tylrderdan

Male Submissive, 25, Chicago, Illinois

March 15,2008 Saturday,? I hadn't played in about 3 weeks before this night, so I was really looking forward to going to the playspace with Mistress.? When I got to her house, she gave me a pair of skivies to wear.? These were the greatest, they are like a thong pair of underwear without the thong part... no but floss! (thanx lil) We got to the space much earlier than usual.? And after we got there and got settled in.? I was informed that I had not followed one of the rules set forth to me..."Make a journal entry after seeing Mistress".? Well we had lunch and talked a bit, but I didn't make a journal entry, so I spent the next 20 minutes writing sentences.? That wasn't too bad until I was made to do several with my left (non-writing) hand.? After that we got to play.? At one point of the night I was put face down on a padded table, blindfolded and gagged.? Then I got the best full body massage I'd ever had...It went on forever, then she beat me a little and then went back to the massage.? I was put into subspace very shortly after we started this scene.? The sensations are incredible when I'm in this head space.? Sound, smell, taste, and obviously sight all seem to be dulled and the sense of touch magnified x10.? I had been getting over the flu all week and still felt like crap this saturday.? After this scene and being put into subspace I felt incredible, I didn't feel any signs of being sick, I regained my appetite, my pounding headache went away, and I was extremely horny again.? Later on after a long while of teasing and oragasm denial.....grrrrrr.? I got to relieve myself during a very brief bout of sex lol.? Later Mistress tried some anal play that ended up not going over at all, but maybe next time, ouch.? We got to bed earlier that we usuallys start playing that night.? Then we woke up and got to do it again!!!? I really felt a 100% better after this Saturday, and I had a really good time.

February 23, Saturday.? There was a Mardi Gras party at a hotel the Mistress and Huge plus guests were invited to this weekend and I was really looking forward to seeing Her again.? It had been two weeks since I'd seen Her.? I met up with them on Saturday afternoon and Mistress and I got our own room because Huge and his guest got one too.? After a couple beers and watching Mistress' favorite porn, I took my test on the next chapter of the book that I've been told to read.? I didn't do well.? I was then told to take my clothes off, so that Mistress could put a rope harness on me that I would wear for the rest of the night.? She also got a leather cock ring with quite a strong vibrator thing attached to it.? I like these little vibrating toys She has me wear.? The rope harness was pretty comfortable unless I was bending over... then it was a little restricting.? Later on Mistress got ready and put on a green dress and heels.? My jaw dropped, She looked so hot and She was wearing green eye shadow and green wrist things to complete the outfit.? We eventually headed down to the ball room area and there was dancing and live band that played a ton of really good songs.? Mistress even got me to dance a few times.? I don't like to dance, but I really didn't mind.? Towards the end of the night, Mistress had tried getting my shirt off a coulple times and I kept pulling it down.? This time She didn't ask.? "Take you shirt off-NOW!!!!" She said.? I got chills down my spine and my shirt flew off my body instantly lol.? A little bit later after being in just pants and a green rope harness... a very attractive girl asked Mistress something.? Mistress said "yes but be careful they are sensitive," and then came up to me and started sucking and biting my pierced nipples.? Then Mistress went for the other one.? This was the first experiance of anykind involving me and two women.? That was very cool.? After the party was over we went back to the hotel room and I was told to get naked and get on the bed where we had set up some straps earlier that day.? I was restrained and gagged and then mistress got out some things for fireplay.? Flash paper, candles, and alcohol wipes.? That was pretty exciting seeing a flaming piece of paper coming right at me and then dissapearing into nothing.? After a bit of that buring the alcohol wipes and some intense scratching.? I was told to turn over and assume the position.? Mistress had gotten a new toy.? A "feeldoe".? It was about six inches and not that big around, but big enough.? I was told to suck her cock, which was a total suprise that I got turned on by doing this.? She was very gentle and didn't really get to much of this thing into me, but I think that will change in the future.? I think the mental aspect of being taken from behind by Mistress has just as much affect as the physical feelings of it.? I had a really good time with her, (always do!)

