ToySuzie

Last weekend - It had been four weeks since she’d seen her Master, although felt so much longer. The thought of him coming to see his toy had her so wound up with nervous anticipation and excitement.

The night before he’d text to say he’d be with her between 13:00 and 17:00 – although had slight panic next morning when reread with glasses on, as read it as 18:00 and 17:00!!!  She had to allow herself enough time to get ready, give herself a bit of a pamper and ensure her nails were freshly painted in bright red. 

As he got closer he gave her instructions on how to dress.  Fishnets, 5” heels, new underbust corset, long sheer cardigan and of course her collar.  As she waiting for his arrival, standing in position by patio doors, her back to the front door, her legs started to shake and her stomach knot up.  Normally he gives her a 10 minute and 2 minute warning, but this time it was just the 2 minute one.  All he has to do, when he arrives is run is hand over his toy to have her shaking with excitement event more.  He paused for a moment, knowing she struggles to put corset on correctly herself and tightens up the laces, almost making her wince as they go, just that little bit too tight.

Moving her to one side, he positions her in front of the mirror.  Something that he’s only been focusing on in recent months, amongst other things, but she finds it extremely erotic.  He has her there helpless, as he plays with his toy, making her watch what he’s doing to her. 

Unable to quickly put his hands on the arms cuffs, he grabs some cling film, pulling her elbows back, he secures her arms together, pushing her tits further out on display, so he could play with them, using her nipples in a variety of ways.  Ohhh, her nipples got so sensitive, so quickly, when he put his hand between her legs, he found her dripping wet.  This went on for some time, until her legs nearly gave up on her.

He then led her upstairs. Had her kneel on the floor in front of her and proceeded to work on her deep throat training, pushing her further then he’d ever done before, almost choking his toy, enjoying seeing the tears rolling down her face.  Again and again, he fucked her mouth, deeply, almost roughly, not caring for how she felt.  Taking pleasure in pushing her limits, just because he could and that’s what she’s there for.

Hauling her onto the bed he used her arse then dragged her to her feet.  Instructed her to change, to please his eyes with another outfit then come downstairs when she was ready.  Quickly she tried to pull herself together, changing into her very short skull skirt and lace top, which he’d previously cut holes in, to show off her nipples. 

Downstairs, he was reading one of the BDSM style books.  He instructed her to kneel in front of him and pleasure his body, whilst he almost ignoring her. Just using her to give him pleasure.  After sometime, he took her back upstairs, used his toy then, allowed her some chill time with her Master.

Later, looking at the clock for him, it was suddenly late afternoon.  Master hadn’t eaten all day, toy had been busy, and so he decided that they’d go out for an early dinner.  Plus, as toy hadn’t seen her Master for so long, it would give some face to face catch up time.  Dressing for her Master, in one of his favourite outfits, her black and white, swing, strappy short dress with lace holdups, heels and dress collar (she has a variety of collars to suit different occasions, this time suitable for local village pub/restaurant).  She has to admit she does enjoy these times with her Master when they can talk.  They text throughout the day, most days, but it doesn’t compare with actual Master time.

After a leisurely dinner, and admittedly more wine then was perhaps sensible, toy was extremely turned on and needing her Master.  Luckily, he indulged her in a session when they got home.  Then some more down time.  There is something that has her almost whimpering with pleasure, a well-used toy, knowing she’s both pleased and pleasured her Master and then being allowed to curl up next to him.

Then again, she had a night with her Master.  Circumstances are difficult at the moment and she doesn’t know when she’ll see him again, so will curl up in her basket until the next time.  She can’t promise that the occasional whimper won’t escape from time to time, but she knows that the wait will be worth it for her next Master fix.

Six weeks ago now, she was lucky enough to travel to see her Master over three nights.  On the third night, he took her back to the Hellfire Club for a play session, something that always excites her.

They’d been elsewhere in the afternoon, so it was a strange sensation arriving dressed semi vanilla, although she was quickly sent to change and felt much more at home in her fishnets, 5” heels, new corset and collar.  Master first took her a tour of the dungeon again, whispering in her ear, what he could do with his toy on the various pieces of equipment, making her stomach knot up and legs shake in nervous anticipation.  They then made their way upstairs for a drink in the bar / lounge area, as Master weighed up the other guests as they arrived.

It was then time to go back downstairs, on the way, Master produced her blindfold, so on entering the dungeon, she had no idea is there was anyone else in there.  She had a momentary surge of panic, when she thought he was going to put her in the coffin, but he quickly reassured her, he wouldn’t do that.  He led her to the narrow cell.  Wide enough to accommodate several people, but shallow enough that people could reach through the bars.

She was then strung up, hands above her head, open and vulnerable, not knowing what Master would do with his toy.  When in a situation like that sensations quickly take over, rather than actually knowing what was going on in detail.  Over around ¾ hour, she had hands and mouths rubbing and sucking on her nipples, soft fem lips kissing her, hands running over her body, people fingering her.  Master told her afterwards there were at least six people playing with her, and a growing audience watching the proceedings, wanting to join in.  Toy was only aware of one individual, she sensed a Fem Domme, who shushed her whimpers as her fingers probed every part of toy.  Toy lost all track of time, it’s a good job that Master keeps a close eye on her and can read her like a book, calling a stop and taking her down just before it all got too much for her, physically standing in the one position.  The silly thing, is it’s not the number of people playing with her, but the fact of standing on the spot, on a concrete floor, in 5” heels that cripples her, until feet are burning. 

Another trip up to the bar, for a glass of wine, and plenty of water.  Another “strange” thing is that toy gets very dehydrated during a session.  Thankfully, Master allowed her to sit, and not stand next to him, to rest her burning feet, hmmm funnily enough heels are never mentioned as a torture item in the toy box!   They were approached by another couple, who’d been watching the proceedings downstairs, and were interested in how long Master had, had his toy.  Another thing toy really enjoys about going to the club is that she can openly just be her Master’s toy and talk freely, with permission of course, with others, dressed and collared to please her Master.

After the couple wandered off, it was time to return to the dungeon.  Once again blindfolded, this time, Master led her to a bed bench and had her lie on her front.  She heard, him opening the mini portable toy box and soon realised he’d found what he was looking for, as she felt the sting of the flogger on her butt cheeks.  Her flogger training has lapsed somewhat recently, due to constraints on time, and she was soon crying out as it started to sting.  This continued for a while, until Master paused and she heard the buzz of conversation, but was unable to hear what was being discussed.  She then heard Master’s voice in her ear, saying he’d got two men with him, and they’d got a minute each to vigorously finger his toy.  Toy tensed up, feeling a little wary, but knowing she couldn’t let her Master down.  The first one made the most of his time slot, then toy heard the buzz of the timer on Masters phone, as they swapped over, and the second one was obviously trying to “out do” his friend.  Phew time up, then, not surprisingly she heard Master ask if they wanted another go.  Hmmm, he was happy to oblige them.  He does enjoy standing back, and watching his toy be used.  His only “regret” later that evening was that he’d not swapped them round and have one using her mouth as the other fingered her!

Then he called an end to that particular session.  Supporting his toy as he steadied her to her feet, he removed her blindfold.  Oh bright lights, bright lights, it’s always such a shock to the system when he does that, especially when she then has to act “normally”.

As they were leaving the dungeon they paused to watch a group of people surrounding a raised bench, with a femme was bent over and being vigorously fucked.  Hmmmm she did wonder what it would be like if that was her there with her Master!

Back upstairs and a welcome chill moment and small glass of wine, sitting on the sofas people watching.  All too soon it was time to leave.  They’d been watching a Fem Domme lightly playing with another fem.  As they walked past the Domme, beckoned her to lean over the sofas and started kissing toy.  Hmmmm, not quite sure, what happened there!  Time to go though.

The hardest part going to a club etc., is that on the journey home, toy is coming down and the bigger the high the harder the crash.  Master on the other hand has organised and watched his toy being played with all night and on getting back to the hotel, that’s his time to play.  The result is never pretty.  She understands and wants Master to get his play time with his toy, but emotionally she’s all over the place, it’s not something she can control at all and so it often ends in tears, but she still hopes that she manages to please her Master, despite that

There had been a lot of external / vanilla things going on and getting in the way recently and rather derailed toy, so she was needing a good session with her Master to get her back on track again, and boy did she get it. 

She was taking a couple of day’s holiday and Master was coming to stay with her on the Monday & Tuesday, with him arriving around 8am.  Stomach churning and excited, she went to bed on the Sunday night, hoping to catch some sleep and for the time to go quickly.  Fast asleep around midnight, she was woken as the bedroom flew open, which scared her half to death and Master tore into the room.  Ripping back the sheets, he roughly grabbed hold of her, pushing his fingers deep inside of her. 

Then suddenly stepping back, he told her she had 5 minutes to put some clothes on and come downstairs. Not knowing what to expect, she quickly pulled on her sheer net dress, fishnets, heels and collar tidied her face and unsteadily made her way downstairs.  Only for Master to grab hold of her, by her hair and pull her out of the front door and bundled across the road and into the back of her Masters car.  Hmmmm what the neighbour sitting opposite in his car thought, she dreads to think! 

She was shaking as Master headed off, driving a short distance before heading along a quiet country lane and pulling into a deserted carpark.  Climbing into the back of the car with her, he forced her head down to pleasure him, fucking her mouth hard, before dragging her outside into the cold, dark night.  He then pushed her back of the back of the car and fucked his toy before shoving her back into the car and taking her home.  Still very shaky, not quite having got over being woken in such a sudden and unexpected way.  She was relieved when she was finally allowed to curl up next to master for the night.

The next morning, after pleasing her master and being well and truly fucked, he informed her that she was to have a training morning. This was to start with him watching her exercise to one of her DVDs.  He told her initially to put on her normal exercise clothes, but he wasn’t happy with those so had her in sports bra and nix type shorts, very small and tight.  Oh boy, it about killed her, not surprisingly her average heart rate was up over 10 bpm more than normal! 

After that, she had time to shower and dress, before serving Master breakfast.  Then it was time to continue her training with time spent walking in her high heels, up and down the living room until he was happy then onto training in different positions both standing and kneeling.

After that, she was taken upstairs where he had set up a bench which he proceeded to tie her to.  After a period of using her nipples in different ways, he inserted the new remote vibe and left if running inside her, whilst he logged on and did some work.  After a while he instructed her to rub the vibe against her pussy and to cum for him over a period of time.  He kept her like this for quite a while.  When he thought she was sensitive enough, he removed the vibe and untied her. 

Her next instructions were to get dressed as they were going out shopping.  She had to wear an outfit that was sexy and a bit OTT for the location / situation.  Trying not to panic she came up with her tight leatherette leggings, tight jumper with half cup bra under and her long, over knee suede boots and leather jacket.  So off they set.    Hmmmm what she hadn’t taken into consideration was that those boots weren’t made for walking in, but somehow she made it round, feeling a little self-conscious, but Master seemed to enjoy!

He had her try a couple of outfits on for him, before deciding on something for her birthday present – thank you Master.  Plus also shopping for the dinner he was to cook that evening.  Back at home, his next task for her was to give him a fashion show, put together various outfits that would please his eye and parading in front of him.  His final choice was black leather waspie, her new long black sheer cardigan, fishnets, heels and collar.  Happy with the way she looked he blindfolded her then totally threw her totally by saying he was going out for a short while, to fetch a guest for the afternoon.  She was allowed to sit whilst he was out but must be on her feet and in position when she heard the door go.  As he went out her stomach totally screwed up and her legs were shaking. 

After what seemed like an age, she heard the door go and two sets of footsteps coming in.  She immediately sensed Master next to her then there was someone else standing in front of her.  On hearing a voice, she recognised it as a sub master has used before, to play with his toy.  Although she has never seen his face or what he looks like!  Hands ran over her body, then Master led her upstairs, put on her collar, laid her on the bed and fastened her wrists to her ankles, leaving her open, available and vulnerable. 

Over a prolonged period of time, her pussy and nipples were well and truly used, toy cuming numerous times.  She has to say, the sub (that sounds impersonal, but only because she wasn’t told his name), did an extremely good job!  A new experience for toy, was the sub wearing a metal cock cage, which took a little getting used to.

There was another new experiences for toy.  Prior to this session Master had a conversation with her, allowing her to speak freely, to get her thoughts and feelings on what, if allowed a choice, would she like to happen, should there be another session with a male sub.  She had said, she would enjoy it even more, if her Master would take a more “active” role, rather than just watching his toy being used.  Master said he would considered this, if he arranged another session in the future.  Not telling her it would be sooner rather than later.  Mmmmm she is happy to say that seemed very happy to go along with her thoughts, and her mouth was well and truly used too!

Toy totally lost track of time, going into Toyzone, she was more aware of sensations and feelings rather than being actively aware of what was going on around her, until she heard her Master call an end to the session.  She was allowed a short time to start coming down, then Master said he was going downstairs and toy, still blindfolded, and the sub, were to follow him down and put on a floorshow for him.  This toy found hard to do, as she’d started coming down.  It seemed to please Master though, then the session was brought to a close, time to thank and say goodbye to the sub for a very intense and enjoyable afternoon, before Master took him back to his car.

Toy was instructed that she could remove her blindfold, once he’d left the house, and chill for a moment.  Oh boy, she started coming down with a bump, feeling very shaky and drained and took a moment to crawl under her blanket on the sofa.  She could quite easily have stayed there for a little while but Master was soon home. 

It was then time to freshen up and change.  As a treat for her birthday, Master had promised to cook for her.  Mmmmm there is something she finds very erotic about him taking charge of her kitchen and this time was no different.  Thank you Master for a fantastic meal.  She was also thankful for a more chilled evening after the intenseness of the afternoon.

Then next day, was more relaxed, with a rare lazier start, toy being able to pleasure her Master in a number of ways, using her whole body, whilst Master continued the prolonged use of her nipples and pussy.  After breakfast, he had her dress in basque, stockings and heels, whilst he put her though her paces with different positions again, before blindfolding her.  She then heard him fetching chains down and she was strung up across the room in a standing position.  Later on, when her blindfold was removed, it turned out there was a chain from the top of patio doors to one wrist, and then other wrist attached by chain to top of door on other side of the room.  The only problem was the shoes she was wearing were very slippery on the wooden floor and she kept doing bambi impressions.  She was only starting to struggle with Master using her nipples and clit, which were starting to get extremely sensitive and tender and rather sore after the prolonged use of the last couple of days.

Luckily Master kept this particular session relatively short.  He was also in a more chilled mood, so had her curled at his feet for a while, in collar and leash, whilst he read, then over time also had her quietly pleasuring him.  Finishing off with him rewarding her by fucking her. 

After a light lunch, all too soon it was time for him to leave.  Oh what a fantastic couple of days, covering so many varied things and thoroughly enjoyable.  

A very varied month for toy’s experiences and she has been very lucky in seeing her Master a number of times.

In early December Master was staying at toy’s on a Sunday night, which was a rare occurrence.  He didn’t arrive until late evening and after a long day / journey was more in a chill mode.  He had toy dressed to please, but then allowed her the rare reward of being allowed to curl up next to master on the sofa, rather than on her rug, on the floor, at his feet.  He did keep her on edge though e.g. at every programme break, she was to complete an instruction e.g. pleasure her master or perform a task.  The most “confusing” for toy, was to lie across his lap, whilst he spanked her butt.  Toy has never been a pain slut, in fact it’s been to the extreme of she’s felt the pain before he’s even touched her, in the past.  Over the past year, she’s had a major in her head, and taken a huge step forward.  Now that, along with her flogger training, is something that she wants to proceed with, it’s almost something she is starting to crave.

Master didn’t have too early start the next morning, but his day, travel wise, didn’t go to plan at all and by the time he arrived back at toy’s that evening, what should have been 1.5 hours spent travelling turned into 3.5 hours.  As such, he made the decision to go straight out to dinner.  Toy obviously still aimed to please, in her dress, as far as she could in a local, vanilla setting.  Her tight military style new dress, lace hold ups and heels, dress collar, half cut bra and nipple jewellery.  Dinner, home and a pamper for Master.  She is there to please and pleasure her Master whatever his mood, and the circumstances might be, especially over a number of years, she knows that it’s impossible to be in full on Dom mode 24/7/365.  She enjoys all in different ways, the key thing is she has a need to please her Master. 

The next morning, there was a slight problem, when Master’s alarm hadn’t gone off.  Mmmmm she was happy though he chose, toy pleasuring her Master over breakfast!

 Later that week, she was lucky enough to be travelling to see her Master again, she’d decided, with Masters permission, to travel down, after a late finish at work, so that she was available to him from first thing, should he be free.  Originally, he’d thought he wouldn’t be able to see her until late morning, but thinks changed and she had an instruction to meet him for breakfast, before heading off to the hotel.  She had bought several outfits, to suit his mood and for the first session, he went for half cut bra (to display her tits), a very tight white shirt and kilt, obviously with collar, fishnets and heels.  He quickly had her feeling very vulnerable, lying on her side, on the bed.  Leash attached to collar, blindfolded, fastenings between the cuffs on her wrists and ankles.  Next on knees with shirt open, so he had access to her nipples and start on making her even more erect, then on her back, wrists attached to ankles. Legs open and feeling very vulnerable and available.  He then went to work on his toy, pushing her in a variety of ways.  One of the current favourites is the new bendy vibe that fits inside her and also rubs on her clit.  It’s also remote control with a number of settings, so he took great enjoyment from teasing her and tormenting her as he ran through them.  He had her in a number of positions, from lying on her back with head over the edge of the bed mouth and pussy available to him to use as he wished. To having her on her knees in front of him, pleasuring him with her mouth.

Sadly he was unable to see her again that evening, but he was able to meet with her earlier the following morning than expected, again for breakfast.  Then back to the hotel, this time dressed in black half cut bra and black tutu skirt.  Once again, he soon had her blindfolded, knowing it’s the quickest way to put her into toyzone, then had her with metal bar attached to the back of her collar and wrists, leaving her vulnerable.  Again, to use her in any way he wished, this time it included having her on point, with arse in the air as he continued her flogger training.  Later he was more in pamper mode and had toy giving him a full massage and working on relaxing him in many different ways, using her whole body.

The following week, she’d was supposed to be travelling to meet up with Master, after work, she’d not been feeling particularly well, her body wanting to crash, so Master had decided it wouldn’t be a wise move to travel.  Luckily, later in the day, she was feeling a lot better, so it was decided she’d be ok making the effort, and she was very glad she did.  She arrived first, but it wasn’t long before Master got there too.  He’d been on the road a while, so started off by grabbing some food to take to the room, and allow her to chill a moment after her journey. 

Unknown to toy, he’d also got her two early Christmas presents.  To start with she was instructed to strip then her wrists were cuffed together and she was blindfolded.  Then put on her back, on the bed.  He heard him unwrapping something and then felt something put over her pussy, she didn’t initially know what it was, but felt like the shape of an oxygen mask, which she quickly realised was a pussy pump.  It was rather difficult for Master to get it positioned effectively, as her pelvic area around is quite bony and so it was extremely painful to start with until Master maneuvererd it around a bit.  Then he started the pumping!

After a while of this, he pulled her to her feet and bought out her next surprise.  She obviously couldn’t see it but soon became aware that it was a new leather harness!  A full body one with straps over her shoulders, under her tits to lift and display them, round her waist and a tight strap between her legs.  It kept her tightly wrapped but displayed for Master’s pleasure, which he took full advantage of.  Then, as time was getting late, he had her massage him, using her whole body.  He particularly likes her to use her swollen and erect nipples to full advantage!

After he left, she knew she was to see him a couple of days later, she’d taken extra holiday at the start of Christmas week, and the plan was for him to travel to toy’s for a training camp.  Unfortunately, things didn’t go to plan, when he was struck down by the Christmas flu bug.  These things happen, but it was extremely disappointing for both.

At the last minute, he did make a surprise visit on New Year’s Eve morning.  Arriving early, she was allowed to pleasure him, before he came up with a list of possible things to do.  Spoilt for choice, she went for going into town for breakfast – but with a twist.  She was to wear her new leather harness, butt plug, coat and heels.  He did make one concession, of allowing her to wear a short skirt, given that it was minus 4 degrees outside and the ground still covered in snow and ice!  Back afterwards for a short play and to belatedly exchange Christmas presents then it was time to go.

As he’d not been able to get up before Christmas, he had arranged for her to go down to see him, at the beginning of the year.  Luckily she managed to tag on an extra days holiday to the Christmas break.  She set off early, in case master got ahead on his way and it paid off as she’d not been there long when he arrived.  She was rather surprised that he didn’t immediately have her change, however, a little later on the reason became apparent, when he said they were to go downstairs for coffee.  They’d just sat down when he informed her that a male sub would be joining them to lick her pussy!  Hmmmm, that one took toy by surprise.  Also a little strange for toy, as on previous occasions, she has been blindfolded and not seen the person involved.  Apparently, this was down to the subs nerves and also just taking precautions.  Toy’s stomach quickly knotted up in nervous anticipation although it was a little off putting when the sub arrived and the first thing he said was that he couldn’t stay very long.  Toy was quickly instructed to go up to the room and change, then Master followed up with the sub.  Normal services quickly resumed, as she was soon blindfolded and cuffed.  The sub did a very good job, with his mouth and seemed to enjoy it himself, however, he soon said he needed to go. 

Now toy had been warmed up, Master got stuck into playing with his toy, himself, including having her tied, using the wand on her for an extended period, working on her flogger training, putting her mouth to good use etc. etc.   After sometime, he then removed her blindfold, by this time she was feeling very shaky.  He said he was going to leave the room for a short while to give her time to pull herself together, then she was to text his, when she was ready and then put on a floor show for his pleasure.  Toy always finds this a little difficult, as she feels very self-conscious, but does her best to please her Master.  All too quickly the session came to an end.

As part of her new year’s tasks, the next morning started with a trip down to the gym, then she was able to meet up with Master for breakfast and then back to the hotel for another session.  This time he had her blindfolded, with new flexi vibe inserted and then leather harness on.  He then proceeded to wrap her in cling wrap from her tits to her ankles.  The tricky part is when he then cuts two holes in it to pull her nipples through!  He then attached the metal bar to her collar and wrists.  Then started on a prolonged session of teasing and tormenting her nipples and pussy, sending her deep into toyzone, until it was time when he needed to pop off for a while.  It took her a little while to come down and knew he’d be back later for more.

Luckily, it wasn’t too long before he returned, this time having her dress in leather waspie and her 5” heels.  He said that on New Year’s Eve, when he’d seen her, her walking posture had slipped, so he had her walking up and down the room for him, until he was happy walk.  He then used her in different ways before he had her give him a full, unrushed massage with oil.  Which she did, for some time, pleasuring him in different ways, until he rewarded her by fucking his toy.  Hmmmm time always seems to pass by, at double speed, when she’s with her Master, it went extra quick this time and she completely lost an hour and it was time for him to leave again. 

Ahhhhh, a well-used toy, who was still buzzing and on a high for the rest of the night.

This last month has been one of extremes, but toy has been lucky to see her Master on a number of occasions.

Second week of the month, Master was going to pay his toy a flying visit for the afternoon, and accordingly she booked time off work and was eagerly awaiting his arrival.  However, things didn’t go to plan, with motorways chocablock and traffic slow.  He eventually arrived 20 minutes before he’d been due to leave!  Luckily, he managed to delay for an hour – just time to eat picnic, have her pleasure him and fuck his toy – then off he had to go.  Though as toy always thinks, a quick Master fix is far better than no fix at all!

On the Friday of the same week, she found herself travelling to see her Master, it was totally unexpected and she was both surprised and delighted by the text late afternoon.  It just meant a roundabout trip to include home, change and pack.  Luckily she has her “jump” bag ready, so can be off at short notice and, of course, the toybox is always packed ready!  Even so, it was still late evening when she arrived.

On arrival, she is quickly instructed to change for her Master, her outfit including half cup bra, fishnets and heels.  She found herself cuffed and lying on her back, on the bed, with the new vibe inserted.  Then Master started to use her nipples and clit for his enjoyment before instructing her to put on a “show” for him, although she didn’t realise until came to upload pics, that he had also videoed her display.  Later she was to pleasure Master, using her whole body.  He especially likes to feel her erect nipples and wet pussy put to good use!

It always amazes her how time seems to go double speed, when with her Master and all too soon, she was being instructed to prepare herself for bed and was allowed the reward of being allowed to curl up next to her Master.

The following week, Master was paying another flying visit.  This time, the traffic played ball and she finished work a little earlier to be ready for him.  She was instructed to change, when he arrived, taking into account the limited time.  She was dressed in her Chinese style dress, suitable for waiting on her Master, and of course, stockings, heels and collar, as a good toy should.  He sat on the sofa, reading once of the erotic D/s books he has had her purchase.  He makes her read them from time to time, but with pencil in hand.  Highlighting the parts which stand out or appeal to her.  Toy poured him a glass of wine and then stood beside him, legs apart, arms folded behind her, just waiting.  He then almost absent mindedly, rubs her nipples or played with her pussy, not looking up from his book.  Toy does get frustrated just standing there, almost anxious to receive his full attention. 

After what seemed an age, he said it was time to eat, she’d prepared a picnic to save time.  As he sat he instructed her to fetch the nipple clamps, which have little bells attached to them.  However, instead of attaching them to her nipples, he attached them to her pussy lips.  Argh, it is one thing she can’t stand, the pain seems unbearable.  He told her she could sit, but she was unable to act normally or eat and felt the tears starting to stream down her cheeks.  Eventually he relented and removed them, listening to her scream out, as he did so.

After supper there was just time for her to give her Master a relaxing massage, and be rewards to a good fucking, before it was time to leave.  He had arranged a longer sessions with her that weekend, which she was looking forward too, however, before he left he instructed to write a chapter detailing what might happen (although it would have helped if she’d know what he actually had planned).  Argh, the last thing she felt like doing after a fix, she wanted to curl up in her basket, but she did as instructed, which took her nearly two hours after he left.

During the week, he keep her on edge over the weekend session. He had been saying for quite a while that he really wanted to push his toy, but had been limited with time constraints.  This would be his chance.  He next instructed her to write down (and text him), 5 things that might be used on her, for how long and at what pain / pleasure level it might be.  As always with these things, she immediately goes into a panic and her mind seizes up, almost a run for it reaction.  However, with a few deep breaths, she eventually managed to come up with some.

On the Thursday evening, she received further instructions for Saturday afternoon.  Master would be arriving around 4pm, but prior to that she would be on loan to someone and that he obviously expected her to be on her best behaviour – as if she would let her Master down!

On Friday morning, she received further instructions.  She would be sent to pick Angel up on the Saturday lunchtime.  So far, so good.  However, she would just be allowed to wear stocking, heels, her collar and a coat.  Now she was getting really nervous. 

Saturday soon came round and she was getting extremely nervous, stomach churning and feeling on edge.  She found her longest coat, but even that felt way too short, but kept opening at the front if she didn’t keep her hands in her pockets.  Off she set, taking a quick look round before her dash to the car.  Sods law, there was someone in a car parked outside the neighbours, so she was very careful getting into her car. 

On her arrival, Angel knew how nervous she was and gave her time to calm down a little.  Before making toy try on a number of outfits, from her collection and having toy give her a fashion show.  Finally she settled on a very tight, extremely short stretchy dress (more of a tunic), which toy also really liked.  Master was on his way and in contact intermittently, but she wasn’t allowed to give a clue to what she would be wearing.  Angel then said that she wanted to get a feel for toy’s pain levels, as it had been a while since she’d played with her, so made toy stand facing, and leaning on the door, whilst she tried out the flogger and paddle, getting toy to rate each strike out of 10.  Youch, toy’s levels are vastly improved on what they used to be, but Angel soon reached a 10!

Then it was time to leave, and toy was instructed to bring the car closer for Angel.  As toy reached for her coat, Angel took one look and said who’d given her permission to put it on.  Uuuuuuuuu, it seemed a long way to the car.  Luckily, the neighbours came out, with their children, so Angel relented and toy was allowed to put on her coat.  Even so she felt extremely exposed.  Off they went to toys.

There was barely time for toy to take off her coat, change into higher heels and pour Angel some wine before Master arrived.  As toy stood in front of them, they debated which of the 5 items on toy’s list they would start with before settling on the flogger.  She had put flogger, 20 strokes, and level 8.  Which had seemed a good idea at the time, now the reality hit and she wasn’t feeling so brave.  She was instructed to pull up the sheepskin rug and kneel in front of them, facing away with arse in the air.  They stood on either side of her and agree to 10 strokes each, toy hadn’t taking into account nerves making her more on edge.  She took the strokes the best she could be when one caught her between the legs she did a nose drive with a squeal of pain,  the next one was on the back of her thighs, youch, again wasn’t what she’d imagined as she took another dive.  She wouldn’t help herself, it really pushed her, but she made it to the end of the 20 somehow.

Next on the list.  Pegs on arse for 10 minutes.  Again, when writing it, 10 minutes didn’t seem long and she was anticipating maybe half a dozen pegs.  Wrong, wrong wrong, she ended up with the whole peg bag attached to her arse, youch, and 10 minutes felt a lifetime.  The only “plus side” was that she’d forgotten Angel has a major aversion to wood, and it caused her as much trouble putting them on as it did toy taking it.  Of course, a respectful toy would never giggle out loud, but she came damn close!  After the very long 10 minutes were finally up, Master asked how she would like them removing.  Quickly, she said, which luckily he did but double youch, it hurt as much as they came off and her butt felt like it was on fire.

There was no time for her to relax her muscles before onto the next thing, but with a twist, toy had put her nipples used in different ways.  However before that she was blindfolded, had plugs put in her ears, wrists cuffed and then attached to the over door hangers.  Unable to see, plus hearing extremely restricted to the odd mumble, toy was just left.  Oh this is something she really hates and she just seemed to be hanging there for what seemed to be an extremely long time.  Different things affect her in different ways, not always with any logic included and she found herself sobbing, especially when her shoulder started screaming at her (hmmmm sadly her joints aren’t quite what they used to be).  Eventually she sensed Master and Angel back in front of her, then they started on her nipples, the pump on one and the crop lightly used on the other.  When toy had written the list, she had taken each thing in isolation.  She hadn’t anticipated the accumulation of things, and the whole session that had made her so extra sensitive and she was soon crying out as they continued on.

Eventually, she was let down, given a moment to get her joints moving again and then led upstairs, where her wrists were chained to the bed.  Last thing on the list, the wand on her clit for 10 minutes, but what she’d anticipated as pure please became torture as she was so very very sensitive.  Once again, crying out until she was begging Master to stop it, it eased for a moment then continued and she could feel pressure on the other side of it as Angel sat with her legs wrapped around toy, pressing onto both of them.  Still she couldn’t take it anymore and eventually Master relented and stopped it.  Toy quivering from head to toe. 

