i am now limp at all times. i have long yearned to be limp dick sissy unable to have an erection or masculine desires. That dream is now a reality. i am now prescribed Proscar for my enlarged prostate.

i previously took phytoestrogen herbs (pueraria mirifica being the most effective) that helped me grow small tits & shrink my clittie. i also masturbated using a technique designed to cause erectile dysfunction and shrinkage where i put on gurly clothes, lube my finger tips then use three fingers to press hard straight down on my clit until it disappears into my pubis mons, i masturbate with my finger tips in a circular motion like a woman. i rarely cum using this method. When i do it is clear thin sissy juice but not Rean Man seed. This technique breaks down the fibrous tissue & results in reduction in size & erectile disfunction. i also have spent many hours watching sissy hypno MP3's intended to cause shrinkage.

While all the above helped shrink my dick I did not achieve total impotence until I started taking Proscar.

Proscar raises estrogen (the female hormone) levels, and i was warned about reduced libido. But the effect on me has been very different. Unable to reach satiation i find myself perpetually horny. I've lost all interest in sex as the penetrator & now only think about being penetrated (mouth & ass-pussy). i'm now more focused on arousing my partner to orgasm and pleasure from stimulation of my sissy pussy and nipples.

i have long hated the conflict between my feelings of fem fervor and desires to be dominated and penetrated with the masculinity associated with an erection. Worse yet is the loss fem / sub zeal following an eruptive masculine ejaculation. Suddenly finding myself dressed with a dildo in my ass and cover in cum but with arousal gone the situation  is less than awkward.

i've always been envious of genetic girls who get a little wet spot in their panties when aroused. I plan to start taking Pygeum. Pygeum is both a homeopathic treatment for my enlarged prostate and increases the amount of precum my tiny limp clittie leaks.

i've not noticed any shrinkage in my ovaries yet but I hope this follows soon.

i still want to find a Mistress or Master who will keep me in chastity. While one reason for wanting chastity was to eliminate erection/masturbation. But there are still many reasons why chastity is important.

By controlling my sissy clit in chastity, my Mistress or Master would keep me in a constant state of arousal at my most obedient and submissive state. Besides i long ago learned non-erection masturbation. i am no longer a man & don't want to find sexual satisfaction from my clit, erect or flaccid. i want to be reprogrammed to understand that my mouth, tits and pussy are now my sex organs. i want to cum like a girl from penetration.

Prolonged chastity causes the sissy body to turn off the mechanism caused masculine orgasms. my sissified body will no longer direct blood flow and hormones to my clittie where they are no longer used or wanted and increase flow to my p-spot and ass-pussy nerves causing enhanced response to arousal in my primary sex organ.

The chastity device is a constant reminder that I accept under the control of a Dominant.

Prolonged chastity will cause atrophy and shrinkage of my clittie.

my love of large cocks began early.

i was an excited 8 yr old boy. It was a beautiful Friday afternoon & there were only few days of school left. Living in the deep south I had a summer of camping, swimming, endless baseball, boating, skiing, & other assorted fun to look forward to.

As a young child i was teased because even though i was scrawny & thin as a rail, i had a large round ass. i was routinely taunted by other kids on the school bus about my prominent oversized ass. Their taunting nearly had me in tears but i refused to show it on this particular day. Ron (a hi school junior) was the bus bully & everyone was terrified of him. He turned around & threatened my taunters if they didn’t stop they would answer to him. i was pleasantly surprised & my tormentors were terrified. Ron was was all-county center on the football team. Nobody fucked with Ron.

His buddies called him “Log” & he was King of our small world.

After supper, i went to visit my best friend Tommy for a sleep over. He lived on the hill above me & next door to Ron & & his younger brother Benny.

Tommy’s dad owned a construction business & had built a small cabin for Tommy in the woods behind their house. It was not your typical crude cabin, it had electric & even a TV. Very advanced for the 1950’s.

Very late after Tommy’s parents had gone to bed, Benny came to the cabin. i was startled, but Tommy wasn’t. Benny wanted us to come with him. It turns out Benny had something going with Tommy. i was too naïve to understand what “that” might be.

