I have not entered anything here in a while!  I didn't update my last discipline session, though, as I predicted, it was intense!  ouch!

Master and i have been traveling a bit and reading 50 Shades of Grey during our trips.  There are some hot moments in the book and some parts where i can relate to the sub in-training, but it does nothing for our community of Masters and slaves, as the Dom in the book, is fucked up and the author seems to imply, so far, that He has to Dominate and control as a fucked up trait, instead of as a person who is in charge and SHOULD Dominate and control.  We're only through book one of the trilogy so maybe the message gets better.

We have done some fun slutting, here and there though, and again, i recommend that wonderful book, The Ethical Slut, for anyone who has multiple slaves or who subs for various Masters.  The ladies that wrote that book are EVOLVED!

Master will be slutting me around a bit this weekend, so hopefully, I'll have some vigorous tales to tell, come Monday.  Wink! 

Also, we may be opening a Dungeon soon, with some good friends of ours in the community.  Happy, happy days!

i am in serious trouble.  Master allowed me to go and play with another Dom.  i was nervous and i allowed this Dom to use me in ways that I am not allowed to and dont like to, be used, mostly because i was nervous and asked for tequila, and then i couldn't say no to things.

He will be disciplining/instructing me soon (probably tonight).  i am very nervous.  When i fuck up and dont follow His rules and orders, especially when they are crafted so as to protect me.....He can get severe....never mean, just acutely intense....to make the point.

Master took me for a mini-vacation last weekend.  When we got to our hotel, i got into uniform - naked but for my two main collars.

We drank wine and watched NFL playoffs for a couple of hours.  During the game, He would finger me until i was begging to cum but then stop or play lightly with my clit for a while.  About the 5th time He did this, He led me off the bed to the ground floor window.  He opened the curtains and told me to face the outside.  He wrapped His left arm around me from behind and pinched my right nipple.  "Spread your legs wide" He said.  i did.  He wrapped His right arm around me and used His fingers to get me so close to cumming and sooooo wet, that i was begging Him to let me cum .....really hard begging:  "Sir, can i suck you?  Sir can i cum?  Sir will you please fuck my face?  Sir!?  Sir!?  Can i cum"?! 

"Not yet slutty girl.  you see this guy walking by enjoying you?"

"Yes, Sir.  Please can i cum Sir?  i beg you Master!  Please Sir?!

"And here's a truck" He said with amusement.  "You like being slutty while all these people are watching you?"

"Yes Sir!! Please SIR??!?!?!?  Can i CUM!?!?!"

Pause, pause, pause, while He pressures my clit more directly and pinches my nipple harder, holding me tight, my back against His chest (He is still dressed in His casual business clothes)......pause.....

i am doing everything i can to not cum!  i'll be in soo much trouble if i do!  i'm squirming, i'm trying to escape His adept fingers on me.  i'm yelling to PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LET ME CUM MASTER!!  over and over!.....pause ...pause.

Then, in a strong, firm, whisper in my ear, in a tone i know is His grinning face, "O.K.  you can cum.  Cum now."

OH MY FUCKING GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  i CAME SO HARD i THOUGHT i WOULD ACCIDENTALLY THROW MY OWN SELF THROUGH THE FUCKING WINDOW!!

I love our weekends away.  ;) 

Sir, i love you!

Yesterday, when we were packing for a short trip, Master told me to pack the ginger.  i am ordered to always have ginger on hand, for sexual purposes.  i packed it.  Then last night He ordered me to get Him a knife and plate and the ginger.  So, while the tv was on and i was finishing some work on the computer, He peeled the skin off of the ginger and carved out a shape of a pointed anal plug.  He turned off the tv and said, "Come here."  i did.