The session continued for some time longer, until Master called an end to it.  He then said he was going to get ready to go out to dinner and toy was allowed a short chill time with Angel, who helped her to come down, before Master came in to chivvy them up! 

Toy was instructed to dress for dinner, in one of the outfits she had written about, earlier in the week.  Although, suddenly her leather dress seemed a bit OTT for the local Chinese!  Master then did one of the other things he’d been threatening to and inserted the new vibe.  To keep it in place she was instructed to wear a pair of tiny, tight shorts (she no longer owns any nix).  Then off then went.

Well by now toy was in a right state, every part of her was overly sensitive, and Master having the vibe’s remote to play with, during dinner, was pushing her over the edge.  A large part of dinner became a blur, she was so busy trying hard not to scream out or make a scene.  Eventually he turned it off for a while, but it still felt like it was vibrating, she was so tender and sensitive.  How she got through the dinner, she’ll never know.  Then it was back to toy’s for another play session, before it was time for Angel to leave.  Master continued with his toy for a little while then allowed her to start coming down a bit before crawling into bed and curling up next to her Master.  The best treat / reward of all.

As toy said, it was a month of extremes from flying visits to a full on session that really pushed her limits.  Who knows where the next one will take her?

At short notice, she had managed to get a half day holiday from work, and Master was coming up for a flying visit to use his toy.  Before she left for work that morning he’d instructed her to put on the jewellery rings that fit over her nipples, so that they’d be sensitive for when he arrived.

After a busy morning, she stopped off at the local store to pick up some bits for their afternoon picnic.  As she came out, her Master was waiting in the car park.  As she walked over, he wound down the window and offered her three choices from the selection of notes he had.  From there she would have her instructions for what to wear, one was a top, bottom and footwear.  She then had to get home and change then text him when she was ready. 

She found herself in transparent net top, red net tutu shirt that doesn’t even pretend to cover her arse and high shoe boots.  Her nipples were already tender and very erect through wearing the jewellery all morning.  As soon as Master came in, he blindfolded her and then she heard the rustle of bags.  Hmmmm Master had been shopping for new additions to the toy box!   First thing was the addition of a collar, nothing new there, but then she found it was attached to a bar, with cuffs at each end for her wrists.  Then something was inserted inside her.  She couldn’t work out the shape of it, or what exactly it was until it suddenly started vibrating, obviously a new remote control toy for her Master to have fun with!

She was then led upstairs and made to stand waiting for her Master.  Unfortunately, her grip on the vibe loosened with moving upstairs and dropped out, which gained her a slap across her cheek and bought tears to her eyes.  Her top was then pulled down at the front, exposing her tits even more and she was put on the bed on point with her arse in the air.   On display and ready for him to continue her flogger training, after which she was pushed onto the floor, on her back and instructed to put a show on for her Master.  It must have been ok, as she was rewarded with a good fucking!

A break for a picnic late afternoon then time to massage and pamper her Master.  All too soon it was time for him to leave.  A well used and happy toy after her fix.

Just over a week later, she was lucky to be traveling to meet her Master, mid-evening.  For once, it wasn’t a long journey and within 25 minutes she’d arrived.  She was instructed to go up to the room and quickly change.  This time in fishnets, new 5” spiky heel shoes, half cut bra, to display her tits, loose, open, sleeveless serving top and collar.  She’d just manage to change and pour Master his wine when he entered the room.  Given the new heels, the first thing he did was to put on the long retractable leash and had her walking up and down the room to see how she walked in them.  Luckily she didn’t make a fool of herself and he seemed pretty pleased with the new addition.  He then blindfolded her and inserted the new bendy vibe.  For a while he had her kneeling at his feet under his instruction before moving her onto the bed.  Lying on her back, wrist and ankle cuffs fastened together and head over the edge of the bed, leaving her open and vulnerable.  Her mouth to use as he wished and access to her nipples and pussy, which he also fully used.  All this time the new vibe had been gently buzzing away on a low setting.   Next he released her ankles from her wrists and instructed her to turn round so that she was on point with her arse in the air.  She shuddered as she heard the pop of the lube tube and felt the cold sharpness of the small jewelled end butt plug, which he quickly inserted.  It will never be toys free choice, but it is not her decision. 

After a while, he instructed her to start pleasuring him and massaging him with her whole body.  So far, so good.  She had totally lost track of time, but it turned out that the new vibe had been gently buzzing away inside her for over two hours, when it hit – big time!  It shook her very being, until she was begging Master to switch it off and seemed to continue afterwards for ages.  It also had the weird, and very unexpected reaction, of making her extremely emotional with tears pouring down her face, under her blindfold.  All this time she was still under instruction to be pleasuring her Master, which she found extremely difficult, but did her best until he rewarded her by fucking her. 

When he removed her blindfold, she had difficulty in coming down.  She had really gone deep into toyzone, even Master hadn’t realised, at the time, how deep she had gone! She couldn’t hold a conversation for a while and was extremely shaky.  Luckily Master allowed her time to settle and had her curl up next to him.  It’s been a while since she’s been that deep and completely out of it. 

A fortnight later, she was on the road again.  She’d managed to juggle her hours and get away from work mid-afternoon and off to see her Master.  It didn’t quite go to plan as the 2/12 – 3 hour journey took her over 3 /12 hours and cut into the time Master was available.  After her nightmare journey though he did allow her to chill for a moment with a glass of wine, then was instructed to go up to the room to change again.  This time net very short skirt, heels and a new chain and leather bra – although it was supposed to be a fitted size, it wasn’t a great success as it was a little big in places, it was ok when she was standing upright, but lost its shape a bit when leaning forward.  At the same time, Master had also purchased a new leather chastity belt, which had had to be sent back to be refitted.  Somehow it was way too big on her and needed new straps.  Hopefully she will have that back for her next fix.

She was quickly blindfolded then Master inserted the new bendy vibe.  She was slightly wary after the last time.  She was then put on point, on the bed and Master went to work warming her arse up with the flogger. Then onto her back to put a show on for him.  A pamper of master, a fucking of toy and he had to leave.  She had enjoyed her fix though and was looking forward to seeing Master the next day.  She was lucky too, in that he later said he’d considered just meeting her, fucking her and then leaving her.  Phew, so glad he didn’t.

She made her way downstairs for a light supper and glass of wine.  Unable to keep the huge grin off her face, she was sure that people could tell she was a well fucked toy!

She wasn’t expecting to see him until lunchtime, so was thrilled to receive a text to meet him for coffee and breakfast locally.  There’s something about meeting in public but still showing her obedience.  Waiting on him, serving him, waiting to be seated etc. etc.  Plus there is something that grips her and screws up her stomach when he drops his voice and speaks to her toy, telling her what he might do and giving her instructions. Before they left, he instructed her to go to the toilets and allowed her to cum, just to ensure that he could taste her juices on her fingers when she returned to the table.  A very turned on and wet toy, who couldn’t wait until she saw Master later in the day.

Before he left he’d tasked her to go shopping and get one of the following – a mutton dressed as lamb outfit, a see-through top, an extremely short skirt or very very tight leggings.  The local out of town stores were a little limited, but she did manage to get 2 pairs of extremely tight jean leggings which showed off her arse.  He could then choose, which pleased him the most.

Time seemed to drag but it was eventually time to meet him for a coffee before heading back up to the room.  The first task was to give him a fashion show.  Then to quickly change.  This time she was in her leather waspie, fishnets and heels.  He then added her blindfold, the new bar attached to collar and wrists plus her leash.  Unsurprisingly he then added the new bendy vibe, which seems to be getting an awful lot of use.  The trouble was, she was so wet that it slipped out.  She flinched in anticipation of the slap, which soon rang across her cheek.  Youch, she is so mad at herself that she slipped up.  Though Master was determined that it wouldn’t happen again and strapped her into the leather harness, which kept it firmly in place.  He then went to work on her nipples, mainly with the vibrating pump, which seemed to pull deep inside her.  After some time, he released her and had her on her knees, licking his feet and up his legs as he sat reading. 

Next move, he had her on her back, on the bed with her head over the edge.  She did have a bit of a “moment” as her head was so far back the new collar was pressing onto her throat, which has the effect of making her feel a bit panicky. He then filled her mouth with his cock and started fucking it which, given the angle of her head off the bed also covered her nose, making her panic even more.  Tight on throat and unable to breath.  Luckily he quickly move her slightly and continued. 

After sometime playing with his toy, he had her pampering him again, before fucking his toy.  Then he allowed her some chill time, with her Master before it was time for him to leave her again.  She doesn’t know why, but time always seems to go at least twice as fast when she’s with her Master. She can’t wait to see him again for her next fix.

She just chilled for the rest of the evening as needed to be up 5ish and on the road before 6am.  Then back to work for 9, trying to concentrate after her fix was difficult!

Things haven’t always gone to plan over the last few months, but toy is trying to at least get back on track with her journal updates.  Although she hasn’t seen her Master for a weekend of 11 weeks, toy has taken odd bits of holiday and they’ve managed a few midweek meetings.

At the beginning of the month, she had a great surprise when Master text her first thing in the morning to see if she could get the afternoon off work as his schedule had changed and he’d the opportunity to see her.  A mad rush and an understanding boss and she found herself back home mid-afternoon and standing in front of her master.  Her stomach screwed up and legs shaking not knowing what he would have planned.

She was instructed to hurry upstairs and change, fishnets, heels and collar and wait for her Master.  She then quickly found herself blindfolded and spread-eagled on the bed and chained up.  Master then proceeded to use a number of different things on her nipples – pump, pegs, clamps etc., making them more and more swollen and erect, getting very tender.  Then he added a peg to her clit, Master enjoying hearing her scream out.  She founds that so painful and almost unbearable.  He then plugged her pussy with vibe and went to work on her clit with the wand until she was begging to be allowed to come. 

She was then released, cuffs attached to her ankles and put on her hands and knees with the spreader bar attached to her ankles cuffs and head over the edge of the bed. A chain was also attached from her collar to the bar. Master then alternated between roughly fucking her mouth and using her arse.  Then he proceeded to continue with her flogger training.  She’s not a pain slut at all, far from it, but she’s starting to enjoy the flogger more, Master is taking her training steadily so as not to scare her off again.  Of course, he could just go ahead and do it, as is his right, but he’s wanting her to want it herself, rather than it just be forced on her.

Time then to give her master a pamper, before being rewarded with a good fucking.  Then dressing to serve him a picnic supper before time for him to leave.

A couple of weeks later she was on the road, on a midweek afternoon, excitedly travelling to see her master, from work it was a 3 hour drive, but it felt twice as long in her nervous excitement.  On arrival, she was allowed a moment for a coffee and settle after her journey then instructed to go up to the room and change ready for her Master.  Again, in fishnets, heels and collar, plus the addition of her serving top and half cut bra to help display her tits for her Master.  As Master entered the room, she served him a glass of wine, then he proceeded to attach the leather belt, that fits round her hips with the leather strap between her legs.  He adjusted it so her pussy lips were pulled through the hole and displayed then fastened a leash to the front of the belt. 

As he sat and chilled with his wine, she was pulled to her knees and instructed to let him feel her mouth pleasuring him.  After a while, she was dragged to her d, then her hands cuffed behind her and attached with the hogtie straps to her collar.  Suddenly she was thrown on the bed, on her back, with her head over the edge and legs forced to stay open.  She was ordered to open her mouth as she felt masters cock forced down her throat, fucking her mouth until she started choking.  He then proceeded to work on her clit with the wand until she was begging to cum.  Thankfully, he gave permission, she was scared she couldn’t hold back otherwise.  Then it stopped and his cock fucked her mouth again, until coughing and gaging again, tears pouring down her cheeks from under her blindfold. 

Eventually she was released and allowed a moment or two to pull herself together and have a drink.  Then Master instructed her to get a pen and paper, something that always makes toy very nervous.  Then came toy’s dilemma.  She had a choice for the following day, when there would be times that Master wasn’t with his toy.  She could carry on, in a similar vein, with Master pushing and using her, but nothing OTT. Or, he could really push her, when with her, not take notice when she was in pain, be uncaring etc. then when not with her, he would probably have her pussy and arse plugged and to wear the belt which cut into her.  It wasn’t an easy choice, although he assured her she wouldn’t be letting him down if took option one.  It was rather emotional and took a while before a decision was reached, but the deciding factor was time with her master is too precious and short to waste it being miserable, she’s a pleasure slut not a pain one.  Although she continued to argue the decision in her head the rest of the night. 

Then she was allowed to do what she really enjoys and pleasure her master.

The next day, he had somethings he needed to do in the morning, but he’d be back for lunchtime.  This time, she was dressed in very short, skull skirt, fishnets, collar, lace top and half cut bra.  Again, he made use of the leather belt, before having her kneeling in front of him.  This time he then decided to apply pegs to her arse, they didn’t feel too bad to start with but he left them on for some time, and they gradually started to burn.  He then positioned her, on point, on the bed, so her arse is in the air and available to him.  After removing the pegs and hearing her scream out, he continued with her flogger training, before turning her round again and using her mouth until her throat was screaming.  Pulled to her feet he then attached the nipple clamps and had her standing in front of him for what seemed ages, before dragging her across the room and into the bathroom, then back on to her knees.  One of toy’s hard limits is water sports, which is ok with Master as it doesn’t interest him.  However, he always likes to push her, around the edge of things.  She heard him urinate next to her, and started whimpering then as her finished he thrust his cock in her mouth to clean him.  Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuu that’s something she really hates but couldn’t let her master down. 

She was then dragged back to the bedroom, where she was allowed a drink and her blindfold removed, before being instructed to give her master a full massage before rewarded with a fucking.  A short chill time with Master then it was time for him to leave, time had just flown by.   Why is it that time always seems to go by twice as fast as normal when with her Master?

Luckily, she didn’t have to wait too long for her next fix, just a couple of days. This time, it was Master travelling up to see his toy,  he didn’t know for sure if would be able to make it until mid-afternoon, so she was desperately trying hard not to build her hopes up, but failed miserably.  She was so excited when he confirmed he’d be there, although not until late evening, so would go out for dinner.  Especially when going out local, it’s getting a balance of what she can wear out that’s suitable, whilst still pleasing her master.  She went for a short floaty dress, which was tightly belted but allowed her to go braless, lace holdup, heels and a dress collar. 

When Master arrived, it was a quick change and then straight out.  She does enjoy going out for dinner, for a change, in that she can show her obedience in different, if subtle ways, which contrast from when in private with her Master.  From being kept waiting just a tad long to have permission to sit down, to serving him wine etc., and never knowing what he would have planned.  After an enjoyable evening out, he asked the waitress for a pen and paper, when instructed her to imagine and then write down 3 scenarios of what might happen on the way home. 

They set off, toy not sure if he’d head straight home, her stomach knotted, suddenly feeling very nervous.  Then suddenly he turned off the main road, taking a detour off down a country lane and pulled into a deserted car park.  As the night was cold, she was extremely relieved that he didn’t order her to strip.  Walking round to the front of the car, she was roughly pushed, so bending backwards over the bonnet, as he ran his hands over her body, then flipped her over onto her front to use her as he wished,

As suddenly as it started, she was ordered back into the car and taken home.  There she was told to go and change ready to put a show on for her Master.  Quickly changing in to a one piece outfit, she went back down and was instructed to kneel on the sofa, on point with arse facing her master and to play and give him a good show.  Which of course she did!  When Master was satisfied, he took her back upstairs.  This time to pleasure him, using her whole body, before receiving her reward! 

Once again, time had flown by, although this time she had her favourite treat of being able to curl up next to her master for the night.  All too soon the early alarm went off and it was time for him to hit the road.

Oh she can’t wait until her next fix.

Oooops, she wrote her journal update for last month on time, sent it to her Master for approval and then with a bit of a delay, it got put to one side, which is why it's rather later.

Neither toy, or her Master, have been on here lately, due to a number of vanilla things that seem to have taken over.  She is anticipating (hoping) that things will settle down and normal service will resume, so to speak, from early / mid September.  
With the delay doing her last update, she just has one additional meeting for July.

Unusually, she found herself travelling to meet her Master on a Sunday evening.  She’d been unable to settle, stomach screwed up in nervous anticipation, so had set off early and found herself with time to spare before Master arrived.

She heard Master’s voice at the reception, before she saw him, which made her even more excited and soon had instructions to head up to the room.  Although, once again, things didn’t quite go to plan and he had to then pop off for a while, leaving her waiting for him. 

Eventually, Master returned, quickly asserting his control, toy was instructed to strip.  The blindfold was then put on her and she was ordered to lie on the bed, on her back.   Cuffs were attached to her wrists and ankles and she was swiftly tied to the bed, legs spread and arms above her head.  Open, vulnerable and available to her master, to do with as he wished. 

Lately, he has been concentrating on using her nipples, making them even more erect and sensitive and engorged.  This night continued the theme, master kept swapping over between nipples using pegs and the nipple pump.  Before long, her nipples were getting extremely sensitive. Losing all track on time, he kept it up.  Before releasing her to pleasure her master using her nipples, over the whole of his body.  Eventually rewarding her by fucking his toy. 

When he finally removed her blindfold she was amazed to see that two hours had past.  She was then allowed to curl up next to her master, a happy toy.  All too soon, the alarm went off and morning struck.  At least she was allowed to pleasure her master again, before it was time for both to start moving.

Sadly, due to various reasons, it will be a few weeks until she can see her master again.  She will miss him, but will be having lots and lots of yummy thoughts.  Can’t wait for her next fix!

Just one final word, on her 12 months “healthier toy” plan.  It’s month 11 with the final weight in / measure etc. on 1^st September.  The whole point was to be a life change rather than a quick fix or diet so that it can be sustainable and to get her exercising regularly again, which does her head as much good as her body.  Whilst the weather has been fine, she’s out 3 – 4 weekday mornings before work for an hour exercising and has now built it up to 4.75 miles a session.  She has certainly been motivated, not to let her master down by failing, but has also enjoyed the challenge.   

Oooops, she wrote her journal update for last month on time, sent it to her Master for approval and then with a bit of a delay, it got put to one side, which is why it's rather later.

Neither toy, or her Master, have been on here lately, due to a number of vanilla things that seem to have taken over.  She is anticipating (hoping) that things will settle down and normal service will resume, so to speak, from early / mid September.  

With the delay doing her last update, she just has one additional meeting for July.

Unusually, she found herself travelling to meet her Master on a Sunday evening.  She’d been unable to settle, stomach screwed up in nervous anticipation, so had set off early and found herself with time to spare before Master arrived.

She heard Master’s voice at the reception, before she saw him, which made her even more excited and soon had instructions to head up to the room.  Although, once again, things didn’t quite go to plan and he had to then pop off for a while, leaving her waiting for him. 

Eventually, Master returned, quickly asserting his control, toy was instructed to strip.  The blindfold was then put on her and she was ordered to lie on the bed, on her back.   Cuffs were attached to her wrists and ankles and she was swiftly tied to the bed, legs spread and arms above her head.  Open, vulnerable and available to her master, to do with as he wished. 

Lately, he has been concentrating on using her nipples, making them even more erect and sensitive and engorged.  This night continued the theme, master kept swapping over between nipples using pegs and the nipple pump.  Before long, her nipples were getting extremely sensitive. Losing all track on time, he kept it up.  Before releasing her to pleasure her master using her nipples, over the whole of his body.  Eventually rewarding her by fucking his toy. 

When he finally removed her blindfold she was amazed to see that two hours had past.  She was then allowed to curl up next to her master, a happy toy.  All too soon, the alarm went off and morning struck.  At least she was allowed to pleasure her master again, before it was time for both to start moving.

Sadly, due to various reasons, it will be a few weeks until she can see her master again.  She will miss him, but will be having lots and lots of yummy thoughts.  Can’t wait for her next fix!

Just one final word, on her 12 months “healthier toy” plan.  It’s month 11 with the final weight in / measure etc. on 1^st September.  The whole point was to be a life change rather than a quick fix or diet so that it can be sustainable and to get her exercising regularly again, which does her head as much good as her body.  Whilst the weather has been fine, she’s out 3 – 4 weekday mornings before work for an hour exercising and has now built it up to 4.75 miles a session.  She has certainly been motivated, not to let her master down by failing, but has also enjoyed the challenge.   

Oooops, she wrote her journal update for last month on time, sent it to her Master for approval and then with a bit of a delay, it got put to one side, which is why it's rather later.

Neither toy, or her Master, have been on here lately, due to a number of vanilla things that seem to have taken over.  She is anticipating (hoping) that things will settle down and normal service will resume, so to speak, from early / mid September.  

With the delay doing her last update, she just has one additional meeting for July.

Unusually, she found herself travelling to meet her Master on a Sunday evening.  She’d been unable to settle, stomach screwed up in nervous anticipation, so had set off early and found herself with time to spare before Master arrived.

She heard Master’s voice at the reception, before she saw him, which made her even more excited and soon had instructions to head up to the room.  Although, once again, things didn’t quite go to plan and he had to then pop off for a while, leaving her waiting for him. 

Eventually, Master returned, quickly asserting his control, toy was instructed to strip.  The blindfold was then put on her and she was ordered to lie on the bed, on her back.   Cuffs were attached to her wrists and ankles and she was swiftly tied to the bed, legs spread and arms above her head.  Open, vulnerable and available to her master, to do with as he wished. 

Lately, he has been concentrating on using her nipples, making them even more erect and sensitive and engorged.  This night continued the theme, master kept swapping over between nipples using pegs and the nipple pump.  Before long, her nipples were getting extremely sensitive. Losing all track on time, he kept it up.  Before releasing her to pleasure her master using her nipples, over the whole of his body.  Eventually rewarding her by fucking his toy. 

When he finally removed her blindfold she was amazed to see that two hours had past.  She was then allowed to curl up next to her master, a happy toy.  All too soon, the alarm went off and morning struck.  At least she was allowed to pleasure her master again, before it was time for both to start moving.

Sadly, due to various reasons, it will be a few weeks until she can see her master again.  She will miss him, but will be having lots and lots of yummy thoughts.  Can’t wait for her next fix!

Just one final word, on her 12 months “healthier toy” plan.  It’s month 11 with the final weight in / measure etc. on 1^st September.  The whole point was to be a life change rather than a quick fix or diet so that it can be sustainable and to get her exercising regularly again, which does her head as much good as her body.  Whilst the weather has been fine, she’s out 3 – 4 weekday mornings before work for an hour exercising and has now built it up to 4.75 miles a session.  She has certainly been motivated, not to let her master down by failing, but has also enjoyed the challenge.   

Oooops, she wrote her journal update for last month on time, sent it to her Master for approval and then with a bit of a delay, it got put to one side, which is why it's rather later.

Neither toy, or her Master, have been on here lately, due to a number of vanilla things that seem to have taken over.  She is anticipating (hoping) that things will settle down and normal service will resume, so to speak, from early / mid September.  

With the delay doing her last update, she just has one additional meeting for July.

Unusually, she found herself travelling to meet her Master on a Sunday evening.  She’d been unable to settle, stomach screwed up in nervous anticipation, so had set off early and found herself with time to spare before Master arrived.

She heard Master’s voice at the reception, before she saw him, which made her even more excited and soon had instructions to head up to the room.  Although, once again, things didn’t quite go to plan and he had to then pop off for a while, leaving her waiting for him. 

Eventually, Master returned, quickly asserting his control, toy was instructed to strip.  The blindfold was then put on her and she was ordered to lie on the bed, on her back.   Cuffs were attached to her wrists and ankles and she was swiftly tied to the bed, legs spread and arms above her head.  Open, vulnerable and available to her master, to do with as he wished. 

Lately, he has been concentrating on using her nipples, making them even more erect and sensitive and engorged.  This night continued the theme, master kept swapping over between nipples using pegs and the nipple pump.  Before long, her nipples were getting extremely sensitive. Losing all track on time, he kept it up.  Before releasing her to pleasure her master using her nipples, over the whole of his body.  Eventually rewarding her by fucking his toy. 

When he finally removed her blindfold she was amazed to see that two hours had past.  She was then allowed to curl up next to her master, a happy toy.  All too soon, the alarm went off and morning struck.  At least she was allowed to pleasure her master again, before it was time for both to start moving.

Sadly, due to various reasons, it will be a few weeks until she can see her master again.  She will miss him, but will be having lots and lots of yummy thoughts.  Can’t wait for her next fix!

Just one final word, on her 12 months “healthier toy” plan.  It’s month 11 with the final weight in / measure etc. on 1^st September.  The whole point was to be a life change rather than a quick fix or diet so that it can be sustainable and to get her exercising regularly again, which does her head as much good as her body.  Whilst the weather has been fine, she’s out 3 – 4 weekday mornings before work for an hour exercising and has now built it up to 4.75 miles a session.  She has certainly been motivated, not to let her master down by failing, but has also enjoyed the challenge.   

What a fantastic month toy has had. After seeing her Master on average once every three weeks for the previous couple of months, this month she has been lucky enough to see her Master six times in three weeks.

At the start of April, toy took a half days holiday with her Master making a flying visit, just to use his toy. This particular type of session normally tends to be very intense and this was no exception. As it was both toy and her Master pulled up at the same time and it immediately started, with Master grabbing her by her throat and then forcing her to the sofa, whispering in her ear, what he would like to do with his toy. He then roughly pulled her to her feet and gave her 10 seconds to strip, or he would cut any remaining clothes from her.

She was then ordered upstairs where she was instructed to put on fishnets and heels then found herself quickly blindfold, wrists cuffed and pinned behind her back and then the three way strap fitted which connects the back of her collar with her wrists. Her stomach was screwed up and legs shaking, not knowing what master would do next. She soon found out as he proceeded to attach a number of pegs around her tits and then attached the clamps with bells on, on her nipples. She was then pushed back onto the bed, lying on her back with knees up, her ankles cuffed and attached to the leg spreaders, leaving her very exposed and vulnerable. He then inserted the butt plug and started playing with her using a variety of toys including the wand and vibe, bringing her to the edge on numerous occasions until she was begging to be allowed to cum. This went on for some time, though toy totally lost track as she was went into toyzone.

After some time, she was finally released and instructed to dress for the picnic lunch, she had arranged. This time she wore her leather corset with black net skirt that barely covers her butt. She was allowed to come down a little and have a conversation with her master over a glass of wine and food. Although before pudding, she found herself being instructed to fetch the crop and then bent over the back of the chair, youch. Then to continue with lunch as if nothing had occurred.

After lunch, it was back upstairs, this time to give her Master a special erotic toy massage using the whole of her body. Taking her time, making every touch count and giving her master pleasure. Eventually she was rewarded by master fucking his toy. All too soon it was time for him to leave. Often after these sessions, she has been on such a high the drop afterwards leaves her feeling really drained when master goes. On this occasion though she had trouble coming down and was buzzing so much that she couldn't sit still, she couldn't even sleep that night as was still on a high!

Less than a week later, she found herself on the road again. This time a mid week travel, over 260 mile round trip and back in time for work the next day. As it was mid evening before she arrived, she was allowed a quick changed and they went straight out to dinner. This time dressed in skin tight wet look leggings, heels and light top without bra and leather jacket. Although she normally isn't allowed to wear trousers or jeans with master, he does like her dressed in the leggings, especially her butt (so he tells her!).

As normal, toy waits for permission before she sits and ensures that Master's glass is topped up and he has everything he needs. He also orders for them both. There is always an edge to eating out with her Master, he also uses it to find out how she feels about things that have happened to her. Part way through the meal, he passed her over two rubber bands and instructed her to go to the toilets and attach them to her nipples so that they would be extra sensitive when they got back to the room.

Once back she was instructed to strip and then massage her master. Her nipples are very erect and put to good use, rubbing over her master. Not too late a night as toy had to be showered and on the road by 6:30am.

Two days later, Master had the opportunity to travel up to see his toy. They had planned to go out to dinner, but hold ups on the motorway turned his 2.5 hour journey into a 4 hour one, so he had instructed her to go out and fetch a picnic. Not that she was aware of how long the delay would be!

She was instructed to be dressed ready and picnic set out for the time he was originally due to arrive. She was dressed in her very short skull pattered and ribboned skirt with tucked in sleeveless maids top, open to the waist, fishnets, heels & collar. As normal he gave her a 10 minute then 2 minute warning that he had arrived. At this point she was in position, standing with her back to the door, arms folded behind back, legs apart albeit shaking. She heard the door go and him enter the kitchen, her stomach screwed up in nervous anticipation. She was so wound up, she heard what she expected to hear, and felt the hands running over her body, so she was totally shocked to hear Angel's soft voice instead of her Masters! It's weird how the brain works; she knew master was coming through the door, so she heard master, not even noticing Angel's heels on the wooden floor. It was a lovely surprise though, as hadn't seen Angel for ages.

It turned out that she was due to join them out for dinner, but plans had changed as Master was still stuck on the motorway. It did give them chance to chill and catch up over a glass of wine while they waited, though Angel's touch send a shiver down her spine. When Master did arrive, he had a quick change and then relaxed with both for a moment before moving to sit at the table with Angel. Toy wasn't so lucky as she had to kneel on the floor as they proceeded to feed her by hand. Eventually she was allowed to join them, phew.

After they'd eaten, Angel produced a bag she had brought with her and took out her violet wand, as pre arranged with Master. Toy was blindfolded and arms cuffed behind her back. Standing at first. She was so on edge, the wand had her jumping about, it felt really sharp on her skin. She was then made to sit back on a chair so Master and Angel could have fun playing with her, for some time. Although, it did make her jerk about a lot and suddenly she felt something go in her shoulder and had to give her special emergency signal to her Master to ask for one arm to be released. At that point, he decided that, that was enough of the wand for that night and they should move upstairs to continue to play. This went on for some time, all extremely enjoyable, until Master called a halt and allowed toy to start coming down, with the help of Angel. At that point her shoulder really made its "presence known" and she ended the evening with an icepack on! Hmmmm not quite what she was expecting! Luckily, it didn't spoil a great night. All too soon it was time for Angel to leave and toy was allowed to crawl into bed, next to her Master.

The next day, started early as Master needed to be on the road for 5am, but the great thing was that toy would be seeing her Master again later that day. After work, she found herself hitting the road again and travelling to meet up with him. When she arrived he was working at a table, in the bar, so order her to fetch them a drink, after which she was instructed to go up to the room and run him a bath. Then when he came up, she bathed him and ironed his shirt. They then went downstairs for dinner, toy waiting on her Master as is the norm. She also really enjoyed the time to have a full conversation with him, rather than those by text. Master managing to keep her on edge throughout. Then back upstairs. Initially, he had planned to go to the London club that night, but after the busy few days, with a lot of miles on the road for both and very early starts, that idea was put on hold and it was more a pamper night for her Master.