When we got to Ron & Benny’s house (the parent’s had gone to Florida for a long biker’s weekend ~ great thing to do that time of year). There were several of the players from the high school baseball team, they were celebrating a big win in the regional finals. They were still in their sweaty uniforms. They had been drinking heavily.

Shortly after we got there Tommy disappeared with Benny into a bedroom. Suddenly, i found myself surrounded by drunken, older boys. But somehow i wasn’t afraid because I knew Ron would protect me. Ron had me sit next to him. Soon Ron had me sit in his lap & he was massaging my ass. I knew it was wrong but somehow i felt very secure in his arms. i was also excited by an emotion deep inside me i never knew existed. i was given a beer & some whiskey & soon i was feeling very strange but even more excited.

One of the boys produced a nudie mag & some of the boys started to masturbate. i was amazed at the size of their cocks. i had only seen boys my pre puberty age. One ejaculated & i was astonished & asked what the stuff that spewed from his cock was. They told me it was the stuff babies were made from. i was confused & very skeptical.

Ron removed my pants & fondled me with his strong hands. He made me kneel before him. He slowly undid his zipper right in front of my face. First i gasped because of the pungent smell. But the smell didn't repulse me, it excited me. Ron was the catcher on the baseball team. He was still wearing his jock strap & the cup that protected his balls. The smell was strong but I couldn't get enough of it. It was more intoxicating than the whiskey. His Masculine aroma was arousing & my tiny pee-pee was hard.

Then i gasped at the sight of his cock & balls, he was much larger than any of the others. The boys laughed & asked why me I thought his nickname was “Log”. i said i thought it was because he was sound sleeper. This drew a large round of laughter.

Ron took a can of lard from the kitchen & put some on the head of his cock & a lot up the crack of my ass. Then he put a finger up me. i gasped in pain but I was also very excited & loved the attention of this older dominant boy. He then turned me around & tried to enter me. It was no good, he was too big & i was too small for such a large cock. After a while he gave up. He had me kneel in front of him & he placed the head of his cock in my mouth. At first the taste of the lard was gagging but it soon went away. Clyde, Ron’s best friend, was the first to enter my ass. It hurt at first but Ron held me firm on his cock with a large hand on either side of my head & hairy legs holding my upper body. my ass was free to wiggle around but unable to escape exposed. The pain at first was intense but it passed. i was fucked by multiple guys. Most came quickly & were replaced by another. but I was hypnotized by huge knobby cock head in my mouth & the smell of Ron’s sweaty crotch. When he came he stood up & shot a huge load of cum onto my back. From His deep guttural sound i knew i had brought him pleasure & this made me very proud.

Ron then sat back down & rubbed his creamy cock on my face. Then he scooped the cum off my back & & ordered me to lick the cum from his hand & fingers & swallow it. I was reluctant because of the smell & my confusion over the baby stuff. The taste was pungent but i obeyed because i could see it pleased Him.

i was then left lying on the floor on my back. One after another the boys fucked me holding my legs spread apart. i was now able to watch the faces & see the lust & joy. i liked being the center of attention of all these older boys.

i remember Ron placing me in a bed after everyone had cum in and on me multiple times. i was exhausted but also pleased that i had been the center of attention. i remember my biggest guilt at the time was the cum oozing from my ass, I thought about the babies that were supposed to be made of this stuff.

i was woke later by Ron getting into bed with me. He curled up beside me. i instinctively reached behind me & touched his large meaty cock. It began to hardened immediately. He said something about me being a slut.

He turned me flat on my belly. I spread my legs. But he put my legs together & straddled me with his big thighs & legs. He placed the head of his cock in my ass then used his weight to force the head of his cock in. Surprisingly there was only a little pain & he slowly allowed the weight of his body to force the full length & girth of his cock into me, all the way in. i only thought I had been fucked earlier. i now knew I was being fucked, his cock was so big around. i loved being so full, so overpowered pinned like that & unable to move & Ron pounding me.

i loved it & i was hooked. Something was deeply seeded in me. i loved his big cock. i loved His hairy body & His aroma.