I was told to list my set of rules given to me by Mistress. 1. I will address her as Mistress/never ma'am 2. No swearing 3. Be punctual 4.My safe words are mercy and red 5.I must be clean shaven 6.I must keep a journal 7. The second saturday of the month is mandatory.? (PRS) 8.No boxer shorts! 9.Continual ongoing communication (daily).? Excluding sunday.? Wednesday is phone call day.? If im sent an email i must respond that i got it.? If online I must be visible. 10.Initiate play dates 11.Know positions 12.I must be attentive 13.I must be chivalrous 14.Toy contribution 15.If asked a question/ an answer is expected.?? If asked a yes or no question/ a yes or no answer is expected 16.If there are any comments on my journal, I must forward them to Mistress. 17.Mistress doesn't share 18.Feed Mistress' ego!

Saturday, Feb. 9th I had got Mistress a pair of lunatus floggers (double ended floggers) the weekend before and couldn't wait til they came in the mail.? I was looking forward to seeing her reaction when I gave them to her.? She had told me about how she wanted a pair for about as long as i've known her.? When I gave them to her at the space she lit up like a lightbulb, lol.? She looked like someone just handed her a million dollars.? So of coarse we got to play with those a couple times that night.? It is very difficult to wield these four ends at once, i tried a few times, but she is really good at it.? There was? a knife and needle demo at the space that night.? It was a really cool demo.? I also saw them do a "body pull" i think they called it.? They tie ribbon to there needles that they had in the chests and mutually pulled against each other, very cool.? We got to play later that night.? She had me dress in a button up collared shirt with a? t-shirt on underneath.? I also had boxers and dress pants. ? Mistress despises boxer shorts, so I knew that they were going to be ripped or cut off of me for sure.? I was restrained to the wench by my wrists and then Mistress got out her deer knife with a nasty sharp hook on the spine of it.? She started ripping and cutting the clothes off of me piece by piece.? Im not afraid of knives and I trust Mistress very very much, but there was definately the element of fear there.? The thought of what if... ? That was very exciting, she was without a doubt, scary with that knife in her hand and the force she was using to cut the clothes off wasn't nice and easy, it was violent rips and cuts.? By the end of it I had all the cloths cut off of me including the thong underwear that I had on under the boxers.? I was told to clean the mess up and come to the back room with her.? There she was waiting with her acrylic hook.? Id never had anything but a butt plug in my butt once, so Im still a little nervous about this kind of play.? Especially when I see her bag of insertables that she "could" use.? It ended up being enjoyable though.? After that some incredible sex ensued.? Which I desparately needed because it had been a week since I could cum.? I was very grateful!

Sunday, Feb. 3rd ? I woke up still bound a few hours later.? Mistress was laying beside me still.? My left are and shoulder were a little numb.? I guess I had been pulling on my left arm a little.? Mistress saw this and untied my left arm and leg.? I tried to start necking with Mistress, but was told to go to sleep a little longer.? Not to long after that I was untied and then Mistress went back to torturing me with the rubberband.? Along with more scratching, even harder than before i think.? I dont remember how this exactly led to some foreplay and sex, but I was so glad it did.? It had been a week since I had a release again... see last saturday lol.? After that came checkout and breakfast.? I slept with Mistress on my lap the entire way home.? I had such a good time this weekend that I want to go to and event like this again soon.