The next week, she was expecting to see Master at the weekend, but things didn't go to plan. On the Thursday morning she was having an edgy text conversation with her Master, when, out of the blue he said he wanted her to travel to see him that night, especially as bank holiday the next day. As it was so unexpected she had to do a quick detour after work, via home to pack a quick bag, grab the toy box, change and hit the road. Again, as not arriving until mid evening, Master said they would go straight out to dinner, meeting her in the car park. She'd been to that area with Master a number of times before, so was surprised when he told her to take a right turn out the car park, instead of left and go 100 yards down the road. She was starting to feel nervous especially when instructed to turn into the car park of a casino. At this point, she really didn't know what to expect, but knew her master would have some twists in mind!

Master had the evening planned and had pre registered for them, so they headed through to the restaurant. As this was very quiet, they were able to get a booth, set aside from the main part, which gave them more privacy. Master made a point of keeping her waiting, before giving her permission to sit, which she is sure was obvious to the waitress. Surprisingly, dinner was very good, although her stomach was very knotted in nervous anticipation. Master found various ways to keep her on edge and play with her, including making her go to reception to ask if they'd any rubber bands for her nipples, after they looked at her gone out, he sent her out to the car to retrieve some from the toy box. Later he had her take his beer bottle to the toilets and insert it inside herself, so he could taste her. Sadly, she then slipped up, and sat without permission when she returned which gained her a slap later, after they left.

After the night out, Master was driving. Her stomach flipped when he turned away from the hotel and headed in the other direction. Ending up on a deserted, dark lane, he stopped the car and ordered her to strip and get out. Admittedly, toy hesitated to start with as it scared her, but she did it and nervously got out of the car. She was then terrified when he drove off and left her. Luckily it wasn't too long before he came back to pick her up. Still shaking they headed back to the hotel, where he instructed her to change. This time she was in a long sleeved lace top, fishnets and thigh high boots plus collar, leash and blindfold. Initially, she was on her knees, in front of her master as he relaxed in the chair, pleasuring him as ordered.

She then found herself on the bed, on her front with wrists cuffed to ankles, exposed, so that Master could play with her toy including using the vibe, wand and flogger. She was also positioned, so that her head was at the edge of the bed, so he could use her mouth too. The only problem was trying to keep reasonably quiet so didn't get complaints from neighbouring rooms, not sure if she managed it, as he frequently had her crying out. Once again, she lost track of time, it turns into a merge of sensations, until eventually master called it a night and she was allowed to crawl into bed next to him. Luckily, he didn't have an early start the next day and she had the opportunity to pleasure her master and spend some time with him before he left.

The original plan was for her then to travel to see him on the Saturday lunchtime until Sunday, but best laid plans and all that and outside forces intervened to force him to change the arrangements. To make up for that, he then informed her, that he would be seeing his toy the following Tuesday night, after work.

Throughout the day, he was giving her options of various things that would affect the night from what might happen to her dress etc. each option having a number of points attached, and it was up to her to try and gain as many points as possible. These would be converted into minutes that he would have her displayed on the bed and played with. Much of it was geared around going out to dinner, but as the day progressed, plans changed and he decided he'd have more time to play with his toy, if they stayed in and get cooked a light supper.

She nervously waited for him, dressed in her short leather kilt, white top, with 3 corset style panels, fishnets, thigh high boots and collar. Once he arrived he changed and then decided to eat. He had wanted her to go out to dinner with the bell clamps on her nipples, so just before they ate, he instructed her to fetch them and attached them. Dinner didn't take too long, so then he ordered her upstairs. During the day and evening, she had earned a total of 48 points, which were then exchanged for minutes.

Blindfolded, she was made to kneel on the bed, with her head by the edge. Legs apart, her ankles were cuffed to the leg speaders. A chain was then attached from the spreaders to her collar. He then inserted the pussy balls and butt plug, making her even more on edge. He then proceeded to play with her with a variety of things, from fucking her mouth to using the flogger, then removing the plug he used the handle of the small flogger in her arse. He knows she hates that. Then used the wand and vibe on her. Once again, she lost track of time and all too soon the minutes had flown by and her gained time was up.

She was given a few minutes to start coming down and tidy herself up, then to change and move downstairs when she was to put on a show for her Master. Keeping it simple, she put on her black tutu skirt and left her tits free. Downstairs he had put her rug on the floor and ordered her down on her back and to start. Over the next 20 minutes or so, she put on the best show she could, being rewarded by being allowed to cum. By then she was physically and mentally exhausted and a well used and happy toy was allowed to crawl into bed and curl up next to her master.

A well used and happy toy after a fantastic month, thank you Master!

At last, Toy has been able to paste her 1st April update, after playing about with the paste buttons for a while!

Another 3 weeks had passed since she last saw her Master as she found herself travelling to see him after work. Weather and traffic conspired to make it a long journey and Master took pity on her as she grew closer and arranged to meet her in the bar, for a quick drink, when she finally arrived.

After a very welcome glass of wine, they went up to the room, where toy was instructed to change. Soon she was dressed to please her master, in fishnets, heels, red tutu skirt, leather waspie and of course her collar.

Her first task was to pour wine for Master and set out the picnic he provided, then it was time for play and she soon found herself blindfolded and leash attached. Then she was kneeling at her Master's feet, pleasuring him with her mouth before instructed to lie on her back and put a show on for Master. If she did a good show, she was allowed to cum. Back on her knees and Master started to use her nipples, alternating between the nipple pump and pegs under her nipples were extremely erect, just as he likes them.

She was then led to the bed, where she was told to get on point. On her knees, arse up in the air, legs spread and head down as Master attached the leg spreaders (an interesting one to have to bring into the hotel, thank goodness for her pool cue case!). He then proceeded to use her vibe and wand on her, allowing her to cum before putting pegs on her pussy lips. Ouch, she really does find these too painful to cope with and was soon begging Master to remove them, with tears rolling down her face. He then swapped them for the small clamps with bells on the end and continued with the wand, she had to ensure that she rang the bells as a way of asking permission to cum. Master soon having her very sensitive and bells ringing away.

Toy soon lost track of time, until Master finished playing a removed the spreaders, it was then her turn to please and pleasure her Mater, using her whole body. Then she was rewarded by being fucked by her Master. All too soon it was time for him to leave.

Luckily though he was returning the next morning and arrived just after 6:00am. Toy was instructed to let him feel her whole body and enjoyed pleasing and pleasuring him. After a while he paused and attached pegs again to her nipples, before instructing her to continue. Lucky toy had another couple of hours play with her Master before it was time for him to leave again.

She had the day off, so it was nice just to potter, have breakfast, think over the session before she took a steady drive home. Mmmmm can't wait for her next fix!

Latest journal entry on way, as soon as this lovely site will let her paste update in!  Is anyone else having problems :-(

Nearly three weeks had passed since she’d since Master when she found herself travelling to meet him after work.  Often she hasn’t a clue what he has planned; it all depends on his mood on the day.  However, on this occasion there were a couple of things that had been running through his texts during the previous week, one regarding how he’d like to see her dressed the other how he’d like to use her.

She had arrived at the hotel a little early, after checking in she waited in the coffee shop until Master arrived, her stomach churning away and screwed up in nervous anticipation.  After Master arrived they quickly adjourned to the room.  He had a bag with him and had purchased a couple of outfits for her to try, a dress and a lace top, for semi vanilla wear, with a twist.  The other item, was one he’d been mentioning – a red tutu skirt.  Mmmmm she liked the look of it teamed with her black leather corset, collar, fishnets and heels.  Leaving her exposed and vulnerable, whilst dressed at the same time.

She was then blindfolded and ankle cuffs attached.  She was then made to keel on the bed, on point as Master attached the leg spreaders so her arse was up in the air and available to him.  Whilst her head was over the edge of the bed so Master had easy access to her mouth. He then alternated between vigorously fucking her mouth until she was spluttering and choking to playing with her arse, fingering it.  When she couldn’t take one anymore he swapped to the other.  Back and forth for what seemed an age. 

Eventually, he released her, then it was time to pamper her Master for a while, giving him a full toy massage, using her whole body to pleasure him until he fucked his toy.  Then she was allowed some chill time with Master over a picnic and much needed glass of wine.

She did get to see her Master at the end of the month, although due to circumstances beyond Master’s control it was more of a rare vanilla meet.

She has reached her 6 month target check on her healthier kick and is happy to say that she had reached, and passed, her target so no punishment due, phew!  The targets get harder now though, so she’s still got some work to do.

After a long three week gap since seeing her Master, toy found herself on the road again.  Stomach knotted and that shaky feeling of nervous anticipation, not knowing what Master would have planned.  She checked into the hotel, arriving a little earlier than Master and waited for him in the coffee shop.  The prolonged wait, doing nothing for her nerves.  Once he arrived they soon headed off to the room, for some private play time. 

Master wasted no time, he had her strip to stockings and heels, with the addition of her collar and blindfold, then wrapped her from ankle to above her tits with cling wrap. Although allowing her arms to be free, as likely otherwise likely to induce a panicked toy.  He then carefully cut out holes to free her nipples, making her squeal out as he pulled them through the tight hole.

Then for a prolonged period of time, toy lost all track, he went to work on her nipples with all manner of things starting off with the small pump, to see how erect and engorged he could make her nipples then continued with pegs, clamps, fingers etc. etc. On and on it went, all the time focusing on toys nipples until it felt like they would explode.

Eventually, he cut off the tight wrappings and fucked his toy, then it was time for her to give him a massage using her whole body including her very sensitive nipples!

A couple of weeks later, it was Master’s turn to visit his toy.  She’d booked a day off work and knew it would probably be a very intense day, the privacy of home allowing for more play.  Master was travelling up first thing in the morning, but had been texting various ideas the night before.  He wanted her to try on 3 outfits that she wouldn’t be able to wear locally to dinner, but could get away with further afield, which she did before crawling into bed.  She was then awoken later by another text.  Master wanting to push his toy, wanted her to get up, dress in one of the outfits and go to a local car park and cum.  Hmmmm, to say the least toy wasn’t a happy bunny, the thought of going out very very late in the cold and dark wasn’t exactly appealing, but knew Master was testing her obedience.  So up she got and dressed, made her way downstairs and opened the door to the kitchen, where she screamed as her Master was standing in the darkness, scaring her half to death.  First thing he had to do was peel her off the ceiling, she hadn’t a clue he was there.  Of all the things he does to her, that was one of the cruellest!  Although it was obviously to have her Master there, hours earlier than expected and to be allowed to curl up next to him.

Given his very late arrival, they had rather a lazier start to the morning with toy pleasing, pleasuring and pampering her master.  When time to move, she dressed to for her master in fishnets and heels, maids top and collar.  Then it was time to wait on him, serve his breakfast etc. remembering to use the tray and not hand him things directly. 

After breakfast, she was instructed to clear up, then meet her Master upstairs.  There her tits were bound tightly in cling wrap and her nipples, once again made very exposed.  She was then blindfolded, her wrists cuffed and bound behind her, then chained to the top of the door.  She was then made to bend forward and hold the position, just remaining as an for her master to look at.  Which is all well and good, but hard to maintain, as the position puts a lot of stress on her muscles, in her arms, shoulders, back and legs.  She did try not to whimper too much, although Master did comment on her making too much noise.  He had also attached the clamps, with bells on, to her nipples and when the alarm went off, she had to make the bells jingle for him.

Eventually she was then let down and allowed to stretch for a moment, before being led over to the bed and told to get on point i.e. head down, butt in the air.  Master then proceeded to continue with her flogger training.  She is certainly not a pain slut, but she is learning to take the flogger more.  Master certainly warmed her butt up!

She then had to massage master, starting off with a more traditional one before using her whole body, until eventually her master fucked her.  He then removed her blindfold and allowed her to start coming down before telling her she had 10 minutes to calm herself down and tidy herself up – hmmmm the blindfold plays havoc with her makeup!  Maybe there is a market out there for a blindfold friendly range.

The blindfold was then put back on and Master laid her down on the bed and attached her wrist cuffs to the bed chains.  Her stomach then knotted up, as he told her he was leaving her for a short while to go and fetch someone!  All sorts of thoughts went flying round her head – what had Master planned, was the person male or female, was it someone she knew?

After what felt like an age, she heard the door go downstairs and the sound of voices, Master plus another male.  He was given a moment to change and then bought through to the bedroom, where she was tied, vulnerable and exposed.  The stranger “J” was introduced to toy, although not the other way round. 

Then over a period of time, maybe a couple of hours though toy hasn’t really a clue, her pussy was licked over and over until it was so very sensitive.  To start with she wasn’t allowed to cum, but then later, she was allowed to cum again and again until she could hardly bear the touch.   She had ice cubes put inside her and on her nipples, it always surprises her that they seem to burn.  Her nipples were played with, both with the subs mouth and also pegs etc.  He also used the vibe and wand on her at different times.  It was just constant use of toy.  At one point she was instructed to suck him for a short while, but then it was back to use of toy.  It all started to merge into sensations rather than being aware of what was going on around her.

Finally, she heard her Master bring a stop to the session, she had enjoyed it herself, but even more than that she had proved her obedience again to her Master.  

Toy was still blindfolded when Master took the sub back to his car, although he did release her wrists and gave her permission to remove the blindfold, once he had left the house.  He would allow her to start coming down, then be back shortly.  She still had no idea who the sub was, or what he looked like or anything about him.

Once she removed her blindfolded, she was feeling rather shaky and not quite with it, so crawled into bed for a while until Master returned.  He then gave her chance to come round before telling her to meet him downstairs, to calm down with a glass of wine.  She always finds it hard to speak or gather her thoughts properly immediately after a session, then later she goes into “rabbit mode” and poor Master can’t get a word in edgeways, as she needs to talk things through.

After a very full on and enjoyable day, Master took her out to dinner.  He decided to stay local, so she was more careful with her dress, in black skater skirt and fitted top, but he did have her put her thigh length boots on, as he wanted to see her in them.  Hmmmm she has been getting back into her healthy eating and exercise again after the Crimbo excesses and getting back on track towards the targets Master has set her.   However, the twist in the tail is he’s now wondering if she’s lost too much weight!

Out to dinner and chance to catch up with her Master, before home and a happy toy being allowed to curl up next to her Master.  Oh she hopes it’s not long before her next fix.

Toy has been very lucky once again, to have seen her Master quite a bit this month.  It’s certainly been a varied time!  She is the first to admit that this journal entry is rather a long one, but it was hard to cut everything down and know what to leave out.

Mid month, she found herself travelling to stay near her Master.  Her only instruction, prior to leaving home, was that she should think carefully about her dress and look like “sex on legs” the whole time away.  She has a good idea by now of what pleases Master but still finds it easier in the evening rather than when travelling up the motorway in the middle of the day.  Master was busy when she first arrived, so settled into the hotel before meeting him later in the bar for a drink.

Once up in the room she was quickly instructed to change into something more accessible for Master – her maid’s top, fishnets and heels plus of course her collar.  She was then blindfolded and laid back on the bed and soon found her wrists cuffed to her ankles, then a chain fastened through her collar and to her wrists.  Leaving her very open and vulnerable.  Master then went to work with the wand, though she had been so wound up with seeing Master, she was extremely sensitive very very quickly and soon crying out as Master played with and tortured her clit and pussy.  Unable to take anymore, Master quickly fucked his toy.

The next morning after breakfast she was to pamper her Master.  A full massage with oil, starting out traditionally then progressing until she was using her whole body.  As Master ensures that she uses her nipples a lot during this, he ensured that they were extra sensitive and erect by using clamps and rubber bands.

Master then had to go off for a short while.  On his return, they met for a quick coffee before moving back upstairs.  Once again, she was instructed to change and then Master quickly added blindfold and cuffs.  She was then bent over the small round table and hands cuffed to it.  Master then added her leather belt, inserting the dreaded butt plug and vibe before fastening the strap up tight between her legs.  He then proceeded to work on her flogger training for a while, at least he didn’t make her count the strokes out loud, which enables her to do her count back tricks in her head to enable her to take more without crying out.  In these situations she is always half expecting a knock on the door as someone complains about the noise!  He then sat in the chair reading for a while, leaving her there as an before he instructed her to open her mouth and pleasure him.

She has no idea of how long she was tied, as often seems to lose track of time when blindfolded but at some point she was released and lead over to the bed where she was instructed to pleasure Master.  All of this time the vibe had been running inside her, leaving her very on edge and sensitive.  After a while, she was instructed to rub herself against Master, ensuring that the vibe had even more effect!  Master then spent time on her nipples too, ensuring that they became sensitive, until with the combination, she was allowed a deep, body shaking cum.

Master then removed the belt and vibe and led her back onto the floor, as he sat in the chair she was to lick his feet. Finally allowed to move upwards and suck his cock before he leg her back to the bed, displayed on point and fucked her, whilst the butt plug remained in place.

Toy was allowed to come down a bit and then instructed to make herself ready for dinner.  After all that had happened she was in a bit of a daze when they went to the restaurant, although Master did allow her some chill time then and to have a conversation with him.

Back upstairs she was placed at his feet and again had to lick them before pleasuring Master until back on bed and fucked.  She was then allowed further chill time, curled up at Masters feet in her collar and leash as he watched TV for a short while.

Less than a week later, Master was at toy’s house and they were to have their Christmas Dinner, albeit a week early.  Master was cooking and toy absolutely loves watching him, finding it a real turn on with him in charge, as always of course, but this time of her kitchen.  She had been told she could dress as she pleased so, as the recent healthy eating and exercise has started to pay off, she squeezed into her little black dress, obviously with stockings, heels and collar.  Dinner was a great success, mulled wine followed by a fabulous three course feast – hmmm dress might not fit for a while!  Part way through it was time to exchange presents and Master had three gifts for her.  The first one was new nipple clamps with bells on, the second nipple tassels for use in massage and the third a three way hitch. 

Master soon decided to test out the clamps with bells, pulling down the front of her dress to attach them, he then put her leash on and fastened that to his belt.  Then after dinner he attached the hitch, one point of the strap to the back of her collar, then with her arms folded behind her back the other two, to her wrists.  Normally she is extremely comfortable, so to speak, in her collar, but she did feel a bit panicky at one point as her collar seemed to tighten up with the added pressure of leash from the front and hitch from the back.

Later, she was taken upstairs, and the hitch removed, then told to take off her dress as Master blindfolded her.  He then put on her leather belt, ensuring the strap was tight between her legs and added the bell clamps, so she jingled!  He then tried out the tassels, the ends looped over her nipples and tightened up.  It was time for her to pleasure Master using her whole body, which continued for some time, ending with Master fucking his toy.  When she was released and allowed to calm down a little, she was shocked by her nipples, which had almost been strangled at the base, hmmmm, maybe not quite so tight next time!  She doesn’t want to lose them. Then the lucky toy was allowed to curl up next to her Master for the night.

After a great night, the only downside was that Master had to be on the road by 5am!  On the plus side, toy was travelling to join him later that day.  Master was already at the hotel, when toy arrived.  After a short time, she was instructed to run a bath and bathe her Master.  She was to remain dressed, as she was, and that they would be going for an early dinner, which did seem a little strange until Master informed her that they would then be going to a club, on the outskirts of London, where they’d last been in the summer.  Now toys stomach was churning with a nervous excitement, not knowing what to expect.  After dinner she was instructed to change.  Luckily she had bought an appropriate outfit with her.  She was dressed in her fishnets, heels, leather waspie, net dress and collar.  Even luckier, she was allowed to wear a coat over the top, although she still felt very vulnerable and on show going through the hotel reception.

On arrival at the club, it was rather quiet to say the least.  It is a mixed club with dungeon and cinema downstairs then bar / lounge area and bedrooms for swingers upstairs.  On Thursdays the dungeon isn’t normally in use, but they kindly put on the lights, and heaters (thank goodness!!!), when they knew Master wanted to play with his toy.  They went upstairs to start with for a drink and checked out the other guests, at that point there was a couple to one side plus and a single fella, who then came over to chat to Master.  Shortly afterwards, she was lead back downstairs to the dungeon and quickly found herself blindfolded and cuffed, in standing position, to a wooden frame. He then got out the flogger to continue her training after which he left the room, which had her legs shaking more than ever.  Shortly afterwards, he returned, but evidently not alone! 

She then felt a soft mouth, obviously female, on one of her nipples and fingers playing with the other one.  She also felt a hand on her butt and another between her legs rubbing her clit.  That coupled with the nervous excitement soon made her cum.  For a while then she had various hands exploring all of her body.  She was then let down and led over to one side and forced onto her knees.  She was then instructed to lick, and worked out that there was a girlie bent over in front of her, who was sucking the cock in front of her.  After time, she was pulled up, kneeling on the bench, next to the girlie.  Again toy felt hands exploring her body, fingering her, as she was instructed to use her mouth to play with the girlies nipples, as the girl was being fucked from behind.  Toy’s head was then turned the other way and a cock pushed in her mouth.  Then toy tensed up as she felt Master start to finger her arse, knowing his toy would hate then, but again it would push her.  Hands were everywhere, toy had two different cocks in her mouth to pleasure before finally feeling her Masters.  Once again, she totally lost track of time until Master called a stop, the others disappeared as he started to bring toy down enough to remove her blindfold. 

After being allowed to tidy herself up, she joined Master for a drink before he decided to head back to the hotel.  Once in the room, she was instructed to keel by him and suck his cock.  At this point then, things started to go a tad pear shaped for toy.  It wasn’t the first time, and won’t be the last, but it highlights the difference between the Dom and sub and normally ends in tears.  After orchestrating for his toy to be used and played with and watching it happen, Master is ready to play with his toy himself.  Toy, on the other hand, has been blindfolded, played with unknown people, taken into toyzone and then started to come down.  Coming down out of toyzone is very complex and effects toy in different ways.  Initially after a session, she may be unable to hold a conversation, she will often go into rabbit mode after that, when Master can’t get a word in edgeways,  she is likely to be very shaky and also can get quite emotional, not necessarily rational, she then crashes and feels very drained.  So back at the hotel, Master is ready to play with his toy, toy is at crash point, it’s not going to be pretty!

So when Master instructed her to get on the bed, on point, and started to insert the hated butt plug, he was pushing her, she felt she was being punished, thinking she must have let him down and the tears flowed,  it may not be rational, but that’s how it was.  He then added the vibe.  She could feel him getting exasperated with his toy as he instructed her to pull herself together, otherwise he would leave her plugged all night.  She did her best, as she was instructed to pleasure and massage Master.  Eventually she was unplugged and fucked.  Finally being allowed to curl up in bed, next to her Master.  He assured her, once again, she hadn’t let him down, but reminding her she was his to use as he wished and that’s the point of having a toy.

All too soon the early alarm went off, and she felt she had redeemed herself as she pleasured her Master.  He then had to go off for a while and she managed some fitful sleep until Master returned mid morning.  Seeing her for a short while, they then were to meet later afternoon and toy was allowed to go off for some down time.

On Master's return, he chilled for a while with his toy curled up at his feet, before a short session and then out for dinner.  In all honesty, both were then rather tired, after a crazy week, toy herself had had two days up at 4:30am and late nights and she was rather relieved when Master was ready for a pampering and some chill time.

The next morning, Master didn’t have to rush off.  It is rather hard to describe, as wasn’t a full on session, but was very intense, erotic and a huge turn on for toy – thank you Master!

Toy has been lucky to have had a very varied month.  It started with toy having a half day from work and Master coming to visit. Her stomach had been churning all morning and she was even more nervous, when she saw Master has already arrived.  First off she had to pour him a glass of wine (remembering to serve it on a tray of course) and prepare the picnic lunch before quickly changing into her default maids / at home outfit.  Fishnets and heels, a sleeveless sheer black top, which barely covers her pussy and her collar.  Barely able to eat herself due to nerves, Master was soon ready to play, quickly having her tied to the bed.  Lately, he has really been concentrating on her nipples, seeing how erect he can make them and how sensitive, and he continued with this again until she was crying out.  Time flew by and it was then toys chance to pleasure her Master, starting off with a special toy massage which uses her whole body.

Just over a week later and she was on the road to join Master for the weekend. Although not sure how much time he would get to spend with her, as he also had some vanilla commitments.  Normally, he gives her instructions as to what to pack, but this time he had put it over to toy to pack the toybox herself, on the understanding that he would aim to use everything in it.   Funnily enough the dreaded butt plug was somehow left at home!  After a longish journey, they went out to dinner as soon as she arrived, to allow more time for play later! 

As soon as they were back in the room, toy was instructed to change into fishnets, heels and collar then quickly found herself blindfolded.  Standing with legs shaking, wondering what Master would do next.  She then found the leather belt fastened round her waist, a dildo inserted and then the other strap fastened between her legs, making her feel very vulnerable.  He then started to use the small pump on her nipples, until she was crying out, before pushing her onto the bed and continuing her flogger training.  The session continued, until she was eventually allowed to crawl into bed next to her master.  Oh she does enjoy that so much.  All too soon the alarm went off, the signal for toy to pleasure her Master before being rewarded with a good fucking!

Toy had down time during the day, so went off exploring, plus a bit of shopping – what else should a toy do!  Sadly Master was unavoidably delayed, getting back much later than expected.  After a long busy toy, his toy was there to serve him.  Running a bath and bathing him, pouring a glass of wine, giving him a massage.  Starting with a more traditional one, working on his muscles and working up to a toy massage in which she uses her hands, fingers, nipples, mouth and whole body.  Then again, she was rewarded by curling up next to her Master again.  Mmmm mmmmm mmmmm.

Mid month, it was her anniversary with Master, where have 4 years gone too, since she fell into this life as a complete innocent newbie.  Thank you Master for an amazing journey.

Later in the month, she was allowed out with the gorgeous Angel to the Birmingham Alternative and Burlesque Fair.  Toy does love having the opportunity to dress up, although she did get the odd funny look whilst she waited on the station platform (Angel got on the previous stop)!  She had a great day, though has to admit both were disappointed with the actual fair, venue and performances, compared to the previous one they’d been too.  She did really enjoy a side demo, which was an introduction to BDSM, as there was a wide range of people there, which included some rope tying and basic flogger work.  Oh, toy was almost hypnotised by watching the flogger, it is something she is starting to both love and hate. It did give her chance to purchase a new set of cuffs for wrists and ankles, which she had been wanting for a while. 

Heading back to towards the station, they decided they’d have a drink.  They eventually found a pub, near the centre and fought their way in.  Angel did think it would be “interesting” for toy to try her new wrist cuffs on, in the middle of the pub and keep them on until she got home!   A really enjoyable day.

The month finished off with Master coming to toy’s, specifically for a toy training day.  She does enjoy these sessions, which tend to be very intense. Master had two lists, each with 4 things on.  She then had to give him a number from 1 – 4.  The first thing for her to work on was walking in heels.  Toy has improved enormously since starting in this lifestyle, but still has a way to go.  Master had her walking up and down a line he’d taped to the floor, giving directions on how to improve.  She then had to walk across the room and back.  She then had to give herself a mark out of 10, followed by Master doing the same.  The catch was he would deduct his score from 10 and the difference would be tallied up and then converted to strokes of the crop.  So in this case he gave her a 7, so she would receive 3 strokes!

This continued through posture training, which involved her practicing various movements and positions for him as he gave commands and then deep throat training, which really tested her.  He then moved on to the second list.  First thing was pussy training, for which he used a pelvic floor training instrument, having her standing holding it inside her, without allowing it to drop and then trying to pull it deeper inside using her muscles.  All to train her to be able to give more pleasure to her master. 

She was then taken upstairs and Master tried on her new cuffs and put on the bed with ankles fastened to wrists.  It was then time flogger training.  He decided to swap the crop strokes for flogger and she had to take the number of lost marks, 13 at that point.  Toy then had a dilemma.  Ideally Master would like her to take each stroke and then count it aloud.  Now toy isn’t a pain slut in any way, shape or form.  With help and tips from Angel, she has learnt to take the flogger more and start to embrace it a little, but to do this she has to get her head in the right place, try to cut off and count silently backwards from 300 in her head.  She can’t have her head in place and take the strokes and count out loud at the same time.  Her dilemma was she was allowed to be silent, but stokes would be harder.  Unfortunately as her wrists and ankles were attached, the strokes were delivered more across the side of her butt, rather than on her butt cheeks, youch.  She was sitting down gingerly for the next couple of days.

She was allowed a break then, as Master took her out for lunch, then back to continue.  As they returned she had to give a floor show.  She admits feeling rather silly doing this.  Then it was back upstairs for massage training.  She had had to find a new technique to try on Master.  It started out as a more traditional massage but then turned very erotic and edgy. 

All too soon, it came to an end and time for Master to go, and before toy had fully come back down.  A drained and sore, but happy toy, crawled into her basket, tucked under her blanket.

Her first meet of the month started off with Master collecting her for a road trip.  As Master had already been travelling for a good part of the day, he had instructed her to provide a light lunch, on his arrival and then took a short while out for toy to massage him, before he fucked his toy.  Before setting off, he produced a bag with a present for toy, a new skirt to wear.  Well to call it a skirt might be pushing it a bit, more of a wide stretchy belt, which would give him plenty of access whilst driving!

The journey didn’t go quite to plan, with an unexpected detour to contend with, but Master took her verbally through a number of scenarios ensuring that she was kept on edge with her stomach churning.  Then stopping off for dinner, she was extremely self conscious in her new skirt, trying hard not to keep pulling the hem down.  With one thing and another they didn’t arrive at the hotel, until a lot later than expected, which curtailed play a bit, but Master soon had her tied and played with her.  Then he left her for the night.

The trip back was a more intense journey.  Not long after setting off, Master pulled into a lay by, which had her stomach churning.  On this occasion she was dressed in a very tight pencil skirt, low cut v neck top and heels.  He instructed her to go to the toilet and remove her bra, as she got back to the car, she saw he had got the travelling toybox out of her case. Over the next hour he had her putting a variety of pegs, clips and clamps etc. on her nipples, making them extremely erect and getting very sensitive.  He then stopped for fuel and instructed her to go in to the toilet and put rubber bands on her erect nipples the pay plus get him coffee.  She felt so embarrassed and self conscious with her erect nipples pushing through her thin top.  Later, when they stopped off for a snack, she was very relieved that Master allowed her to put her jacket on.  He’s quite happy to embarrass his toy, but was obviously aware of other customers in a more family based environment and by this time her nipples were extremely erect!

