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ArmoredRose
TL:DR: AFAB (Assigned Female At Birth) Non-Binary who uses He/They Pronouns. Masochist, who follows PRICK philosophy, in search of sadists. My philosophy around play totes awareness of my limits. I am ethically non-monogamous(ENM). I live on the east coast. I do have a preference for people who I can easily travel to by a short plane ride or train. I am open to the idea of anyone living in the continental U.S. and Canada. That said if we cannot communicate and find commonality in the vanilla sense, getting my ass beaten by you won't magically make the relationship work. This has been my lifestyle for over 17+ years and is an integral part of who I am. I also am spiritual and religious. I am a trained pastor who focuses on Sacred Sexuality. If you don't feel comfortable about Western Church, or can't tolerate it in the slightest, we probably are not a good match. You may be wondering about my handle name on here. I had been hoping for an easy solution to change it but it does not seem like there is an easy way of changing names. My name is not connected to Germaine Greer. I came up with my name, at the time, because the Eunuch in the bible is the first known non-binary individual. The role of the Eunuch was to be a non-sexual person in service to a ruler. Castration may or may not be part of it considering your interpretation.
What Am I Interested In? I am a psychological, emotional, and physical masochist. I am an edge player, enjoy certain taboos, and am careful and discerning in what I do with whom. I love humiliation, objectification, and degradation. I am in search of someone who can look me straight in the eye and know, without a doubt, that I am both scared shit about what will happen next and willing to step over that edge when the moment is right. Over time I have realized that I have an alpha personality in the way that I am pretty independent and in control of many areas of my own life. I want someone who can be a few steps ahead of me, while having fantastic humor and fostering connection, making me feel affirmed. I am kind of like a cat - I do not deal well in a hierarchy structure where another alpha who identifies as submissive tries to do what I see as "one-up-me". I will usually back off and do my own thing for a while. Additionally - I love making friends on this site and have been on this site for a while. I am open to long-term conversations. For a quicker response please name your favorite kink-based book in your initial message to me. Those who do not "up" their chances of not receiving a response from me.

Thinking of experimenting (maybe long-term, maybe temporary) of just viewing profiles and seeing who responds to me. Kind of a speak-when-spoken-to type protocol. 

I've come to realize that a kink of mine, using "it" pronouns, in regard to ob ject ification and recognizing that I am an has really started to become ingrained. I've been feeling awkward using the word "it" with others because I've been the topic of ridicule before in a Discord chat. 

People who are comfortable using the term, who enjoy using the term, who want to have an "it" is who I am looking for. That doesn't suspend my expectation that people will read my profile. My profile provides a lot of information about me and I absolutely know when people don't read it.

The more I think about the pronoun and persona, the more I know that it's going to be a long term kink.

I'm noticing I need to spell this out since my profile likes isn't obvious enough. I have very little interest in sex. In fact, I connect better with people who enjoy keeping someone in long-term chastity or orgasm denial than someone who wants their partner(s) to have orgasms. 

I am on the Ace Spectrum - I may experience sexual attraction, and I may even get turned on by certain conversations or ideas. but this is more of an exception rather than a regular occurring event. I most likely don't want to have sex with you or be made to orgasm by you. I don't need to be fixed or trained either. 

I'm quite okay with my inability to get turned on and as a good friend explains asexuality - I am more likely going to get more excited over a bowl of freshly popped popcorn than the idea of having sex. 

However, if you are someone who truly, and I mean TRULY, is interested in orgasm denial and chastity please feel free to reach out to me.  Eventually, with enough teasing, and edging, with someone who knows how I get turned on, I turn into a puddle of pathetic beggingness for an orgasm and THAT is hot to me. 

I'll be sincerely honest and say that I fail pathetically at "sexy talk". I am on the acespectrum a bit, along with some past catholic trauma from growing up catholic, I've never really developed an ability to do sexy talk. That said, I'm developing a bit of a kink when talking to someone that I am comfortable with and they start doing sexy talk and all I can do is reply to show an acknowledgement while I sit there and take it.  Those who loves doling out orgasm denial gets bonus points.