Saturday Feb. 2nd, After a brief nap we got up and got ready to go to the classes that we had predetermined that we would go to. Our first class was "How to please a woman." Im not totally sure whether it was too early or it was boring, but it was just an uninteresting class. A little informative, but boring. Our next class we went to was a fear play class. I had seen these presenters play the night before so I had an idea of what this was going to be about. It was pretty informative in terms of why they do it, but it was more fun to watch it, then to hear about it. During the demo the top would flick matches at the bottom because she had a fear of fire and being burned. Then he busted out a little hand held torch that really freaked her out. That was really intense to watch her be genuinely scared of him, even though she knew he wouldn't really harm her. The next class that we went to was being presented by the "key note" speaker... and I knew was going to be good by the way he got into his first speech. This class was Interrogation. The victim aka volunteer was a guy from our regular group. Who is absolutely tough as nails, so I knew it was going to be interesting if nothing else. Scott (the presenter) set him up in waist to wrist cuffs and then put a hood, headphones that blasted a siren sound, electrical tape around the headphones and hood. I also attached electrodes to his calves and a remote control shock device to his sack.? This was a pretty intense scene that was well done.? He also spoke about the psychology of all the things involved and why what he was doing works.? I really enjoyed this class, above all the others that I attended that day.? The last class we went to that day was? humiliation and degradation.? The presenters were the coulple I saw playing the night before.? After hearing them talk about the specifics of why they enjoy doing scenes like this it.? The bottom of this couple really put things in perspective when she said that the reason she does these kind of scenes is that someone who needs a good flogging needs physical pain and she needs emotional/psychological pain.? That made a lot of sense to me.? The end demo to this class was pretty wild.? He had been telling her to clean the car for ages and when she didnt, he took it apon himself to clean it.? He saved every bit of trash and bagged it up; including liquids like old coffee and pop and whatever else.? He also had an issue with her smoking.? So after he made her undress he took a pouch of redman and jammed half of the pack in her mouth and told her not to swallow any of it and not to spit it out.? Then he dumped the rest all over her and smashed up a pack of cigarettes all over her.? Then came the contents of the trash bag.? That was also dumped all over her.? Very degrading and fun to watch.? I guess there might be a little sadist in me.? Later on that night Mistress donned her thigh high leather boots, red leather corset and a skirt.? Sooooo HOT!!!!? A very dominant looking outfit.? We went back to the room for a smoke and I was told to kneel infront of her while she pulled something out of a bag.? She said she had something for me if I should chose to accept it.? It was a collar.? To her a collar carries very great significance.? It is not just another piece of fetish wear. I proudly accepted.? I am now? proudly collared.? I guess it means a little more to me now that I had been offered one knowing what they mean to her.? I get hard even typing about that moment.? It made me feel...good.? I really cant think of an elequant way to put it.? I just felt really good.? Later that night after the dungeon play had started, Mistress wanted to go back to the room and play, I was more than willing to skip the voyeur scene and go play.? Her plan was to tie me up spread eagle on the bed and leave me like that over night.? So after doing so... she got her toys out and that included a dreadful rubber band, whippy joes, a candle, and her most deadly weapons... her nails.? She loves to scratch me, and the look on her face when she does is just amazing.? I iike to endure that pain the brings her so much joy.? Now previous to being tied down I had started slammin some beverages that would eventually start catching up to me.? I had asked several times for permission to use the bathroom... and everytime denied.? I thought I was going to burst.? All the while I was being tortured lol and she would every once in a while press down on my bladder.? I had no choice, but to stop being prideful and ask for mercy.? Which was given.? She is such a wonderful Mistress.? Then back into the spread eagle position and restrained again.? With Mistress laying beside me I knodded off to sleep.

Friday Feb. 1st, Huge, Faith and I left for Winter Wickedness in columbus at around 9am. I was really looking forward to going since I had heard about it. After we got down there we went to lunch and went to a couple fetish shops that were near by. After we checked in, we went to look around and got to talk to a few people that were setting up the event. There was a vender area that had so much cool stuff? that I had to go back several times to? make sure I didnt miss anything.? Later that night they opened the dungeon and another room for play. There was so much going on and so much eye candy that it was hard to just sit in one spot. There were so many really good scenes that night. There was a lot of impact play. I really hadn't seen much of that before I came to this event. There was a lot of subs fighting back during scenes too, which is also very new to me. It was so cool to watch though. Even though im a male submissive I like watching scenes with male tops and female bottoms. There were plenty of those. Two scenes that really stuck out in my mind was a fear play scene with a vat of raw bloody chicken liver and a humiliation and degredation scene. Im used to seeing whips, and chains, and toys oh my, during a scene. These only consisted of the people playing and a tarp. It was so fun to watch how the subs would fight back a little and then get beat or punished worse. During the scenes i was thinking i dont think i would enjoy being the bottom in a scene like this, but i could probably pull off topping in a fear play or humiation scene. I continued watching all the scenes into the late hours of the night. There were fire play scenes, needle play, plastic wrap, suspension, electric play, you name it. It was kinda bdsm overload, I loved it. I couldn't wait for the next days classes and dungeon play.

