as I love feet so reflexology is one aspect I desire to learn along with aromatherapy and massage. I was thinking maybe a Dom could be my guinea pig for practice sessions but I guess that might be submissive behaviours.

I am not sure I know much about Dominants from a personal view more from a psychological view.

most of what a Dominant uses is simple psychology like behavioural aspects knowing how psychology works I guess in some ways I could be a rather difficult case. I could argue everything from the psychological viewpoint.

but the question still arises why do I wish to serve another ? because I want to need to desire to is that too much ? but do I desire to give away my rights my power of choice my ownself  as in the wicked side of kate. because I can be very wicked but also very sensual as well but if I get mad I dig my heels in and no man on earth would be able to stop me because then I am am absolute Bitch with a capital B.

never really said any of that to anyone before so why am I doing it today, because I am sick and fed up and tired and annoyed and frustrated and hate being cooped up  in bed having to get up when I need drinks I think I am drowning in water I have drank so much of it because I felt so sluggish and so awful I guess of I were a car I would need a full diagnostic and repair fresh oil and water new plugs new fuses new oil filters and some decent food ( petrol) 

but I am trying to cook myself something decent for tea seeing as I have hardly eaten all day or yesterday I started to wonder when the girl in fifty shades of grey does eat well finally got to some action pages ermmmm read and wrote better myself  however is it simply that women these days have more time to read and because of Ebooks are experiementing more the older generation say the book is rude. i have not actually come accross anything I consider rude but I do think having her followed is a bit much  I mean I the Dom just turned up at mine middle of night I wouldnt answer the dam door. they do not arrive unnounced into my life  do you think that makes me Dominant  or rather bossy its because I am bossy and I manage people.

Aw well I think I burnt my tea because I was on here writing, you see thats a problem I have when I write I let myself explore stuff inside myself and simply allow the thoughts to flow I do not edit my writing till afterwards. but thats when its on paper priinted out now this blog thingy dont come with as many tools As I have like I can talk it in with dragon but the computer has to be told where to puncuate and that spoils the flow of the writing  because writers never edit till after the dam thing is written chapter by chapter. then they do it again creating a proof read copy  then again before final copy.

So I do not know what to eat now I burnt well dried up my chicken breast ermm guess I could put a nice sauce together and still eat it or do I simply make skinheads on a raft 

Why does this not come with a title bit ?

I was out in town and was reading some more of the grey series as I am nearing the end of book one I dont like the idea of not touching the Dominant even in sex and stuff. it seems he is a bit odd and has some serious issues with himself. I dont think I would feel safe in that scenario. 

anyway I was drinking my tea in this cafe and this man kept on staring at me he sat accross from me on these sofas he did not speak to me he just stared at me  I dont think he liked my book after all they say its porn its not its just a story about two people having sex all the time.

anyway I bought myself a lovely sexy top all multi coloured and me all over flamboyant.

I was glad I wore legging and a baggy top it was roasting out there and inside the shops you would swear that they had the heating on.

I looked in body shop and my god they wanted £12.50 for a tub of body creme I can buy for £3.50 elsewhere. there make up too dark for my fair skin, and the little they had was in the dark so you couldnt get the colours.  it was such a small dark place I doubt very much I will pay £12,50 for some butter creme. or facial scrub Boots do my favourite range of products Sanctury and they smell so heavenely the bath oil is so lovely it stimulate your nose as well as washes you in a beautiful aroma.

I wonder how often do Doms actually get someone who knows nothing about the lifestyle at all I know some but not a lot  and I have had a few encounters  that we wont talk about because they are past and history. I did wait till the kids lived elsewhere before experimenting in this lifestyle so I guess my toes and legs are in but the rest of me hovers somewhere outside.

I havent really given much thought to exactly what I want  I know what I need and what I need might not go with what I want if that makes any sense to you at all.

anyway time for me to cook and feed my poor self something and being saturday mates are round for a whinge and wine fest, they will whinge about boyfriends husbands sex allsorts of stuff and we will drink wine and wine and wine and well heaven knows then but its weekend  and I can do what I like .

This site is addictive its 11.50am and I am not yet dressed or done make up or hair yet  never done that before. always have a routine make brew eat breakfast get washed  dressed do make up and hair then go out .

I never sit on a computer for long periods unless I am writing my book which I am on chapter 9. 

So today has given me some idea of how this site works I have not looked through many pictures yet but found a couple of me but some of me that I have are from a long time ago because in them I have blonde hair but I am red head its was something a Dominant wanted and it did not suit me cut short and blonde.

rights I must away 

Jeez ! I did not know I even posted that I said save not post oh jeez and holy crap ! after a good nights sleep in a large bed its lovely to wake up with the sun streaming through the windows and the crystals casting sparkling lights all around me.

Calm now you may notice the blog has gone ! writing gets rid of so much out of your mind its my way of earthing things.

Anyway we will deal with things as they come I spoke with my eldest daughter and she said well Sam is always getting herself in a mess maybe this will frighten her enough to put her straight. Yes maybe it will but the consequences do not exactly fit the facts of what happened and I cannot help myself from feeling upset that I was in hospital and she had to do this alone.

We cannot change what has already occurred and all we can do is wait and see what happens.

when things occur with grown up children you are still the parent and still the mother no matter what and for me my family come before everything especially my children.

Some Dominant I met last week looked ok had coffee with me then expected me to submit to him like NOW I don't think he liked my response he said I was not submissive  and therefore he was leaving I had a word for men like that begins with W

I think I ought get to grips with this site a bit read a neat story from one man but if I need the loo I need the loo and saying no if I was on your knee you would be likely to get very wet.

I think I will fill in the other bits a dig a few pictures out I dont know if I have pictures of me alone  will have to look anyway I owe a hunky electrician a picture  apparently grins 

aww its gone dark  no not more rain arghhhhhhhhhh no the wall is drying out ! 

WOW ! I won a competition  I dont remember what I did  but hey I dont mind vouchers for make up  neat .. thats me sorted for new makeup  ermm shopping licks lips likes shopping ! handbags and nice shoes 

But what the hell will I wear its sunny /dark and forboding  I am fed up of wellies  they dont make me feel sexy  and dont really go with anything  but jeans and I am fed up of dressing like its winter. its so boring I have such nice clothing in my wardrobe that has yet to see light of day.

Well I have to get dressed and go out because my snakes need feeding today  oh yes I keep snakes real ones and they bite because they only let me touch them and kiss them so I need go get some chickens for them. ghost dog is staring at me  like I will eat you if you do not feed me !

oh my god a long form to fill out I dont think I know what half this stuff even is or means but here goes  maybe I have lived an innocent life !