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To serve my MMaster is what I dream of
Serving him will be so special
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I am on here again
I spoke to my Master a few days ago. It was really nice to hear his voice but sadly I had a visitor so we could not tallk.
Every day I think of him and every day I want more and more to be able to serve him.
Thinking of him in using my ass while he ordered me to repeat my name over and over again.
One not so nice thought was when he asked me whom he was stupidly wasted my name realising that I had made the mistake be said to punish me would think of something appropriate.
Again and again he insisted I used my name but I had to pay attention he asked me again and he was this time I got it right.
As a reward you made sure I knew exactly who I was and what time was
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when my friend goes bacbk to Glasgow with her famiyy peaace will descend should be soon |
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I think my fMaster would enjoy this
I think it is the joining of previous conversations
I imagined he was here and ordered me to give him pleasure
As I did he spoke to me saying how disappointed he had been in a previous conversation was trying to concentrate on what I was doing but as he spoke I worried
Then he said he would have to punish the. I groaned and he said that would add more. I groaned again he said keep going on all adding more!
I was permitting now
He grabbed my hair and told me he drew back to punish me!
I did not know when?
Or what it wouldbe
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My Master I think he might laugh.
Having seen much sport and then I will see a friend she stayed and is still here
Now she is at thes hop
I miss my Master
A dream how I iserve him
I am away for a fortnnihght
miss him much alrdeady
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Brilliant!
I'm just got on the PC and the first thing I saw was a message on my Master
This will be a good day
I have someone arriving shortly but then my own imagination will allow me to think about how please my Master if he was able to visit me again
No doubt it will be only simple so I would have to make it as real pleasure for him |
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When one thing goes wrong many others follow!
And technology or computers seem to have a life that is their own.
Still now my machine is fixed I can perhaps enjoy it.
I enjoyed talking with my Master a little while ago its very strange that the sound of his voice is enough to make me so horny which doesn't do a lot for my frustration!
I instead have to content myself with just dreaming about what he could be like if ever I get to serve him.
Perhaps one day I will get the chance
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spoke tó my Master the other day now dreaming lots about how it could be............
dressed in good feminine way
perhaps a smart dress but neat no xfuss. We would have sorted out where and when he is a busy chap. I would be there organised toys ready for his pleasure and use. I was nervous bbut nnt scared like when we first met.
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I imagined him arriving gently but firmly diirectly ordering me to please him the way he wanted using whatever he wwanted so great to see and feel his pleasure with my mouth, and my ass whatever he chose |
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daydreaming again hope my Master would enj oy it ffor real!! |
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so would like chance to serve my Master in any way he wants |
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how strange that i should think somethhing then see it!! thanks tto a wbite
wish my Master would do this to me when i had served him well
i would serve him so well |
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At most wonderful thoughts of my Master.
Some time ago he asked me i what meeting in the like
This is something I thought about again
and I have very different thinking now
I can think now how much more I want to please him
I would want to be as good as I can be
And want him to know I am his slaave his property for his use
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Knowing that i will follow its orders taking a huge pleasure i want to pleasure and to satisfy him.
My Master's pleasure and satisfaction is my ambition. |
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loved thee new story on fav website loved the use
want to feel that !!!
miss myMaster |
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It seems very strange to be on here
Perhaps my Master has been on here but I can't tell? Perhaps not perhaps he is busy
Whatever I have had some very strange dreams and thoughts I am not sure why but mainly one-day I would not talk to him about them
The strangest seemed to be about something he wanted to do I seem to remember him saying this to me at the start that I don't know whether it still is choice
When I first heard this I was surprised at because I had to me out of this in relation to Amsterdam.
Perhaps he thought I was shocked or unaware that not on the someone is choice
I do not know how easily all with difficulty this could be achieved all quite how it fits in the context of BDSM all his choice or his preference
I also had the idea how much I would enjoy being able to be a feminine for him
That is not something I am used to and saw was very shocked chunk of |
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I think my Master is busy
I hope everything is all right
I long to be his whore |
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I think I get it when my Master was here I should have been more keen more eager to please him after all he could have stopped me may be that would be better
Maybe it would not?
Maybe just think so stupid I am............................
I so wish he would be give me another chance
I could use some of what I've learned about BDSM and about myself
I just had to pray maybe you'll give me another chance?
I just have to hope
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I got to think in the other day
It was after I had seen something
Maybe my Master didn't like how I was when he was here
I didn't want him to think I was too keen
But at the same time I didn't want him to think I wasn't bothered
The truth of course is was desperately keen and hugely appreciated the time he could spendd with me
It seems I got it all wrong
Stupid thats me
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Every day I think about my Master I think about how I could serve him, how I could make him pleased.
I want to do whatever it is that he wants.
A longtime I wasn't sure if that was what wanted I knew I wanted to serve him but with so much I didn't understand then I knew I needed to learn.
I wish I understood that he wants and how best I could do that for him
Maybe he is busy, maybe he is away
I just want to be his whore
In whatever way I can whenever I can |
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My Master asked me if I lovedhim?