1/26/08 Saturday,? I hadn't seen Mistress in a couple of weeks, so I was excited to go to the space and play again.? Mistress wasn't feeling well due to bronchitis, so I had to take extra care of her.? Which really wasn't much more than I try to do for her anyways.? I didn't mind.? It felt natural to serve her with whatever she wanted or needed.? Tonight was just a play party at the space.? There were some pretty good scenes and I got to watch some of my favorite players play.? There were a few new people to the group and I couldn't believe that it was only about 2 months ago that I was going to my very first BDSM event ever.? Mistress asked a couple of her friends to bring their VIOLET WAND with them so we could try it out.? I had always been interested in them and wanted to see what they are like.? They are so cool.? Especially when the lights are off because you can see the sparks jump to me a lot better.? The VW didnt really leave any marks except for where with the help of her friend and home made attachments her name was written on my back.? It was like a sunburn pen if you will.? With the attachment and the intensity of the VW turned up it felt kinda like getting a tatoo.? I really like the way it looked when it finally showed up a couple hours later.? They are pretty cool toys and I would definately like to play with one of those again.? Later on Mistress and I got to play.? She can deliver quite a bit of pain for only a short little scene!? She didn't have the energy to beat me for a long time like usual, lol.? I was told to pick out a toy to accompany the others she was going to use, so I picked a ping pong paddle.? I had never been paddle before and it looked fairly harmless.? Wow that thing has a surprising amount of bite to it. After we left tonight I was expecting to be put in a chastity device called a CBT 3000 or something like that.? I was going to have to wear this from Sunday moring to whenever she wanted to take it off the following weekend.? (@ Winter Wickedness).? Mistress offered me a deal, should I chose to accept it.? I most certainly did.? The deal was that 1. I couldn't play with myself and neither could anybody esle 2. I had to cum for her, right then, right there.? I hated the fact that I was going to have to wear that thing, so I really had to perform.? With some help from Mistress and the way she was positioned for when I did cum (which really helped) I did cum for the first time in a week, and in turn relieving myself in more ways then one.? After it was all said and done she told me that I wasn't going to have to wear that chastity device anyways!? She's the best!

1/12/08 Saturday,? The Saturdy before i'd been given the task to not play with myself and definately not to cum for a week.? This wasnt an easy task.? But if I really wanted to.? I had to get a webcam and let her watch.? I wanted to see if I could make it a week, but I got a web cam just in case. ? When I showed up to Mistress' house Sat. afternoon she was very pleased to hear that I succeeded.? That night we saw a demo on female genitorture.? This was very exciting and I was looking forward to this since I had heard about the topic of the demo.? One aspect of the demo was needle play.? I had never seen any real time needle play being done and was very impressed by the presenters due to their knowledge and experiance on the topic.? It was very cool to watch.? Two other parts of the demo were a predicament bondage scene and a clamps and weights scene.? These both were very entertaining as well.? Especially when electricity got involved in the predicament bondage scene.? I think that I would like to try electricity play, but im really not sure if I would be into it or not.? Mistress' and I got to play later on in the night and we had a scene on a padded horse with straps that im becoming more fond of the more we use it.? I had a diffucult metal ring gag in that was the most difficult gag ive tried thus far.? It made me drool buckets.? I was strapped down and blindfolded with a silk scarf that smelled like Mistress.? Towards the end of this scene, Mistress told me that my body, my mind and even my breath belonged to here.? She then covered my mouth and held my nose so that I couldn't breathe.? I think that what she said turned me on, so the breath play was hotter.? I dont think it would have done anything for me without the words and what they meant.? This night I also got to see another newbie sub like my self have the "night of her life" as she says.? It was really hot watching someone enjoy themselves as much as she did.? With several people involved the the couple scenes that blew her away, I had never seen someone enjoy what was being done to them more then that, and? I had never enjoyed watching someone else play as much as I did then.? After everything had slowed down and we were alone at the end of the night.? I got to make out with Mistress in the dungeon and then we moved the back room were I thoroughly enjoyed going down on Mistress.? Her piercing drives me nuts.? I was told I could do what ever I want during this time, so after I made her cum, which I couldn't be happier that I did, I got to have sex and try and relieve my weeks frustration.? Im glad I didnt get too because I lasted long enough to make her cum 3 or 4 more times.? I was really on cloud 9 then.? I didnt even care about cumming as long as she was.? This was the best night I've had at a group function.? I can feel myself growing closer to her and her Sir everytime were together and everytime we play.? The following monday I got up early enough to catch Mistress online and finally got the chance to relieve myself.? I will never voluntarily go that long again unless im told I absolutely have to. lol

