Thanksgiving

For years, I have been thankful for my family. Immediate family that is. I will always be thankful for them no matter what is said or done between us all.

This year they have been bumped. The person I am most thankful for: My Sir/Master. When I starting conversing online with Him, I had no clue that He would become so dear to me. I had no idea that I would fall so head over heels with Him at first sight and so deeply.

Despite being a romantic fool at heart (avid romance novel reader), I had a hard time believing in 'love at first sight'. Lust at first sight, yes! While I am a Romantic, I am cynical to a certain degree. Being what in this society classifies as overweight (which medically it is, but I think curves are healthier than skin and bones) with glasses and shy to boot made school through all grades difficult in the love department. Though as I look back, none of the boys my age attracted me at any deep level. I was able to watch the high school dating drama. As I once mentioned to Sir, a friend of mine used to bemoan being away from her boyfriend when we went out. I, am ashamed to admit, scorned her for it. She was away from him for maybe two hours. Little did I know that in my future, I would have a long distance relationship in which I would learn painfully that I feel ten times what she was feeling.

Watching love in my family and around me, I was discouraged in ever finding what I hoped was possible. Love. Love with someone that I could just BE for. Someone I could loved so totally without judgement and complete abandon. Someone who would guide me, lead me, love me, and desire me.

Being raised Christian, I was fed the no sex before marriage. In my way, I held onto my virginity until I found someone that I loved and trusted completely. When I meet Sir, I knew I had found that man. I experienced that love at first sight. I did not realize it at the time. I wasn't aware of it until a couple days later when I was leaving His side. Leaving MY PLACE where I finally belonged. The place where I felt so loved and safe. My place at His feet, kneeling for Him, where I felt alive for the first time in my short 20+ years.

I am a cautious impulsive person. A major contradiction I am. I do not trust easily with my physical self, yet I do to a degree with my emotional self. I flew to meet my Sir. I had a safe call, yet I was flying far from home. When I saw Sir in the flesh, I stopped breathing. I had seen a picture, but sometimes pictures just so not do justice to flesh.

Sir is a gentleman...correction a rougish gentleman. He is always dressed sharply. (I am a sucker for a man in a suit. A suit makes even the most bland man striking..in my eyes anyway) He is a handsome man. He is older than I. His brown hair is peppered with gray (I am catching up with gray of my own...). His most striking feature...his gorgeous blue eyes. They mesmerizes me, mute me, and turn me wetter than wet with just a glance (there is usually a little smile/smirk too). His eyes caught me the first time I gazed into them...well....glanced...I can never hold His gaze for long...even during normal conversation. They tongue tie me and make my bones turn to mush.

I am thankful that He choose me. I am thankful that I have met Him. I am thankful that I am given permission to please and love Him. I am thankful that to have been given the Gift of Him, of His Mastery.

Sir is a truly amazing man. He is so full a knowledge that I can barely touch with the tip of my finger and never will. He has barely shown me a sliver of who He is and I am capivated. He is a deep well of mystery and passion. Sometimes I fear drowning, but I know He wouldn't let me.

I an thankful to Him for showing me love and desire. I never dreamed to be loved as He has loved me. I feel and see it in His amazing eyes. I feel it in His strong, warm, smooth, and safe hands. I taste it in His Cum that He pours into my hungry, loving mouth. I hear it in His voice when He praises. I hear it when He scolds. I hear it when I have earned it and I hear it when I do not deserve to.

I an in awe of Him. I do not deserve Him. I love Him. I need Him. I serve Him as He allows. I'd follow Him to the "ends of the world".

Thank you Fate, Destiny, GOD...for bringing Him into my life.