Finally back at toys she was instructed to go upstairs and change into maid / servant top, fishnets and heels.    Then when Master came up, he blindfolded her, then had her on point and inserted the dreaded butt plug.  Then she was instructed to massage her Master.  It started out fairly conventionally, after his long drive, but then soon turned into a more erotic toy special massage, using every part of her body.  Being blindfolded also makes her focus on the other senses. She was then rewarded by Master fucking his toy.

He then left her alone for a short while and she heard him moving around.  When her blindfold was removed she was surprised to see he had changed.  She knew that, as a special treat, Master was going to cook for her, something she loves. So it was another touch, when she was instructed to change for dinner and allowed free choice.  As not had the opportunity to wear it for a while, she changed into her leather dress, stockings and heels before moving downstairs and allowed to chill for a while with a glass of wine as she watched Master cook, she does find it very erotic, although, as is her place, toy was tasked with the washing up!  Mmmmm an extremely yummy dinner.

Since toy has been with her Master, which was her first introduction into this life, the puppy analogy has worked well to describe how she feels e.g. from excitable newbie tugging at her leash to being trained by her master, to time curled up in her basket etc. etc. Going on from this Master wants to take this a stage further as it works within the more relaxed time after play.  It wouldn’t be right for her to be sitting next to him all the time in a vanilla way.  So after dinner she was instructed to change again and found herself with collar and leash on her blanket at master’s feet.  The only downside was when he instructed her to fetch the mini flogger, then he inserted the handle in her butt to give her a tail!  She was allowed to curl up for a while, until she felt a tug on her leash pulling her up to pleasure her Master.  He was then debating whether to take her out for a walk on her leash, but luckily he decided to save that for another day, phew!

At the end of a long, but extremely enjoyable day, she was finally allowed to curl up next to her Master for the night.  A tired but happy toy.

A couple of weeks later she found herself travelling to meet Master.  After a long journey, Master first met her for a coffee and allowed her to chill a moment, before taking her to her room.  Due to unusual circumstances at work, she’d had had to wear jeans for once, something which is a no no with Master.  In the room, he grabbed hold of her and told her she had one minute to get them off or he would cut them off.  She’s never stripped so fast before.  She then quickly put on fishnets and heels and her maids loose top. She was then blindfolded.

Initially she was told to get on point, on the bed and the butt plug was inserted, she then was dragged to her feet.  Senses on edge, wondering what Master would do, she heard the rustle of a bag and then some sort of leather type belt going around her waist.  Then something was inserted into her pussy and switched on causing a deep vibration.  She then felt a leather strap going between her legs and fastened securely to the belt ensuring that she was firmly filled in both holes. She then felt something on her left nipple, it turns out it was a nipple pump with a vibrating end, quite a weird sensation, but it did make her nipples extremely erect.  She was then instructed to pleasure her Master, youch, she had to be careful how she moved as the vibe sometimes dug into her.  As is often the case, a shorter session is normally much more intense as Master makes the most of the time to use his toy in many different ways.

All too soon, time had run out and Master had a short time to start bringing her down from toyzone before he had to go. 

All in all a very varied and enjoyable time for toy. 

It’s been a long time coming, due to vanilla life getting in the way, but toy finally got her much needed Master fix, that she’d been craving, yesterday.

She had been tasked to advertise a Pussy Licking Party, which was to have taken take place on Sunday 29th September in a hotel on the outskirts of Windsor / Slough.  If any subs (m or f), or Dom(me)s were interested in attending, they were to contact Master.  However, once again things didn’t go to plan.  Unfortunately, Master was not able to find people available at the same time as Master and toy.  Then a change in Master’s plan meant that he was able to come to toy’s instead, which meant she would be able to see Master for a lot longer.  He did tell her though, that he had made arrangements for the day, but she would have to wait to find out what they were.  This meant that toy was kept on edge, her stomach totally screwed up with nervous anticipation.

Master arrived around 10am, although toy had been up early unable to sleep.  She was dressed in her “maids” outfit of shear top, fishnets, heels and light collar.  After a light breakfast, he surprised toy by telling her they were going shopping, the last thing she expected.  She enquired what she should wear, as believed she needed to change, but Master put her into a tizz by saying she should just put her coat on over her skimpy outfit.  Argh, noooo, not for going to the local town on a Sunday morning.  His only concession was that she could put her heeled boots on, instead of shoes.  She was also to be double plugged with pussy balls and butt plug. Toy was extremely self conscious, trying to pull her coat around her to cover her stocking tops. 

First stop was a local pet store as Master wanted a new leash for her.  In the end they came away with two, one with a heavy chain and a longer retractable one for around the house.  He also wanted a mat or basket for his toy, when she’s curled up at his feet.  Then off for coffee, hmmmm, toy hadn’t thought about the sitting down part, which made her coat open up.  Feeling very on edge.

Back to toys and he instructed to go upstairs and strip to her stockings and heels and wait for him.  He then blindfolded her and proceeded to wrap her from under her arms to her ankles with cling wrap and laid her on the bed.  She then felt him run the side of a knife down her arm, before cutting out two holes for her nipples and pulled them through.  Over the next hour or so, toy loses all track of time, he proceeded to tease and torment her nipples using a variety of things including clamps, rubber bands, crop etc. etc. Until her swollen erect nipples were so sensitive she could barely stand them being touched.  Eventually, she felt him cut the cling wrap up to her pussy before he fucked his toy.

He then allowed her to start to come down for a while, sitting at his feet wearing her posture collar this time.  She finds this really uncomfortable and makes her feel panicky when it presses on her throat.  Still on her new leash she could get from his feet to the fridge to fetch him a drink, before pleasuring him.  Then he moved her back upstairs to give him a massage and pamper. 

He then gave her a heads up that his guests would be arriving in 40 minutes and she should prepare herself.  Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuu she started to panic again, she was beginning to relax a bit and think Master might just have decided to play with his toy himself.

She was to dress in her leather waspie, sheer top, fishnets and heels.  Master had moved the bench press bench down to the sitting room in readiness.  When the time arrived, he blindfolded her and tied her wrists to the bench frame.  She was almost feeling physical sick by this point, although part of her thought it must be someone she knew as Master was having them come directly to toys, rather than go and meet them in a neutral place first.

She was rather relived to hear voices she recognised as Oak and Angel.  Over the next 6 or 7 hours, toy was pushed and used in numerous ways, including a break part way through where she had to act with some normality as they went out to dinner.  To start with she was played with as tied to the bench, including feeling the flogger and pin wheel.  She was then released and made to kneel on the sofa.  Master then took it in turns to use the flogger on Angel then toy, the one who cried out first would lose.  Toy isn’t a pain slut in any way, shape or form, although she is learning how to cope with it better.  Determined not to let her Master down she did her best, and both managed to keep quiet through 3 rounds, although by the time Master had finished, she had tears streaming down her face.  Later things included, Angel attempting to fist toy (didn’t go well, youch), toy pleasuring Oak whilst Master cropped Angel, toy and Angel playing together and numerous other things.  After yet another play session, Oak dragged Angel away home.

By the time they left, toy was just starting to come down and was feeling rather emotional.  She always finds it hard then, when Master decides it’s his turn to play with his toy instructing her to go and change into sheer dress and long boots then pleasure him.

All in all toy was exhausted by the end of the night.  She had certainly had a huge fix and thoroughly enjoyed the day although she had her limits pushed in a number of ways, there had been a lot of tears!

Sadly the next morning an alarm glitch meant that Master had to rush off without toy having chance to pleasure and talk to him.  Hmmmm she has to say her butt is making its presence known, her cheeks are glowing and rather sore.

Toy has been tasked.  She has to advertise a Pussy Licking Party, which will take place on Sunday 29th September in a hotel on the outskirts of Windsor / Slough.  If any subs (m or f), or Dom(me)s are interested in attending, please contact toy's Master here on CM @ ASadisticGent.  It's not toy's place to know what arrangements Master makes.

Oh it’s not been going well for toy and her Master.  They are just fine, but vanilla life has been getting in the way, big time.  Toy has delayed, with Master’s permission, her monthly journal update in the hope that she would have more to write about.  Sadly not.  Master has had an extremely busy time vanilla wise and so has only seen his toy twice in the last 7 weeks since end of July and it’s mid July since a full on session.  Oh toy is very on edge and desperate for a fix.

In mid August Master came to see his toy, however, he’d been extremely busy and needed some chill time.  Toy was just thankful to see her Master and was able to serve and pamper him, along with rare chill time.  Hmmmm how does a toy do that with her Master?  She was curled up at his feet in collar and leash, plus waiting on him hand and foot.  She so enjoyed being able to curl up next to him for the night.

Then she didn’t see her Master again until 1^st September and even that was a complete surprise, but a fantastic one.  She was going about her day, not expecting to see Master for a while, when she had a text telling her to be ready to travel mid afternoon.  She then had a 5 hour round trip for a 2 hour fix, but boy was it worth it!

Master was delayed, so she was waiting for him for a while, but once he arrive it quickly became clear that he also needed a fix.  She had been instructed to travel double plugged, with pussy balls and butt plug, to ensure that she was fully on edge.  She had travelled light, not the full toy box, but amongst the items she had been told to bring was the new mini flogger/ whip.  Oh it looks tiny and so innocent, but it certainly stings and makes toy squeal.  Although a brief session, it was very intense, but all too soon it was time for Master to go and he packed her off to travel home.

Whilst she’s not seen her Master she has a new “project” to help occupy her. It’s been a difficult couple of years, but now toy has to start looking after herself again, something she’s rather neglected.  She’s starting a healthier lifestyle and getting herself fit again.  Obviously, there’s going to be twists and Master has also set her targets, for which there will be consequences if she doesn’t reach them.  It’s not a diet or being silly, but trying to get a sustainable balance. Although at the moment it’s rather more pain than gain, she’s been up early and starting exercising at 6:20am each weekday, as it’s just not happening after a full day at work.  Only time will tell!

She had hoped to see Master this coming weekend, but that is now looking very unlikely.  Hopefully normal service will resume very soon.

As it was mid August when she last updated her profile pictures, they will be left until her next journal update.

Later than planned, due to both toy and Master being extremely busy, but toy has now updated her profile pictures for this month's theme of "tied".

An extremely busy month for toy both with Master and in her vanilla world. 

At the beginning of the month she found herself travelling to see Master on a weekday night, after work.  As he’d also had a long busy day, it was a more relaxed night physically, instead he was playing more with her head.  Continuing on from taking more control of toy’s vanilla life, as covered in last month’s journal, he wanted to continue this theme, see how it had effected her, how she felt about it all etc.  In toy’s mind the key difference between being a sub and a slave is having her voice.  She is allowed to give her options, tell Master how she feels etc., although that doesn’t mean that he’ll take any heed!  He does like to know how different things effect her as it helps him know what buttons to press with her etc. in different situations.

The following week, he again screwed with her head.  This time he informed her that she was going to be lent out, from the Saturday afternoon until Sunday morning.  He’d arranged it with Angel’s Sir, as a surprise for her.  Angel is a switch, sub to her Sir, but does have a Domme side to her.  Toy has never been in such a situation before, without her Master at her side and she was extremely nervous, to say the least, her head and stomach were screwed up all week.  Although she fully trusts her Master not to put her in a dangerous situation and know Angel too.

Due to the hot weather, Master made allowances with her dress and she had to send him pictures of 3 outfits for him to decide what she should wear.  It did feel very weird to be dressed more summery.  Then she’d been instructed to travel meet Sir at a set time, as she arrived he got in the car and gave her directions.  He’d rung Angel, who still hadn’t a clue, to go upstairs and wait for him.  As they arrived at the house, toy was instructed to strip and wait as he fetched Angel.  The look on Angel’s face was a picture!  She certainly wasn’t expecting to find a toy waiting for her.  Obviously, she doesn’t just throw a switch and go into Domme mode, so they initially chilled over a glass of wine, before moving upstairs where Angel allowed toy to try on a number of her outfits, whilst taking photos to send to her Master.  As Angel had been taken totally by surprise, she then went on a search of her toybox, which she used enthusiastically after she’d tied toy to the bed.  Toy was happy that she was able to take more than she’d expected and so wouldn’t let her Master down.  A while back Angel had taught her a counting trick to occupy her mind, toy will never be a pain slut, but at least she’s moved forward.

Later they were able to go out for a drink and relax, toy does enjoy Angel’s company and was starting to relax a bit before they got dinner.  Later on, as it was so hot, Angel decided to take toy out for a walk, complete with collar and leash.  Luckily, she didn’t put the leash on until they were in a quieter area.  Back to the house, they made their way upstairs and fell into bed.  Master had been in touch the whole time keeping a distant eye on his toy.

Strangely enough, toy managed to sleep fairly week next to Angel, who had woken in a more Domme mode.  Toy soon found herself cuffed and in a “chain thong”, then led downstairs, where Sir was resting.  Toy was instructed to get on her knees and let him feel her mouth, before being led back upstairs to continue to play.  This included a number of things including Angel trying golf swings with a crop to take pegs off toy’s butt! 

All in all, toy thoroughly enjoyed the experience, even if she’d been totally screwed up for the week before. 

The following week, Master was screwing with her head in yet another way.  She doesn’t know if she’s coming or going this month.  He was coming to toy’s and had instructed her to arrange for someone who’s close to her, in her vanilla world, to join them for dinner.  Oh boy, out of the three she doesn’t know who was the most nervous as it was a weird cross over occasion.  The person knows that toy has an alternative lifestyle but doesn’t want the full gory details, so to speak.  The whole occasion was totally surreal, but in a weird and good way. 

Master was then at toy’s for part of the following day.  She so loves waking up next to her Master and on cue to pleasure him first thing.  She was then instructed to shower and dress, in black top, fishnets and heels.  Then she had to fix breakfast for her Master, which she served to him.  Then it was time to play.  He had her tied on the sofa, blindfolded, butt plugged, with a chain round her neck attached to a leg spreader, under her knees, pulling them up with her legs open.  Just as he started to play with his toy, he had an urgent phone call and had to leave her there or what seemed like an age, it certainly focused her mind!  By the time he came back and started playing with her, she had become so sensitive that she was nearly on the ceiling.  As always, when blindfolded, she totally loses track of time, and so when Master finally released her, she was amazed to have been tied for over 1.5 hours.  Time for lunch, luckily Master allowed her to change before going out to fetch it!  She was then allowed a chill time with Master before he had to leave.

Lucky toy then saw her Master the following week too, albeit more briefly.  She’d travelled last minute late evening to see her Master.  Time for play was limited, more or less to giving him a pamper and pleasuring him but at least then she was allowed to curl up next to her Master, something she really enjoys.  All too soon the alarm went off, signalling her it’s time to pleasure her Master.

Mmmmmmm she has enjoyed seeing her Master on a number of occasions this month.

As mentioned last month Master is aiming to change her profile pictures on a regular basis.  The choice given for the next set was tied or standing, although not a huge number of responses, the majority went for tied.  As both toy and Master are extremely busy at the moment, she respectfully asks for patience whilst these are sorted out.  Master is yet to set the theme for next month.

Before she moves on to the events of the past month, she wants to take a moment to cover something that has come up, in a variety of ways, over the last month – control.

Recently, a Dom on here questioned the amount of control Master has over his toy, which has made her sit back for a moment and reflect.  Not for a moment on Master’s actual control, which stretches in many directions and on different levels, but on how it affects toy.

Control is not something she writes about a lot specifically and so it might not be obvious how far Master’s control stretches.  This is because there are so many things that are now a normal and natural part of toy’s life.  To give just a few examples, in no particular order:-

She does have a contract with her Master and has done for over 3 years now, which covers all manner of areas of her life.

• Master has control of her financial budget and checks her spending each month.
• When out with Master, she always has to wait for permission to sit, she automatically keeps his wine glass topped up etc., takes guidance from him what to eat.
• She has to ask permission before meeting her vanilla friends.
• When out with Master she is expected to have red nails and lips, always wear a skirt or dress with stockings and heels.
• If going out socially with family or friends she has to ask permission if she wishes to wear jeans or trousers ~ it’s not always granted.
• She is to be shaved at all times.
• She has to update her journal on a monthly basis.

Master is now looking to take this to another level.  He has just instructed her to give him the logins and passwords for her personal email account and her Facebook account.  This is making her feel very churned up and vulnerable as he now has full access to her friends and family as well as being able to monitor all her vanilla conversations.  She has nothing to hide but it still makes her very wary.  He is considering taking the logins for her financial accounts too.

Whilst on the subject of messages on CM, she has also had a number of messages from Doms who want her to be their sub – why oh why don’t people read full profiles and journals first!  As always she responds politely, but as firmly as a toy can, to explain she has a Master, who she is extremely happy with and who is taking her on a very exciting journey.  Then she isn’t even going to waste time on the Dom who told her she needed to lose 6lb off her butt before putting up any arse pictures!  Her Master is happy, that’s all that matters to toy.

Now on to the last month, she has been lucky enough to see Master twice, on top of the beginning of month, told in her previous journal. 

The first time, he travelled to toy’s.  She never really knows what mood he is going to be in, but she had an indication when he instructed her to get a picnic in, so would have more time to play.  Sometimes, when he arrives, she has a bath ready, bathes him, has a glass of wine ready and he takes his time over dinner.  This time he had a quick shower, hardly ate and barely touched his wine.  Hmmmmm Master wanted to play with his toy!

She soon found herself standing, waiting in the lounge and blindfolded, whilst she heard Master move around upstairs.  Her stomach knotted and legs started shaking not knowing what he was planning.  She then heard him struggling down the stairs with a large object, which she assumed was the bench press bench, he had turned up with one day.  Soon she found herself on her back strapped to the bench with legs tied open. He then proceeded to tease and torture her with a number of different objects including the wand, vibe, clips and pegs.  Time just disappears when she’s blindfolded, tied and goes into toyzone.  It feels a relatively short time and then she finds an hour or two has gone by.  How toy’s neighbours haven’t complained about the noise before she will never know, luckily the walls are fairly thick.

The following week she found herself on the road Friday night, straight from work.  Nervously excited, both wanting to see her Master and needing another fix.  Oh the more she sees her Master the more she needs another fix.  Although if she honest, the less she sees him she needs a fix.  Let’s face it, she just needs a fix!

Things didn’t quite go to plan to start with, but eventually she found herself in the room with Master.  To start with she was tied, on her back, on the bed as Master played with her pussy, in a variety of ways, making her cry out. Along with filling her pussy with some training balls.  At one point he had her on the phone to the lovely Angel, who listened to her cuming.  The only trouble with hotel rooms is trying to be quiet, toy thinks she is, Master knows she is anything but! 

After sometime, a trembling toy was turned onto her front and retied with her legs bent, from the knee, towards her head and legs apart.  Toy was then extremely on edge and nervous.  She isn’t a fan of arse play and never will be, a couple of vanilla “mistakes” left her fearful of the pain.  To give her Master his due, he has always been patient with her and normally careful, but he does like playing with her arse and, as her Master, it is his decision what happens.  Things progressed and ended with Master fucking his toys arse.  Eventually, she was released and allowed to crawl into bed next to her Master, oh she so enjoys that treat after play.

Master then had an extremely early start.  Came back for a pamper from his toy for a while and then had to go again.  By late evening he’d had a long and tiring day and so was more in a pampering and chill evening. So toy was in pamper and then service mode to her Master, bathing him, poring the wine, serving him during dinner etc. etc. Toy never knows what to expect from Master and so enjoys all of his moods in different ways and on different levels.

Hmmmmmmm a varied and enjoyable month.

Master and toy would also like to thank everyone who has assisted with her task this month.  Ten new pussy pictures have now been posted – just waiting for the CM server to update them!  Master has now decided to do a monthly picture update, to be chosen by readers of her journal (which is why this note is tucked at the end).  The choice for the August pictures is to be tied or standing.  Over to you.

Toy's task has now been completed and the votes counted - 26 in all.

In 3rd place, with 7 votes ~ nipples

In 2nd place, with 8 votes ~ arse

So in 1st place, with 11 votes ~ pussy

Toy will be posting the pictures up, over the next few days.  She has been tasked to sort through pictures and find a selection, which she then has to send over to Master by the end of today (30/6).  He will then choose 10 to be added to her profile.

Task ~ She is to put a new set of profile pictures up for July.  The choices were nipples, pussy or arse.  It all depends on which get the most votes.  People were asked, if they've got a preference, please sent toy a message.  Voting ended on Saturday 29th June.

Toy has been tasked.  She has to put a new set of profile pictures up for July.  The choices are nipples, pussy or arse.  It all depends on which get the most votes.  If you've got a preference, please sent toy a message.  Voting ends on Friday 28th June.

Oh what a busy month for toy, she’s not sure how she will fit it all in to her update, she’s had such a wonderful full month with a wide range of things happening.

The month started fairly calmly, at the beginning of the month master was saying close to toy, but had been very busy and so toy a travelled over to see him late evening when he was ready for a pamper and massage with toy waiting on him.  Likewise two nights later she was back again, this time for a bit longer.  Once again he’d had a very long day, so first task was to run his bath and pour the wine.  Whilst he was relaxing she had to write down thoughts on what might happen to her, following on from Master’s earlier thoughts.  She did as instructed.  She then found herself standing to attention waiting on Master’s needs as he blindfolded her then inserted the jiggle balls into her wet pussy.  She then found herself left standing waiting, she hates that as gets impatient for Master to play with her.  After what seemed an age she was put on the bed on point, whilst Master teased and played with her using the wand.  He was also fingering round her arse, which makes her vary wary, she still can’t relax with that.  Then on her back playing with herself and putting a show on for him.  Then pulled off the bed and tied under a low chair as he was using her again.  This was ok for a while until she suddenly started to feel very claustrophobic and panicky as it all seemed to be closing down round her.  Luckily, as it was late by now, master let her out and onto the bed to finish off the night.

A week or so later, she had a text whilst at work so inform her that she would be tasked that evening.  She hadn’t been allowed to cum for some time and so she had to cum at least 10 times between 7:45pm and 8:45pm, ringing Master each time and leaving a voicemail.  So far, so enjoyable.  However, this changed as she then had to insert the butt plug, which she hates.  Especially at times like that, when is on her own, it makes her very emotional and can reduce her to tears, but Master does it, because he can.  She then had to continue to cum and phone Master, this time every 15 minutes.  Eventually, she was allowed to go to bed, but still not allowed to remove the plug, she had permission to go to sleep, as if she could like that and Master would phone her when she could remove it.  By now she was miserable, sore and seriously needing the loo!  She felt herself filling up with tears again, which in itself annoys her, but she can’t help it.  She decided to try to read to distract herself and nearly hit the ceiling when the bedroom door opened and Master appeared.  She wasn’t expecting to see him at all and hadn’t heard him come in the house, nearly giving her heart failure.  First thing he did was check the plug was still inserted, not that he doubted her obedience, before pushing her on her front and roughly fucking her, not giving her chance to get over the shock.

A few days later she found herself on the road, travelling to see Master again.  It was a relaxed start, Master joining her for coffee then going to the room where she changed her maids / service outfit before pleasuring Master whilst a bath ran, then bathing him followed by a massage, she was then allowed to chill out next to him.  They then got ready for an early dinner, toy dressed in tight short shirt, black top (no bra), leather jacket and heels.  Hmmm it was rather warm, but she had to keep her jacket on in the vanilla setting, very conscious of her nipples standing out.  Master had lulled her into a false sense of security telling her he felt like a chilled evening. 

Back at the hotel though things altered when he told her to change and put her collar on, he then informed her they were going to a club.  Toy’s stomach screwed up a mix of excitement and nervousness.  She has missed going out in public, so to speak with Master since Club D in Derby closed.  It was approx. 40 minutes away, which did nothing to calm her nerves.  Once there, they were given the grand tour of the club, which was geared up to both fetish and swingers.  Downstairs there was a well equipped dungeon, cinema and dogging truck.  Upstairs a bar / lounge area and a number of bedrooms.  They had a wander round, taking it all in before going up to the bar for a drink.  Then sat for a while people watching and chatting to several people to get a feel for things before Master decided it was playtime and took her down to the dungeon.  He then blindfolded her and kept her standing up with her wrists strapped up to a frame and her legs apart.  He then invited others to play with her, toy lost track.  Her nipples was rubbed and played with so much they felt like they were popping, whilst at the same time she was being fingered so vigorously it felt like her insides were being pumped out.  Hands were all over her.  After a while she went off into toyzone, it was all down to sensations and feelings etc. rather than clear reality of what was happening. Toy doesn’t know how long this went on for, but was for some time.  Eventually, Master called a stop and went to let her down.  She was then allowed to have some water and come back down a little.

After a short break Master took her to sit at the bar upstairs, her whole body tingling.  A couple of the swingers were at the bar, their partners off playing and they started talking to Master.  After a while, the man asked if they’d like to move through to a bedroom.  Master said yes.  Toy found herself pushed more out of her comfort zone then she imagined.  Master, although keeping an eye on her, left her with the man.  Before coming into this life, she never thought she would say that swinging sex was too vanilla, but she is so used to Master controlling every situation, she missed his instructions, and felt the sex mechanical, even though it did go on and on and on in varying positions.  There wasn’t the connection that toy feels in a “normal” bdsm situation, if that makes any sense, which has the mental kick to it.   It was another test of her obedience though and she didn’t let her master down.  After what seemed an age, Master called a stop to it and said they were going to go.

On the way back to the hotel, toy was very very shaky as she started to come down, it does make her very emotional.  Back at the hotel though Master hadn’t finished with her, despite the late hour.  He put her on point on the bed and inserted the butt plug, which made her cry, she was so shaky and emotional, before fucking her himself.  Eventually she was allowed to crawl into bed.  She certainly had been pushed in different ways that night.

Next weekend, was yet another example of how varied a toy’s life can be.  Master had told her he would be travelling to see her on the Saturday night.  She then got a text first thing in the morning that he’d been in contact with Angel and she would be coming up with various tasks during the day, which toy had to ensure she was able to carry out, during the evening, either during dinner or later.  She was to write each one down then Master would choose 2 or 3 tasks later.  Angel would also chose what she wore that evening, knowing she had to be slightly careful as local to home.  Shortly afterwards Angel started sending though her suggestions.  The seven tasks sent through were very varied, and some put toy into panic mode during the day as her mind went blank having to look for various items around the house and she was very on edge by the time Master arrived.  As it was getting late he quickly changed and they went out to dinner.  Master had decided to pick tasks out blind, during the evening, although Angel had thought he would look at them all at the start and then decide.  If he had done so, the night may have been very different!  As it was, she had to go up to the restaurant’s toilets with the vibe, use it to make herself cum whilst sending a pic to her Master and Angel.  Then when home, she had to put a show on for Master then afterwards to pleasure Master using a pearl necklace and oil, something she had never tried before, but was very well received!  No doubt he will keep the other suggestions to use at a later date.

This last weekend, she was travelling to see her Master, but had to attend a meeting first, so wouldn’t be arriving until very late.  Master had been tasking her at work, during the day, she had to text him during the morning with suggestions for the weekend and during the afternoon with suggested outfits that would push her, but also make her feel erotic.  To keep her further on edge during the evening, he instructed her to insert the jiggle balls and send a picture; she was then to keep them in until she saw him.  On arrival at the hotel, he met her in the bar, allowing her drink after her journey.  Sitting talking he further kept her on edge, just listening to her Master voice can almost hypnotise her.  Then he took her to the room, had her strip and on the bed, on point, removed the balls and started to play with her using the wand.  By this point the balls had been inside her nearly 5 hours and she was extremely sensitive and even light use of the wand had her nearly on the ceiling.  After vigorously fucking his toy, he allowed her to crawl into bed next to him.  Hmmmmm, toy does enjoy that treat.

All too soon the alarm was going off, toy’s signal to pleasure her Master, before he had to leave.  Toy then had relaxed day before seeing her Master later.  As he was delayed, after a very long day, he was in a more chilled mode.  Having her bathe him, dressing him and going out to dinner.

All in all a very varied and extremely enjoyable month for toy.

Toy is extremely happy to say that Master’s well on the mend now and things are starting to get back to some sort of “normality”. At last she’s seen more of her master this month too.

At the start of the month she travelled to see her Master for a brief visit.  She was just able to see him for a couple of hours, but was desperate for a real time fix.  Her Master seemed keen to see his toy too.  She was quickly blindfolded and Master started to play with his toy and time just flew by.  All too soon, Master calmed her down and allowed her to eat with him before a quick Master pamper and off he went.

Two weeks later she was on the road again, but this time it was for a proper visit to see her Master – at last!  She set off straight from work on Friday afternoon and hit the road, nervously excited, wondering what Master had planned.  When arrived a couple of hours or so later, Master allowed her to sit and chill for a while to have a bite to eat and glass of wine, which she appreciated, especially when she has hardly seen her Master in ages.  He then had her change into one of her serving outfits, short black top, no bra, obviously she already had on stockings and heels then added her collar.  She was then put on point, on the bed as he started to play with her.  Playing with her arse and pussy until she was crying out.  It was great to have a session with her Master, before finally being allowed to crawl into bed next to him for the night. 

For the first time in nearly two month she woke next to her Master and as the alarm went off it was her signal to pleasure her Master, no words are needed, she knows what’s expected of her.  Mmmmmmmm. 

Off Master went for a while and toy wandered off for breakfast, then met up with Master at lunchtime ready to give him a full toy massage.  Then Master went off again until the evening. 

After dinner toy was sent was back to the room first and had to change ready for master.  She was standing waiting for them, stomach churning and legs shaking, knowing he wanted to play, but not knowing what he would do.  Her top soon came off leaving her exposed then she was blindfolded.  He then got out the clingwrap.  Normally he would just bind her tits and maybe middle section, as he knows more freaks her out, but he had her put her arms by her side and started to wrap her from neck down to her ankles.  There haven’t been many things that have totally freaked toy out, on her journey, but full body wrap has been one of those, as it constricts round her chest.  She could feel the panic rising in her and started to thrash a little, which is the worst thing she could do as it immediately tightens the wrap.  Somehow she forced herself to calm her breathing and settle down enough for Master to carry on, but it was touch and go and very scary. It’s one thing toy hates.  Master then cut holes so he could play with her, it certainly puts an additional edge to things.  After what seemed an age, he finally cut her out and allowed her to start coming down.

He then allowed her to chill for a short time and enjoy a glass of wine.  Master then wanted to chill his self for a bit, after a busy day so settled in his chair to watch tv for a bit with his toy curled up on the floor at his feet. Where a good toy should be.  Then eventually another night with her master until the alarm went off and time to pleasure him again.  Oh, what a great weekend and so so long since she’d had the chance.

After such a rough period, toy was on a roll and got to see her Master again the next weekend.  He had been winding his toy up all week, saying he wanted to push his toy and she had to decide if she wanted to see her Master if she could take this.  He also set her tasks during the week, so by the time the weekend came she didn’t know quite what to expect.  Would he push her too far, had he been winding her up and teasing her, whatever it was her stomach couldn’t take much more. 