1/5/08 Saturday, We started the night by going over and reviewing the all of the rules that mistress has made for our relationship.? We both know that I probably needed that.? I had to right them all down to help me remember and for reference later.? We then organizid mistress' toy bags at the space.? I like doing this because it can lead to some kind of improv playing, like with a toy or whip or something like that that hasn't been used or played with in a while or on me at all.? During this I was told to improve her view aka get naked.? She found a bag of rubber cock rings and i was told to put one on.? I've never used one of these before, but i liked it.? The two scenes that followed were pretty intense for me and for the first time, I was put into what I believe was sub-space.? From the combination of the type of scenes, toys used, apparatus I was restrained on and submission, a little humiliation, pain and pleasure I was sent flying.? So far every scene that I have been apart of I was super aware of what was going on, or atleast I tried to be(sensory depravation excluded).? I would always think about what was being used on me or what was coming next or even what was going on in my surroundings.? This time I tried to truly relax and accept the fact that my body is? not under my control anymore.? And neither was my mind as it turned out.? I trusted my mistress with whatever she wanted to do to or with me and embrace anything that she did or said to do.? The total submission really turned me on.? During the second scene I really let go and found myself in a mindset i've never been in and is kinda hard for me to describe even now.? It was like anything she did I wanted so much more of it... if she whipped me, I wanted it harder and faster.? If she scratched my skin I wanted it rougher and sharper.? If she inserted something I wanted more and I wanted it deeper.? After the scene I was kinda taken back and I felt like whoa! what just happened there.? It was difficult to remember the sequence of what happened and what exactly was used on me(toy or whip) wise.? I wasn't really even sure of how long the scene lasted.? It was then that I realized that I was so into what was going on that I didnt "think"... my mistress literally took my thoughts.? All that I knew was sensations and reactions.? I'm beginning to think that this feeling is addictive, lol.? I've been thinking about it and wanting to feel it again ever since.? We continued to play that night and I even got to watch my Mistress play with Her Master.? In which I got to participate in a little bit.? This was very hot to watch and be a part of.? At the end of the night or beginning of afternoon, lol,? when we were all done playing.? I was left with a standing order...I am not allowed to touch myself(masturbate) unless she is present? or present via webcam.? It has been roughly 3 days since I came last and I am definately going web cam shopping soon.? I could easily cheat and cum without her knowing, but I've taken pride in following her orders to a T so far.? Except for obvious reasons I havent touched my self and that turns me on, and in turn makes it harder to obey orders, lol.?