 He inserted the plug in my bottom and then positioned me on top of Him, fucking Him, and told me to hold the plug in.  i held the plug in with my right hand reaching around behind my back.  We fucked really hard and for a really long time!  He says the ginger makes me really squeezy inside on Him.  He has done the ginger thing to me a few times and i think it's one of my personal favorites.  ;)

Master ordered me to write this event.  It makes me nervous and a little tingly down there to even think about it.  Here it is:

Last Sunday, we were at a friend*s Birthday Brunch.  The hosting couple are lifestylers but the rest of the crowd was not, they were family and such.  i was not wearing panties, which is usually a standing order from Master.  Many times, while i would fetch wine refills or food, i would feel Him looking at me walk and we both knew that i could feel my skirt against my smoothly shaved skin between my legs.  Even this one little thing makes me feel owned and controlled as a constant reminder, like when i feel my "work" collar and know what it means. 

We left the party around 4 i think.  We were driving back to our desert home and had been on the road for about an hour, another hour or so to go.  It was a gorgeous sunny day.  A really long train was winding its way through the rocky hills. Master pulled off the 2 lane highway, onto dirt road.  I asked, "Where are we going Sir?"  He said, "you*ll see".  The road wound under the highway over pass.  He stopped the car, turned the motor off and said "Get out of the car".  i did.  "Take your shirt off."  i gasped.  "Take your shirt off"- more sternly but smiling - like He does. i took my shirt off.  He said, as if He were describing a pleasant task to an employee, "Now, when the train*s engine car comes by, i want you to wave and smile and make the horn pulling motion, so he'll pull his horn." (God, this makes my heart pound just recalling the whole thing!)  i covered my mouth with my hands, covering my naked breasts with my forearms and said, "You*re kidding!!"  "No,"  He said, "Put your hands down, shoulders back, stand straight."  He said it in a tone, like you would scold a silly child who knew better than to cover her breasts like that!  i kept looking up to the highway above as cars went by.  They couldn't see me because of the guard rail.

He walked around the curved track under the overpass to see how close the train was.  Then He yelled down the tracks where i was in the sun, for me to get ready and be a good girl. i could feel the rumble in the ground under my feet, of the train approaching.  My heart was POUNDING!  (and it is now as i write this.  i just took a break from writing this to answer a client's phone call and had the thought, "If you only knew what i was writing right now you would have to go give yourself a handjob.") i could not believe what He was ordering me to do.  Then there it was!  The train came around the bend, under the overpass and right toward me standing next to the tracks.  Once it came closer into the sun, i waved at the Engineer, for what felt like an eternity, but was about a minute.  The train was going so SLOW!!  i could feel my face burning from embarrassment.  i made the horn pulling motion with my right arm, while my left hand shot over my mouth, in the "i can*t believe i am doing this" pose, but i did not cover my breasts at all.  i was pacing and laughing nervously and smiling.  Then the Engineer pulled his horn, many times in a row.  Master was smiling at me.  He had walked back toward where i was as the train passed.  He said, "Good girl.  you made him pull his horn.  Next time, you'll take your skirt off too."  i cannot imagine even surviving a fully naked "next time".  The train honked many more times as Master told me to get into the car without my shirt.  We drove down the highway and oncoming traffic could see my breasts as they passed.  We were driving west and the sun was lighting up the inside of the car really well.  i was VERRY wet.....and i am now.  i wish Master were here to whip me and rape me.  Maybe later.  An obedient slave girl can only hope.  i have to go take a cold shower, lest i cum without permission!  and THAT would be BIG trouble! Phew!

One of Masters business partners came to town last week. Since He has had me service this man before, i thought that could be in my future for this trip.  i love when He loans me to His friends.  He is very selective about who He will let use me.  It makes me feel like He' is proud of my sexual skills and my body and me.  These others are never as great as He is sexually and definitely not as Dominant, (they are sometimes vanilla as in this business partner case) , but they are always grateful and fun.  Here is how this one played out:

 The partner, lets call him Ben, had work to do wth one of the businesses that could not be done from his New York home, so he flew out to LA.  Since Master was opening a restaurant with His other business partner ( who might be gay and Master has never loaned me to him - we will call him Jim ), Ben drove up to the mountains with other staff from Master's company, to try out the delicious fare.  We ate and drank with them.  So fun!  The staff drove back to town, but Ben stayed at the cabin with us and Jim, plenty of guest rooms there. 

