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| i am single, intelligent, effeminate, a larger bbw, 5-4, 245lbs, an active, social, fun, stylish and funny woman.
i am looking for a friend and lover to engage in further exploring this new identity of mine as a sensual submissive.
my new found need compels me to find a masculine man whom i respect, connect, and can develop a relationship of mutual trust and feel safe with. a man who inspires me to follow.
i am looking for someone who seeks one. if i had to define what i look for i'd say a Daddy Dom, but have had a beautiful experience with a Master as well. but i am only just beginning to learn about this lifestyle and will not label or limit you or myself. i know that i need to develop a relationship in real time only and with a true local.
i know that i need to nurture, and be nurtured. i need to care for and be cared for. i need to adore and be adored. i need to be given structure, i need to be handled, i need to belong to another.
i am not oriented towards bondage or pain but pleasing. i find that there is value in a vanilla life. that my desire to please is completely relative to the person. a desire that will come after chemistry is established. in being in a relationship where i am nurtured, cherished and feel safe, the possibilities are endless.
my journey is just beginning and i welcome new friends and a new community to in which to grow and share these eperiences with. in every area of my life i seek out relationships of understanding. real world, real life, real time only. that is my one boundary that i will never depart from again.
i have come to the conclusion people tell you what they want outright. and they tell you what they are capable of whether passively or outright as well.
i feel very much like i need Him whoever he will be, to lead our journey, to be the thoughtful one, responsible, attentive and intuitive...as i am everywhere else in my life. to be keyed into me. to be concerned about what is right for me. but to be realistic about living our respective lives until they are truly one. being well in them and accomplishing what it is we want to accomplish. supporting You. but being responsible to myself so that i can support you. understanding all of this.
my desire to trust, my inclination to be myself at all times, my natural availability to the people around me my desire to please...has risks. and has put me in emotional jeopardy. but i do not fear these risks.
the 36 year journey to this place leading me to my sensual submissive nature has led me to leap indeed...like a child in a candy store...i want it, i want it, i want it. i have regressed. it is okay, but i need to be aware. i want my daddy dom, i wait for my master...
i have conceded to my cunt on more than one occasion...despite my best intentions. my pussy grows easily wet and my body always responsive when i am present.
one who seduces my mind quickly gains access to my body...one step back...
it is the emotional journey that i seek. the emotional release to another that makes me submissive. it is the desire to please one who Can command my attentions, my mind...
i need to be with someone with whom i am striving, with whom we will create a dynamic that takes us to the emotional place of complete safety that we both need and cherish. a place where i will release my mind, body and sexuality completely... i can't imagine...or clearly i can...
funny. my heart aches for it as my cunt pulsates for it. it is perhaps the only thing i actually sexually fantasize about. what it may be like to be in that space with another human being...
i ache for that moment.
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