As someone who doesn't deserve an orgasm, National Orgasm Day (July 31st in the US) is quite the act of humiliation! 

Not sure why I would need to say this - but alas, I do - if you reach out merrily to "fat shame" and complain that I am requesting a piece of information so I know you are reading my profile, then why waste your time if you do not I think I am worthy of your time???

 

 

I regularly get messages asking me what I consider edge play or what is an "extreme" scene that I have done. A few thoughts on this. First, and most importantly, my adventures are no one else's fapping material. I have met people off this site before, but that is more of an exception than a regularity. Sharing something like a story, which is very intimate, or a scene, is asking a lot right off the bat and is something that no one is entitled to.

What is considered edge is going to be different for each of us? I am not here to one-up on someone or compare sausages. What is taboo to me? Having someone viewing another person on camera might not seem hardcore, but having cameras set up 24/7 to view on-demand is.  Going out to dinner may not seem hardcore, but my footing the bill can be edgy. Humiliating play may not be edgy, but when you consider mental health, it can be as sharp as a physical knife edge.

If you are not on the same wavelength as I am, you will miss the subtleties of how sharp my edge is. 

Frequently Asked Question:

What is PRICK?

Since it seems that there is a lack of ability to google the words "PRICK" and "BDSM":

Personal

Responsibility

Informed

Consensual

Kink

Many years ago, I was talking to someone on Collarspace and they knew I was, and am, into dehumanization/humiliation play. Hardcore.

I received an email asking me what today was, and being aware that it was International Women's Day, I responded as so. The response that followed was something in the ballpark of since I was sub-human, an to a point, a piece of property, that I must feel pretty humiliated realizing how low I am compared to women who deserve to be recognized on this day.

And it was so deliciously humiliating, degrading, and twistedly hot to me that 5-6 years later, I still remember the interaction.

For those who are wondering:

Yes  - I am biologically female. 

Yes - The photo in my profile is me. 

Yes - My anatomy is natural. I did have a hysterectomy due to female reproductive issues. I have photos of my uterus and ovaries if there is any question about my anatomy.

My pronouns - He/They. Calling me "young lady" or "miss" is in fact misgendering. It is not a show of respect/politeness when you know what my pronouns are.

When was the last time my profile update - 01/08/2023

 

Recently I decided to start looking for a Dominant/partner(s).

I am Ethically Non-Monogamous and happily so. I am sure, with that hitch, that finding the Dominant I am looking for will be challenging.

This July, after getting therapy for 2 1/2 years, I woke up one morning wondering if I had gotten it "wrong." This wasn't for the lack of trying. I've attempted a power dynamic four different times.

What if I was attempting to fit myself into a container created by stereotypical spiel of what a submissive is? The spiel is that you must have a 24/7 relationship to be happy. And there was a sure way to do power dynamics and a specific way not to do power dynamics.

During my time of hiatus in relationships, I've explored a lot. I've developed a sweet co-parenting kinky caregiver arrangement with two individuals, a sadomasochism connection with a good friend, and an exploration of what makes me happy. This week while I have been lying in bed thinking about missing having someone hold me accountable for reading and writing book reports. I was part of this dynamic a while ago in a recent relationship. I came to love the expectation and being expected to do this, but the connection was riddled with potholes and unhealthy manipulation. The slave practice of this is what a friend describes as an Academic Power Slave.

I'm going to need to unpack this more. I have already had someone reach out and ask me what I am looking for right now. I can say that I am not looking to "hook up" with someone to get a perceived need met and fulfilled quickly.

What I am looking for, what I do know, is that I am looking for four things.

  • I am looking for someone(s) who wants to have a committed relationship with me. 
  • Who is looking for non-traditional services, like a concierge and specialized services.
  • Who has their mental health and ducks in a row and puts continuous work on themselves.
  • Who is comfortable and affirming non-monogamy.

Earlier this past year, I made the big decision to get a total hysterectomy, except for my right ovary, this fall. Friday was the day, and I came out on the other end happy about my decision. It's a challenge being non-binary already, having people question my biological gender, and knowing that I have taken most of my "lady suite" out. That said, without a doubt, I now have images if someone indeed argues with me about my own body.