Ron must have told His friends that i was exclusively His now because no one ever tried to touch me again. Ron & i got together many times over the next several months until He got in trouble with the law when he stole a car. He was given the choice of jail or the military. He chose the military. i never saw him again.

After being fucked & having Master's manly juices inside me I should be plugged. The knowledge that His manly fluids are swimming around inside me, unable to seep out, compound its sense of emasculation and submission.

As i mince about in stockings and high heels, imprisoned in a tightly laced corset, the impotent remnants of my former manhood locked in chastity, the plug is a constant reminder of my surrender.

The plug serves to keeps me in a sustained state of invasive intrusion & open for the next time Master needs my pussy.

There is an often overlooked reason that sissies need to suck the Cocks of real Men. A real Man's Cocks powerfully erupts creamy semen that is different from the sissies watery oozing. Semen produced by real Men contains chemicals that enhance wellness of the sissy and feminizes her psyche. There have been several clinical studies to prove Semen ingestion reduces depression which makes sissies happy after they have learned to accept their inferiority & role as bitch to a real Man.

A real Man's Seed also contains pheromones. Pheromones are what attract people sexually and stimulate people to want to be close and make the other happy.  i get excited by the smell of a masculine man's armpit's & crotch, According to researchers it is not really the smell that causes this but rather the pheromones. A sissy becomes addicted to Master's pheromones especially in His cum. 

Making sure that some of their Master’s semen is left on their upper lip just below the nose makes sure that pheromones are penetrating her nostrils and entering the brain & bonding her to Master.

Accepting that i'm submissive means i have a clear picture of what a fulfilling relationship looks like to me. i understand I need in a romantic partner whose dominant tendencies align with my needs.

i have been spanked a few times but never to the point of whimpering, begging, crying, pleading or subspace but I know this is something I need.The humiliation (especially if others are watching) of obediently lowering my panties and bending over & surrendering my bubble butt ass & rosebud for A Sound Spanking! A good beating is psychologically powerful. It’s a display of submission & my vulnerability to my Superior. As i look at the floor with my bare ass exposed my submissive sissy psyche is fully engaged. my sissy posterior is beefy with ample nerve endings sending their pulses of pain to my brain.

i love the feeling of my plump sissy ass getting hot and red with each smack, and the growing feeling of submission & emasculation. my ass jiggles with each impact & my fair skin reddens readily. Sensory Deprivation amplifies my feelings of arousal & helplessness. Flogging! and belt spanking reminds me of my place. i seek a Man who is experienced in administering a spanking that becomes more intense as my endorphins kick in. i have never experienced sissy subspace but hope to do so with a Man who will provide aftercare. my plump sissy ass is ideal for spanking, flogging or belt whipping. my fair skin reddens easily & my ass cheeks jiggle with each blow. i will wear the bruises You leave as a badge of my humility & submission.

i'm very curious about subspace. From what I understand that impacts to the body triggers the release of a cocktail of natural chemicals that produce a morphine-like drug that increases pain tolerance of the submissive as the scene becomes more intense. i've been told that the result is a euphoric, floating feeling. The subs I've seen in subspace seems to be in a trance & speech is often incoherent.

1) ~ emasculation: Mentally it is important to me that I accept that I am no longer a man. In order to completely remove any last remnants of masculinity, my clit must be locked up in chastity for the rest of my sissy life & never again be allowed to have an erection, penetrate anyone or have an eruptive orgasm. When i was a man my cock was the focus of my sexuality. But I am no longer a man & don't want to find sexual satisfaction from my clit. i must be reprogrammed to understand that my mouth, tits and pussy are now my sex organs.

i want to cum like a girl from ass pussy penetration, divorce sexual pleasure from an erection & embrace my femininity.

2) ~ humiliation: Chasity is also a very humbling state for a sissy. It is humiliating to be in such desperate need of an Alpha Male's Cock. This humiliation is deeply arousing. A Master's regiment of discipline will only add to my sexual humiliation and frustration. i will become an obedient and submissive broken sissy.

