tigerlilyowned

Weekly Journal (originally posted on 16 days ago)

this one has missed a few weeks of her journal but Master understands, due to circumstances needing my attention. W/we also had a busy holiday which kept tiger from being on the internet as well.

this slave is so happy that things are back to being as normal as they can be. tigerlily was blessed enough to be able to have Master at home with her for the holidays!! And tiger's parents met Master for the first time on her birthday (12/26)! Master wanted to leave a good first impression and was worried that they wouldn't like Him, which is only natural, but it went amazing and He needn't have worried! :))) this one's mother was rude to Master though, which hurt this one's heart. A lot of my little respect that i still had for her went out the window that night. But overall, in comparison to how it could have gone, this slave humbly believes that it could not have gone any better. this one's dad and Master get along so well and for all her prudeness and rudeness her mom knows in her heart that she is safe and loved with Master. her dad told Master that he feels great about his daughter being here with Master because he knows that she is safe and protected and that she will be treated with care and kindness. tiger just hopes that her dad will continue to come to our home because of the happiness it brings to Master, him (my dad), and this slave.

tiger is halfway done with training. :) this one is changing so much and she loves it. Master has helped this slave see error in so many of her thought processes and emotional responses. this one is in awe that changes and realizations like these are never going to stop happening. W/we had some issues with this slave's mouth (like sass and disrespect) but after listening to her Master, mentor slave naomi, and a good friend kai_tiva, she feels that she has been able to rectify the problems she was causing. There are still many things that this one herself realizes need work; she is trying to do her best to please Master and sometimes does things that disrespect Him in the process of trying to Honor Him.

Master told this slave today that He is proud of her and praised her to her mentor. she is so glad that she is able to please Him at least a little because Master blesses her with so much and only hopes that He can see that she is grateful to Him for all He does for her. He trains with love and includes tiger in His decisions even though He is not obligated to at all. Master treats this slave as the woman she is, not as an to be abused. Of course, there are times when this one needs to remember that she is in fact Master's property, but He doesn't disrespect His slave or make her feel anything other than completely loved and taken care of. He seems to be very positive about the direction that tigerlily's training is going and this makes tiger ecstatic because she wants to be Master's collared slave for the rest of their lives.

this one has a lot of things to blog in all the Master's Rooms. she is looking forward to being able to finally participate as an admin in the Rooms now that there is time for her to do so. tigerlily is very upset that bdsmcafe.net is experiencing technical difficulties because she would love to be able to run her Master's Room there.

this slave has never been more happy in her entire life than she is being with Master. this one is in love with her Master and hopes that she can allow Him to feel even a fraction of the Honor, Love, and Respect that He deserves. tigerlily does not feel worthy of a Master such as hers and will do everything in her power to give Him her respect and submission.

Posts will be made in Master's Room on here (), bdsmfriendbook, bdsmcafe and Facebook. 

Week 8-Slave (originally posted on 2 days ago, new one posted there today)

This one deleted her original blog post by mistake. :( So she listened to her Master and let it go, forgot about her original post, and is starting fresh! :) (Silver lining always appears! Thank You, Sir)!

tigerlily is disappointed in herself this week because it did not meet up to her standards of last week. she made many mistakes this week, and she is trying her best to not have weeks like this. Granted, it definitely wasn't a bad week at all! Her mistakes were very minor, in this one's humble opinion, and she can tell how much she has improved. But this one knows that Master expects more from this one and she disappoints herself when she doesn't meet par.

tigerlily has slept a lot this week. this one believes she was a bit sick. Master has been very understanding of her this week and feels that He knew that she wasn't feeling well. she is so appreciative of that unspoken element in O/our dynamic.

she has tried to be more present in the Master's Rooms but she isn't doing such a great job of that. The past couple days, she feels she has slightly redeemed herself but this is definitely an area that she needs to work on. she is still working on not hesitating and on fully submitting.

There's only about a month until this one will be officially collared! she hopes that Master will feel that she is ready. she only lives to please Him and she hopes that she does that for Him.

Since a lot of this one's time has been spent sleeping this week due to feeling under the weather, she doesn't have as much to say as she usually does. But this one has always been more to the side of quality being more important than quantity.

As always, this one loves her Master more than life itself. And she sees the changes in her that He has made so far and she is so very happy! More happy than she has been in her entire life thus far. :) Thank You so much Sir!

Week 7- Getting there! (originally posted on 6 days ago)

This week has been mostly perfect. this one has been doing loads better in the “fuck up”department. There was only one bad night this week (that she can remember) and she learned from her mistakes.

tigerlily will never be perfect and she isn’t striving for perfection because there is no such thing, but she does want to be the best tigerlily possible that is in her and Master’s power to allow her to be. she hates disappointing and upsetting her Master and knowing that she did so is still on her mind. she feels that He is hurt as if it is her own emotion and it kills her.

this one was punished for hesitation when Master gave an order (she hesitated and did not listen about three times). this slave was crying because she rarely gets punished and she rarely makes Master upset enough that He feels the need to even give tiger an order. Master ordered her to stop crying but tiger couldn’t make herself stop. And then she focused on that mistake and in doing so, made two more. Master forgave her for her wrong-doing, which tigerlily is so glad of. But He rightly punished this one before she received His Honored forgiveness. she understands that Master must punish/discipline this one. she doesn’t ever hold His decisions against Him. tiger submitted to Him, so it is His job to train this one the way He feels is needed to make her the best slave she can be.

this slave has spent a lot of time reading discussions and blogs in groups here and on other sites, doing her slave studies this week. she has taken notes to remind herself of things she should remember and learn, as well as made a few responses with her Master’s permission.

tiger has been helping a fellow submissive, a babygirl/little who is learning how to please her Daddy. The girl posted a comment in Master’s Room on FB asking for advice on an issue, and with her Master’s permission, this one responded to her with the advice that this new slave thought would be helpful and offered her to message this one if she ever needed to talk. since then they have been messaging one another back and forth. tigerlily feels so humbled and so happy that she could help someone the way that girl has told this one that tiger has. she hopes that Master can be proud of her and that she hasn’t over-stepped any boundaries or made any presumptions because this one is also new, so this one doesn’t want A/anyone to think that she knows better than T/those W/who have been in the lifestyle longer and have more experience. The M/s lifestyle is just so natural to this one that she feels like she has been in it forever, rather than just a few short months.

tigerlily and Master were talking recently and W/we B/both said that if S/someone in the lifestyle spent a day with U/us, that P/person would be totally confused. W/we do not have a relationship that M/most in the lifestyle would understand. W/we love E/each O/other completely and this one feels that the total love W/we have allows U/us to behave with E/each O/other in ways that lots of Masters would be horrified at, or at least wonder about. But it is natural for U/us and fits U/us. W/we have fun T/together and laugh T/together. But this one knows when it is time to be slave. she has a few struggles with the dynamic every now and then because she gets used to being able to speak freely, but she thinks she has been so much better at it this week.

Things that tiger will be working on the rest of this week are slave studies, posting in the Master’s Rooms, and working on showing Master that she fully submits to Him (by physically showing Him slave positions of submission, by not hesitating when He gives an order/command, by using her empathic abilities and intuition to know when He needs slave mode or at ease, among other things).

tiger hopes that Master knows that she loves Him and that she wants to make Him proud.