saturday 12/22/07 I arrived at Mistress' house a little early or a little late depending on who you ask, lol. And I was immediately introduced to a thing called the gates of hell. This is a little device that has 5 rings that go from big to small. The first ring hold the penis and scrotum and the penis goes through the other 4 rings. Putting this on was a little humorous to Mistress and I. The penis and scrotum went through easy enough, the problem was convincing the balls to go too. I eventually got it on and wore this for the majority of the night. Including out to dinner and at the playspace. I enjoyed wearing this more than I thought i would. It was a constant reminder that Mistress had control of me, a reason for her to give me an oh so suddle grope, and it just looks really really cool. After dinner we went to the space. It was a much smaller crowd that night, which i kinda like. There were a few people playing throughout the night which included a really cool scene where a girl became a human christmas tree with all the fixins. That was a great scene to watch. My first scene was on the cross with my hands loosely restraind on rope loops that hang off of the arms of the cross. I especially like getting flogged, but ive told im not very responsive and hard to read, which is not a good thing because my body language doesnt indicate how im doing. I for the most part am pretty still and close my eyes and concentrate on the feeling of the floggers. I dont want to fake my reactions just for the sake of looking responsive though. I think i need to work on getting my headspace to a point where i let my body show that im enjoying whats going on and not just enduring it... Mistress wanted to practice her flogging and try to get THE SUBBIE CAR WASH going... this is where she holds 4 floggers at once. 2 in each hand facing the opposite way as the other. I really like that, it felt like rapid fire floggers hitting my back. She is very good with floggers, especially with hitting to the beat and accuracy of the blows. She also breaks up the flogging with sensual rubbing or scratching, kissing or biting. After the scene she let me swing the floggers a little bit. I got to try 2 floggers florentine. Its harder than i thought it would be. Its easy to get one arm to do the motion, but when i tried to get simultaneous motion it got all messed up. It gave me a little more appreciation of how hard it is to do, and then throw in accuracy and possibly striking to the beat if music is playing. After most of the people left and the night was slowing down Mistress took me to the back room to be a little more private playing. I dont like getting fully naked in front of others so this was nice. I got to take the gates of hell off : (. The next I was then put in my first rope harness that was a series of diamonds that went in front and back of me connected by little triangles. Also with a very strategic knot that rested on my taint (a very sensitive part of my body) I liked it there, but by the time i was sat down onto the bench with a cross on it and my wiggling to get comfortable, the knot slipped to my anus, lol. That i just so happened to be sitting directly on. My arms were then tied to the arms of the cross and my legs were spread wide open with my ankles tied to the legs of the bench. I was then tasked to remember what Huge, Her and I discussed at breakfast last time we were together... I dawned on me that Huge and I were talking about how hot the gaggings sound a woman makes while deepthroating. I then had an idea what was instore for me. She started with a popsicle. I cringed because i have extremely sensitive teeth. After she broke a bit of it off i was to hold in my mouth which i could do because i had to lean my head back and keep in off my teeth... in turn gagging on it. Huge recognized that i was in a little distress and i had to Mistress i can do cold in my mouth. So instead she got a baby sized butt plug to show me what gagging is like. Lesson learned. Then Mistress played with the popsicles on my body, drawing and then licking it off of me. She started getting closer to my genitals and I didnt think it would go there, but it did and i was in heaven. My arms were then untied and Mistress wanted to see me masturbate and cum on her chest. I thought for sure that i would cum in less than a minute because this is the kind of situation I fantasize about being in when i masturbate. Then with the looks she was giving me and her body language, i was never so turned on in my life. She started masturbating too and trying to help me cum by playing with my penis and balls, but I just couldn't cum, lol. We then took a break and smoked and talked a bit. Later on Mistress wanted me to give it another shot, so to the backroom we went. She wanted to see a cock harness that she had never used. So she put it on me and i was soft. I needed to be hard for this to work right. It had a series of straps the hold the penis agains the harness. I was getting harder and went through strap one. Every time Mistress would put her very talented mouth on me I would get a little harder and in turn get to another strap. This worked like clockwork until i was fully strapped in. This wasn't uncomfortable and looked so good on me. I even thought it looked hot. I took that off and got onto the bed with Mistress to complete my task. This time i knew i would cum... she was laying next to me and masturbating too. She would let me taste her fingers and then let me touch her also. This scene and the one before absolutely blew my mind. I have had good sex and all that jazz, but i was never turned on so much in my life. It was just so uninhibited and i was so comfortable with what was going on that I found it much more exciting. After a short time i finally came. I came on her chest and she loved it! She started rubbing it around her chest and licking her fingers. I was in awe. I've only seen something like that in porn.? Then she put me in her mouth again.. which for any guy who has ever orgasmed knows it is a brutal sensation because it is SO amazingly SENSITIVE! But its the kind of torture that feels so good, lol.? That was an intense couple of scenes that I will never forget.? When we got back to Mistress'? and Huge's house we looked at the pictures from the night and they were awesome to see.? They were very hot pics!? I am very pleased at the way that night went and the direction it ended up taking. ?