3) ~ perpetual arousal: Chastity will keep this sissy in a constant state of arousal & in her most obedient and submissive state so that i am very compliant when i serve my Master . I want to take pygeum to increase my precum. i think a sissy should ooze while her Master abuses her tits & ass.

4) ~ increased sensitivity of tits & pussy: In the same way that a blind man's other senses become enhanced, as a sissy in chastity my tits & pussy will become more sensitive to arousal. i love to feel feminine and love it when a Real Man treats me like His sissy bitch. I love pleasing a dominant, powerful hot guy in every way that a feminine sissy can please a man. i enjoy being touched, hugged, groped, kissed and felt-up just like a real woman. The human body is amazingly adaptive. Prolonged chastity causes the sissy body to turn off the mechanism caused masculine orgasms. my sissified mind will demand blood flow and hormones directed to my p-spot and asspussy nerves.

5) ~ submission to control: It is true that if a Master controls my sissy-clit, my heart & mind will follow. Eruptive orgasm from stimulation my clittie adversely effects my desires to be a submissive femboi. Elevated testosterone levels following a normal ejaculation suppresses my submissive sissiness. By controlling my sissy clit, my Master makes sure I only cum from stimulation of my tits & pussy. The chastity device is a constant reminder that I am in submission to & under the control of a Dominant Man who has a large functional cock. My only sexual satiation is when I am used me as a woman.

6) ~ further shrinkage of my clit: Prolonged chastity will cause atrophy and shrinkage of my clittie. After a few weeks prostate starts to shrink and becomes less responsive to testosterone. After a few months the sissy clit begins to shrink. At one year the shrinkage is marked & the sissy is incapable of an erection. The muscles that are used to forcefully eject cum will atrophy making eruptive ejaculation impossible.

7) ~ sissygasms: i am not one of those sissies that believes my sexual gratification is not consequential. I agree that sissies should give top priority to the sexual satisfaction of her Man. But my need for sexual release is a very powerful force for sissies the same as masculine men. A sissygasm is an internal orgasm much like the ones biological women have, induced by stimulating my pussy.

The most wonderful thing about a sissygasm is it does not decrease sexual arousal at all (just like a female orgasm) and actually leads to increased estrogen levels.

Chastity:

• It keeps your sissy's sexual focus and energy on you.
• It increases your sissy's desire to pleasure You. Only Your Cock gets hard & ejaculates cum
• It serves as a constant reminder to your sissy of your authority and deepens her submission to you.
• It teaches your sissy that sexual activity with you doesn’t have anything to do with her little sissy penis. Only the Master's cock matter,
• It prepares your sissy for anal penetration, and getting the Cock in her sissy pussy. Because her little sissy penis isn’t being sexually stimulated, it has the effect of gradually turning other parts of her body into erogenous zones, such as her anus, prostate, lips, and nipples.

i am a confessed size queen. Masculine Alpha Men with thick, hefty cocks get my sissy juices flowing. They have every reason to be proud & to have their beautiful cocks worshipped by a sissy. i love to challenge of deep throating a large cock. Thick cocks put more pressure on my pussy p-spot. A man long enough to penetrate the second valve is a special treat. It is great to know that when he cum his seed will be in my sigmoid colon.

i like a Man who understands the power His masculinity & cock has over a sissy like me. When He wants service His cock is the center of the world for both us. There is nothing more arousing than a smelling a real man's pits & crotch after a workout or long day of physical work.

i feel “cunted” when fucked a real Man’s big cock. Being cunted involves the mental and emotional aspects of emasculation. Being fucked deeply and aggressively transforms my pussy to a true sex organ.

As a submissive i must be open physically and mentally my Dom. my Dom has the right to touch me intimately however, whenever and wherever He wants . my body is at His disposal to enjoy and to stimulate with pleasure or pain at His discretion. my physical surrender is accompanied by mental openness in which i gradually reveal my secret fantasies, fears and desires. The ultimate surrender takes place during sexual intercourse. I an not going to be made love to; I am going to be fucked, with all the overpowering and humiliating connotations that this entails.