 We were all drinking wine and talking in the living room, Master, me, Jim and Ben.  Jim got tired and excused himself to go to bed.

 Ben, shortly did the same.  Master said, in front of Ben, that i should go and tuck him in.

 Yes, Sir.

 i followed Ben up the stairs, to the left, to the guest room.  When i turned and locked the door and turned around, he was right there, close, to receive a deep french kiss that i advanced.  i think he's a little submissive himself, which i felt was challenging since i don't have a Dominant bone in my body, any - fucking-where!)

 i had already taken off my tall, sexy strappy shoes downstairs.  Now, i pulled my dress off over my head and dropped it on the floor.  My black lacy bra followed.  Since i generally don't wear panties and i did not have them on then, i had none to take off.  Ben made an Oh My Goodness comment.  We kissed more with the realization that i was naked, in his room.  He really likes tongue kissing, very tongue to tongue - sometimes no lips at all.  i knew it was my duty and order to deliver whatever he found arousing, so we tongued a lot.

 Very soon, we made our way to the bed.  On the way, he took off all of his clothes, pretty quickly it seemed,  and we were now naked in his bed.

 The rest is very vanilla, involving lots of fucking and some sucking, for 2 hours I think.  he kept wanting to lick me, but i would try to switch that up a bit.  i much prefer Master ordering a girl to lick me or Him fingering me while He tortures my nipples with His mouth or fingers or clamps.  i got a little boisterous though with Ben that night, when i was on top, which might have been a little loud. eek.

 The problem with the loud thing, that i realized the next morning, was that, Jim's bedroom is RIGHT below!  this particular fucking guest room.

 ANYway, i fell asleep in Bens bed and woke up an hour or so later, saying that i had to go back to my Master.

 he understood and kissed me goodnight - in his tonguey way. 

 The next nights, we were back in the LA area so that everyone could do their work.  But each night after dinner, Master would send me off to walk Ben to his hotel, closeby, and tuck him in, so to speak.  There was lots of fucking until 2 am, for several days.  

 The last night was on the office manager's office floor.  We did not even make it to his hotel. he seemed anxious.  i still have rug burns on my knees, especially my right one and my elbows are a bit raw.  grins.  i had to collect my panties and clothes from the Managers area - we had started fucking on her chair, but it was ....ahem....not a good fit that way, plus it was going to break her fucking expensive, cool, ergonomically made for one's butt and spine, great chair!!

 The next day, he had to fly home.  i was soooo tired!!  i slept until 10:30 am this morning to catch up.  Sheesh!  Plus i just wanted my Master, who knows what to do with me.  He whipped me with His belt a little on my breasts and thighs this morning.  He bit and tortured my nipples just enough. He made me cum, HARD, and fucked me hard!  He's gone today but will be back soon, and i cannot wait to service Him however He wants.  :)  i love my Master.  i cannot imagine that anything in the WHOLE universe exists that is better than Him. 

Well, well...phew!  We are having enormous fun!!!  Master loves to shove His very wide, big cock into the back of my throat and then fuck me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  We have had beautiful, lovely playmates recently too.  ;)  We love them, they are lovely!!!

Dish Dish, where did you go?  I came back from my errand this morning and was going to answer your email, but your profile is gone according to CM......sad face.

Do you have a new profile?  Master has your yahoo account name but I do not and He is gone until this afternoon.  Please call my cell or email me through CM when you can.  I know you have to work all day, but when you get a break or something...  ;)  We all had such a nice click I thought.