And I have seven days of sitting here, thinking about what kink means and what this means moving forward.

I've changed my profile a bit, after almost a decade of self-discovery. I woke up one morning this summer and said, aloud, "What if I been doing it wrong for 15 years?" What if I am trying to fit into something that isn't living my authentic truth or self?

One thing that hasn't changed - I certainly love subtle ways of humiliation and ification. Seeing the glowing red that someone has viewed my profile or have admired me still stirs my introverted soul into blush.

To clear up some answers before you reach out.

I am a Bigger Person. I am around 290 in weight and have put a lot of energy, time, and effort into myself. I go to a nutritionist every other week, stick to my meds, and have no issue with my size.

If you are not into me at 290 (about 30 pounds lighter than earlier this year), then I will not be into YOU when I am lighter than 290. 

I am biologically female, Assigned Female At Birth, and identify as non-binary.

I am no longer in a power dynamic.

I am looking for people interested in a non-traditional service submissive with particular specialties.

I have realized I am more of an alpha personality because if there is too much drama/ multiple alphas, I will back off and do my own thing. I am loyal as fuck but independent as well.

I am looking for Sadists who enjoy physical, emotional, and psychological play while being aware of their mental and physical health. I am aware of my mental health; I expect you to be mindful of yours.

 

Recent thoughts and experiences have led me to think of using my vacations as a time to go travel, visit sadists and Dominants, and have nice getaway trips for sound beatings and short-term power dynamics. Unsure how this would look, but I think it would be the best use of the ample vacation time I seem to get at work. Who else would be interested?

I am presently not owned. I have had interesting experiences in the past few years, and I am taking my time looking for the special person(s) whom I fit very well with. My interests have changed since I’ve written my profile, and my interests have grown.

  •  I am looking for people who enjoy corruption sexually.
  • Those who love engaging in humiliation and degradation.
  •  Individuals who are looking for “untraditional” service submission. I may not be able to remember to check if you need drinks regularly or breakfast, but I bring other skills and talents to the table. My skills include butler service, administrative assistant, massage, cooking, and baking.
  • Those who love non-monogamy and loaning out submissives.
  • Out-of-the-box creative sadists.

Please note that I want things to progress and meet up with individuals. The long-term goal should be to have an actual relationship. Things work out best with well-humored individuals who appreciate sarcasm and are skilled at being relatively evil, petting my hair and saying I’m such a good girl while pressing pressure points, bringing me to the floor.

I'm a pretty intense personality that doesn't suffer fools. In addition to the possibility (I find it a bit of a slim one at that) to play, I am always interested in talking to reasonably intelligent people and especially those involved in polyamorous relationships.  

You can offer me the world, you can offer me "Yessing" to every one of the twisted kinks I mention, it may even be your worse nightmare or your biggest fantasies. 

That's not what I am looking for and the average viability is days.

  • Are you prepared for the long haul conversation? 
  • Are you prepared that these conversations may result in play but probably will not?
  • Do you get bored from meaningful conversations that have nothing to do with play or kink?
  • Do you understand that within the first few days if you start a conversation with me about sex I'm not interested?
  • Do you understand that I am poly?
  • Are you okay that I have an Owner, who is aware that I am on this site, and a local partner at the moment?
  • Are you able to understand that D/s can exist in poly relationships? That no one is/will be trying to tell you what to do? 
Voyeurism and Humiliation (At its finest!)


I always find the act of seeing the bright red bold of Who's Viewing Me, Admirers, or being asked to approve a "friend" to be juicely humiliating. I have no control who adds me and It's a reminder that I'm really a piece of meat to be admired and watched.
Like a Misspelt Tattoo (except a Handle Name!)

After learning that my beloved Craigslist has decided to no longer be in the personal business, which is both good and bad for many reasons, I came back on hoping to clean up my profile a bit to attract more sadists in Vermont, New England Area, and Beyond. 

Showing my millennial age here... I feel like Kurt Hummel with his tattoo of "Its Get Better" rather than "It Gets Better". I guess, in this case, however, I spelled it perfectly though.... this gets complicated.