As it was he decided, given a rare timing opportunity, he decided to do a task with a difference.  He took her shopping!  Obviously, it wasn’t just a vanilla type trip.  First she had to dress to please her Master, or he threatened to make her change, but at the same time, be able to go to a large shopping centre on a Saturday afternoon and not freak people out.  She managed to please her Master in a short, very tight, skirt, heels, a sheer top with no bra and jacket.  On arrival she had to pick numbers from a list of tasks Master had.  Whether good or bad, she found she had picked 1. Very tight and 2. See through.  So off they set.  She does enjoy shopping with her Master, although very rare, it gives her the opportunity to see what he likes and dislikes and she can take this on into planning outfits to please her Master.  Plus she enjoys trying outfits on for him. 

Now Master is normally totally anti trousers, he likes full access to his toy at all times. So she was extremely surprised that one of her items turned out to be a pair of very tight, leather look leggings that followed every curve.  Then a sheer top, that Master was going to make her wear without a bra, putting her further on edge.  Not surprisingly, she was dressed in the new outfit to go out to dinner that night.  Hmmmmm an interesting night, though extremely enjoyable!

Back at toys, Master was in more pamper mood, so the massage oils came out.  Toy normally enjoys giving her Master a pamper, but for some reason, this one seemed to go onto yet another level and she gave her all in pleasuring her master.  Even if toy may be so bold to say, it was extremely erotic!

Oh what a lucky toy, a great month.

Once again, the 2013 jinx has struck.  What next!  This time it’s toy’s Master, who had an unexpected trip to hospital, and is going to be out of action for a few weeks.  Although, thankfully he is on the mend now.  It does seem to be one thing after another.

So, sadly toy hasn’t seen her Master now for 6 weeks, since she travelled to meet him back in late February.  It feels such a long long time and has left toy feeling out of sorts, to say the least.  She does miss seeing her Master, even though they’re in touch constantly, it’s not the same as a real time fix.

He has set her the odd task, to let her feel his hand on her leash.  Allowing her to cum for him and send him pics, then last week she was allowed to put a display for him on cam.

Fingers crossed Master and toy will both soon have turned a corner and get back on track and she will have more to report next month.

Once again, the 2013 jinx has struck.  What next!  This time it’s toy’s Master, who had an unexpected trip to hospital, and is going to be out of action for a few weeks.  Although, thankfully he is on the mend now.  It does seem to be one thing after another.

So, sadly toy hasn’t seen her Master now for 6 weeks, since she travelled to meet him back in late February.  It feels such a long long time and has left toy feeling out of sorts, to say the least.  She does miss seeing her Master, even though they’re in touch constantly, it’s not the same as a real time fix.

He has set her the odd task, to let her feel his hand on her leash.  Allowing her to cum for him and send him pics, then last week she was allowed to put a display for him on cam.

Fingers crossed Master and toy will both soon have turned a corner and get back on track and she will have more to report next month.

Oh, once again it’s been an extremely mixed month both toywise and vanilla life.  It seems to be the theme for this year so far.

Thankfully, half way through the month she secured a new job, which is a huge relief.  She is thankful that her Master has been very understanding & supportive throughout a very difficult time, as it has impacted on her times with her Master and whilst apart.  She just wants to get back to some sort of “normality”.

Towards the start of the month, she travelled to see her Master.  She wasn’t expecting it, which is always an added bonus, she just had a couple of hours warning that she needed to pack her bag and the toybox and hit the road and her Master would be waiting for her and ready to play with his toy.  Unfortunately, the journey didn’t go to plan and what should have been a 2 hour trip, took a nightmare 4 hours, which curtailed the session somewhat when she finally arrived. 

Luckily she didn’t have to wait long to see her Master again and the following weekend she got to see him.  This was going to be a rare chance for toy, as she got to travel with Master, rather than just meet up with him.  With this in mind, he had set her a task the night before to post on her CM profile that she would be available to be used on the phone during the journey, for Master’s entertainment.  Unfortunately, there were only 2 people who contacted her before they left.  As they settled into the journey toy was instructed to make the first call. This one went off ok, he wanted a phone wank, which toy provided, although he did ring off quickly before she was allowed to cum.  He had asked toy to pretend that she was wearing stockings, heels, with red lipstick.  No need to pretend, it’s how she always has to dress when with her master plus red nails too. The second didn’t go to plan.  He didn’t seem to understand the concept of using toy on the phone and just wanted to talk and kept pushing her to try and arrange a real time meeting, which wasn’t going to happen.  Luckily, her Master took pity on her, pulled into a lay by and allowed her to cum for him.  Mmmmm it certainly was a more interesting journey then when she travels on her own.

When they arrived, she was allowed to pleasure her Master before he had to go off for a while and allowed toy some chill time.  She was instructed to be dressed, as he desired, for his return.  For the first time with her Master, she was instructed to wear trousers, albeit fitted leather ones, with a sheer blouse, no bra, plus heels.  She also had to have his bath run when he returned, a glass of wine waiting and pamper him before they went out.  Off out to dinner, luckily he allowed her to wear her leather jacket!

When they arrived at the restaurant, as is normal, she had to wait for permission to sit and wait on him during the meal.  She was rather warm, but no way was she going to mention this to her Master in case he instructed her to take off her jacket, she would have been so self conscious, even though she had her back to the room.   After dinner, it was back to the hotel and able to play for a sort while.

The next day, she also had the journey home with her Master, which she enjoyed very much, even though it wasn’t as eventful as the outbound trip.

Oh lucky toy, the following weekend she was off to see her Master again, travelling on the Saturday afternoon.  They met up at the hotel and he allowed her to chill with a coffee for a moment, before sending her up to the room.  Rather than go out, Master had instructed her to bring a picnic, so they could extend the session in private.  She went up to the room first and changed for her Master. Her sheer maids top, with the stockings and heels she was already wearing.  The picnic out, wine poured, bath run and informed Master she was ready.  She then bathed him, and he allowed he some chill time and chance to talk freely whilst they ate.  Then it was time to play!  Master blindfolded her, and then first spent some time on her nipples.  She then had to put on a show for him using a vibe and cuming.  What she didn’t realise at the time, was that he’d filmed it so he could watch it back again later.  As always, the time flew by all too quickly before she was eventually allowed to crawl into bed next to her Master.

So she’s had a good run of seeing her Master, which she’s thoroughly enjoyed, sadly now she’s in the middle of a 4 week period, where she won’t get to see her Master, that’s the way it goes.  She is getting desperate now for another real time fix!

Oh it’s been an extremely mixed month both toywise and vanilla life.

The first two weeks of the year, Master was going to be tied up with a work project and so he entrusted his toy into the hands of Angel, as he wasn’t sure how much contact he would have. 

On the first day, Angel was busy setting ground rules and a variety of possible tasks, which toy was either to accept or refuse.  The problem was she was only allowed 2 refusals and didn’t know how many tasks there would be so had to pretty much accept them as they came through, although she did draw the line at one which was to use a bucket outside as a toilet!  That one had a definite no.  Other varied from toy based tasks to more health based ones, like drinking more water, taking more exercise etc. One of the toy tasks that seemed quite innocent at the time, was that toy wouldn’t be allowed to shave her pussy, until she was given permission. Little did she know that that one would run and run!

Toy was really getting really on edge over the next couple of days, then a double whammy set her back. She had some bad news ref her job and came down with the dreaded lurgy and was feeling lousy.  Taking this into account Angel put her tasks on hold, apart from the no shaving task.

Vanilla life then took a further downturn, when toy was sadly made redundant.  Time for Master to take even further control of his toy’s life.  The following day, he visited his toy and gave much needed support, for which she is extremely grateful.  Although he nearly gave her heart failure when he arrived an hour early (not that she was complaining!) and crept into her bedroom.  She then had chance to please and pleasure her master before he started on the task in hand.  He looked at all aspects of her life including tasks, standards of behaviour, eating /diet, sex, social, clothing, money, job hunting and exercise.  She then had to mark them for him to consider based on two areas, how much and how hard. He would then be setting her a weekly schedule. He then took apart her budget and set strict new limits for which she will be punished if she goes over.    It was what she needed though.  Some time again to please her Master before he had to leave.

During all this time she still hadn’t been allowed to shave, and it then came back to haunt her.  Master then decided that he would set a competition time would run for 48 hours. Toy was to post on CollarMe that people could vote on how her pussy was to be kept for the next month and to put pictures on her profile of it shaved, unshaved and in-between.  The most votes for either shaved or unshaved would decide how she is to be over the next month. At the end of the task a winner, from those who have voted, would be picked at random and would be allowed to lick toys pussy.

Toy was amazed how many people voted, over 30 people took the time.  Shaving was been the overwhelming choice, which made for a happy toy. A winner was then chosen by Master and she had to wait and see if the winner wished to take the offer up of his prize.  She then was told that a meeting had been arranged and that the prize winner, Marker, would have an hour with toy and be allowed to lick her pussy.

The night went off better than expected, Master had her waiting upstairs for his arrival with knotted stomach and shaking legs then quickly blindfolded her, put her on the bed and then tied her arms.  She was very nervous, but admits that Marker was very skilled with his mouth, tongue and fingers. After making her cum a number of times, Master set him a target, that if reached he would be allowed to fuck toys pussy or mouth. He did seem to reach that rather quickly, although by now toy was so sensitive that it's not as if she had a lot of choice in the matter, she just kept cuming. He was then given another target, after which he would get another half hour with toy. Again he hit this target, toy was all over the place and deep in toyzone by now. It finished up with him fucking her mouth.

It was then time for Master to take him back to his car. Toy wasn't sure what was going to happen next, as Master got her coat out and put it on then led her out to the car. She was just dressed in a body, pulled down below her tits, fishnets and heels. After dropping the prize winner off, Master allowed her to remove her blindfold. He then hit her sideways, so to speak, by saying they were going out to dinner. Argh, toy was a mess, especially after being blindfolded for so long, but off they went for a Chinese. Oh she was so relieved that there was hardly anyone in. She didn't realise until they were leaving that her stocking tops were showing below her coat. Off back home then and time to pleasure her Master!  It certainly was a big head fuck night for toy and she was both drained and buzzing at the same time by the time she was allowed to crawl into bed next to her Master.

Prior to the day Master has set a number of guidelines for her behaviour etc.  He likes the idea of toy acting as a maid / servant whilst with her Master and not actually playing or under other instruction.  Although he did change his mind on one, he had initially said that she couldn’t speak unless spoken to and after she earned her first slap he decided that on this occasion, it would stop the flow of conversation, so he would save that one for another time.  He then allowed the morning to continue for a while in a relaxed mode before becoming stricter with her again. 

He had bought her a loose sleeveless top, to wear around the house when in maid mode. It just about covered her pussy and she then wore this with holdups and heels.  She had to prepare his breakfast, pull the chair out for him to sit, wait for permission to sit and to eat (as is the norm).  Then she had to stand waiting attentively whilst he finished the paper.  He then told her to fetch his crop, which he proceeded to run over her body, taking pleasure in seeing her shake.  He then made her pull over a chair and bend over it whilst he tried it out on her butt.  After a while he took her upstairs and used his toy in different ways including an intense session with the wand on her pussy, which was still very sensitive and tender from the previous night. 

All too soon the session came to an end and it was time for Master to start to bring her down before he had to leave.  Oh time with her Master does go by the very quickly, she can’t wait for the next time. 

Toy has been set a task by her Master following on from a previous one set by Angel whilst Master was away. Angel had decided that she wasn't allowed to shave until pussy, until permission was given. Master has continued with that. He has now decided that he has set a competition for the next 48 hours until Tuesday evening (23/1). Users of CM can vote on how it is to be kept for the next month (pics 2 - 4 on her profile show it off). The most votes for either shaved or unshaved will decide how she is to be over the next month. At the end of the month a winner, from those who have voted, will be picked at random and will be allowed to lick toys pussy.

After last month’s journal update, when she hadn’t seen her Master, she is happy to report several meetings.  A very happy toy.

Mid December saw the first session as Master travelled to see his toy for the night.  It seemed such a long time she had seen him and she was even more nervous than normal.  Master had said that during the evening she was to demonstrate the burlesque chair dance she had been learning and so she was frantically running through this as she waited. She was in such a state that she slid down the stairs, landing in a crumpled heap at the bottom, not a good look! Eventually, she had the 2 minute warning and waited downstairs for Master, dressed to please, with her back to the door, arms folded, legs apart and stomach totally screwed up.  Her legs nearly gave way again when she heard the door open and Master enter the room.

He just stood behind her for a few moments, then turned her round to face the mirror to show how submissive she looked.  He then instructed her upstairs, where she had a bath run for him and glass of wine ready. Time for a brief Master pamper after his journey then she was allowed to sit down with him to eat.  As normal, she has to wait to be told she can sit, ensure Master’s wine glass is kept topped up and offer him food. 

After dinner, it was the part she had nervously been dreading, time to do her burlesque chair dance for him.  She was scared of looking a totally stupid or forgetting the moves.  However, once the music started she settled into it and Master seemed pretty pleased with his toy, admittedly she looked a tad nervous but she’d been to the class and learnt it to please her Master.  She was rewarded with an kiss from her Master, something he never does.  Oh she was so happy.

She was then instructed to go upstairs, change her outfit and wait for her Master.  She was then tied to the bed as Master played with his toy with the vibe and wand until she was crying out.  Time fly by and she was finally untied and allowed to come down.  Then the best reward of all, she was allowed to curl up next to her Master before falling asleep.

Luckily Master didn’t have to rush off early in the morning, in fact for once, it was toy who had to go off to work leaving Master in her bed.  Oh what she’d have given to be able to stay there!

That weekend she had another session with Master, albeit a brief one, when he managed a flying visit on a Saturday afternoon.  Short but intense.

Christmas came and went then just after she had a wonderful Christmas present as she saw her Master from the Thursday evening until Saturday morning.

Master travelled up on the Thursday evening in time for the post Christmas event at Club D.  Again, toy was nervously waiting for Master.  She was dressed in her short skulls black and white skirt, a lace top (obviously no bra), her leather waspie and heels.  As Master was late travelling, he more or less came in, collected his toy and off they went.  On entering the club, it looked busy, but people soon spread out over the 2 floors.  There seemed a different mix of people this time, more small groups of people rather than D/s couples. Part of the night they stayed at the bar, taking in the atmosphere.  Master continually played with his toys nipples ensuring that they were erect, pushing through her thin top and on display, as the evening went on they got more and more tender.  With the different mix of people, she did feel more self conscious then normal.  After a while they went for a wander around the downstairs area.  Master had he kneel up on one of the benches where he spanked her lightly, well, to him it seemed lightly, it certainly made toy squeal.  Later he sent her to the toilets to inset a butt plug, argh, he knows it’s something that she really hates, just the thought of putting it in can send her mood plummeting.  Master soon lifted her up again though.  Back to the bar and she her nipples were starting to burn, she was feeling very on edge though.  Master then produced her blindfold and led her away from the bar to the back of the room.  He then sat her down on the edge of a low table and started playing with his toy.  She heard him speak to someone, but didn’t hear a response.  She then felt another pair of hands coming from behind to feel her nibbles and Master played with her pussy.  She was very on edge and nervous.   After a while master had her lie back on the table, she believes he spoke to the person again and then she felt a cock going in to her month and Master fingered his toy.  After a while, master said that was enough and sat her back up.  It was strange having no verbal sound from the other person, toy didn’t hear them speak at all, a bit disconcerting, but she has full trust in her master.  Master then took her to one side and removed her blindfold, allowing her to start to come down before he decided it time to go.  Toy was still a little out of it and in toyzone when they got home.  Luckily with Master staying a couple of days, there wasn’t the normal need to continue to play at that point, given that it nearly 2am and they crawled into bed.

Oh it was a relief not to have to get up early the next morning.  She has happily curled up next to Master for the night and they wake slowly.   As toy came round she tentatively started to see if Master was ready for his toy and she started to pleasure him.  Mmmmmm toy’s favourite way to start the day.  After a relaxed start, Master needed to go into town to do some chores.  It always feels slightly surreal to toy when doing vanilla things even though there’s always a twist.  They went to an open coffee show for brunch and as he sent her to the counter to wait on him, Master called out to her, naturally calling her toy.  Returning with the tray, she obviously stood there waiting to be told to sit.

Returning to toy’s Master sent her upstairs and told her to strip and put on fishnets and heels.  He then came upstairs and put her blindfold on along with her full collar and leash.  She then heard him go into the back bedroom and start moving about.  Toy’s stomach knotted up and legs got shaky wondering what he was doing.  He then led her into the other room, telling her to put her arms out he proceeded to wrap her from above her tits to her thighs in cling wrap.  Then the scary and tricky bit where he cut holes to pull her nipples through.  She is terrified that one day the knife will slip.  Youch they were still very sore from the night before and she can barely stand them being touched, this is before the session has even got going.  Then he tipped her back until she was lying on the bench press bench and proceeded to tie her down, using more cling wrap and then cuff her wrists to the stand above.  He then left her, the part toy hates.  It always seems a waste of precious time.  She seemed to be lying there for ages before he came back and played with her nipples, as said, they were already very sore and she was soon crying out.  He then left her again.  This went on for some time.  By now she was starting to struggle, in that the bench is quite narrow and her back was killing her and starting to lose feeling in her arms, which were still tied above her.  She couldn’t help but whimper until Master came to check on his toy, but he soon left her again.  After sometime, he cut another slot in the cling wrap, this time by her pussy and wedged the wand in there, making her come for him.   Then again left her.   Eventually it he untied her and moved her through to the bedroom.  This time he put her on the floor and make her put a show on for him and cum.  She knew she’d been tied a while but hadn’t realised that nearly 1.5 hours had gone by.  Oh boy was she hurting all over.  It was then time to pleasure her master again for a while as she came back down. 

Master then decided to take his toy out for dinner, as they were going somewhere local to her, where she knew people, he did allow her to dress in a more vanilla style than normal.  She does enjoy the chance to sit down with master and talk face to face as so much of the time it is via text.  After an enjoyable meal they headed back to toys.  After the intense afternoon session he decided on some chill time and he allowed her the rare treat of being able to curl up next to him on the sofa as he watched tv before back upstairs to bed.

Oh bliss, another night curled up next to Master.  Again in the morning it was time to please and pleasure her master for a while.  A relaxed start to the day before he had to leave.  Mmmmm toy couldn’t have asked for a better Christmas present.

And still the month wasn’t over for toy.  She had the pleasure of seeing her Master again on New Year’s Eve, when she travelled to meet him.  Unfortunately, master has started to come down with an awful cold and wasn’t feeling too well, so they went out for a quiet dinner before going back to the room.  Master had her put on a show for him and cum, then he made her strip.  He then put on her collar and leash and fastened her cuffed hands together, blindfolded her and put her to bed, saying that was how she was to sleep.  Uuuuuuuuuuuuu, toy not so happy now.  Part way through the night he allowed her to remove the blindfold as she found she just couldn’t sleep in it at all.  Then at some point in the early hours he removed her cuffs.  She managed maybe an hour or so sleep before it was time to get up as sadly master had an early start.

All in all a thousand times better than the previous month. 

Sadly for the first time in 3 years, she has no meetings with her Master to report on in her journal, albeit last month’s report was slightly late.

Vanilla life keeps getting in the way still but the main thing is that Master has been poorly sick since the last time she saw him.  She wishes him a swift recovery and hopes that he is able to play with his toy again soon.

She has been continuing her beginner’s Burlesque course with the lovely Angel, sadly only one week to go, but both are wanting to follow on with the next stage in the New Year.  It’s been great fun and she can’t wait to show off the chair dance she has learnt to her Master.  Then after the class she’s been going for a drink with Angel which she has thoroughly enjoyed.  With Master's encouragement, Angel has also been pushing toy’s boundaries in totally different ways.

Fingers crossed next month she will have seen her Master and have a lot more to report.  She is desperately in need of a real time Master fix.  Her cravings grow day by day and it’s becoming harder and harder to act normally, she is so on edge and wound up.  The only way she can cope is by mentally trying to step back from it all, curling up in her basket and pulling the covers over her.  At least she has Angel who understands fully how she feels, it’s not something a vanilla friend would.

She realised with a jolt, at the weekend, that she hadn’t written this month’s profile update.  Where has the time gone?  It has been rather a difficult time recently, Master has been very busy vanilla wise, and toy has also had a number of major changes going on in her life, again, vanilla life getting in the way, which all resulted in her not seeing her Master for over 5 weeks.  This toy has found very difficult, obviously she has missed seeing her Master, but it goes deeper than that, although hard to explain, it’s a mental thing.  Toy has been trained to be an obedient pleasure slut, who is used to feeling her Master’s hand on her leash albeit often from a distance.  To have him out of contact so much leaves her very unsettled and mentally wanting to curl up in her basket and await his return, which is why she has hardly been on the site and why messages haven’t been responded to as yet.  She apologises for this.

At the end of October Master did managed to get to see his toy and they’d planned to go to Club Dominion, which toy really enjoys.  She was dressed ready for his arrival in her first option for the evening, of short skirt and leather corset, and had a light supper prepared.  Her stomach was so churned up and she couldn’t sit still with a nervous excitement.  After supper he had her change into her second option.  Short printed skirt, lace top (no bra), leather waspie, fishnets and heels.  She then quickly found herself blindfolded and handcuffed to the chair as he tormented her nipples.  It’s amazing how quickly her pain tolerances drop, when she’s not seen her Master for a while, and she was soon screaming out.  He then moved her upstairs, had her tied on the bed and tormented her clit with the wand for what seemed like ages, although she was finally allowed to cum.  She had almost forgotten what it felt like!  The session progressed and was so intense that toy took some bringing back down afterwards.  Then Master was ready for a pamper and suddenly the time had flown by and they never did make it to the Club, but oh it was worth it.

Luckily she didn’t have to wait so long for the next meeting with her Master and Friday afternoon she found herself travelling down the motorway to see him. She arrived before her Master and nervously sat waiting, her mind working overtime, never sure of what he will have planned.  So much depends on his mood at the time, whether it’s a the more sadistic end of the scale or the pamper end or a mix in the middle.  They had dinner first and a catch up, again time flying by and then time to play, yippee, a happy toy again. Hopefully it won’t be too long until she sees him again.

During this time, she has been in regular contact with the lovely Angel.  Luckily toy’s Master is happy to allow this, as is Angel’s Master, Oak.  Mid October they had a great day out at the Derby Burlesque and Alternative Fair, which both enjoyed, although a misunderstanding during the outing got toy into a bit of hot water! 

Toy and Angel have also started a beginner’s Burlesque class, which is providing a lot of giggles!  It is something her Master has wanted her to try for some time now and he looks forward to a private performance at the end of the 6 weeks.  Hmmmm toy will have to learn to keep a straight face for that lol.

Once again, it’s been a busy month for both Master & toy, contact has been a bit limited at times and she has just seen Master twice, although both occasions were, as always, extremely enjoyable.

Earlier in the month toy travelled to see her Master, meeting up with him prior to him having to go away for a week with his work.  It was a brief overnight stay, with an early start to get back in time for work, but intense. 

She quickly found herself tied and on the floor.  On this occasion her Master decided that her nipples were to be the focus, this time, amongst other things he decided to use rubber bands.  Luckily, he knows to set an alarm to limit the time they were on, so as not to cut off the circulation, but oh boy, why is the taking them off the worst part.  She was screaming out as he removed them.   He played with her in a variety of ways, before deciding it was time for her to pamper him with a massage.  By this point though, her nipples were so sore and tender that even using them as the massage progressed made her wince.  Conscious of the early start, she was then allowed to curl up next to him and get a few hours sleep.

Later in the month she found herself on the road again, travelling to see her Master.  Having limited contact in-between trips she was so on edge as she hit the motorway mid afternoon. Argh she hates Friday afternoon traffic, don’t they know she needs a fix!  To put her even more on edge, Master had been delayed and she had to try and sit calmly in the hotel bar for a coffee as she waited, unable to sit still for a moment.  Finally he arrived and she was alone with him at last.

Master seemed ready to play straight away too and she was quickly instructed to strip and get on the bed, on point.  He slipped her blindfold on then flipped her over onto her back and her wrists were quickly cuffed to her ankles, leaving her open, exposed and vulnerable.  She heard him routing around in her case, pulling out the travelling toybox, then deciding what to do with his toy.  It seemed to last for ages with her stomach knotting up even more.  The nervous anticipation was almost unbearable.  Then she heard the snap of the cap on the lube and her stomach dropped, unsure which way it was going to go.  The high would be if for the wand, the low if for the dreaded butt plug.  Luckily she heard the wurl of the wand. 

What she hadn’t taken into account was the fact that she was so wound up and on edge so she was she became very sensitive very quickly!  She was soon begging to cum, and then to the other extreme and begging Master to stop.  He pulled back for a moment but then started on her again and going through the cycle again until he got to the point when she couldn’t take anymore.  It seemed to go on for ages and she just lost track of the time.  Eventually she was rewarded as Master fucked his toy.  He released her then and allowed her to slowly come back down. 

She was then instructed to dress for dinner.  Due to the location and other factors, she had to be careful and dress in a more vanilla way.  When she has to do this, she always tries to dress up for her Master, more so then she would do in a vanilla situation.  After the intense session, she thoroughly enjoyed the contrast of being allowed to talk freely with her Master over dinner on a number of issues which she needed to discuss.  It does seem totally natural to her now to stand in a busy restaurant waiting for permission to sit.  She also values her Masters input and advice on all aspects of her life.  Again, it comes natural that he has control.

Back to the hotel, Master sent her on ahead to the room with instructions to change.  This time into the non vanilla option she had bought along, with her fishnets, collar, leather kilt and new top, which she wanted to show him.  Again, a purchase with Master in mind, something that would work in both sides of her life.  She quickly changed and nervously waited for her Master, and waited and waited.  He was playing with her and keeping her on edge not knowing what his mood would be. 

Then the there was the knock on the door and her questions answered.  This time he was ready for a massage, starting off with a fully clothed more traditional one, then as her clothes came off a toy’s special massage!  When fully relaxed she was rewarded again, with being well and truly fucked!  Then allowed to curl up next to her Master for the time.  Oh she does enjoy that at the end of a fix.  All too soon his alarm went off.  The signal for her to please and pleasure him with her mouth and full body to start his day. 

Mmmmmmm once again, she thoroughly enjoyed the meet, the combination of a great fix and time with her Master.  Roll on the next time!  Although sadly will be a little while.  Toy is early this month with her update as she’s away next week and won’t see her Master again until sometime after.  She can’t wait.

August was certainly a varied month for toy, she managed to see her Master a couple of times, which for August is good, and also had some new experiences too.

At the beginning of the month, Master allowed her out for a social evening with Miss Sophia and Angel.  So what does happen if a Domme, a switch and a toy go out for a drink!  A very enjoyable evening for toy.   Angel had kindly agreed to pick her up and they made their way to meet up with Miss S, with a slight delay when she came in, made toy bend over and wrote on her butt after kissing various places.  Angel & Miss S, soon hit it off and toy was trying to be attentive during the evening.  She fetched the drinks and obviously waited for permission to sit each time, although as the evening went on and the pub filled up she was made to wait longer each time.  Later in the evening they kept her on edge, making her sit across the room with her legs open for a short time, back to the toilets with Miss S, who’s turn it was to write on toy and with Angel who made her stand in front of mirror with dress lifted as she took pictures.

The evening flew by, it was great to be able to talk freely with like minded people, whose company toy enjoys.  It didn’t end though when they said goodnight to Miss S as Angel still had to take toy home.  Toy was a mixture of nervous and excited on more than one level.  Partly the fact that she’s never been on her own with another girlie like this before, so that in itself is a very new and quite scary experience, scary in that she isn’t yet sure of how she feels about all this bi thing.  Secondly, as she mentioned earlier, she’s so used to Master being there and giving her instructions.  She’s not used to being with someone on a one to one basis, since she’s been seeing her Master.  She needn’t have worried though as Angel was gentle with her, very careful not to slip into Domme mode without specific instruction or previous chat with toy’s Master, as he was away.

Then a couple of weeks later she was finally able to see her Master, who was travelling to toy’s for the day.  She was on edge as not seen him for a while and couldn’t wait.  She nervously waited for him, as instructed downstairs in her waspie, heels, fishnets and blindfold.  Her stomach screwed up as she heard the toy and him enter, then as he told her to turn around. Immediately her antenna went up, unless Master had started wearing perfume he wasn’t alone.  A soft mouth on her nipple confirmed this and then Angel spoke.  Toy wasn’t quite sure what was going on and what had been arranged.  Master quickly filled her in.  On this occasion he was there purely to set it up, all instructions during the session would come from Angel, toy was to obey her and not let him down.  He then left toy to attend a meeting, he would be back later.

Angel produced her own toybox and instructed to lay a number of items out.  These included a candle, strap on, pegs, flogger, pin wheel and piece of fresh ginger.  Then she had toy assume a kneeling position on the floor, which was new to her.  There were two instructions for toy, she wasn’t allowed to whimper and wasn’t allowed to fidget, squirm or wriggle about.  Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuu, that’s part of toy, she normally expresses herself with a series of whimpers which Master understands.  This was going to be difficult.  The other thing Angel insisted on was that toy answered a question directly and didn’t answer it with another question or deflect it.  Youch, this earnt her a number of sharp hair pulls, snapping her head back, which brought tears to her eyes.

They then moved upstairs.  Angel had written a number of things down and mixed them up in a bowl, toy then nervously had to draw them out.  First off was candle which was set on her back, although she had to keep still luckily the wax wasn’t used, hmmmm Angel went for ice instead.  Then there were various other things including toy to massage Angel, Angel massage toy, crop, flogger.  To varying degrees toy has experience these before, new experiences were the “buzz buzz” which was a battery operated remote control thing that went inside her and the dreaded fresh ginger.  Oh boy, it didn’t feel too bad to start with, but after a little while the burning sensation started, youch, it was almost worse when taken out. Then Angel got out her strap on, which seems very scary to toy, and took toy from behind.  Toy had experienced this once before and tried to relax but it’s not something she sure of.  Then toy was made to put it on.  Now this was a first for her, she really wasn’t comfortable doing this, somehow didn’t feel right, but she did as instructed.  Oh but then she had to chuckle to herself as Angel had used it on toy straight after toy had had the ginger taken out and then straight on to toy using it on Angel.  What Angel hadn’t counted on was the transfer of ginger from inside toy to Angel until the burning started inside her too!

