Whitetigress712

PLEASE DON'T WAIT TOO LONG TO TELL SOMEONE "I LOVE YOU"

I joined collarme early in 2013, met a man on here who became my big letter person (Dom), soon afterward we started dating in Feb 11, 2013. We had a hullua year. He teaching me everything He knew about the lifestyle, giving me new experiences this my first year in the lifestyle. We focused mainly on relationships.

He was so proud of me and loved showing me off at dinner, lifestyle parties, and lifestyle events. He loved me in a dress and heels and i wore them for Him every chance.

He gave me knowledge, companionship, self-confidence, love, and made me feel needed, beautiful, and provided a trusting and safe environment for me to thrive.  In August He made me, with his own two hands, a play collar to wear at events.  i finally questioned Him about a permanent collar late in October; He said he was waiting on me to ask; He placed one around my neck a couple of days later.

i shared what He meant to me many times over the next few months.

See... He placed the collar on me while He was in the hospital.  Just a week or two before He had been finishing up the staircase where He lived and fell backwards down the steps, broke a rib, they found a broken rib from the x-ray but also found that he had... lung cancer. He went to the hospital for pain management from what He thought was His broke rib. But it wasn't that, it was the pain from the cancer in His spine-ribs-shoulder blade-arm-pelvic bone, and they needed to start radiation as soon as possible to keep His spine from collapsing. 

i never was able to tell Him how i felt, because of past relationship issues, until that hospital visit in late Oct 2013. Told Him many times over the next three months what He meant to me. He passed away February 1st 2014. I still wear His collar.

i long to feel His arms around me, His lips on my cheek, His smile and laughter, I miss His guidance and protection.  Yes, i yearn to feel His firm hand and flogger on my back side but life is not all about play and scenes and you can find quality relationships here on collarme and when you find what you're looking for, please don't wait too long to tell them "I LOVE YOU" if you really feel it.