What's in a name? Well... I can say what is in my name is wrong at this point. Not wrong, more like growth. I am seeking sexual experiences at this point, still non-monogamous, and still humiliation slut. 

Thinking you may know me from other places? You can view my information at:
Fetlife under KLS
Seven Days Personals under CallMeParker
On Bumps, Snags, and Red Flags: 
I have more than one person who has asked how I can still be single after being on this site for so many months, with my profile, and my appeal to others...

So I start having a conversation with an individual or a couple. They seem really great. They seem like people that I comfortable with. So why am I still single? Even though things look great on a screen or paper I can tell, I can sense, when something is not going to work out well because I've been through the gauntlet a few times.

We may have a show stopper early on. I may find you attractive, you may find me attractive, but I am not aware you are attached. It may be hidden on your profile a bit (there but not really there) and at that point I need a dead stop. I am starting to get into an area of Celibacy and Chastity that I cannot avoid. I have taken a "vow" on those two things and I need to recognize and respect that vow.

We may be chatting for a while. We have lengthy conversations, we have daily correspondence, we are having good chemistry. Something happens in your life. Your reactions tell me a lot about what it may be like to be with you during those times. Things happen, things come up that are unavoidable, what we do during those times speaks lengths about a person. If it is something that we can progress through together, have healthy communication on together, be present together then that really is going to attract me. If it's something that makes a person disappear for weeks on end I am going to lose interest. What happens if we are in a relationship and something happens? Does that mean the relationship will be stopped?


On Celibacy & Chastity:
I have more than one person who has asked how I can still be single after being on this site for so many months, with my profile, and my appeal to others...

I have expectations. I don't use this site just for sex, in fact, sex is the farthest from my mind right now, I look for something other than sex when I start talking to someone.

If you take a look under my "live for" Christianity is on the list. I am extremely liberal as a Christian, if not I would not be on this site, but one of the things I do practice is celibacy and chastity right now. If the two terms together is a show stopper for you immediately, without wanting to know the definition, then we may not actually be meant for each other no matter how awesome of a submissive I may be.

Chastity (for me) is the definition of forming authentic relationships with my fellow human beings. If you contact me while you are attached that does not put you "out of the running". However, if you contact me, while attached, while your partner doesn't know you are contacting others, it does "put you out of the running." In that instance, we are not going to be able to maintain a healthy honest relationship. We probably won't be able to plan things for the future, if you leave your partner then a committed relationship is being destroyed, and I don't want to be involved in that either.

  • Does this mean sex is not in the picture at all? Absolutely Not. 
  • Does this mean I am open to talking about a sexual relationship? Absolutely Yes.
  • Does this mean I am open to talking to everyone about a sexual relationship? Absolutely Not.
  • Does this mean that sex is a possibility? 100% with confidence I can say Yes; Yes, it is.

I do not require my partner to be Christian. I do not require my partners to be part of an organized religion. I do want to have partners who have some sense of spirituality. However, I do look for partners for support in my way of understanding my own sexuality.


How do I know I am going to be compatible with someone if we aren't sexual or talk about sex? I have been active sexually in my early twenties. I know what I like, I am extremely kinky when I find someone that I want to be with, and I have a good sense if compatibility will be there. I would hope that any long-term partner values compatibility outside of the bedroom more than inside of the bedroom.


Housekeeping Information
Tips on getting a response from me, or if you are more daring an actual conversation:

Good thing to note ---> If you are a couple or a Dominant, you send me a fairly well-written email, your profile interests me, etc.  I most likely will be interested in at least becoming friends with you and chatting.  The distance may be a bit too much to handle but I am always interested in finding like-minded couples who have the same type of personalities and kinks I have just as friends! 

