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on Dec.28,2013 my Master gave me my slave name, maralidris, meaning loving golden heart...i love it and i adore HIm so much!! tY my Master...
its september 28th,2013 and today is Oour 13 month anniversary of my online collaring to my Master Rendclaw...Wwe have been RT once so far for 5 wonderful days and the journey with Him is just beginning..if its at all possible my love, my devotion, my desire to be by His side has intensified with time, and i look forward to life with Him..to some my collar is a "velcro" one, to me it has always been a commitment to the future... tY my Master for all that You are, for all that You do, for all that You feel for me, your loving slave..
these are my feelings and thoughts..i cannot speak for my Master..my journey into real time with my Master..
the anticipation began for me over nine months ago, when i was online collared and became a slave to my Master...with distance between U/us it would be a time when He could fly to me to meet...i was patient, tho always wanting to be with Him for real time..W/we continued to talk, n text..on yahoodle IM as much as possible, with feelings growing..as this time grew closer so did W/we..a date was set and when He told me about a month ago He booked a flight for june 5th..i was in the clouds somewhere, almost over the rainbow....the count down began,between He and i and even with ppl in chat ..the weeks were dwindling into days...and then the hrs...my butterflys began the night before...the next morning,as i lay in bed, i realized the day was finally here when He texted me He was at the airport getting ready to get on the plane for Dallas and He would let me know when He arrived there safely...i got the text at 8:23am He was in dallas... then another at 9:36am saying leving dallas to fresno where i would pick Him up...i was at the airport almost an hour early...waiting ...i sat outside awhile then went inside to wait about 25 min before His plane was to land...watching ppl around...my butterflys were in my tummy i was sooo excited...at 1:13 pm i saw His plane landing..coming down from the sky ever so slowly....i got emotional knowing He was on that plane and it brought tears to my eyes knowing in a few min He would be beside me all my feelings of love n the built up emotions from the past 9 months would be relieved with just His first touch...at 1:16 He texted taxing to gate...i watched the big screen tv monitor of ppl walking from planes...waiting...smiling...next He texted what He was wearing..finally at 1:20pm He texted got off the plane..i kept watching and then i saw Him on the monitor...i grinned ..i was soo ready to meet Him at last....i peeked around the corner and down the long walk way from the plane....at last i saw Him...as He approached He smiled and then His arms circled me and hugged me to Him..it was one of the best feelings of the day for me...then He kissed me...nothing overly sexual but softly n my heart melted...W/we walked hand in hand to the parking lot..after He had loaded His belongings into the trunk He turned to me and gathered me in His arms and our lips locked into an explosive passionate kiss...biting my shoulder lightly leaving a lil mark, He broke it off and said something like W/we need to save it for the hotel, love....my mind was in the clouds again...my hand trailed down His body lightly over the length of His desire as i went around to my side of the car, He chuckled...the ride didnt seem too long to the hotel....
im sure i was smiling all the way....once inside O/our room He unloaded the things from the luggage cart and said i will brb taking this downstairs...i took this time to use the restroom quickly and get undressed...when Master got back and saw me nekiid i think He was pleased..He smiled and came to me..hugging and kissing He took off His shirt and said I'm over dressed. dont you think?...i pushed His shorts down and as i bent to push them all the way, He sprung out to hit me in the face...i do believe my tongue trailed up its length as He told me to get on the bed...i did as i was told...opening to Him ..He took what was His, what He had claimed so many months before...in a wave of passion..intense pent up feelings being released from both of U/us...
over the next few days He took me, whenever
He wanted...sometimes slowly, sometimes forcefully,sometimes fast n furious like a rabbit, sometimes passionately, but always with love...He took me over the rainbow more than once and its a place where i want to be forever with Him...
this next part Master doesnt even know about, as far as i know, but will as soon as He reads it....