I had to say no
I so regret this I think you might have offended in.
I wish it hasn't I didn't want to offend him other didn't want to lie to him that would be terrible and from.
I think the world off him he has always been really good to me
We should show him just what he means |
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want to please my Master now i undarstand me more.
i can do this so much better now just hope he lets me.
please let me show you Master
let me please you please |
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need some fun with my Master |
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thats how it should be fun! |
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hmm what a great comment after what i saw!
she said she had a lot of fun!
love to do this for my Master!!! |
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my God I have just woken up and realised that a web site that I used to visit has changed.
Now I can see some other scenarios that other people enjoy.
I know it's not me but it is good to imagine what it was?
In the end it didn't feel dirty or disgusting but I felt reassured that I wasn't the only one.
I really am looking forward to when I may speak to my Master.
I did have one worry that if he thinks I am a pervert?
I imagined the time he visited me to be in that sort scenario myself.............., then I had to stop. I could not have his permission to satisfy myself.
But wouldn't it be good if I did.
To be used in such a way and to nowhere was this is pleasure in the way the way I watched.
To have my head grasped firmly so I could serve him. And to be told my body was there to he
could use me in the way he wanted.
Of course I watched people getting enormous pleasure from this that is what I have always wanted perverse it might be put at least I know I'm not the only one.
I will try very hard not to imagine the feel of him rubbing my tits squeezing my nipples make me squeal. And then enjoying the rest of my body the way he wanted!
I will have the visit the site again but I will try and use a day that is bad.
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hurrah feeling better after a few days sick.
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Every day when I wake up and pretty much when I wake having fallen asleep through the day my first thought is how much I want to be able to serve my Master.
As I work through times of infection when I have solitary time I allow myself to dream of what it would be like to be able to serve him well.
I know he has allowed a little of his time even though we is busy.
But now I just want to be able to serve him well. |
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What an amazing weekend!
It's not that I saw my master that I could not believe just how intense I felt my frustration.
Whilst I was recovering from an infection which was probably why was so tired when he called last.
It was that I had the most intense thoughts no holds barred and imagined my being used by him every which way.
I think when we last spoke he had read of my frustration so he suggested that I might alleviate some of it by touching myself under his direction. I followed his orders but was even more frustrated when he had to go.
It was a good job that I was alone as the frustration was so intense I am sure anyone close by might have had to hear my frustration!
I feel a bit like an unexploded bomb ready to explode with my desire.
It is tortuous to feel this desire just under the surface every day.
If my Master was here I would beg and plead for some relief. I would do anything anything at all for him. |
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I spoke to him on Friday but because I was so tired I had to leave it. All I felt then was pathetic.
He had spared me the time to call me and I was so tired I could hardly string a few words together pathetic!
Mind you I did have the most spectacular dream about what it might be like for him to visit me and to use me.
Using my mouth, in every way
for whatever he chose.
And then using my ass for his pleasue whilst using my tits with his fingers.
Making me know I was just his to use and then leaving me begging him for more.
Spectacular |
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imagine being able to follow my Masters orders well............. heaven |
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I thought yesterday as every day about my Master. I was thinking about how best to serve him. I understand that his needs and desires on my concern. I do not want to disappoint him so I would do anything and everything he told me. I used to be unsure of this and I don't understand why it has changed but I have absolute conviction that whatever he ordered me to do I would do without question and to the best of my ability.
Whilst I was away I had the opportunity and time alone to reflect on this I found myself aching to hear his voice to follow his instruction in whatever way I could.
I thought about how he could choose to use my body for his pleasure.
I had to stop because I could feel my desire for pleasure becoming difficult. This frustration is hard.
It always makes things difficult when I want to think about him and as soon as I do my body reacts but I dare not let it as that is against his orders.
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Was thinking about my Master over the last few days. It was because I saw a picture on web site that made me think of something he had said the other day. I imagined myself in the same position and how much he would enjoy it.
I also was thinking about our conversation the last time. I wondered if I had disappointed him with what I said.
I hold him in such high regard and with the way he has such an able manner with this lifestyle he obviously knows a huge amount about it.
I look forward so much to being able to serve him in whatever way he chooses.
Whilst I am away in the next few days I will look forward to another occasion when perhaps he may allow me a little relief from the frustration. |
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calm and assured thats the manner of my Master such ability how i long to serve him more |
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For the first time in a long time I slept nearly six hours!!
When I woke up I marvelled at this. And for a while I pondered on why it was so.
Then it struck me why this was for the first time in a long time I was worrying about anything. I felt at sease.
It was because when my Master last spoke to me he had said I was of value to him.
How wonderful how absolutely wonderful.
I am not a silly person but I felt warm and comfortable to know that my Master valued me.
It gave me strength |
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What a good week it has been not only did I get to do the therapy I wanted better than that my Master called me. Was a fabulous day.
We spoke on a variety of things that was really good.
He asked me how I felt about him.
I said I really valued him as my Master because of the way he approaches it.
It was wonderful to speak to him I just hope I did not upset him by anything I said. That will be really terrible.