December 8, 2007 Tonight was the groups Christmas Party.? The night started by Mistress Faith giving me a present in a little bag.? The gift was a Christmas thong complete with white fur and a little bell.? I thought, ok i'll put these on if we play tonight, no bid deal.? Then i was told to put them on right then and there, i was to wear them all night with nothing else but my black work boots and a santa hat.? This was the hardest thing I have had to do yet.? I am very self-conscious and really didn't want to do this.? This was the biggest event of the year and I knew there would be more people than usual there.? As I stood in the bathroom and debated putting them on I just decided "Its a Christmas party, and this would make Mistress happy, ill do it."? She did like them, and i got several compliments all night long, but it was still a little humiliating.? Then my next job was to be the door boy, so everyone that came in saw me like this, so I kinda got used to being 95% naked in front of everyone.? Next there was the kinky gift exchange.? I picked a stocking full of misc items(same as Mistress) there was a lot of fun and funny gifts picked out.? The next event was sub-dom feud.? This was a very funny game and went very smooth and well.? I helped lil keep score by doing the quick math, but thats all i had to do with that game.? Then the 50/50 raffle which I WON!!!! that was sweet.? After that the board member auction.? I only bid on Mistress Faith, but i didn't get her. The first scene was in the cage table.? I was put in wrist and ankle restraints.? I was told to think about nothing but the communication and trust aspect of this bdsm relationship and where I wanted this to go.? Then I was put into the cage on my back.? Then earplugged, rope gagged, blind folded, hooded and restrained.? I loved this.? I could feel the cage being spun around and a couple playing on top of the cage which was a very cool experiance... I could feel the girl on the table getting spanked and feel the breeze of people walking around the cage.? Chain was fed through the cage starting a my chest and fed around the bars back and forth working down to my legs.? The feel of the cold chain sliding across my body in two or three places at once was very enjoyable.? I wasn't tightly restrained with the chains but I could feel them and I liked it.? Im not sure how long I was in the cage but, I did as Mistress said and really thought about what I wanted and I do want to commit a little more to this bdsm relationship and I need to communicate more with Mistress Faith to build a friendship which will build trust.? This was my first public scene which I was very nervous about having, but it wasnt bad because I couldn't see people looking at me, I wasnt really out in the open, and I felt very safe and relaxed in the cage. Overall I really enjoyed this scene.

December 6,2007 ?This week i was given the task of getting something for a kinky Chirstmas gift exchange at a Christmas party. I was to go to a local dollar store and find 15 items that could be used in a kinky way. I put on my mistresses favorite cologne, to get me in the mindset of thinking alternatively and went looking for kink in plain sight. I thought this was going to be a little difficult, but it wasn't too hard. After many many laps around the store I came up with these items that could be used in play: 1. kitchen tongs - pinching, clamping 2. 9 volt battery - punishment like soap (speach restriction) 3. metal spoon - spanking, cold smooth sensation 4. toy metal handcuffs 5. 10x12 drop cloth - for messy play 6. box of latex gloves - anything 7. Clingy gauze - binding or blindfolding 8.9. two massage toys 10. soft car wash mit - sesual touching 11. hand ice scraper - sharp and fun edges 12. chain choker collar - leash play 13. witch hazel - helping bruises 14.15. candles - wax play or insertables

