Players vs Partner.
While I have a purpose in this rant, I must first state that both players and partners are very needed and welcome participants of our world. Neither should be, for the purpose of this rant, considered any less or more significant than the other. With that thought deepen entrenched in all minds...
Players, by my humble definition which I know varies from others opinions and in no way is to be considered anything other than just my opinion, are the people available to experiment, do a scene now and then, commit to a weekend evening of fun, try it once to see if they like it or not, get away from the doldrums of their current relationship, or just enjoy a voyeuristic vacation away from the nilla world by watching the "crazies" rampaging though this kinky little world of BDSM.
Players are, sometimes, the confused and lost chameleons of our world that wonder from scene to scene and Dom/Domme to Dom/Domme in search of the holy grail of the world of pain and pleasure. They are not unlike the lost dog in the street that has never been out of it's own yard, and who now runs free exploring every new scent and sight with no idea of the direction it's taken or the path back to the security of it's own home. They scurry about from one side of the street to the other, not knowing what they need or desire, but with the idea of smelling ALL the flowers along the way. Their journey it a mixture of fun and fear unlike anything they've ever known before. We all know how that story ends, so let's avoid the masochistic visual and emotional complication of watching the inevitable disaster, shall we?
Realistically though, we do gain a few "family" from that hedonistic group of pleasure seekers when they suddenly feel that twinge deep down inside that causes them to hesitate and become mentally focused on something they hadn't planned on running into on the little side trip they were on. They found themselves and their own truth, and now refuse to give it up. They stand, kneel, or prostrate themselves to lay claim to their desires and future. They become...
That moment, fortunately, is the wake up call for so many deeply hidden desires that were suppressed for so long. Things, that because "society" didn't condone, they did without, and all that time wondered why they had this unfulfillable and unquenchable void within them. That void that drove them, like the other seekers, to find a world that soothed and nurtured them instead of looking at them as the "crazies".
That brings me to the non players, the believers, the explores and adventurers that helped open"the path" so that I could find it, and so that we, like those before us, can widen it further for the followers still yet to discover this world.
To those that came before me, I must say thank you.
To those that follow me, I happily bid you Welcome!
To those very important few that took the time to ask me the right questions, the questions that propelled me down the path I now walk proudly...I'm must tell you that I am in your debt.
The only way I have to repay that debit is to pay it forward, very much like what they were probably doing when they invested themselves in me and my future. I do honestly believe that they did it with forethought and purpose that was more altruistic than any other desire.
With all of those beliefs, feelings, desires and thoughts..... I search for my "grail". The one that I can help bring to the pinnacle of her quest for fulfillment. I long to see the light born in her eyes, not unlike the light I've found within my own. I wait patiently for that singular moment when I can watch the realization of joy wash over her as she, not unlike a child at Christmas, discovers the unknown, free of any burden of guilt or restrictiveness.
My final quest is yet to be started. The ultimate journey yet lies ahead of me for just one reason. A real partner...
It is she, and the journey as partners together in this world, that I still seek with an unrelenting belief that she exists and is searching for me as well.
To her, I commit that I will not fail in finding you and completing our ultimate journey together.