In the middle of the session, they took a break for a picnic lunch, with toy waiting on Angel.  Although toy was made to kneel on the floor and had to try to eat from a plate on the floor, not very successfully she should add, spending more time chasing food around her plate rather than eating, so she quickly gave up.  During this time, they also had toy walking up and down the room to practice her walking, which Angel sees as having room for improvement.

All too quickly the session flew by, even though it lasted for several hours and was very intense.  A lot of new experiences for toy, but Angel helped her and toy thoroughly enjoyed the day. She was very unsettled afterwards though and totally drained, but a happy toy.

A totally different fix came at the end of the month on the bank holiday, when toy travelled to see her Master.  He was ready for a pamper session from his toy, so the massage oil came out as she pampered and pleasured him.  Later they went out for dinner, as she has a number of major vanilla things going on at the moment, he allowed her time to talk though things as she values his opinions and advice.  Back at the hotel, it was play time and he quickly had her stripped and hanging from the door frame as he attached pegs to her.  Funnily enough, it wasn’t the pegs or other things he did to her that caused the problems but standing on the spot on her heels lol. 

He then moved her over to the bed and said he would remove all the pegs when she had cum twice.  By this point she was very on edge and came quickly.  However, Master changed his mind and had her cum on the phone to Angel before he finally removed the pegs and fucked his toy. 

It was great to see her Master again, although she wasn’t quite so enthusiastic when she had to get up at 4:30am to drive back in time for work.  She can’t wait for her next fix.

After a very intense June, July was much quieter in comparison.  Although she has seen her Master a number of times, there was more darting around and pampering times rather than the major sessions, although it did have its moments!

It started out quieter with her seeing her Master a couple of times, travelling to meet him late evening at his hotel and then the following week Master to toys. This time they managed more of a play session, which was great.

Then mid July she made her first visit to the BBB in the “safe hands” of Angel, along with Angel’s vanilla friend T.  Although she was rather nervous to start with Toy thoroughly enjoyed the day.  She was feeling braver and was wearing her leather dress, plus dress collar, although Angel soon had her swap this for her full collar. 

On arrival they had a drink whilst got their bearings and then started to wander around the stalls, it was fun hearing T’s vanilla take on it all, as well as Angel’s and toy soon had her eye on some new items for the toy box.  The demonstration was due to start at 1:30pm, so shortly before they made their way up to the second floor and got a drink and waited to be allowed up to the top floor.  Whilst waiting, a stall with a selection of crops and canes caught Angel’s eye.  As toy looked at them she saw one with a padded almost square end to it and wondered out loud if it was a softer one.  Oooops, silly toy!  Angel quickly picked up on this and instructed toy to bend over.  What toy hadn’t realised was that it was split and like two flaps together.  Angel demonstrated, when used like this it’s soft as she patted toy’s butt, over her dress, with it, but when used like this it isn’t as she wacked toy’s butt, making her cry out.  Youch!!!  Luckily, T pointed out that people were starting move upstairs so toy was saved from any further testing of the equipment! 

Then it was time for the demonstration.  Three Dom(me)s were put on the spot in the style of Ready, Steady, Cook.  Three subs, two female and one male, had each brought in a carrier bag containing five everyday items.  Each sub was allocated to a Dom and then the Dom had to come up with a scene using the items, to everyone’s amusement. 

Another drink and then a wander round the stalls upstairs.  Angel had her try out an E-Stim, on her hand, a new experience for toy.  There were so many different sensations, toy’s hand was tingling afterwards, who knows what it would do to her insides! 

Toy was busy looking around and taking in the atmosphere, she kept having to pull herself up to ensure that she was attentive to Angel, who rewarded her with a touch or light kiss.  Just before they left she was allowed to make her purchases.  A new dress collar, complete with D ring that she would be able to wear out to dinner with her Master plus a lovely padded leather blindfold.  Mmmmm she couldn’t wait to try that out.  Off to lunch then and then home.  Thanks to Angel for a great day out.

After that weekend she didn’t know when she would be seeing her Master next, as he had a lot on, vanilla wise.  A couple of weeks later, she was at work on the Friday with Master texting her and keeping her on edge.  She wasn’t having a good day and nothing was going to plan.  Normally, she finishes early on a Friday, but it just wasn’t happening.  Then out of the blue her Master instructed her that she had to get home as he had arranged for her to be fucked – argh, where did that one come from!  Toy was in panic mode, needing to please her Master, not knowing what would happen but being up against the clock.  As she headed off he informed her that he was making a 160 mile detour to see her for an hour. Phew she couldn’t wait to see her Master but stop the clock please. 

Sometimes it’s the unplanned, unexpected ones that turn out to be the most intense.  Master was at toy’s before her and within seconds of walking through the door she was instructed to get upstairs and change into fishnets, heels, collar and very short new skirt then Master came up and added her new blindfold.  Quickly then she was pushed onto the bed, on her front, and fastened to the chains which stay on her bed.  Then the assault on her senses began.  A combination of crop, flogger, vibe and wand etc. had her being pushed over the edge and crying out and the different sensations hit her before Master then using the handle of the flogger in her arse again, uuuuuuuuuuuu, followed by a plug, double uuuuuuuuuuuuuu. She didn’t quite know what had hit her.  Then Master unchained her and roughly pulled her off the bed and on to her knees in front of him.  She started to pleasure him with her mouth, but Master wasn’t in a pamper mode this time at all and started to roughly fuck her mouth until she was choking and gagging. 

Then suddenly it was over and toy was left feeling well used, slightly battered and very shaky as Master informed her that sadly he had to go.  Normally, after a session he is there to bring toy back down, to let her calm down through the stage where she can’t talk, then be there when she hits “rabbit” mode.  She finds it very hard when she needs to come down on her own, but would rather have that then not have seen her Master at all.

Another week passed and toy was lucky enough to find herself driving down the motorway to meet with her Master.  Arriving at the hotel, it seemed both toy and Master were in similar moods, both had had an extremely busy week and were tired.  She was more than happy to find herself in collar and leash curled up at her Masters feet before slowly pampering him.  Talk about extremes compared with the previous week, but very enjoyable in its own way and what both needed. 

This month has started off with a rather disconcerted toy as her Master is away for a week and pretty much out of contact.  Normally, even from a distance he keeps a hand on her leash, sometimes loose, sometimes tight, sometimes giving it a jerk, but she feels it constantly and he has so much influence on all aspects of her day to day life.  On the rare occasions that he has to lay down her leash it leaves her very unsettled, so she is just going to try and settle down in her basket and patiently await his return. 

At least it’s just a week and things will soon be back to normal.  She provisionally has an outing planned on Thursday night, with Masters permission, when hopefully meeting with Angel and Miss Sophia.  Hmmmm could be interesting, it certainly makes toy feel a tad nervous as Master has lent toy to both of them in different ways.  Hmmmmm, will have to see what happens in next month’s journal update!

Oh what a month for toy.  She has been lucky enough to see her Master every week during June and it’s certainly been a memorable one in which she’s been pushed in many different ways.  She has had to condense her journal this month rather a lot, but hopes it gives a flavour of her experiences.

Following on from see Master over the bank holiday weekend, she had a mad moment late on the Thursday night and travelled 125 miles just to see her Master to pleasure him for a while before having to leave again at 5am!

The following week was much more intense, when she travelled to see her Master from the Thursday evening until Sunday morning.  He had set the ground rules before she arrived at the hotel.  These included that she wasn’t allowed to sit in his presence without permission, she would be extra attentive to his needs, if she had to apologise for anything there would be consequences and he would look at different ways to push her.

Straight off she had to strip and stand waiting for him whilst he completed some work, which felt like it took ages, her stomach knotted up in anticipation.  She was rewarded though as he used her for a while before instructing her to dress for dinner.  Again this had her on edge as she was in the shortest, tightest little black dress she had ever been out in, plus her smaller dress plug.  Although she was more worried initially about her stocking tops showing as they went out.  Luckily the restaurant was quiet as Master had arranged for her to “chat” with Angel at various times including toy going to the toilets and cuming down the phone for her.  Master had permission to get Angel to play with herself etc, but she wasn’t allowed to cum.  Then following dinner, it was back up to the room when she quickly had to change into fishnets, heels and collar and found herself with wrists cuffed to ankles as Master went to work on his toy.  It’s always amazes her afterwards that there isn’t a knock on the door and someone checking what the noise.

The next night, Master had had a long busy day, so he was more in the pamper mode and had his toy massaging, pleasing and pleasuring him.  Then Saturday night they were out again.  This time he had her dressed in short leather kilt, tight shirt and of course heels.  He is always looking for a wide range of experiences for his toy and this time it was a trip into London for dinner then her took her around Soho. Eventually back at the car, he made her take her blouse & bra off and just put her jacket on, leaving her available to him then to play with herself on the journey back.  The journey took quite a while and so she was very on edge by the time they approached the hotel.  Her stomach then screwed up as he turned away from the hotel and headed off towards the country lanes.  She hadn’t a clue what he had planned.  As he drove around she started to get more and more nervous until eventually he pulled into a village car park.  She thinks the only thing saving her from being pushed out of the car and used is a camper van tucked in the corner.  Phew!  As it was he harshly fucked her mouth instead until she was choking, before calmly driving off back to the hotel.  He didn’t allow her to put her shirt back on, just zip her leather jacket up a little.  She’d had tears streaming down her face in the car park and knew she looked a bit of a state, but he calmly walked towards the bar and made her order a drink.  Oh she felt so self conscious, although they just stayed in the bar long enough for him to make his point before he finally took her upstairs!

All in all it was a most enjoyable and varied weekend that kept her on edge throughout.

Throughout the month both toy and her Master have been continuing chatting to the lovely Angel and the following Thursday they finally got to meet her and her Master, Oak, for dinner.  It was a most enjoyable evening with them and great to be able to talk freely about this life.  At one point, when toy asked permission to go to the loo, Angel was instructed to go with her and insert her plug before they came back down.  What she hadn’t counted on was Angel coming into the toilet cubicle with her, argh.  Luckily she took pity on toy and left her alone for a moment on the understanding that toy would kiss her instead, which was a much better option!  Only problem then was she had to bend over whilst the metal dress plug was inserted.  Oooops slight problem when found in her haste toy had picked up an empty tube of lube.  Luckily this didn’t faze Angel who quickly used her mouth to lubricate it.  Back down to join the Masters to finish off the evening.  On the way out Angel asked her Master if she was allowed to kiss toy again.  She was granted permission and they had a few moments to “get to know” each other better!  Toy looks forward to seeing Oak & Angel again soon. Soon it was time to say good night before Master took her home and his time to use his toy.

On the Saturday toy was planning to have a quiet day at home catching up on her chores.  Master on the hand had other ideas.  From 10am until 4pm she was instructed to ring Angel, on the hour, and cum down the phone for her.  If Angel wasn’t available she was to use voicemail.  Oh boy, was toy on edge and wound up by the time she had finished.  The downside for Angel is that her Master had forbidden her from coming over the weekend.  Toy knows which side of the deal she would rather have!

Then on Monday night Master was able to come up for a night out a Club Dominion in Derby and had arranged to meet Oak & Angel there.  Toy was very on edge all day, a mixture of nervous and excited that knotted up her stomach.  She was instructed to wear her net dress, leather waspie, fishnets, heels and of course her collar.  He had arranged to meet Oak & Angel in the pub over the road, so gave her the option of wearing either her coat or leather jacket over the top.  She opted for the jacket but soon regretted it when walking down the street.  She had forgotten that it had been a lot darker the last few times and not bright sunlight when shined through her dress.  After a couple of drinks they headed over to the Club and as they stood at the bar the Masters instructed the two subs to ensure that they were both kept wet by whatever means necessary – and that was just the start to the evening!  Toy hasn’t the space here to go into too much detail but let’s just say she was well and truly pushed and her limits stretched in many different ways, a combination of use by her Master, Oak and her interaction with Angel.   Once the blindfold was on she soon went off deep into ToyZone.  Each time she has been to the Club she thinks she has been taken to the limit of what could happen to her there.  Once again, that was put to the test and she was taken to yet another new level and thanks Oak & Angel for their “assistance” with this, under her Master’s instruction and ever watchful eye.  He allowed her time to start coming back down before it was time to head off home again.  Normally when they get home there is time for more play but at 2am with Master’s alarm due to go off at 6 he allowed her to roll straight into bed. 

The only problem following Club night was that when coming down from ToyZone she initially has trouble holding a conversation for a while, then after a bit she goes into rabbit mode, needing to talk through events with her Master.  This was the only part that didn’t happen and she then struggled during the week feeling very unsettled and not sure when seeing Master next.

Luckily on the Friday, he surprised her with an unexpected flying visit during the afternoon.  Initially they sat having a picnic lunch as he allowed her time to get “rabbit mode” out of her system.  Then he instructed her to go upstairs and change to fishnets, heels, collar & blindfold.  He then laid her face down on the bed and promptly secured her wrists and ankles to the corners.  He has been working on her training with spanking and the flogger; luckily he has been very patient as she is far from being a pain slut.  It did give her chance to put the counting technique Angel had taught her to the test lol.  Whilst doing this he put the metal grooming tool under her clit, boy is that sharp, like little spikes.  Then as he continued working on her butt he swapped the grooming tool for the massage wand, which he left running on her clit.  By this time she started squirming about and whimpering.  He tired of using the flogger in the conventional way and then turned it round and used the handle in her arse at the same time of going to work more with the wand on her clit.  Once again she’s afraid it’s the abbreviated version, but by the time he had finished with her she was screaming out.  All too soon it was time for him to leave.  Although a flying visit, these flying visits are some of the most intense they have.

And still the month wasn’t over.  The next day she was off to Birmingham on the train for the day with Angel to the Alternative & Burlesque Fair.  Once again a mixture of nervousness and excitement for a number of reasons but the biggies were that she had been lent to Angel for the day.  The first time this had happened without Master being present and secondly she hadn’t been to an event like that before.  She has to thank Angel for a wonderful day.  They wandered round the stalls and watched the shows.  It was great to be able to talk freely with someone who understood what she was talking about.  The day was “interesting” and varied with everything from having afternoon tea to toy fastened in the stocks and spanked! 

Initially on meeting with Oak and Angel the week or so before, Master had seen Angel as almost a “sister sub” to toy.  It soon became apparent to all that Angel seemed to get a spark in her eye with toy and her more Domme side came out, so with both Master’s consent, they had been allowed to pursue this “angle”.  Whilst at the fair, it wasn’t long before toy naturally found herself referring to Angel as Miss and Angel was more than happy to take charge from start to finish.  Oh and on top of everything else there was also shopping lol.  Although toy did find herself walking down the Birmingham streets carrying Miss’ new whip for her!  A most enjoyable day, although toy was ready to curl up in her basket when she eventually got home.  A tired but happy toy.

Wow so that was toy’s June, as you can see it’s been totally crazy and varied and pushed her in many different ways.  Oh and she’s had a great time!

Wow that was a quick response several requests within 5 mins of task being made public.

Thank you and I hope the lucky Domme enjoys

Once again a very varied month for toy.  Luckily she has pretty much recovered now, although does easily get tired, but she’s certainly up for play!  A great feeling, toy is back.

In the middle of the month, Master came to Toy’s for a Friday afternoon flying visit.  There is something about these particular sessions that has toy on edge, more than normal, as they are often pretty intense.   He is not side tracked by other events he is coming specifically to play with and use his toy.

His instructions on her dress where pretty basic, fishnets and heels.  He then set up the bench press in the lounge and proceeded to wrap her from just above her tits to mid thigh in cling wrap before picking her up and lying her down on the bench and securely fastening her wrists and ankles. 

First it was the turn of her nipples.  There is something terrifying about Master getting a sharp knife to cut a hole in the cling wrap around her nipples, so he can pull them through on show.  She tends not to breath at that point!  Then he went to work with a variety of implements including crop, clips and clamp, until she was screaming as they got more and more sensitive.  Another good thing about the Friday afternoons is that the neighbours are usually at work.  Not that that would bother him.

Then it was the turn of her clit and he proceeded to cut a hole in the wrap, just big enough for her pencil vibe.  Pushed it in and then just left it there whilst he sat and had a glass of wine and enjoyed the show.  Then he sliced through the wrap to leave her more exposed for him to play with using her wand, vibe and the crop again.  Again before long she was begging him to stop, at least for a moment, before he continued to torture his toy.  That combination of pleasure and pain, although not too intense pain, just slightly over toy’s limits.

Blindfolded like that, she totally loses track of time and is always amazed afterward how long she has been tied.  Luckily Master was able to bring her down fully before all too soon he had to leave.

It has also been a varied month in other ways too. 

Master is always looking to keep her on edge and take her training up a notch and has come up with a set of 18 tasks that she would have to complete if at a later stage she was ready to become his ultimate toy.  The list certainly isn’t to be taken lightly.  Some she could do now, some she would be able to complete with additional training, the thought of others, at this stage would have her running for the hills. Which they are definitely trying to avoid.  It is interesting though, when looking back how far she has come so far, so she never says never, she is just not ready to cope with some of them just yet.

Following a suggestion within a chat on CM with SirSimon, and with Master's permission, she has discovered the Marketplace series of books, which she has just started and enjoyed the first one.  It has opened up a number of very interesting “what if” conversations with Master following on from what if there was a training school for subs available rt.

Under instruction from Master, she has also started chatting to the lovely Angel on msn, which she has thoroughly enjoyed.  Sadly arrangements to meet up with Angel and her Master on Friday were put on hold due to illness on one side and vanilla commitments on the other, but hopefully will be able to meet up soon.

Toy was also lucky enough to meet up for a while with Master on Friday, although this time it was briefly before she later travelled to meet him again at his hotel.  Due to being on the road for some hours he was more in a pamper mood, although he did managed to include some spanking and arse training along the way.  She was also able to travel to meet with him again on Saturday night and also tomorrow.  What a lucky toy.

Hmmmm,  following on from last month, she had it in her head that after her stay in hospital and then week off getting her strength back she would be up and running and fit as a fiddle.  Not quite gone to plan.  She is feeling so much better in herself, but does get tired so very quickly which is curtailing play a bit.  Saying that she has had 2 very good sessions with her Master during the last month.

Firstly, she travelled to see her Master in the middle of the month.  She was early to the hotel so had a short while with her Master before he had to attend a meeting. As he’d had a long busy day, he wanted her in pamper mode, to massage him and relax him for later. Which she always enjoys doing.  Very quickly he had to get ready and go, though he could tell toy was already excited.  She was dressed in her very tight pencil skirt and shirt and he instructed her to remove the shirt, then wrapped her tits tightly in cling wrap before she covered it with her shirt.  This left her nipples very erect. He then sent her off to eat, joining her as soon as he could escape from his meeting.  Argh, she could feel her nipples sticking out as she sat in the restaurant, making her feel very “aware” of people around her.  Luckily it wasn’t long before he joined her.

Back to the hotel room, she had to strip and putting on fishnets and heels then pleasure her Master using her whole body. Oooops she hit that occasional dangerous state of mind, when common sense goes out the window and although she knows it very stupid, she is almost trying to provoke Master.  He could tell this and told her he mustn’t feel her teeth.  Silly toy, she let her teeth graze his shoulder and that was it! She suddenly felt herself flying across the bed then on the floor and Master on top before she was dragged to her feet and thrown back on the bed on her knees.  Oh arse play scares the hell out of her, but Master was provoked!  He then threw her on her back and she was roughly fucked.  Hmmmm, note to self, don’t provoke Master lol.

It was so good to have a good session with Master at last and feel normal for a change, even if it did put her in bed for the rest of the weekend.

She then had to wait for a couple of weeks to see her Master again but, as always it was well worth it.  Monday night was the bi monthly Club Dominion in Derby.  Master had originally said he didn’t think she would be up to it then on the day it said he was coming up.  He then informed her that he would be lending her to Miss Sophia for the evening and it was up to Miss how she would be dressed and act.  Then something work wise cropped up and he couldn’t make it.  Then it was sorted and he was.  Talk about an unintentional head fuck!!!!!

Miss Sophia had decided that she would be dressed in her black leather waspie, which pulled in her waist and showed off her tits.  Her see through net dress, fishnets and heels and most importantly her collar.  Oh there is something special about being able to wear her collar out in public.

It shows how far toy has come that walking to the club dressed like that, with her leather biker style jacket on top felt normal.  So much so that Master had to “suggest” that she fastened her jacket up whilst walking along the back streets of Derby lol.

Once inside they made their way upstairs to the bar area to meet with Miss Sophia and her sub Marti. Now she will do her best not to lose you here, but there were a number of firsts for toy and quite a few people involved so it does get a little complicated.  Let’s just say it was another big step forward in toy’s training.

Miss Sophia (Miss) didn’t waste any time and started to feel toy, as they were having a welcoming chat.  It was soon decided that Miss would take her for a walk and Master quickly produced her leash (although he did decide to hold off with her blindfold for a little while), which Miss attached and then led her towards the downstairs area, which has various equipment.  On their way down they bumped into a male sub, who Miss had played with before called shineyDave (SD) and he joined them on their travels.  They also chatted to a Dom (Dom 1), who was there on his own, although he was also a stranger to Miss too.  Off they continued downstairs.

Miss then was looking though her version of the toybox and produced the ultimate torture implement. Argh the ebeegeebee came out.  Ok, most people will think it totally innocuous,  a run of the mill massager (looks like a metal balloon whisk with the bottom cut off), but ooooh, it sends move then shivers up her spine, it makes her totally jumping out of her skin.

On arrival toy had informed her that Master had made one addition to what she was wearing and had inserted her dress plug (small & pointed metal plug with a jewelled end which is displayed from her arse).  So Miss decided that she wanted to see this and bent toy over a bench, lifted her net dress and displayed her arse.  At this point things got a little “busy”.  Her Master and Miss’ sub Marti (M) made their way downstairs and stood to one side to watch.  SD was at Miss’ side and Dom 1 joined them. Then on the sidelines another Dom (Dom 2) and his female sub came to watch. Phew, all this whilst toy bent over and looking at things upside down and her stomach screwing up.!

This was the first time toy had been lent out.  Master knew she was nervous, although both trust Miss completely, but the sight of Master’s shoes and the feel of his presence there were just what toy needed. 

Miss gave Dom 1 permission to start fingering toy, which he did very enthusiastically.  He then presented his fingers for her to suck on.  Whilst this was going on, Miss had given toy her hand with the instruction to squeeze if things got too much for her.  Master moved closer to her right, to both keep an eye on his toy and enjoy the proceedings and M took his position as Miss’ sub / minder.  Dom 2 also joined in fingering toy too, between the two Doms they gave her a vigorous fingering then had their fingers well sucked.  This was all a first for toy as she’d not experienced toy strangers using her like this before.  Luckily she was able to catch her Master’s eye from time to time to check that she was pleasing him with her actions.

Even though toy was caught up in the session, she was aware of things going on around her.  Anyone that thinks this life is a purely physical thing doesn’t know what they are talking about, it is all about the head.  There were so many things going on. Although toy lent out to Miss, her ultimate aim was to show her obedience to her Master, to please him and make him proud of his toy.  Miss she feels totally “comfortably” with.  Although toy not naturally bi, Miss does bring out another side in her!  Dom 1 would have taken over the session, if he’d been allowed.  In toy’s mind he made the ultimate error, which cost him the chance of play later.  He didn’t show respect to her Master.  Even when both Miss and toy explained that toy was on loan to Miss for the evening and that her Master was just behind him, Dom 1 blanked her Master.  Ohhhh her hackles were rising, ok not very toy like but this is important to her. Dom 2 was different again, physically he probably did exactly the same to toy as Dom 1, but it was his attitude and demeanour that was totally different.  Whilst all this was going on SD was on his knees licking the shoes of Dom 2’s sub.

Then toy was led by upstairs and allowed a moment for a drink before continuing.  She was then to get on her knees, in front of Miss and pleasure her with her tongue.  Hmmmm, this seemed rather successful as Miss had to stop toy before she squirted.

Toy was then instructed to sit and Master produced her blindfold, so get her even deeper into toyzone.  SD was then instructed to start to lick her.  Hmmmm, he was rather skilled and luckily Master allowed her to cum.  Then it was M’s turn, toy has enjoyed his tongue before and again she wasn’t disappointed!  By now toy was so wound up and on edge as she’d been cuming for a while.

After this she was instructed to pleasure SD with her mouth then M joined them and Miss instructed her to pleasure both of them at once.  Again, this was a first for toy, she had never experienced pleasuring two cocks at once before.  All too soon it came to an end.

Miss then decided to take her for another walk.  The only ooops moment, was that Miss isn’t as used to leading a blindfolded toy as Master is and she walked into a pillar lol.  Miss then led her through the door and they paused at the top of the stairs whilst Miss lifted her blindfold.  After a “bright lights” moment, Miss did allow her to take a moment or two to adjust.  A Domme & toy, both in sky high heels needed all the help they could get on the steep stairs.  It did give them a moment for a talk.  Toy does feel very comfortable with Miss and values her opinion and Miss is very much on the same wavelength as Master and his toy.

As if by magic, then Master appeared.  Toy likes to think he was ensuring his toy was ok, but hmmmm, a big part of her thinks he wanted to make sure he wasn’t missing out!  They then went a walk around and back to the bar area.

Once back she was allowed to chill for a moment and allowed to start coming back down before it was time for a few moments with her Master then to head off home.  It was then her time to pleasure her Master.  Eventually she was allowed to curl up next to her Master and try to sleep.  It was certainly an eventful night for toy with a number of firsts.  She certainly gets caught up in the events of the evening and it carries her off into a whole different world.

At the end of the day she was so happy that her Master said he was proud of his toy. She had pleased him and shown her obedience.

Oh all too soon, less than 4 hours later his alarm went off and reality hit with a bang lol.

Oh the month started off so well for toy.

Master has been talking of realistic / practical ways in which her spare bedroom can be turned into a play room.  He has already been very “inventive” with a saw bench, but he has been looking for something to tie his toy to, in different ways, rather than having to drag out her coffee table!

He had arranged to visit his toy and to get there whilst she was out at a meeting.  Although, how he thought she would concentrate on work, she will never know.  Her stomach was already knotted, not knowing what he had planned.

When she got home, she was a little surprised to find she had a new addition to her furniture.  Master had bought a gym bench press type bench, which was temporarily situated in her lounge.  When she arrived he instructed her immediately to go upstairs, dress in just her fishnets, heels, waspie, collar and blindfold and wait for her.  She was feeling that mix of fear and excitement and her stomach knotted up.  After what seemed like an age, Master came up to fetch her and let her downstairs.

He laid her down on the bench and secured her wrists up above her and her ankles around the bottom, leaving her very open, exposed and vulnerable.  He then proceeded to tease, play with and use his toy in a variety of ways including his crop, her mini vibe (oh it looks so innocent), and the wand.  Once again, she is glad the walls are fairly thick as Master soon had her crying out. 

She thinks Master was very pleased with his new acquisition and she is sure that it will have plenty of use from now on!

The following weekend she was lucky enough to see her Master again.  This time it meant travelling down to near London.  Originally for two nights, but changed to one for vanilla reasons that got in the way.  Having coffee, waiting for her Master to arrive, she was nervous and rather self conscious in her short skirt and heels.  Soon he arrived and led her to the hotel room.  As he’d had a long day, the session started with a Master pamper.  Bathing him and massaging him, in toy’s special way.  He then got that look in his eye and toy soon found herself on her back with her wrists handcuffed to her ankles.  Simple, but effective in leaving her open for him to play with.  As it was just an overnight stay, she just had the smaller travelling toy box with her, but Master made use of most of it.  It always amazes her what you can get away with, in a hotel room, without someone banging on the door. 

Sadly a week later the month, and play with her Master, went “pear shaped”, when she was unexpectedly taken in to hospital for 8 days.  Just having to get her strength back up now, as it’s really knocked her off her feet, but she hopes that it’s not too long before she’s back fit and ready for a full play session.

Toy has such a “kind” & generous Master.  He has been so good as to buy her a gift, although it more for his pleasure and amusement in his toy’s discomfort.  He knows she hates the butt plug with an absolute vengeance so he has brought her a “dress” plug for going out.  Although shorter than the more “traditional” rubber version, it is made of metal and is so much heavier, along with thicker, plus it also has a jewel end, which is on show.  Its heaviness did frighten toy in that she could imagine it dropping out!

She has been lucky to see her Master several times during the month for real time sessions, although not all have gone to plan, mainly for vanilla reasons.  Earlier in the month, she was travelling to meet her Master at a hotel for the weekend, just after the snow.  It was a bit of a rush, so Master had her dress for dinner, before inserting her new toy for the first time.  Part of her training has been learning to walk more elegantly, but as they set off down the corridor this proved very difficult in her new plug.  It’s weight and thickness means that she has to learn to walk, all over again, in it. 

They enjoyed their dinner, then it was time to move back up to the room.  This proved to be a problem in its own right!  It was the weirdest sensation, but after sitting for some time, the weight of the plug felt like it was almost glued to her seat and she had trouble standing up for a few moments.  Fellow diners must have thought she had a bad back or other ailment.  Thankfully, they were unaware of her true predicament.

Once in the room her Master had her strip off and into her fishnets and heels before tying her over the coffee table so that she was open, displayed and vulnerable for him to play with.  Which he most certainly did, going to work with her mini vibe and wand.  It always amazes toy that they never receive any complaints about the noise, for as hard as she tried, it was impossible not to keep screaming out.  When Master had finished he untied her and pushed her roughly onto the bed, where he fucked his toy, with the plug still in.  Youch, the metal certainly makes for a new sensation!

Sadly the rest of their weekend was cut short due to the weather conditions affecting vanilla situations.  Although, she was lucky enough to see him the following weekend, when he travelled to toy’s. 

Once again, things didn’t go to play and because of that and appalling weather, Master allowed her to choose what to wear.  This time it was her pencil skirt (she’s not saying it’s tight, but she has to take it off to go to the loo!)  and her tight red shirt before going out to dinner.  On their return Master was in more of a pamper mode and had his toy practice her massage techniques.  First in a more traditional way, before continuing using her whole body to please and pleasure him.  Argh, oh too soon it was 5am and Master’s alarm going off for him to get up and leave, so no time for any further play.

