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| ....I do not want to be the leader....
....I refuse to be the leader....
....I want to live richly and darkly in my *femaleness*....
....I want a man lying over, always over me....
....*His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot*....
....I don't mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically;....
....but as a woman, oh god, as a woman, I want to be dominated....
....I don't mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that I am capable of doing, but, I am going to be pursued, f*cked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding....
What *I* am:
...an unowned slave...
...an *extreme* masochist...
...exhibitionist...
...voyeur...
...A Single Milf...
...monogamous...
...talented singer...
...A Wiccan Witch...
...Ambivert...
...Confident...
... Intelligent...
...An Old Soul...
What *I* am *not:
...*ANYONE'S* slave...
...A doormat...
...PERFECT...
...Polyamorous...
...A woman who will put up with *anyone's* games!...
I believe in every BDSM, D/s, M/s, DD/lg relationship should start out with 100% transparency and honesty. In these kinds of relationships, vulnerability is almost a must, so, better get used to it!
**Transparency regarding me**
...Live with 2 roommates and my daughter...
...No car...
...No license...
...Manager at my job - which is a coffee bar inside a local casino...
...I smoke cigarettes...
...I drink often, a lot more than I'd like to admit...
...I have nipple piercings...
...I have one tattoo...(planning on getting more)
...I am sharp-tongued on my verbal abuse and hot-headed...
...I am an *emotional trainwreck*...
-I suffer from:
** -PTSD**
**-Fear of Abandonment (Deeply Rooted)**
** -Severe Trust Issues**
**-Depression**
**-Anxiety**
*These all developed and stemmed from my childhood: my parents neglected my brothers and I, but, me the most; various friendships torn apart by lies, stealing, etc; molested at 7/ raped at 11; several failed relationships which involved abuse or partner cheating and leaving*
*The reason I have put all of my problems/issues/pros/cons of myself is because I am searching for the unconditional love, acceptance, and understanding from my future One, True Master. The man I am searching for and I will forever serve is patient, gentle, firm, compassionate, etc. He embodies all of the genuine characteristics versus the fake persistent Dominants.* - I have nothing to hide, he shouldn't either.
What I am into:
Pain:
...knife play...
...fire/burn play...
...Paddles...
...Belts...
...whips...
...bare handed spankings...
...caning...
...Needle Play...
...Anal play...
...anything torturous and that draws blood, breaks the skin... Make me cry, Sir!!!
Domination:(receiving)
...ettiquette training...
...eye contact restrictions...
...orgasm control...
...asphyxiation...
...when He tells me how to dress, what to eat, and how to speak...
...when He tells me "good girl"...
Submission: (giving)
...serving as furniture...
...serving as an ashtray...
...kneeling at His feet...
...Domestic chores...
AND MANY MANY MORE !!!
**please refrain from sending me a friend's request or PMing, if ANY of the following pertains to you:**
-you are married
-you are looking for a FWB
-you are just here for some fun (i.e. 1 night stand/ phone fun)
-you are polyamorous
Kik messenger: just_me0629
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