  • Important: No married men who are looking for an affair
  • Important: I realize that I have a rare view of what I want in a relationship.  I also realize that there are a good amount of people who disagree with me.  I am able to explain why I seek what I seek but no long-winded debates, please.
  • I practice ethical polyamory.  Meaning no matter what type of dynamic that will be formed I do expect open communication esp. when there are other partners involved.  D/s is a dynamic, not a relationship, a relationship is a stand alone process.
  • I am not interested in Polyfidelity.  I am most comfortable in a closed poly relationship of 3-4 people, in an open poly structure with individual relationships, and for the rare person who makes me head over heels, I may consider monogamy.
  • Relocation, although perhaps for the very right person in a very specific case, is not my ultimate goal.  I am looking for partners who also want long distance relationships, who love to travel and would like a nice "winter apartment" near some fantastic skiing in the winter time.
  • I often enjoy deep, penetrating, questions and those who are able to challenge me are the ones that often I find the most enticing.  I search for individuals who want to "rape my mind" and bring me to a place of uncertainty. There are certain phrases that let me know when I am at the point of questioning my own sanity speaking to someone and those are the times where I am figuratively able to be brought to my knees.
  • I often respond during the evenings- I may open mail during the day- but I am often more "free" to respond during the evening hours.
  • "Testing me" to see a reaction or get a "read" will only lead you getting an email to read with a mouthful- I'd suggest not trying your luck.
  • While I appreciate all of the cuckolds who are looking for "like-minded" friendships. I don't have a lot of time to "cultivate" friendships on here.  If you are submissive and you are contacting me I would ask you to think about WHY you are contacting me before you do so.  
  • No individuals who live in another continent.  Let's be realistic here.  I am not planning on moving halfway around the world and in this election season why would ANYONE want to move to the US?
  • No One Liners!
  • Remember:  You are reading a very brief deion that I have written here of a very complex, complicated, and deep person.  I probably have a personality, a life, stability, a job even (who knew?)  The best way to correspond with me is to actually start a conversation and introduce yourself

I am a submissive in general, personality wise, and that makes me happy.  I am not a slave to everyone who messages me. Till a dynamic is agreed upon I am a female, who has a submissive personality, ideally chatting with an individual with a Dominant personality.  The term "slave" is a vocational term to me, someone who feels called to that, someone who needs that to fill fulfilled, someone who wants to lay themselves at the feet of a chosen other.

 

I go by the belief that men are superior to women. For those who "swear by" the Men's Right Movement

, I am interested in hearing from you  I have been looking for more information on male superiority, other than ROK which after reading their website I take a lot of offense to and sounds like uneducated idiots who want to get their jollies off.  For those who are scratching their heads strongly suggest checking out the link and also listening to Karen Straughan

 who is one of the better advocates I've heard of. 
Supposedly today is International Women's Day (3/8/16).  This got brought to my attention by someone who said that this would be the perfect day for me.  It developed a somewhat deep fantasy of Dominants reaching out to me today asking me what I think of particular strong women and why it's improper to have a day celebrating women.  It is good humiliation fodder if only that.
My thoughts go to Persian Flaws... Persian tribe members worked together to weave carpets that would tell their story of trials and tribulations. Just one princely Persian carpet would take years to complete with help of many tribe members to achieve a perfect Persian carpet. The Persians believed only God or a higher power was perfect in all aspects and to show this carpet makers would intentionally place flaws or mistakes in the carpet. (https://medium.com/persian-empire/persian-flaw-81ccec023fe3#.3yh6pouuw)
Frequent Question #1 and Answer: Will you do Female Genital Mutation?


I have been messaged more than once by individuals asking me if I will consider Female Genital Mutation.  The short and sweet answer is No.  No I will not consent to FGM nor would I go into a relationship where I honestly thought FGM was a real possibility.

I try not to "rain" on anyone's fetish parade here.  I know that there are a lot of weird fetishes out there, that's why we are in fact the kink community, but I do have my reasons for not approving of FGM.

For me when I decide whether or not it's a kink I can "accommodate" I look at what I call SELCHS:

Sane (Can I imagine anyway of explaining it which will sound sane twenty years down the line): Absolutely not.  I have no doubt that there is a good possibility any partner who suggests, or actually goes through, with FGM may not stick around till I die.  I will be left with your actions- you will go on and fuck someone else.

Effectiveness (How much of a possibility that I am going to be persuaded to do other things for my partner): Not much of a possibility there.  Like I think this would be negative possibility.  