Then Master came to visit again on Monday night, although this time it was for the bi monthly Club Dominion in Derby, which toy really enjoys.  It’s not particularly easy for Master to get up on a Monday night, so it is only their fourth visit, but he had been keeping her on edge with thoughts of it.  The first thing to consider was how he was going to have her dressed.  He has been experimenting lately with cling wrapping her in different ways, but she has never worn it out before, so this was to be a brand new challenge for her.  In the end he settled on fishnets & toy heels, then he cling wrapped her from above her tits to her stomach.  Her heart stopped when he produced an extremely sharp craft type knife to cut out the holes for her nipples. Oh boy, the slightest slip would be extremely painful, to say the least.  After carefully making two holes, he wasn’t so careful about pulling her nipples though, which were already very erect.  Over this went her sleeveless net dress, which is just opaque enough to give her a slight feeling of cover, although in the right light it is easy to see straight though it. Then was the part she dreaded, her new dress plug, just the thought of being plugged makes her want to cry.   He then put on her collar and popped her leash and blindfold in his pocket.  He then allowed her to wear her leather jacket, although it hardly protected her modesty, it did mean she wasn’t totally indecent as he made her walk up the street from the car to the club.  She tried to quicken the pace, but her heels prevented her for making a run for the door!

Once inside, they made their way upstairs to the bar and Master allowed her to compose herself, but she was allowed to wear her jacket for a short while, until she warmed up.  They had a wander around, checking out the equipment etc. and Master had her kneel up on the whipping bench to try it out, bending over and exposed he took her by surprise by spanking her butt.  Then off with the jacket and an exposed toy on view.  The upper floor seemed to fill up very quickly and there seemed a couple of groups of people.  Along with some faces that Master & his toy recognised, including the lovely Domme, Mistress H, who had previously assisted Master with toy’s spanking training.

Master allowed her to people watch for a while and then took a wander around the lower floor.  Toy was fascinated by a Domme who was using a variety of whips & paddles etc. on a sub, in time to the music and another who was using an electrical tool, on a male sub strapped to a bench.  Then it was time to move back upstairs.  The House Dommes then proceeded to given a male sub a good spanking / flogging.  It made toy wince, she is no pain slut and can’t understand how anyone can stand that level of pain.  Shortly after they had finished, Mistress H came wandering past and she saw her Master, speak to her. Toy started to get nervous Master reached in his jacket for her blindfold, which he put on, along with attaching her leash.  Which she gathered her then gave to Mistress H, who led toy though to the other room and up onto the whipping bench again.  Toy was starting to shake and was extremely nervous and her stomach knotted up as H began.  Toy has to admit H is very skilled, her Master had explained that toy’s pain threshold is not particularly high and H kept taking her to the point, which different pieces of equipment, at which she thought one more would be too much to bear, but not going beyond that.  It certainly pushed toy in a different way.  She was relieved that she could sense Master close by all the time.  She needed him there watching over his toy.  They don’t have safe words or signals, but toy believes this makes him more in tune with his toy. 

Eventually it was over and Master led his shaking toy off to one side, before sitting her down and removing her blindfold and taking time to bring her down from toyzone and allowing her legs to stop shaking. 

They stayed a little longer at the Club then took their leave.  Toy once again having to run the gauntlet of the street between the Club and Master’s car, feeling very exposed and vulnerable.  Then it was back to toy’s and Master’s chance to take his pleasure.  She has to say that by the time the night was over, her nipples were extremely sensitive.  Pulled as they were though the tight hole in the cling wrap then her net dress, constrantly rubbing over the tips.  That was without Master squeezing them.

All in all an eventful month for toy, she can’t wait to see her Master again.  The more real time fixes she has the more she wants.

Toy’s Master has many things off to a fine art, but head fucks are where he excels.  They bring out the full spectrum of toy’s emotions from excitement, to fear, to anger, to frustration etc. etc. and then he plays on them.  This last month has been no different, in a number of cases, but there is one that stands out.

For some time her Master has been saying that he would like to have a sub who can play with his toy, under instruction, as and when he wishes.  This last month he has instructed her to make contact with two males who she has chatted to, in a vanilla way, prior to meeting Master  & getting involved in this life style. Both have kept in touch with her, every now and again for a chat.  Master instructed her to first make contact, then see if they were interested in toy still, then take it further until she had to admit she had a Master and ask if they would like to play with toy, with Master watching.  Argh, this one has really screwed her up and she now knows clearly that this life has to be kept separate.  Under her Masters instruction she is happy to play how, when where he wishes etc. but she can’t do that with someone she knows.  It may sound selfish, but toy goes very deeply into toyzone, when in a session.  She can’t be holding back, worrying how someone else might be thinking or feeling.  She just lets go and goes under safe in the knowledge that, although Master may use her, he will always have her back and ensure her safety etc.

One the other side of things, toy has had a couple of very “interesting” real time sessions with her Master.

For the first, she travelled to see her Master.  During this session he had her tied to the bed with, as she found out later, her legs strung up to the wall light fittings in a hotel.  It was very intense, and just makes you wonder what could you actually get away with in a typical roadside hotel!  When toy is in toyzone she isn’t fully connected to reality but apparently Master was surprise there wasn’t a knock on the door to investigate her screams.  He concentrated his attentions to her clit.  First using the small pencil vibe, then the normal one and finishing off with the Hitachi wand.  During this, which was also a first for toy, he squeezed her clit hard, giving her a whole new range of sensations.  Weirdly, it was almost worse when he let go and the blood rushed back, youchhhhhhhhh.  He then squeezed it for a period of time, but left the tip free and used the mini pencil vibe on her.  No wonder she was screaming out!

Then yesterday, Master came to visit his toy for the afternoon.  Her brain immediately went into panic mode when he walked through the door with a roll of cling film in his hand.  Toy copes, in a fashion, with most things her Master throws at her, but two things have really freaked her out and given her a panic attack, something she is certainly not prone to and has never experience before.  One is being hooded, full face, eyes and nose covered and just her mouth left free, before Master filled it.  The other was a full body wrap, cling filmed from her neck to her ankles, again, she couldn’t breathe, panicked and freaked out and it takes an awful lot to make her do that.

Anyway, she has digressed. So Master walks in with box of cling film and orders her upstairs to strip ~ fishnets, heels, collar, blindfold and wait for him.  He could probably hear her knees knocking as her legs shook, from downstairs.  Her stomach screwed up and she heard his steps on the stairs.  Then he made her stand as he started to wrap her.  Phew, luckily for toy he left her arms free and then went down to from above tits to mid thigh. 

At this point she started to relax a little.  Silly toy!  She then nearly freaked out when she felt the tip of a knife cutting through the cling film around her nipples.  It was lucky that she was imagining Master using the small kitchen knife, and that she didn’t realise it was the much bigger one!  After Master has “released” her nipples he started to play with them in a variety of ways, using different sensations and textures.  Again, he soon managed to have her screaming out.  Although it surprised her, how sensitive it made her nipples, even Master just playing with them through the cling wrap, never mind when they were free,

Then later, he again took the knife, and slit open a hole to allow him to push a vibe through onto her clit, although still not allowing her to cum.  A little hole to start, then a bigger one for the normal vibe then he slit open the bottom of the cocoon to allow him full access.  First with the vibe and then to fuck his toy.  He then removed her blindfold and allowed her to start coming back down again.  Some chill time and chance to catch up with Master over lunch before he had her in pamper mode to please and pleasure her Master before he had to leave.

All in all a mixed month, which has kept toy well and truly on edge.

She has been lucky recently in that she’s seen her Master quite regularly over the last few weeks.

At the beginning of December she had a trip, and overnight stay, to see her Master, then another the following week.  A couple of days later her Master travelled to see her.  Oh lucky lucky toy.

She hasn’t been particularly well over the last 2 months and was taking the first week of January off help her get fit again.  She was then thrilled when, just before Christmas, her Master surprised her with 5 nights away, near where her Master was working. Oh she was so excited.

Monday morning arrived and she set off to meet her Master.  The night before he had emailed her a timetable for the week, which was to be a combination of pleasing / pleasuring her Master, toy training, physical training e.g. gym work & time to relax and recuperate.  She arrived and met with her Master, spot on her instructed time.  He allowed her to chill for a short break before they went to the room.

Her first task was to complete a questionnaire.  She had first completed one over a year ago, it is a BDSM Submissive's Check List, where she lists her experiences and rates them then looks at things she hasn’t tried and rates them too, on a sliding scale of how much she would like to try them.  He wanted to compare how far she had progressed.

Then he moved on to her training.  Over the week this was to cover posture, walking in heels, anal, mouth and pussy work along with nipple & clit torture and working on increasing her pain tolerances, plus practicing her massage techniques. 

That first session, he started her off in fishnets, heels & waspie, practicing walking smoothly in her 5” heels.  He moved on to working her internal muscles using light weighs inserted into her pussy.  She then had to walk, whilst ensuring that the weight didn’t drop out.  The rest of the session including him cropping her arse and inserting her butt plug, oh how she hates that thing!  She then had to massage her Master, starting with more traditional techniques and then moved on to using her whole body.

They then went out to dinner early evening.  On returning to the room, Master had her blindfolded and collared and started playing with his toy.  Having her crying out and sinking into toyzone.  He then made her lie on the bed and chained her collar to the headboard, he left her saying he’d got to make a phone call, but she had permission to play with herself whilst he was gone.

She lost track of time, it probably wasn’t that long, and then her Master returned.  She quickly realised that he wasn’t alone and her heart went into overdrive and stomach screwed up.  She felt a hand running up her inner leg and then a mouth on her pussy.  It was a lovely soft sensation, very different to the earlier treatment, and soon she was begging her Master to allow her to cum.  The session continued and included her being allowed to cum again, then Master instructed her to suck “Ben’s” cock as he fucked her pussy.  She isn’t too sure how long the session lasted, before B left.  Master then removed her blindfold and allowed her to come back down.  It was a very surreal feeling as she had been in toyzone when Master came back with B.  She experienced a number of pleasurable sensations, but had not interaction with B himself.  Then he disappeared before her blindfold was removed. 

He then fucked his toy again, before allowing her to curl up next to him and finally drift off to sleep after her first eventful day.

Over the next four days, she had a fantastic time.  Being pushed in so many different ways, then having time to chill and get fit again.  Her nipples were tender and clit so sensitive from use, but in a happy way.  The only slight mar on the week was on the Thursday evening, as dressing for dinner, Master informed her that a femme sub would be joining them for dinner.  Oh toy’s stomach screwed up, she was so nervous.  However, the sub failed to show, which meant both were up and down all evening checking the bar area to see if she had arrived.  Oh well, they’ve been lucky so far, so will just have to chalk it up to experience.

She couldn’t believe how fast the week flew by and would like to thank her Master, it was wonderful.

Her Master had to attend a brief meeting, so he arranged to collect his toy, on his way, and take her along for the ride!

Master had arrived at toy’s home, a little earlier than expected and so was there before her.  When she got home she was immediately put on edge when he gave her just 5 minutes to get changed or he would go without her.  Argh, she sprinted up the stairs.  Luckily, as and when she requested, he told her how many minutes / seconds she had left.  Phew, she just made it with seconds to spare, but still be dressed to please her Master’s eye.

As they set off, he instructed her that she had to ensure she was wet, for the whole journey, by whatever means she needed to, or she would be spanked.  Luckily, she had had a good start; Master putting her on edge gave her a head start!  He then informed her that at every set of traffic lights, which they had to stop at, she had to cum for him.  All was well to start with then, whilst talking to her Master, she must have missed a set of lights, she still can’t remember stopping at them, but must have and been distracted.  The first she knew of it was when Master pulled into a lay-by, turned to her, and without a word, slapped her face.  Oh his words cut through her, “I expected better of you toy”, he said.  Tears were streaming down her face, partly through the shock and pain, but mainly because she was furious with herself for letting both herself and her Master down.  She didn’t miss another one!

She managed to pull herself together, just in time for him to drop her off to grab a coffee, whilst he attended his meeting.  She wasn’t a happy toy, but was determined not to let her Master down again.

On the way back, he reached to one side and produced her mini bullet vibe and instructed her to entertain him on the journey back.  This she did, but then must have seemed to have been enjoying it too much.  He then instructed her to get her tits out on show.  Now she was feeling very vulnerable, trying to make herself smaller, in her seat, so that drivers and passengers in other cars wouldn’t be able to see her. 

He then produced her small nipple clamps, which are joined with a chain.  Oh these little things look so innocent, but are evil.  Her eyes were soon filling up with tears as she tried to attach them.  She sat there whimpering quietly as he drove along.  Eventually he allowed her to remove them.  Youch, why is it almost worse taking them off then putting them on!  However, he didn’t allow her to cover up, until she was nearly home, which kept her very on edge, especially when it came to the roundabouts!

Back at toy’s she served Master a light picnic meal & wine then he instructed her to change into another outfit for him and wait upstairs in her blindfold and collar.  He then led her back downstairs, always a tricky move in 5” heels and blindfold.

He then proceeded to bend her over the adapted workbench, whilst he suspended her arms from ropes attached to the top of the door.  He then attached her wand to the bench and set it going, whilst he sat down to watch.  Oooooh, it soon started to kick in as he moved to lightly crop her arse.  Then he decided to fuck her, using her vibe, before leaving her, with the wand rubbing against her clit, until her allowed her to cum. 

She then tensed up, as she felt him start to finger her arse.  She still can’t relax, the old fear kicks in automatically, although her Master is normally shows great patience with her training.  If anything, she prefers his fingers to the dreaded plug, but know, she thought too soon.  Her heart dropped, as she felt the hard plug pushing into her, tears filled her eyes until it “popped” into place. 

By this point, she had been tied in place for some time.  It is not always the most obvious parts of her body that is put until stress.  This time is was weirdly her elbows, along with her shoulders that were starting to scream at her.  Master then decided it was time for a change of scene and proceeded to untie her.  Then he forced her down on to her hands and knees, pushing her head down, she found a bowl in front of her.  This is him allowing her a drink of wine!  She was then backed under the table and was allowed to pleasure him, with her mouth as he sat back and relaxed.

As he dragged her out, he then attached the evil clamps back on her nipples and let her back upstairs.  “Now I’ll show you what a sadistic master, would do with these clamps”, he said, as he yanked them off in one quick tug, that left her screaming out in pain.

She was then shoved back on the bed as he fucked her pussy, whilst she still had her butt plug in.  Oh how she hates that plug.  Slowly then he removed her blindfold and proceeded to start bringing her back down from toyzone, oh how glad she is that Master appreciates her need for this. 

After a period of not seeing her Master, things have certainly picked up.  A week after her afternoon of “firsts”, she found herself on the road, travelling to see her Master.  She has been trained to be an all round toy, who can adapt to suit her Master’s every mood. 

This time she was there as a “pleasure slut” as he had an extremely long and tiring day.  She had a chilled glass of wine ready for him as she ran his bath. She pampered, bathed and fed him then gave him a special massage.  She has learnt basic massage techniques to pleasure her Master, combined with a toy twist so that she uses every part of her body.  He was then nicely relaxed and ready to use his toy!

Sadly it was a fleeting overnight visit and she went off home the next day, but she knew she would be seeing him again, fairly soon.  She didn’t have to wait as long as she thought when the following night he scared the living daylights out of her, when she was heading out of the front door, to complete a task for him, and as she opened the door there he was!  Before he used his toy, he was ready to relax for a while, after a long drive, and so he attached her leash to her collar and had her curled up, on the floor, by his feet, so whenever he wanted her for any reason he just had to give a tug on her leash.

Then just over a week later it was time for a completely different night out, off to Club Dominion, in Derby.  Master had arrived at toy’s earlier in the evening, so that he could use his toy before heading out.  He then checked that she was dressed to please his eye.  She was wearing her leather waspie corset, a sleeveless fine net dress, fishnets, heels and of course her collar.  Oh she loves it on the rare occasions she can go out in public wearing it.  It did help that it was Halloween, so no problem if anyone say her walking down the street in it.  Although it was only their 3^rd visit to Club D, it is somewhere that she feels “comfortable” and safe.  They had a drink at the bar and a short while later were joined by the lovely Miss Sophia and her sub Marti, who they had met up with before however, it was the first time she had actually seen Marti, as the previous times she had been blindfolded throughout!

They stood talking at the bar for a while, toy taking care to stand to attention, legs apart, arms folded behind her back, as she knows this pleases her Master.  After a while she was blindfolded and Miss, with Master’s permission, took her off for a walk around as she wanted to see what was happening further down where a naked male sub was tied to a cross and was being used by a Domme.  Toy had to sit, with her legs open, so that she was available for Miss to play with her.

After a while, she was led across the room and bent over, what she later learnt was a covered pool table.  Miss then proceeded to tease and play with toy, including running her hands over her, playing with her clit and spanking her.  Although toy knows she can trust Miss S, she was very on edge as she had no sense of where he Master was.  She’s always been able to place him, in the past, even if it is just an encouraging word to toy, or a touch or a comment to Miss, but she couldn’t tell if he was in the vicinity or not.  She didn’t like that at all and kept straining to see if she could hear him.  It wasn’t until Miss had finished with her, that she felt his presence and then he slowly led her back to the bar, where he removed her blindfold.  She was a little shaky, but then underwent a completely difference “coming down” from ToyZone experience to anything she had ever known before.  She whole body had become ultra sensitive, the slightest touch nearly had her on the ceiling, it was so intense that even the sight of Miss S, stroking a friend had her twitching and unable to look. She’s never known anything like it before.

Then Marti disappeared and came back with Miss’ case.  Up until this point, she had the misconception that subs would stick together. Wrong!  Marti has an “evil“ side and upon opening Miss’ case, produced a torture instrument for her to use on toy.  They tried to pass it off as a vanilla head massager, that could be purchased from Tesco’s etc. A metal instrument, a bit like a balloon whisk, with the bottom cut off.  Oh boy, oh boy, when Miss touched toy with it, she was bouncing off the ceiling again.  Toy still isn’t exactly sure what caused her reaction.

All too soon it was time to head off home, which is where toy found herself in a “dangerous” situation.  Oh she was so wound up, as a result of her time with her Master and the evening’s events.  Once home Master had her start to massage him, using her whole body, as he talked softly to her, reminding her of the evening’s events and of things he would like to do with his toy.  The trouble is that he gets her so wound up and turned on that her sense starts to fade away and she almost wants to provoke him into taking her roughly.  Which she knows would be an extremely stupid thing to do.  Luckily there was a part of her that just managed to hold back before she overstepped the mark. It was a close thing though!  As it was now gone 2am, she was extremely glad they had a late start arrange the next day.

Lucky lucky toy, she then got to see her Master again last weekend.  She had to drive to a different part of the country to meet him at a hotel.  It had been touch and go during the day, if he would be able to see her or not, so she was already wound up.  She had been to that particular hotel before and knew she could get away with her dress.  So, wanting to get a reaction from her Master (who had given her permission to choose how she was dressed), she travelled down in her short leather kilt, stockings, & stretch fitted, deep red shirt Master likes, plus her heels to change into before leaving the car.  Even Master understands that long distance driving and 5” heels don’t go together!  She did feel very vulnerable, as she left the safety of the car, as her kilt is the shortest skirt she has, that she can just about get away with wearing in public. 

Hmmmm, his reaction was worth her discomfort!  She does enjoy dressing to please her Master.  As it was a short, overnight stay, she had packed a limited toybox, and as Master looked through it, he quickly found her blindfold.  He then proceeded to fix her to the bathroom door, with the over door hanging straps and then use her nipples with clamps and pegs.  Playing with her and then leaving her handing there for a while before returning to continue.  He then started to almost torture her clit, using a mini vibe until she was almost losing the battle to stop from screaming out.  Always having to be conscious of other guests! 

So all in all it has been an extremely enjoyable month for toy!

How many firsts can a toy have in one afternoon!

• Master involving another Dom, never mind a Dom / sub couple.
• Toy being fully fucked by a fem with a strapon.
• Toy being spit roasted.

It started out with her Master doing a weeklong “head fuck”, over what might or might not happen to her during his visit on Friday.  He’s had his toy’s stomach so screwed up and her head spinning that she’s felt sick.  He is extremely skilled in them!

Then the afternoon started with Master picking her up from work, taking her home and, after a quick lunch, whilst he continued to play with her head he had her dress in her fishnets, heels and waspie corset, then sit on a chair and entertain him by using her vibe.  Then he told her to stand and reached into the wardrobe for her coat, instructing her to put in on and follow him to the car!!!! Argh she was naked apart from her fishnets and waspie pulling her waist in and it was the middle of the day.  As he drove down the road he instructed her to ensure she was very wet, if not by the time they got to their destination he would bend her over the bonnet of his car and spank her in the pub car park.  She was wet already though, so luckily this wasn’t a problem!

They went into the busy pub with toy feeling extremely embarrassed and sure that people could tell she was naked beneath her coat.  Luckily Master allowed her to sit in a booth, fairly quickly, and they then awaited the arrival of a Dom / sub couple (MrWhippy1 & EmAlone) who Master had arrange to meet.  To be honest toy was feeling rather scared, she had no experience of another Dom, nor of what two men could do to her.  Plus she isn’t naturally bi, only during play, so all in all it was a very nervous, shaky toy sitting there.

They arrived and sat, with MrW next to toy and the lovely EmA by Master.  Very quickly the Doms started to check out how wet both subs were.  After a short chat, toy became aware of the fact that Master had arranged for the couple to come back to toy’s home and to play with her toy.

When they arrived at toy’s she had to go in first, remove her coat and stand waiting blindfolded.  They all then went upstairs.

Toy was instructed to sit on her chair and start to play with herself then this quickly moved on to feeling Ems mouth on her and her Sir’s cock in toy’s mouth.  Toy very quickly went into ToyZone, when she loses track of the realities outside instructions, touches, sensations etc. It even blurs the lines between male & female when she is in this state. 

Things moved on rapidly and toy can’t recall the exact order of what happened but it included toy being instructed to play with Em and they both pleasure each other with their mouths.  Em sucking Master’s cock whilst her Master fingered toy’s arse.  Both Toy and Em sucking her Master’s cock and then Sirs.  Em fucking toy with a strapon, both on top and from behind, whilst toy sucked her master’s cock.  Master using her wand on her, as she played with Em, then later using it on Em (a first for her, hmmm toy thinks Em liked it lol). Master fucking his toy in front of the other two.  Master clamping her nipples and torturing as he was fingering her arse etc. etc.

Time seemed to fly by and all of a sudden it was time for them to leave.  Luckily Master was able to stay with his toy for a while and start to bring her back down from ToyZone.  Which toy admits to finding very hard, the deeper she goes the harder it is, and it means a lot to her that her Master understands the importance of this.

After he’d left she felt exhausted and totally drained, as much emotionally and mentally as physically.  Luckily she was able to curl up in her “basket” and pull her blanket over her as she started to take in what had happened to her.  The reality of the major step forward Master had taken in her training didn’t really hit her until later in the evening when she could bring herself to look at the many photographs taken during the session.  She has to admit that it left her feeling very shaky.  She enjoyed the session, but thinks she will leave the pics alone for a while until her little toy head can take everything in. 

At the end of the day, she is a happy toy as she pleased her Master, she showed her obedience without fault, and she didn’t embarrass her Master or let him down in front of others. 

Toy is happy to report she’s had a much better month, Master is back in full contact again, plus there have been a couple of real time meetings and then there was Thursday night! 

She was so excited as Master was seeing his toy from Thursday evening until Friday afternoon. Although also very nervous with her stomach screwing up with anticipation of the unknown.  He told her they were going out for dinner at a local pub, where they often ate and had her bordering on overdressed and feeling uncomfortable in heels, patterned stocking with short skater skirt, low cut top and dress collar.  As they set off, her first indication that the evening wasn’t going to go as expected was when they turned in the opposite direction, then her stomach really knotted up and she almost felt sick.  After around half an hour they pulled into a pub car park and he instructed her to get in the back of the car and entertain him by playing with herself until he allowed her to cum. Telling her that he had arranged for someone to play with her, and not to let him down. Then after a while he set off again, pulling up by another car, from which immerged a woman.

It wasn’t until she got in the back of the car and spoke, that toy realised it was the delightful Miss Sophia, a Domme, they had met before on three occasions, but this was the first time toy had seen her! Although she would recognise her voice and the touch of her hand on toy’s arm anywhere.  From that point, until they reached the original destination, Miss continually played with toy, fingering her pussy and clit, bringing her to the point of cuming then backing off, until Master finally gave her permission to cum.  She seemed surprised to find that toy felt so tight inside.

Sitting down to dinner was almost a surreal experience with her Master & Miss S.  It was the first time they had been out in a vanilla situation with someone else.  At the table toy ensured that she showed her obedience by waiting to be told she could sit then fetching the wine beside her so that she could keep her Master & Miss’ glasses topped up without being asked.  As she sat down, bearing in mind this was a busy pub / restaurant, she felt Misses hand slide up her short skirt.  Knowing she would be showing her obedience, she subtly edged her chair over towards Miss S, allowing her easier access!

Before leaving home, Master had instructed her to put nipple clamps, small butt plug and blindfold in her bag.  Part way through dinner, he asked Miss if she would like to take toy up to the toilets and choose something from toys bag to use.  Up they went in into one of the cubicals, oh boy another first for toy, where Miss attached toys nipple clamps after first sucking her erect nipples to try them out.  She then took time kissing toy, leaving her very confused, before leading her back down to the crowded restaurant. Dinner then continued in a relatively normal way, although thankfully, no one around would have guessed the content of the conversation!

All too soon it was time to leave, and once again Master took her by surprise by heading in a different direction until he parked up in a secluded county car park.  As they pulled up, Miss then instructed her to strip off down to her heels & stockings then blindfolded toy.  By now toy was starting to shake badly with nerves, as she was ordered out of the car.

Miss helped to support the shaking toy as they took her round to the car bonnet and laid toy back over it.  Master then tightly held her legs up in the air and wide open, as Miss teased toy with her tongue.

Miss S then produced a strap on and gently started to probe toys arse, letting her know that there would be more to come.  Her Master then had the opportunity to fuck his toy before they inserted her butt plug for the rest of the evening. 

They then paraded toy around the car park, naked and vulnerable. All this time they played with toy’s head, telling her that they hoped she would be seen by passing traffic...naked and used!!!!  They messed with it more by telling her that they were going to ask some passing lads to fuck you in turn!!!

After what seems like an age, she is guided back into the car, still naked, Master drives off to take Miss back to her car.  After dropping Miss off they headed back to toys.  Thankfully Master allowed her to dress before she had to walk to her front door.  Once in the house he instructed her upstairs, where it was her turn to please and pleasure her Master.

Oh toy was extremely turned on during the whole evening, it was a great opportunity to be able to show off her obedience and training and please her Master.  She hopes that he was proud of his toy.

Toy has been sad!

Vanilla issues on Master’s side this time, have meant that she’s not seen him for 6 weeks, which she’s found really hard.  To top this, contact has been very limited too.  The way toy has felt would be impossible to describe to someone in the vanilla world, but a deeply submissive toy with an absent Master isn’t a good combination. 

It has confirmed that her relationship with her Master is not merely a physical one but very much tied up into her mental and emotional being too.  It has left her very unsettled, and set adrift, almost like a puppy waiting at the window, watching for her Master to return, leash in her mouth, ready to run up to him to want to play, then slinking off to curl up in her basket when he doesn’t appear.  This in turn has left her emotionally on a downer. 

It’s such a weird feeling, although it’s effected her deeply, at the same time she knows that it’s only a temporary situation and things will return to normal shortly, but it so feel like it’s going on forever.

So how has she coped?  She’s had to more or less try to go into hibernation, desperately trying to almost shut her alter ego toy down.  The problem is that, as time goes on, out of toy & Suzie, toy is becoming the stronger of the 2.  In the last 22 months since her Master found her as a total innocent newbie, he has taken control of so many aspects of her life.   From coming into this world completely innocent and naive of its ways to, over time wanting to please her Master, she now needs to feel her Master’s hand firmly on her leash and needs to be able to prove her obedience to him.  The difficulty is that the more she experiences real time, the more she needs this and almost pines for her Master when he away.

It’s not all doom and gloom though, it finishes on a high point. After 6 weeks, not that she’s been counting lol, she finally saw her Master for a brief session 2 days ago.  As she waited for him to arrive after loving putting on her collar, ah how much she has missed it, leather waspie, fishnets, 5” heels and blindfold, her stomach was knotting up so much she felt physically sick with nerves. 

He soon bought her back to reality, hanging tied from the door, spreaders keeping her legs open wide.  Master running his crop over her waiting body, clamping her nipples and then starting to torture them. It became apparent throughout the session that her tolerance levels have dropped and will need to be built up again with further training & practice.  He then inserted his crop inside her, timing how long she could hold it in place for him.  Then a long session using and almost torturing her clit with the wand until she was screaming out.  He then took her upstairs, having her on point, arse in the air.  Once again, lack of use showed with her arse training and Master had to insert the dreaded plug for a while, before fucking his toy with 2 holes filled.  Which is a brief overview of the session, although sadly all too soon it ended.  Oh she can’t wait for the next one.

From the above, those of you who have followed toy’s progress will understand why the Toy Club meeting, planned for September has had to be postponed.  Thank you to all to those who have responded, unfortunately Master hasn’t had had the chance to view all the many responses.  Although, he wants to see his toy used, obviously he has to have time to make contact with those who have showed an interest and vet those who are to receive an invite.  Toy and her Master thank you for your patience, as those of you who are also genuinely on here will know, vanilla things do get in the way, but we are here for the long run, not some short term fake fix.

She hopes to have more to report shortly.

Toy has been sad!

Vanilla issues on Master’s side this time, have meant that she’s not seen him for 6 weeks, which she’s found really hard.  To top this, contact has been very limited too.  The way toy has felt would be impossible to describe to someone in the vanilla world, but a deeply submissive toy with an absent Master isn’t a good combination. 

It has confirmed that her relationship with her Master is not merely a physical one but very much tied up into her mental and emotional being too.  It has left her very unsettled, and set adrift, almost like a puppy waiting at the window, watching for her Master to return, leash in her mouth, ready to run up to him to want to play, then slinking off to curl up in her basket when he doesn’t appear.  This in turn has left her emotionally on a downer. 

It’s such a weird feeling, although it’s effected her deeply, at the same time she knows that it’s only a temporary situation and things will return to normal shortly, but it so feel like it’s going on forever.

So how has she coped?  She’s had to more or less try to go into hibernation, desperately trying to almost shut her alter ego toy down.  The problem is that, as time goes on, out of toy & Suzie, toy is becoming the stronger of the 2.  In the last 22 months since her Master found her as a total innocent newbie, he has taken control of so many aspects of her life.   From coming into this world completely innocent and naive of its ways to, over time wanting to please her Master, she now needs to feel her Master’s hand firmly on her leash and needs to be able to prove her obedience to him.  The difficulty is that the more she experiences real time, the more she needs this and almost pines for her Master when he away.