He explained to me about the mental side of this. That had always confused me that he did make it easier to understand. I think this side of it would be really good to explore a little more.
I think he also understood my frustration and they've got to play a little.
All in all a fabulous day |
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To serve my Master is all I desire. If we can have some fun while I am doing so then all the better. This lifestyle can be very sombre and serious and I have enough of that in my life. So enjoyment of fun and laughter would be the order of the day.
When I think of being with my Master it always makes me smile and sometimes I laugh when he asked the things that I had experienced. I did say not enough and he laughed I would so enjoy making him laugh again. Not at him probably more at myself that it would give me such pleasure to both please him and make him smile |
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To serve my Master is all I desire. If we can have some fun while I am doing so then all the better. This lifestyle can be very sombre and serious and I have enough of that in my life. So enjoyment of fun and laughter would be the order of the day.
When I think of being with my Master it always makes me smile and sometimes I laugh when he asked the things that I had experienced. I did say not enough and he laughed I would so enjoy making him laugh again. Not at him probably more at myself that it would give me such pleasure to both please him and make him smile |
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I had some really erotic dreams of my Master last night. I wonder if the frustration I feel and not being able to serve him is similar to how it feels to be in bondage and unable to stop whatever is happening.
I cannot play with myself without my Master's permission this is tortuous
if only he was here?
My Master taught me a lot about myself a while ago and the sorts of things I enjoy. Not being able to do any of these things is very hard i so long to serve him |
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I spoke to my Master last week he has this unnerving ability to make me feel so great.
We discussed a few things but again I was left feeling how much I want to serve him.
In all this time he has never been specific on what he would want me to do? I do not know why this is what I do know is that whatever it was I would do. In fact in all my time what matters to me most is how best I could serve him.
I suppose this would sound strange to someone else.
But as his property I have come to understand that is what he wants that matters to me. And my objective is to see he is satisfied.
I long to serve him in whatever way I can please let it be soon |
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My Master phoned me yesterday it was so good to hear his voice.
I knew I was a bit tired but just hearing his voice energised me!
If he had arrived then I am sure serving him would give me endless energy.
We spoke for a little while I hope I didn't bore him too much but it did strike me just how much it matters to me that I serve him well. I know about all things in the way but for a while in fact for a number of conversations it is not like I am choosing to serve him I simply serve him. There is no question about it you would simply happen.
I had wondered about the previous conversation when we discussed in taking over more of my life?
Stupidly I had talked rubbish and wasted time so here had to go he is so busy what a dummy!
Maybe next time I will remember |
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Since a spoke to my Master the other week I now am filled with thoughts and dreams about how better I could serve him.
I know i must work hard to be in a position to serve him well.
I dreamt the other night such a glorious scenario. I wish you could be so.
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I wanted to write this down in case I forgot it.
It was only a dream.
My Master had said he might have time to see me. Naturally I was excited..... very excited. But there was no word. I was in bed early because of other stuff. And they started to dream (I think it was a dream).
I thought I heard the door go.... but in the sleepy state I wasn't sure............ then I heard swift footsteps and the door open. It was him!
He moved swiftly about the bed. I looked up in the care anticipation.
I knew that whatever my Master wanted I would do my body owned by him was his to use as he saw fit. To use me abuse me in whatever way he chose was my objective. This was a really happy day such a happy day to be used by my Master. |
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WOW what a week it has been! Not only did I hear from my Master I also heard that I have been correct all along about this ridiculous condition.
For a long time I have said that exercise is the key to feeling better. It has been ridiculed by every doctor and medic who has been unfortunate enough to encounter me.
Obviously some boffin has now decided this was correct. And because they are eminently more qualified than me they are correct!
But my attention was more focused on what my Master said.
He has spoken of many things but this really got my interest he was talking about a gag I think he said a ring gag. Having now that these are only w#ish it is because I cannot wait to be in his presence wearing this and feeling him using me and knowing that he will be able to enjoy me serving in the best way I can. I am almost longed to the falls in this way. I have always want to be used by him and knowing that that's all I am your slave. To feel his hands on my body and to hear his orders will make life complete!
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hurray!
phone call from my Master!!
do anything for him anything |
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I still have not heard from my Master and cannot get an e-mail to him. I seem to get the most horrible phone calls so I now can only answer when there is someone else in the house. This is really difficult as I spend much time alone.
Last night was a positive revelation and the something I really really want to talk to him about. It is not rocket science but just the confirmation that my body is crying out for him, to be used by him tested by him and pushed in any direction he chooses.
It was such a revelation and to think that I could have had so much more fun when I was younger!!
I so need my Master |
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I am devastated I spoke to my Master couple of weeks ago and I have e-mailed him but the e-mails were returned.
I do not know his listing on here I think that is the way he preferred it. But now I do not know how to get a message to him.
I know because family stiuff has been really difficult recently it is not ideal. But now I just feel isolated and on my own.
I do not know if he still comes here I hope so I miss talking to him so much.
I do hope there was nothing wrong he was such a good Master I am lost without him |
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