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Male Switch, 58, memphis, Tennessee
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Male Switch, 59, graysville, Alabama
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Female Dominant, 50, Tampa, Florida
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About whatnowreally
Am starting to move forward in my life and submission. Things people might need to know about me is just because i am submissive doesnt mean i am a doormat, it doesnt mean that just because you place a Sir, Lord or Master title to your name i will respect you. Respect is something earned not a God given right. Am over all the fake people and the married men just wanting to play. Get real if you cant handle the way things are already in your life dont try to pull me in and fuck my life up as well.
I was married to my Sir for 20 years. He passed away this past Sept. I am carrying on and trying to figure out many things on my own now.
If you want to know more, ask i might tell you.
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Well only thing i did figure out was 2 big bottles of wine was way to much for me and gave me a killer head ache.
i am just lost and not sure where to look to find the fix for it.....but will keep hoping for the best
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Spending that night drinking wine and seeing what my mind comes up with.....could be scary but thinking i need a break tonight.....
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Just another one of those nights that seem to run into the days anymore. Just wished i could sleep like a normal person again. i wonder if i dont sleep due to not having someone telling me to do so. Everything is so different now. How do you go from totally having someone there controlling everything for you to not having that? i so hate having to make choices even on some of the smallest things. Like today it took me almost 2 hours to get dressed just because i didnt know what to wear.
Just trying hang in there this all has to get better some how.........
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Today i woke up in such a better mind frame here. Is finally starting to realize that enough though have suffered a big lost its ok for me to smile and try to be as happy as i can be. That for the first time in years am not under someones care, but have some kick ass friends that will look out for me and make sure am doing right.?
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Today has seem to be the worse day yet for me. There is some many things i dont want to do but know i should. Choices are just that and right now am choosing to lay in bed and just not do a damn thing. i just really wish things would seem easier instead of harder. seems like am missing Him more daily. ya i know i need to grieve but i also know i need to move on. Not sure how soon that moving on will be........
way depressed and heartbroken
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At times life can really toss you some nasty blows. i spent today trying to connect with my inner self. Looking for strength inside of me so i can handle everything i need to do. Just pray i stay strong through everything.
i am not into material items at all, i really enjoy the simple things in life. i love a laid back life style. am not scared to try new things. yes i drive a Bubba truck and i love it. Also own a truck that is used only to play in the mud with. You can dress me up to take me out, but isnt it more fun to stay home and spend time together?
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After 20 plus years am on my own again. This is a really confusing time for me since i never had to make choices for myself. Now i am and totally lost at times. Its really hard to decide even the smallest things to do. Have been going with what He always told me to do even though He isnt here.
Taking day by day right now till i figure out where the hell life is going to lead me next.
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