11/17/07 Saturday, On this night i had my first real bdsm experiance with the wonderful and lovely Lady Faith. I was a little nervous and extremely excited. We started the night with a coulple drinks and a few questions. Huge warned me about these questions and said "run." These were fairly deep questions that I struggled to answer (surprise surprise) After a while of that we reviewed each others checklists and discussed a few things on them and tried to clarify on some of the hazy items on my list. Oh and I was warned that cursing was not allowed, simple enough rule... one would think. The first scene was started by me disrobing and being restrained with leather wrist and ankle restraints on a flat padded table with a plastic sheet covering it. My wrist were restrained but I had the ropes the held me in my hands, so if i wanted free all I had to do was let go. I believe that Mistress Faith wanted me to feel safe and I honestly did. The next thing I knew I was being lathered up with shaving cream and being totally shaved down there. This was a incredibe experiance. I personally have only shaved that area once and to have a beautiful woman do it was awesome. I was then blind folded and bit gagged. This was very exciting for me especially the gag, I had always had a fetish for gags, but I wasnt sure if i would like the gag before I actually had one in. Well I loved it... very hot. Next came the hot wax. I was slowly waxed on my chest, stomach, legs, arms and genitals. This was an absolutely amazing feeling. The wax was hot, but not hot enough to cause any burns or real pain. After a grand finale esque wax dump on my chest She then began removing the wax from my body. She peeled the larger layers of wax and it felt like a tight layer of clothing was being peeled of my chest and stomach. Other areas were scraped of with a knife. I really liked the sensation of the cold metal scraping the wax of my body. Mistress Faith then donned her rubber "potato peeling gloves" and rubbed and wiped me all over. The gloves were enjoyable to feel. After a quick shower and a little vacuuming we took a break. I thoroughly enjoyed this scene and was very at ease during the duration of it. The second scene we had was a "puns game" involving some of Mistress Faiths favorite things... CLAMPY THINGS! I was sat in a chair with arms clipped at my sides to the chair and ankles spread with a spreader bar. I really liked being in this position and was very exposed to anything she wanted to do with the bag of clampy things. The games rules were... if i answered a question incorrectly i got a clothespin attached, and if i answered right i got on removed. Removed as in ripped off : ). I had been sent a questionaire on her likes and favorite things and other general info. I looked it over a coulple times and saved it for future reference, but didnt study it. Which I payed the price for, lol. I did fairly well during the game Mistress Faith didnt get to attach all of the string connected clothespins but she seemed to enjoy wrong answers followed by right ones. The next game was to see if i was psychic... which was very fun. There were two bags of clothespins on the table next to us during the question game with four different colored cp's in them. I was then blind folded and made to guess which color she had. A wrong answer got me clamped and a right answer got me through the bags a little quicker. Needless to say i had most of the bags clipped all over my body. Including the tip of my nose which sucked, but it was funny as well. I really had a good time during this scene and laughed a great deal. I would love to do something like that again. The third and final scene of the night was more intense then the first two. I was attached to the wench with my arms clipped above me, blind folded and bit gagged. Mistress Faith whipped me with floggers, crops, buggy whip and taws. The floggers give a great sensation because they create a lot of wind when i was hit with them so you feel the cool air they generate and then the sting of them hitting. During this I was told it didn't look like I was having fun, on the contrary I was enjoying it and wanted to be still and show Mistress Faith I could take a little pain. In retrospect I should have been letting her know exactly how I was feeling and let my body language show her that I am enjoying or not enjoying what she is doing. During some parts I had no choice in my reactions showing, like the ice cold water bottle touching me all over. Also the vampire gloves and the wheel. The wheel being used on my genitals was a very erotic pain. I coud barely take it but wanted more at the same time. Before she got too deep into her bag of instruments she felt that my hands were ice cold and decided to take me out of restraints erring on the side of caution. I think that I discovered that Im not a pain slut, but I can take a little beating. My skin was quite red and a little sore, but all the marks went away by the next day. At the end of this scene i dropped the blanket that was givin to me and let "shit" slip out and was then punished by holding soap in my mouth for 60 seconds. Worsteshire flavored soap that just tasted like soap. Whoops! Overall I had a truly wonderful time with Mistress Faith and Huge that was photographing all the scenes. I felt like I had really accomplished something after all these years of yearning for a night like that.

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