Legal: As mentioned in my profile I will not be moving/visiting another continent just for the "possibility" of a relationship.  In Mexico, as far as I can find, there is no legislation on FGM.  However for my peeps in the US or Canada:
  • In United StatesFGM has been a crime under federal law since 1996 and is punishable by up to five years in prison. In 2013, the Transport for Female Genital Mutilation Act amended this law to outlaw “vacation cutting,” the practice of taking a girl overseas for the procedure.  (In other lingo: sorry folks in Mexico- it would still be illegal for me)
  • In Canada: As a result of the growing recognition of FGM as a violation of human rights, in October 1994, the then Ministry of the Solicitor General and Correctional Services

    [30]
     issued a memorandum to all Chiefs of Police and the Commissioner of the Ontario Provincial Police, explaining that FGM is a criminal offence, and informing them of the investigative and charging procedures for offences related to FGM. The Ministry of the Attorney General also sent a memorandum to all Crown Attorneys on the prosecution of charges related to FGM.In May 1997, the federal government amended the Criminal Code and included the performance of FGM as aggravated assault under section 268(3).

    [31]
     Under the Criminal Codeany person who commits an aggravated assault is guilty of an indictable offence and is liable to imprisonment for a term not exceeding 14 years.

    [32]
     A parent who performs FGM on their child may be charged with aggravated assault. Where the parent does not commit the act but agrees to have it performed by another party, the parent can be convicted as a party to the offence under section 21(1) of the Criminal Code.

    [33] (http://www.ohrc.on.ca/en/policy-female-genital-mutilation-fgm/4-fgm-canada)
Consequences (What can happen) and Health (how will this affect MY health):  Normally I would separate these two but the consequences are a lot to do with health on this once.  Obviously, the non-health consequence, is that there is jail time involved any which way we do this- I'm not interested in going to jail.  
  • Mental Health: The researchers conclude that female genital mutilation is “likely to cause various emotional disturbances, forging the way to psychiatric disorders, especially PTSD”. They state that the high rate of PTSD of more than 30% in the FGM group compares to the rate of PTSD of early childhood abuse (which ranges between 30% and 50%). (http://www.who.int/reproductivehealth/topics/fgm/mental_problems_and_fgm/en/)
  • Severe Pain (Like not good pain people- this is not hot sexy pain)
  • Excessive Bleeding (Haemorrhage)
  • Genital Tissue Swelling
  • Fever
  • Infections e.g. tetanus
  • Urinary Problems
  • Wound health problems
  • Injury to surrounding genital tissue
  • Shock
  • Death (FGM is not a kink "awesome worthy" enough for me to die for it)
  • Scar Tissue and Keloid
  • Increased risk of childbirth complications
(http://www.who.int/mediacentre/factsheets/fs241/en/)

Safe (self-explanatory): 
(Uh no.  No it's not.  I really favor the fact that I don't have issues with my ladybits.

I hope this has demystify the question for anyone who may want to ask me that.  Yet again as a repeat of my simple answer: No.  No I will not let you cut off ladybits from my body.
To Sum Me Up

If you are ever wondering who you may be reading about, where my ideas come from, who I am, I invite you to peruse hopefully this ever growing list of what I find hot, sadistic and twisted in a way that I would probably try it at least once if not more than once.  Feel free to ask me questions if ANYTHING catches your interest!

Oxford definition of a Eunuch: An ineffectual person

Definition of Ineffectual: lacking the ability or qualities to cope with a role or situation

 "Person" comes from the latin "persona", which means "a theatre mask", i.e. a fictitious, make-believe identity for the purpose of a play

I would strongly suggest reading about the Stanford Prison Experiment

or watching Das Experiment

(you can turn on closed captioning with translation since it's in German) to understand a LOT what I view as some of the best mindfucking I know.
 From The Craft                                                                                                            Driver

: Girls watch out for the weirdos.                                                                  
Nancy

: We are the weirdos, mister.     

To get a better idea of how sick I am this lifetime movie would describe my thinking in so many ways: Kept Woman- BEST LIFETIME MOVIE MINDFUCK EVER!