As a gurlie sissy fag my relationship with real Men is that i'm the bitch. his big strong hard masculine cock thrusting in my ass, reminds me of my place. It is my fate to be beneath him with His powerful cock balls deep in me. Every load of cum that i feel gushing inside of me reinforces my sense that this is what I am meant for. Real Men have sexual needs and i'm His to use. i'm an obedient bitch, who bends over and gets fucked & emasculated.

Only real Men actually cum. Sissies only ooze (kind of like girls get wetter when they cum). The cum of a superior alpha male is totally different from mine. Of course a real man’s cum is made to get a woman pregnant, but an alpha male’s cum also has the power cause me to submit to him. An alpha male is born with special DNA that permeates every part of his body. It makes his dick bigger and irresistible, it makes him dominant, and it cues the hormones that cause inferiors to offer themselves for his pleasure.

Real cum invades into my body and triggers my fem DNA and destroys any maleness or resistance left in me. i'm left more vulnerable, less male, more impotent, and easier to abuse.

Real Men are strong and dominant with erect big cocks, sissies are submissive with flaccid tiny clits locked in chastity. The sexual pleasure source for real Men is their Cocks,  the sexual pleasure source for real sissies is their ass-pussy & nipples. During sex He just focus on fucking her to reach His orgasm, she just surrenders herself to her man thrusts and feel his cock inside her. He gets his orgasm at the end of every sexual encounter, she can’t get her sissygasm in every fuck,

The Dominant fully asserts His control over my body and mind. Various stages of pain and pleasure will make me fully pliable to His will. Pain and pleasure both focus my attention assert His power.

Sissies do not have "cocks" or "dicks", not even "cockettes" or "dickettes". Sissies have clitties. Sissy clitties should be limp at all times, but if, on the off chance, they are able to engorge, then they are locked in a clitty cage 24/7 to maintain proper sissy decorum. A sissie's sexual organs are her mouth, lips, tongue, and of course, her sissy pussy, where her G-spot is located.

It's better to give than receive—oral that is. That's because a sissy can ONLY give oral. And, what you can receive is best not talked about. But here it is: "Sissies don't get pussy, they ARE pussy."

It is normal and natural that small limp dick fembois feel a deeply hidden strong sexual attraction to Males with big Cocks.

I embrace my submissiveness whenever dealing with real Men when it comes to sex!

On an instinctual level Men with big cocks are aware of the intrinsic submissiveness of males with tiny dicks. Especially us fembois who are impotent & incapable of even a small useless erection. Your dominance and masculinity due the virility of Your Large Hard Cock is so evident when compare to my limp as a noodle micropenis. i'm a sow with legs spread, ass up..back arched, on all fours receiving Your Cock. Don’t view me as a man. Nature never intended for me to be sexually dominant. Nature instead intended for me to be dominated. my “penis” is closer to a clitoris than it is to a true cock!

i really admire and appreciate sexy gorgeous huge cocks. I am so thankful endowed Studs to worship and give pleasure to.

i love my femininity, and how happy and satisfied i feel when i am penetrated & should only ever cum while being penetrated. I prefer my clittie remain in chastity during penetration. This way my pleasure is completely dependent on Your penetration alone.

The feeling of being owned is one of the most secure and desired feelings a sub can have.   i want to be reminded at all times that You are in control of her and that i am safe and watched over under Your command.

 i accept that I should be put into chastity, my orgasms denied and controlled by my Master. Chastity makes me very submissive and compliant keeps me in a fem state of mind. I should not be allowed to ever have an eruptive male orgasm for the rest of my life.

When my sissy hole is not being used, it should be plugged.

Physical dominance is great but mental dominance is what i crave. i want to truly feel inferior and feminine. 

Subjugate me with each strike.  Feminize me with each thrust.  Break me down, inside and out.  my pleas don’t faze you. my acceptance that worshiping Your cock is my utmost desire gives You immense satisfaction.