O.k. so why not journal about all the crazy things that go through my  head? I guess it's as good a format as any others, so what the hell. Basically I am just a guy looking for friends that can help me navigate trough this crazy maze of conflicting feelings that i have. i have never been in a true real time relationship and have always wanted to experience what that would be like. Not a one night stand or gee let's get our rocks off. i have met some nice people here and some very rude people as well. I guess in a nutshell it would be nice to meet a real woman that likes dressing and shopping and also mentoring someone that is new to most everything. A girlfriend who is a femdomme?

i say girlfriend because i am married and i make that a priority in my life and don't want to hurt that but i also have this need to explore this other side of the world. Once we can establish some friendship and trust i would be more than willing to explore meeting and taking things to a new level but first i need some real people to make contact with that might also have the ability to mentor another.