the day before He was leaving i was sitting on the bed drinking a cup of coffee as Master slept...He woke up briefly asking if i was alright, just one of many times during His visit that He asked,..physically i was fine...emotionally i was beginning the let down of His departure to come...i told Him i was ok...but after sat there crying softly..not letting Him know...(sorry my Master just wanted to not get you upset about how i was feeling)...W/we had the day and enjoyed each other more...late night the packing began...i think i was a lil somber but always told Him i was fine...at some point i decided to take a shower... W/we had to be up like around 430am to check out n go to airport.. as i stood in the shower my tears came and i cried...and i let the hot water wash them away not wanting to let Him know...i didn't take too long and got into bed...watching Him...i think He sensed my mood... and came to bed...snuggling close behind me...circling me with His arm...His touch ignited me ..as He gently and lightly massaged across my chest n nipples, i know i began wiggling a lil..and moaning softly...O/our last time was as intense and prob more so as the first and every one in between...but this one,.....was with the knowledge it would be the last for a while till W/we could be together again... my Master left me in a puddle(literally) of extreme happiness n bliss...i only can hope i did the same for Him in a Domely sense of speaking...
the ride to the airport wasn't easy for U/us...He understood.. W/we talked...i dropped Him off... W/we kissed and hugged ..and i didnt want to let Him go but...i knew this was going to happen...i tried not to cry so He wouldn't be upset, but He knew how i felt...He waited for me to drive past Him... W/we blew each other a kiss and i drove on....often for the next 45 min drive i blinked back tears.... but i made it home and... sat waiting to hear from Him...and i did at dallas... and i did when He arrived in MI...i love Him so.. i adore Him so.. He completed me ..He was more than i ever imagined Him to be...and O/our journey will continue...bound to Him forever..
i am happily owned by my loving Master, Rendclaw... no need to send messages of desires to have me as Your own..if You had read my profile all the way through You would have seen.. tY and enjoy Your time on cm
I am a newbie not only to this site but the lifestyle, as of march of 2012.. i am a 57 yr old straight submissive (male Doms only plz) in central cali.. and respectfully request no Doms into hardcore, blood drawings or beatings, needle play, knives, fecal play or mumification..contact me..for now these are my limits, however i am curious about many things and open to experimenting to see how far i can b taken into submission.......8.25.2012 my PMs are now for Rendclaw Sir and any friends i have made along the way.
i have never experienced real time with any Dom and feel virginal to all aspects.. I desire a long term relationship based on love, trust,honesty and mutual adoration from a connection beyond sex n passion.....talk to me first and grab my mind and the sensual, stimulating part of my submission will naturally shine thru...I am eager to please and make a Dom happy within any limits we so discuss and hopefully He will have the patience to train me and teach me how better to serve Him......8.25.2012 i am currently and happily in a relationship with Rendclaw.He is all the above to me and more. His patience,caring and understanding nature opened my heart to Him and i look forward to the future learning from,growing with, being nurtured by,guided by and serving Him.. 8.28.2012 Master online collared this slave of His... i am His mind,body,heart and soul and live to serve Him in all ways..
i chat in #sluts and request no PMs with the intentions of just Rp/cyber/scening... that has its place after its earned.. (smiles) and plz dont expect to order me about like i am owned by You .... I will not give You the time of day.... those things are also earned..... ty and enjoy Your experience on CM....
for any1 interested in hearing me i have made a short audio located in the journal....smiles
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its been a yr since Master collared me online as of today...its been a wonderful yr with Him...my love n devotion n desire stronger than ever for Him... tY my Master for all that You are...i adore You so much  |
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Wwe met online and He kept coming back..at first, it was only, idle chat, a hello satin and reply hello Sir. a how are You Sir, His reply i am well.
the room chat flowed as i viewed His profile, i smiled, tho thought, oh well not for me, but no harm talking as friends i would see.
as chat days went by He kept coming back and i smiled when i saw Him then sighed oh well! one day He made the bold move to pm,and my box lit up of chats with Him.
as time went by and friendship bloomed getting to know each other was easy, as my submissiveness showed, His Dominence prevailed tho never as sexual intent did Wwe go..
as my feelings for Him grew, and His interest still showed, i understood more of His lifestyle He lived, and distance in miles became closer within.
a chat with someone, made me realize, i adored this Dom that kept coming back. no matter the distance in miles that Wwe had,the love that i felt was to great to ignore.
as i shared my feelings with Him the first time, i knew i was beaming and bubbly inside.it came out of the blue and stunned Him i know, tho He felt the connection as i did too.
the pull was too great, Oour hearts joined as one,He has another and together Wwe are 3.
tho from Dom, to Sir, to my Master seemed quick, i have no doubt it was meant to be.
i adore Him so deeply, and my all is His, my heart, mind, body and soul i did give..