It’s not all doom and gloom though, it finishes on a high point. After 6 weeks, not that she’s been counting lol, she finally saw her Master for a brief session 2 days ago.  As she waited for him to arrive after loving putting on her collar, ah how much she has missed it, leather waspie, fishnets, 5” heels and blindfold, her stomach was knotting up so much she felt physically sick with nerves. 

He soon bought her back to reality, hanging tied from the door, spreaders keeping her legs open wide.  Master running his crop over her waiting body, clamping her nipples and then starting to torture them. It became apparent throughout the session that her tolerance levels have dropped and will need to be built up again with further training & practice.  He then inserted his crop inside her, timing how long she could hold it in place for him.  Then a long session using and almost torturing her clit with the wand until she was screaming out.  He then took her upstairs, having her on point, arse in the air.  Once again, lack of use showed with her arse training and Master had to insert the dreaded plug for a while, before fucking his toy with 2 holes filled.  Which is a brief overview of the session, although sadly all too soon it ended.  Oh she can’t wait for the next one.

From the above, those of you who have followed toy’s progress will understand why the Toy Club meeting, planned for September has had to be postponed.  Thank you to all to those who have responded, unfortunately Master hasn’t had had the chance to view all the many responses.  Although, he wants to see his toy used, obviously he has to have time to make contact with those who have showed an interest and vet those who are to receive an invite.  Toy and her Master thank you for your patience, as those of you who are also genuinely on here will know, vanilla things do get in the way, but we are here for the long run, not some short term fake fix.

She hopes to have more to report shortly.

Although Toy hasn’t physically seen as much of her Master over the last month, she has been working hard to get back into his good books.  She is lucky in that she has a fair Master, she messed up, he punished her, matter dealt with.  What has shaken her more is how deeply the realisation that she had disappointed her Master effected her emotionally and mentally.  The physical pain of the punishment was unbearable, but nothing compared with the way she felt about herself for letting him down.  Lesson learnt!

When she has seen him, there hasn’t been the time for long, intense sessions, but shorter ones, with very different situations.  For example, one ended with him having his toy curled up at his feet, like a puppy.  Another, when dining out in a vanilla setting, saw him setting her a variety of tasks.  He has also been experimenting with different ways of tying his toy whilst he teases and tortures her.  His latest addition to the toybox is a metal pet grooming tool, which he has been using on her body and clit, with “interesting” results!

When away from her Master, vanilla life hasn’t slowed up for either of them, which has curtailed the setting & completing of tasks.  It has got to the point where toy has almost burnt out, physically & mentally.  However, she’s got some parcels of time off during August, during which she can recharge, so after that she’ll be back out fighting fit and ready to play again!  Mmmmm she can’t wait. Watch this space lol.

PS For those of you who have responded to Master regarding a toy club meet, we thank you for your patience.  Vanilla things have taken over a bit recently and time has been limited to reply to the large number of responses.

The highs and lows of being a toy, this month has seen both.

Mid June she lucky enough that Master has her travel to meet up with him for an extended weekend.  Although he was busy part of the time he still had time to play with his toy and also to use her as his pleasure slut.  She had a wonderful time.

Then in the space of less than a week she has gone from making her Master proud of her to disappointing him and she not a happy toy now L.

First the highs.  Master was able to take her to Club Dominion on Monday night.  Oh amongst other things she loves being able to wear her collar out in “public”, those occasions are all too rare.  Master has recently been extending her training to try and increase her pain thresholds, especially on her butt, starting with what many would consider fairly lightly with spanking and crop but to get her to learn to embrace it and to enjoy the pleasure / pain factor more.  It was a major step forward for her then when, after chatting to a Mistress for a while, he allowed the Mistress to take toy’s leash and lead her downstairs, bend her over a bar stool and then use a selection of implements on toys butt.  Between Master’s instructions and the Mistresses skill she kept taking toy to the point where toy didn’t think she could take any more then backing off a moving on to test out something else.  It was a different experience for toy. 

Later Master got talking to another Dom, who was there with his new female slave.  The slave was then instructed to play with toy for a while.   Toy doesn’t find this comes easy to her, but at the same time she wants to prove her obedience to her Master.

Master later said that he’d be proud of his toy, the way she had acted and carried herself throughout the evening.  Especially when standing at the bar, the way she naturally stood at his side with her arms folded behind her back, without any instruction, showing her true submissive side.  Toy does seem to go off into another world when out in public, a form of toy zone, although different to the one she goes into during a session.

Then the lows, which have sadly come only 5 days after the highs.  In a nutshell, toy was out on Friday night and for a variety of reasons, she drank too much and got absolutely pissed.  It is a long time since she has done that, which in itself was bad enough. However, she got home and fell into a deep sleep before she had finished a text to her Master saying she was back safe & sound as he didn’t know how she was getting home.  At first Master was annoyed that she had stopped texting him, when he wanted to task her, then he started to get very worried.  She awoke at 5am, to see her phone on the floor, then found her half written text + 16 missed calls from her Master over the space of an hour and a text to say he’d also been trying her landline.  At that point she knew she was in big trouble. 

She sent him an apologetic text then and waited for his response when he woke up.  Even 2 days later she it makes she cry when she thinks about his text, that to say he was disappointed in his toy was an understatement.  She has tried so very hard to be a good obedient toy that pleases her Master and it upsets her so much that she has failed him.

Then separate to that was the absolute fear that she knew he would punish her.  Master is a very fair one and has only really used his crop “in anger” on his toy on one previous occasion.  He sees punishment as a deterrent and not something that should be used for trivial matters.  The last time is still seared on toys brain and it is always something she has done her utmost to avoid.  He also understands that punishment needs to be administered as quickly as possible after the infringement so have maximum effect and so, to make matters even worse, her busy Master had to make an unplanned long round trip to punish his toy.

By the time he arrived she was physically quaking in her shoes, which coupled with the hangover from hell, wasn’t a pretty sight.  When he arrived he just brusquely instructed her to go upstairs and kneel on the bed, head down, legs open and arse exposed.  She was so scared she was already crying and shaking, which got worse when he went and fetched his crop.  Then she nearly had heart failure when he put down the crop and took off his belt.   She glanced round to see it wrapped around his hand.  He then listed her 3 main infringements and told her that there would be 3 strokes for each one and she was to count each one out. 

The stinging and pain from the first stroke is the worst she has ever known.  She couldn’t hold her position and rolled around the bed whimpering after her screams had died down.  She didn’t know how she could take another 1 never mind 8.  The next one was worse, as was the third.  At this point, she was contemplating making a run for it, out of her own home and down the road.  She then felt her Master behind her, feeling between her legs then he quickly and roughly fucked her from behind, not caring about his toy. 

He then put his mouth near her ear and whispered in his low but powerful, hypnotic voice that she had suspended a sentence on the other 6 strokes.  If ever there becomes a need for him to punish her again, the 6 will be added to that punishment as well, and there would be no leniency.  3 stokes may not sound much to some people but with toy’s pain threshold on her butt it nearly broke her.  Her butt cheeks still carry the marks and the bruising is coming out especially on the right cheek.  She is sitting down very carefully at the moment.

She knows her Master won’t drag this out and hold it against her.  She did wrong, he swiftly and harshly punished her, end of story.  What will be harder to put behind her is toy’s self loathing that she has let her Master down.

Oh this is getting monotonous, even to toy lol.  She just is going to have to accept that life is crazy manic as a permanent fixture and know that she can’t fit in everything she wants to, there are limitations on both her vanilla life and toy’s.  Also, that it is the same for her Master and therefore, she has to make the most of opportunities to play as and when they arise.

Saying that she has had a couple of short, but by no means sweet meetings with her Master over the last month, coupled with some longer meets.  Her training as been double edged.  On one hand, whilst both so manic, a lot of her training has been in that of a pleasure slut, learning to pleasure her Master in so many different ways and also learning how to use ALL of her body as she does.  At the other end of the scale, she has a new piece of equipment at home!  A new “work bench”, hmmm you’re asking, doesn’t every home have one, well not this girlie toy and especially not when it’s used to strategically place a wand on her clit, whilst she’s strung up, literally from one side of the room to the other!  Extremes again, she went to meet her Master after work for “dinner” & play and travelled 150 miles for the pleasure (mmmmm and pleasure it was). 

She was also lucky enough to be able to travel to see her Master this last weekend.  Oh, she had a fantastic time on so many different levels, a happy toy.  Part pleasure slut, part used, part advancing her training.  As for her training, there are so many different levels.  One twist, amongst others, this time was her Master sending her down to the hotel bar to fetch him a beer.  Ok, you say, this may not be a big deal to most of you, but it was toy’s first time sent out to a vanilla setting in heels, very short leather kilt (shorter than anything she’s worn in public for over 20 years lol) and not forgetting her collar!  Luckily for toy, it wasn’t overly busy, but she did have a job convincing the bar staff she was a guest and not wandered in off the street lol.

At least it gained her extra discretionary points, towards her task for this year and the prize of time away with her Master!

She can’t wait to see what the next month brings for her.  There are things she would like to do, if her Master permits, that are reliant on his availability, along with her own.  Another meeting with the delightful Miss S would be good, as would a visit to Club D, in Derby at the end of the month.

Oh she is getting so frustrated that vanilla events, especially work, are taking over her life again this last month and are getting in the way of toy’s activities. Ho hum, but needs must.

Saying that she has been lucky enough to see her Master again several times this month, although most have been flying visits either herself or her Master. Some have been Master having her as a pleasure slut to please and pleasure him, rather than him using her, but the hardest was when he had arranged to travel and see her one afternoon. She knew it wouldn’t be a long visit, but she didn’t know any more than that. Master had her blindfolded before her arrived and then pushed and used his toy for an hour before walking out the door and leaving her, still blindfolded, having not seen him at all during the session. She did find it very difficult after he had left. Toy zone affects her in different ways and this time it left her very unsettled. She was like a puppy with its nose to the window for some time afterwards, not quite believing that her Master had gone off and left her like that.

Another totally new part of her training is that Master bought her a book, of the type she’s never read before. “Adult fiction” around the life experiences of a sub. As well as reading the book, she has had to highlight, as she has read it, any passages, phrases, activities, etc. etc. that have either appealed to her or struck a chord or she can see Master doing. It has been quite interesting, for both toy and her Master, in different ways. Yet again, it gives him another insight into how toy’s head ticks and how she feels about her submission.

Hopefully things with calm down a bit this next month, all these bank holidays together don’t help lol, which will enable her to concentrate on her real self – Toy ?

Oh boy, her training has progressed yet again this month.

She had a flying, spur of the moment, visit to see her Master.  A 300 mile round trip for a 2 hour fix, but it was worth it! 

She was then lucky enough to see her Master for 2 nights running, later in the month.  The first he had her dressed in a slutty fashion, knowing this would make her uncomfortable and concentrated on making please her Master, knowing that this would keep her on edge for the next night.

This was the biggie for her.  Miss S had arranged a nibbles party, with toy the centre of attention.  Since Master had told her about in mid week, her stomach had been screwed up in nervous anticipation.  When they arrived, she was blindfolded before entering the house and being led upstairs where Master proceeded to tie her, on her back, on a low table.  Whilst he was doing this she managed to work out that as well as herself and Master then was also Miss S and her 2 male subs there, which was a major first for her.

The evening was a major step forward in her training and included a pussy eating contest, Miss using the wand, learning to pleasure Miss too, being hung from a door and used, having her arse played with and then finishing off with 2 subs.

She has to admit that coming down out of toy zone (sub zone) this time was the hardest she has known, she found it extremely difficult in an emotional and vulnerable way.

Who knows where her training will go from here!

Argh, oh why does vanilla life have to get in the way of toy’s life!!! Once again it has been totally manic over the last month and she’s behind with her update. 

Saying that, her Master has managed to see her several times and push his toy in many different ways, over the last month.

One different occasions, he has pushed her to screaming point and played with her head.  She has had the pleasure of getting to know the lovely Miss S online / via text and having a brief, but intense meeting with her, whilst Master watched on, seeing her continuing her training and education and proving her obedience to him. 

He has pushed her in ways she is scared off, continuing her arse training.  He has had her expand her femme experiences with a Domme, he has pushed her physically to the extreme of roughly taking and using his toy when she was least expecting it then enjoying her cries and tears.  At the other end of the scale he has had her pleasing and pleasuring him with her mouth, tongue, fingers and extending her massage training, which arouses her in a scary way, that she is almost pushing at her Master, even though she knows this is dangerous.

She has travelled a lot this month, both in physical miles and mental / toy training ones, but the more that is thrown at her the more she wants / needs.  There is nothing so addictive as the fix she gets from a rt meet!

January, as with most people, started off with New Year’s resolutions and Master was no different in thinking of his toy.  He set her a 2 week “training camp” to kick start the year, with a view to improving his all round toy.

She had to get up early before work to, both look at vids and rt practice to both improve her posture and her walking in high heels.  She also had to abstain from alcohol for the 2 weeks (apart from one prearrange night out – yipes!!!), she also was set a new training regime to kick start her going back to the gym.  Unfortunately, vanilla commitments got in the way of the last one, but the other two were successful and she has since started back at the gym – youch.

She managed to see her Master again mid month.  This time, although she was pushed later in the evening, Master had her pamper him to start with.  He is pleased with her progress in becoming a well trained pleasure slut.  She has also been very lucky in that Master has been shopping J .  She has some lovely new 5” spiky heels and also, amongst other things, a leather boned waspie.  Oh lucky toy, although she needs Masters help in lacing her properly into the waspie.  On the play side, he has also got her a set of over / under door hanging cuffs, which keep her firmly in place!

On the downside, for toy at least, Master wanted her to gain some points (see previous journal entry), and he made her wear a butt plug, albeit slightly smaller than her normal one, for a whole night.  To say he had a miserable toy, is probably an understatement, but at least she did it, and showed her obedience, which is something he is very keen to test at the moment. Although, she would like it put on record it is not something she is keen to repeat in a hurry, it was horrible!

He has also had her chatting to several new people this last month, with a view to meeting up, and expanding her experience & training in different ways.  These include the lovely sub L (Dx), who is a delight, along with her Master and also a couple of Dommes.

She was also luckily enough to see her Master again last night.  She knew that he had been in a sadistic mood all week, so she really didn’t know what to expect from him.  He had her waiting for him in standing sub pose along, obviously, with collar and blindfold.  He quickly sat her in a chair and proceeded to tape to the chair legs, from her ankle to her knees.  Already her stomach was knotted up with nervous anticipation and her legs were shaking.  He then took her totally by surprise by tipping the chair up on its back (see new pics), which nearly gave poor toy heart failure.  She was then tied, unable to move with legs wide up open, extremely vulnerable and open to whatever her master decided to do.

He then inserted her vibe, on full speed, and walked away to get himself settled.  There was a picnic and wine laid out, so he could sit back at times during the evening, just to watch his toy.  Soon after the new wand came out to play and with toy so open and unable to move he quickly had her going from moans to screams, begging him to stop, but still he continued.  Over and over again he played with her.  Sometimes using the wand on her, sometimes just resting it on her and walking away.  Other times resting it just above her, making her reach up for it, seeing just how far she would push herself. 

Then when it got to the point where he felt she really couldn’t take anymore, he started on her nipples with his crop.  Slowly at first then building up the speed and friction.  When that become too much he moved the crop to her clit.  Again, when that was too much, although his version of too much is very different to toys (toys is way before that point) he moved back to her wand and started all over again. He later said, he’d never heard his toy screaming out so much!

After what seemed like hours, he untied her and had her using her mouth on his cock for an age, before eventually (when toy was totally disorientated) pulling her up and throwing her on the sofa where he roughly fucked her, then left her panting and out of breath.

When he eventually took off her blindfold, 2.5 hours had somehow disappeared and he was left with a well used, exhausted toy.  Hmmm, she is seeing him again next weekend; she wonders what that will have in store!!!

It’s certainly been a good month.  Toy hasn’t seen her Master on a lot of occasions, but those that she has have been for extended times.

Just before Christmas she got to go away to see her Master for a couple of days. He had arranged for an apartment setting, testing out a possible venue for the first toy club meet.  Toy had her instructions, she wasn’t to speak until asked a direct question or Master said free speech was permitted.  She had to wait for permission before sitting or eating etc.  Master was in total control of his toy. 

After dinner he began his use of his toy, with work on her arse training to start with.  Then he moved her through to the bedroom and laid her on her back.  She had been blindfolded for some time and was unsure what would happen next.  She was then introduced to her two Christmas Presents!  The first was a leg spreader, which he then proceeded to attach.  Then she heard him fetching out another bag, quickly followed by a buzzing sound.  He then introduced her to her new wand.  Yippeee, since her one brief experience earlier in the year, she’d wanted one, so Master must have seen her list to Santa! 

The next day started with her pampering and pleasuring her Master.  Then later, he attached her to a chair, with spreaders and cuffs keeping her legs immobile and her arms cuffed behind her back.  He then went to work on her with her new wand for over an hour.  It’s the first time Master has had to keep giving her drinks of water as the moans, cries and screams were closing her throat up.  She hasn’t known anything quite like it before. 

She wasn’t allowed to cum unless given permission and when Master thought she was too close he would ease off and go to work on her tender, erect nipples instead.  Sometimes squeezing them tight and slapping her nipples, sometimes using his crop on them.  It feels so good to start with, the almost gentle slapping of the cropping across her nipples, but as time goes on and they start heating up with the friction, it becomes more and more unbearable, again until she is begging for him to stop.  Then he would resume working on her clit, pushing her to the edge again and again.

Master is wondering where to take it next.  Does her allow her to cum as often as she wants, until he is almost torturing her that way.  Does he have her tied like that in a more “public” place with an audience?  Or does he have her like that at a toy club dinner, allowing the “guests” to take turns with the wand.  Each with their own technique and way they’d want to use toy. 

She apologises for the delay in posting her monthly journal update, but happily it’s because she’s been away again to see her Master, for three days this time and it’s been wonderful!

Normally, it is Master using his toy but this time, it’s been more of a balance.  Pain and pleasure and use of toy alongside times of toy pampering, pleasing and pleasuring her Master.

Over a period of time, Master has had her learning basic massage techniques to use on him and has tasked her recently to read up more on this, so she was practicing what she’s learnt.  She has had time this visit to spend periods of time, starting with massaging Master, firstly in a more “traditional” way, then bringing in special toy “techniques” which Master so loves and, if she’s totally honest, really turn her on.  She’s then gone on to please and pleasure her Master in so many different ways.  That doesn’t mean to say that Master hasn’t used his toy in a variety of ways just that where it’s normally toy, as the sub, that gets all the use and pleasure, this time it’s been her pleasuring her Master as well.

Unfortunately, it’s now back to normality and vanilla life kicks back in.  Although, Master has now set a list of possible tasks for her in 2011.  He’s then had toy rate these, from a total no no, hard limit to something she would love to happen.  He’s then scored them, in reverse order to her ratings, so the things that would be more difficult & take her out of her comfort zone score the highest points.  She has a target of 20 points by the end of November to receive her reward of a few days away with her Master again. 

The only problem is a lot of the highest scoring ones are dependent on Master arranging real time situations.  So watch this space.  She has been with her Master, just over a year now and he’s completed her “basic” training”. Just how far is Master going to push his toy in the coming year? 

PS, so just what does a toy get her Master for Christmas?  As those of you who have followed her journal will know, Master has been tasking her to write a story over the last year, tasking her by giving her chapter topics, every week or 2.  Master has obviously received this, as and when requested, however, for Christmas she has printed it all off and bound it in book form for him – all 25 chapters and 169 x A5 pages of it!  The Dark Side of Toy’s Submission – Book 2 will now commence.

The time has flown by since her last monthly profile update and has seen toy’s anniversary with her Master.  She has been with him, and part of this lifestyle, for a year now, which has flown by.  It is only when she looks back that she realises just how far she has come and how much deeper her natural submissiveness has gone. Although, this is something that she often doesn’t realise until Master points out to her something she has done.  Master has progressed with her education and training, pushing her in so many different ways without her ever wanting to make a “run for the hills”.  Well, not for long enough to get her running shoes on!

 The month started out with Master visiting toy at home.  Although a relatively brief visit he managed to make the most of the time and concentrated on the use of her nipples with both clamps and crop.  Just the light touches to start with that build up as the warmth grows in her nipples, pushing her further and further until she could take it no more.

 The next weekend, toy was able to meet up with her Master.  She arrived at the hotel and was told to be dressed ready for dinner, when he arrived, in short skirt, hold ups and high heels.  He let her know he’d arrived and had his toy waiting on point for him, with her arse in the air and legs open, ready for him to play with her. 

 The next weekend, she wasn’t expecting to see her Master, and had been out with a friend.  A couple of glasses of wine and she was tucked up fast asleep, when after midnight, she had the fright of her life when she was awoken by the bedroom door opening!  There was her Master, which just goes to prove she is available to him, whenever he wishes, to use as he wants.

 Then last week, she had her first 5 day task.  Monday – Friday from 6:30am – 8:30pm, she had to cum every 2 hours and ring her Master whilst she did.  She was allowed to postpone up to 2 a day (informing Master in advance), but not miss any.  Although the cuming part was good, the rest of it was what toy refers to as a “ball ache” task, which Master sets purely to exert his control over her and to test her obedience.  Toy is happy to say though that she completed her task!

 Now he is looking forward to his plans for toy for the coming year.  Going through the list of tasks and experiences he set for her at the beginning of this year, seeing what she has achieved, what she needs to work on and what new experiences he is going to give her.  He has patiently given toy a good grounding in the basics, now he is ready to push her even more.  Watch this space!

Oh boy oh boy, one happy toy this month after seeing more of her Master in RT situations.  From struggling for new experiences to put in her journal she is in the lucky position of having too much to put in.  Oh what does she put in and what does she leave out! 

Her Master visited her, at home, earlier in the month.  It’s so much better then when in hotels as the walls are much thicker and no need to worry about the screams lol.  Master has spent prolonged time on her nipples before, but this was the turn of her clit and pussy.  Oh that fine line between absolute pleasure and torture, being pushed to the limit, whilst tied for nearly 1½ hours.

Then later in the month she was able to travel to see her Master.  He does enjoy having her on point so that her arse is available to him.  This time she was there to pamper him, massage him and let him feel her mouth whenever he wished. 

Then he was staying at Toy’s for a couple of nights, yippee.  He had instructed her to order a skirt, several inches shorter then she would normally wear, once again taking her out of her comfort zone, and as he drove to see her, he gave her instructions on how to dress, telling her they were going out to dinner. 

Toy sees the big difference in being a sub as opposed to a slave is in that if she doesn’t agree with something, she is able to talk to Master and “present her case”, as long as she can back her point up with facts etc. her Master will listen to her.  It doesn’t mean he will take heed, but he will consider the facts.  If she tried to say a point blank no to something he wouldn’t listen.  Toy digresses, but the point in this case was that Master wanted her to go out in a very short skirt with hold ups, a thin top and no bra to dinner in a vanilla setting.  She fought her case in that it was too local and Master compromised, allowed her to wear a bra and told her they would go to a local town for dinner.  Thank you, if you’ve stuck with toy through her waffling, but she needed to set out the situation she thought she was going to.  Oh boy, wrong, half way up the main road her Master informed her that they would be going to a club.  A major first for toy.   She hadn’t a clue what to expect and suddenly her stomach was churning and her legs shaking.

On arriving at Club D, it surprised toy that they were immediately put at ease by the staff and were given a tour before being left at the bar.  As they sipped their drinks Master threw another “first” at her, and introduced her to an attractive male sub called S.  It was obvious to toy that they had been in contact prior to the night, which again made her feel nervous.  Although, after that the combination of her Master, the conversation, S and the venue quickly put her more at ease and as the night went on she progressed from removing the hard fought for bra, to putting on her collar (oh bliss, the joy of being able to wear it in public), to watching others, to being blindfolded by her Master to eventually him inviting S back to join them and play with toy.  Master was careful not to push it too far for her first experiences of both inviting another male to join them and to playing in semi public view, but toy thoroughly enjoyed and would like to thank S for making her first experience of this so pleasurable.

Eventually, Master called a halt, slowly removed her blindfold and started the careful process of bringing her back down out of full toy zone.  She was very surprised when the blindfold came off to see another Dom, they’d spoken to earlier had been watching too.  It was an amazing night for toy, full of so many firsts, but at the same time Master had skilfully managed it, so that she didn’t feel pressured or out of her depth at any point, therefore wanting it not to be her last experience of this kind.  Thank you Master.

At last she has had a real time fix with her Master this month.  The anticipation hadn?t faded as she was waiting for him and she certainly wasn?t disappointed.  The combination of the pleasure and pain and knowing that she is pleasing her Master excites her so much. 

As real time sessions have been few and far between, during this difficult period she has found that certain areas of her training, along with her pain thresholds have sadly taken a step backwards.  In particular, Master has had to take a step backwards with her arse training, but has recommenced this, including more prolonged use of her butt plug, especially when she was being fucked.  He also ensured that the session included prolonged use of her nipples.  There is something about having her clamps on her nipples and them then being cropped that does excite her a lot. 

She is seeing him again this week J and is already very excited.  Hopefully, now they will be able to see each other more frequently.

On Masters instruction, she has been chatting to a male, with a Dom streak, who she has met under vanilla circumstances with a view to him joining them for a session.  It is still in early stages.

Master is also looking for a male sub to invite to join them for a session.  He has been continuing the prolonged use of her nipples during a session, but is looking to extend this to prolonged use of her clit and pussy and enforced orgasms.  The sub would have to enjoy eating pussy and brining a fem to orgasm over a prolonged period. 

Unfortunately, she doesn?t have any new photographs to update her profile, but hopes Master will take some more, during their next session, which she will of course add ASAP.

Oh Toy thought that this last month would be easier, but she?s once again sitting here saying that it has been an extremely busy one again, for both Toy and her Master, in the vanilla world.  Hopefully after this month, things will calm down a bit!

Toy needs a fix badly, that is, as in a real time one.  Although, in contact with her Master numerous times a day, she is craving the highs of a real time meeting.  The anticipation building up during the day, her stomach knotting up, not knowing what is going to happen to her.  Then the joy of getting ready, that wonderful feeling as she fastens he collar, knowing she is going to serve her Master.  Then the warning text that he is on his way, slipping on her blindfold, waiting there, starting to shake slightly as she assumes the position standing upright, legs apart, arms folded behind her back, tits up.

Hearing Master, well she assumes it is her Master, enter the room.  Walking around, not speaking initially, then maybe a whispered word in her ear or a hand run over her body, or between her legs.  He understands that often a quite word or soft touch, at the right moment, is much more powerful than a loud, harsh word or a heavy hand.  That is not to say, as the session progresses, he won?t push her, enjoy hearing her scream or have tears rolling down her face.  Sometimes it?s purely physical, more often it?s mental & emotional as well, getting inside her head.  Just how it progresses, remains to be seen, so many possibilities, so many ways in which Master can use his toy .........................................................

Then finally, as it draws to a close, Master peeling off her blindfold, knowing that he has to bring her down carefully.  Oh yes, Toy needs a fix!

This month has been a busy one for both Toy and her Master, in a vanilla sense, and so it?s been difficult to finalise all the details but it has been agreed that Master is going to have much more control over Toy?s life and lifestyle both in her BDSM & vanilla lives.  Toy definitely feels now she has a definite alter ego! Hmmmm, as time goes one though, it will be interesting to see which is the stronger, at the moment Toy is fighting ahead!.  At the start there was a little Toy creeping into Suzie?s life, now Toy is growing stronger and stronger as time goes on, the question is how much space will she allow Suzie?

Following these discussions, they are in the process of renewing Toy?s Contract with her Master (she signed her first one in January).  As well as obviously covering aspects of her behaviour with Master and his control over her, the ?scary? part for Toy, although at the she believes very necessary, is that Master is going to have more control over areas such as her requiring her to get permission before going out socially, her weight, exercise, alcohol consumption (ooops lol) etc. etc.

Master also knows that now that he has Toy?s full and complete obedience.  In some weird way it just feels right and in a strange way it?s almost comforting to be under Master?s protection like this.  It isn?t something now that she has to fight, it seems more of a natural progression, without sounding corny that she finally has come home at last.  Although Toy knows that Master will now want to test this, how he goes about it remains to be seen, hmmmm watch this space..............

Although time has been limited this month, Toy has managed some meetings with Master.  He?s been testing out her new nipple clamps, youch and continuing with her anal training.  Toy also has a treat for Master?s next visit, she?s now got a permanent set of chains and restraints set up on the bed.  She is sure Master will enjoy those!

Toy has now been tasked to update her journal at the end of each month with her progress and experiences.

Toy has now been with her Master for 5½ months and during that time her training and education has progressed in so many different areas, sometimes playing with her body, sometimes her head, sometimes both.  The hardest one to fathom is when Master gets inside her head. Toy is feeling more at home in her submission as days go by and a deep wanting and need to both please and pleasure her Master.  Although she still feels very naive at times.

Master uses her in so many varied ways that Toy never knows what to expect next.  Recently he had her act as his maid and chauffeur, dropping him off dressed as the demure chauffeur and collecting him wearing just her coat, stocking & heals.  He then made Toy stop off on the way back to pleasure him with her mouth then made her get out of the car, bending her over the bonnet he proceeded to first spank and then fuck her arse, before making her get back in the car and drive off as if nothing had happened.  Toy appreciates that Master has been very patient in taking his time to break in her arse, but feels he is now starting to enjoy the benefits from his efforts.

She has also been tasked with writing an erotic story entitled ?The Dark Side of Toy?s Submission? (before anyone asks, very sorry but this is for Master?s eyes and pleasure only).  After making a start she now has to write a chapter a week on a topic given to her by her Master, so far this has included a weekend away featuring embarrassment & humiliation and a gangbang.  As Toy is still relatively new to this, it is testing her imagination and darkest wants & fears as well as drawing on her limited experiences and letting Master see how far her mind & imagination can be pushed.  It?s allowing him to get deep inside her mind and then use parts of that in his physical training and use of her.

Toy has also ?earnt? a number of forfeits by performing badly at something in vanilla land.  Some of those where used by her having to ring a select number of Doms who have applied to join the Toy Club and follow their instructions on the phone, if she?s been very lucky Master has allowed her to cum for them.  At other times he has instructed her to perform on cam for someone.

Her clit is currently extremely twitchy after Master had her playing with it for an hour, cuming as many times as she should but having to ring him so he could listen to her each time she came.  The number of times she came would then equal the number of times she is allowed to cum over the following week.  Yippee she is now allowed to cum at 6:30am & 10:30pm for 7 days and after each time she must text and thank her Master.  The only downside is she is not allowed to cum at any other time over those 7 days, no matter what the circumstances.

That is Toy?s update for this month, she hope that anyone who is following her journey has enjoyed her journal.