Oour journey began long before Wwe both knew,when He kept coming back, out of the blue.
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Below is what i titled my walk into the lifestyle..
my journey has been a slow evolving one over the yrs, considering i am 57 and just this past March, even realized there was a lifestyle..i always knew i was submissive in my ways with men...drawn to the more dominate men but relationships were always mundane and unsatisfying..i tried to make things work,staying married for 22 yrs...he was subtly controlling and cheated numerous times over the yrs..isolating me from ever having friends as i learned early on he would always hit on them, making me feel less than adequate..sexually i was bored, tho never complained..looking back i realize the inner me was wanting to come out, but never able to..i wonder now, if all my life and who i have become was affected by being raped at 19 by 4 guys...3 holding me down as the 4th had his way, then exchanging places..these were "friends" i grew up with and went to school with.. and...i always thought i was to blame putting myself in that situation..a little tipsy from drinking at the bar all night...a drive after it closed to a restruarant in a van with 5 guys(the driver didnt do anything but drive)..for whatever reason it happened...i dealt with it by just saying nothing..after all who would believe a girl who had sex with a lot of boys since age of 16(slutty behavior wouldnt u say)....so...it was easier to let it go...my mellow n meek nature never showed anger to them... i didnt hate them .. in Oct of 1998 i got my first webtv and the internet was introduced to me...i loved it..my marriage wasnt good..and...i found myself tho shy, turning to strangers, men to chat with.. so whatever reason they liked my personality, always honest and attentive, reading about their troubles and..many times giving into their cyber advances..eventually it lead into phone and letting myself go, having orgasms, i never knew i could have, with men i may have chatted with awhile and not just any1...many were dominate, in a vanilla sense, and they brought out my slutty submissive nature..my marriage kept spiraling downwards... i realized i was missing something..i "woke up" one day and just realized i had no love left for the man i married..with thoughts that perhaps i never really did...we went our separate ways, first separate bedrooms(tho he still came to mine when he felt like it and would get his way despite my telling him no)..then a div in 2001..i have no
animosity for him..i have no feelings for him...i had a live in bf till 2005 when he left., which was good, in the end as he never worked and drank all the time..(funny, when the money ran out cause doc had put me off work, so did he)..i have not had sex in real time life for 6 yrs...my choice..i have never found someone i want to become involved with, esp locally...online there has been many awesome men, but never brought to life..its ok... for i found my destiny in march...i was told about a site for BDSM by a Dom that had ventured into my vanilla chat world and,.i perked naturally at His screen name having DOM at the end...he PM ed me and we chatted a bit.. he invited me to the site and made me his friend..since then... my walk into this lifestyle has picked up..esp over the last week or so (thank You my Master)...i have talked to many Doms since march, i have chatted in a chat room and have come to understand more of the lifestyle and what i have been wanting, by reading a bit and just watching the chat...i believe almost from the get go i have chatted at intervals with my Master, in the recent months tho, it has been more frequent and meaningful..getting to know Him as a person, a man,a Dom and a Master..He has always been patient, and never pushy letting me take my time and evolve into my submissive nature with Him and even further His slave..it hasnt been all about sexually submitting to His desires or serving Him,but about 2 people wanting to share their inner most selves with each other within the lifestyle, a man, a woman , a Dom/Master, a sub/slave..He lets me be myself ..its been a slow, steady,wonderful awakening within me to realize my Master is who i have been seeking...when i look into His eyes i see the reflection of who i am becoming to Him...when i look at His smile i see the acknowledged pleasure that i give Him...when i chat with Him, when i speak with Him, my mind reels, my body responds, my heart swells, and my soul is alive....last night He online collared me as His slave. i now proudly wear His collar. i am His mind,body,heart and soul and look forward to the future in a poly family with He and tallyssinae, my sister... i love You, my Master. ty for who You are and seeing in me what i didnt even know was there.... |
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