And don't feel rushed about meeting.  Take all the time you need sweetheart.  xoxo

She is wonderful!  We met for dinner at a wonderful restaurant on the coast! If another person had not been there, i am sure that Master would have ordered me to fondle her under the table, after we were sure that we clicked, which we certainly did!  We will have her over soon for a delicious dinner and some frollicky fun!I have some great fantasies going which include her in our fun. 

And wow, Master is certainly treating me to some fun since He returned from His travelling yesterday!  Serious Bob session last night and fucking ... sucking Him this morning....then He fucked me really deep and hard, rape-style, this morning...plus He let me cum and now my body feels warm and relaxed.  Thank you Sir.

i am VERY enthusiastic about a wonderful CM girl that we have been trading emails with and hope that we get to talk to her tonight.  she sounds like such a kindred spirit.  :) 

On another note (or maybe the same one), Master fucked me so hard last night, i thought we would give our bondage bed some injuries.  Thankfully, she (the bed is too scrolly to be a boy) came out unscathed, however i was nicely scathed -- a bit sore today -- in the very best possible way.  Then He made me cum so well, that i had to scream along with my usual laughing and writhing.  i still have afterglow i think.  Maybe we'll get to do that with our new friend -- giant grins!

Getting very nervous now about my Bob strokes tonight.....palms sweaty.  Have to go slavify....shower, nails, make-up, super clean shave EVERYWHERE, then on my knees with a welcome home beverage in hand for Him when he walks in the door. 

i have at least 20 more Bob strokes tonight.  I have gotten 20 of my 100 so far.  If i can bear it, i will ask for 40.  My deadline approacheth.

Master and i had our second dinner meeting last night with a girl we met on Craigslist.  i kept rubbing my leg to hers over dinner.  She was wanting to "take things really slowly" and she was very vanilla, but very pretty.  We hugged her goodnight and on her way home she called and wanted to hang out with us some more. 

We went to a local pool hall and had some more wine and conversation.  She's pretty fussy and peculiar in some ways, but certainly fuckable as Master sometimes says.

She came to our house and Master told me to take my clothes off and make her feel comfortable.  Then she took off her blouse and bra.  She and i started kissing and fondling each other.  Master put her nipples in His mouth, one at a time.  She jumped a little saying that her breasts were really sensitive.  Master said,  "That's ok.  I don't mind."

A great time was had by all.  She's not really a match for us though.  If she did learn more about kink, she would discover that she is more Dominant than submissive, or possibly a switch, which is not what we're after.

The fun and adventurous search continues for a sister slave.  A beautiful girl wrote us today on CM.  She really MAY be a match.  We shall see.  you know who you are lovely girl.  Hope i didn't scare you off with my enthusiasm for your profile or with my graphic journal entries. 

The other night was fabulous and a little hard.  i misbehaved badly.  So, he tied me to the hook in the hall doorway and whipped me with our flogger, Pamela, i call her.  He started on my back and then sternly told me to turn around.  Every time He stung my breasts i would coil and spin around as much as i could to avoid the next stroke.  

 He told me to lay on the chest and I knew that He would fuck me now.  i was so wet!  i'll never know why the floggings, whippings, nipple clamps, etc.,  make me so wet!  He plunged in really hard over and over.  He fingered my clit while He fucked me and i begged Him to let me cum.  i was so close, but since i was already in discipline mode, i didn't dare cum without permission.  He got me really close many times and stopped.  i fucked Him back so hard too....feeling wild and out of control.  Then He came deep in me. 

 He told me that He might let me cum if i asked for 100 Bob strokes over the next month.  Bob is our single-tail whip that always leaves marks and makes me cry - but then after - when Sir holds me, i'm in blissful heaven and soooooo wet.  WTF is that?  Dont know.  Dont care.

i promised i would ask for Bob strokes, even beg for them.  And could i please, pleeeeease cum now?!  Yes, He said.  Thank God!  i screamed loud and laughed.  i'm sure the neighbors would have thought i was being dismembered, but for the laughing hysterically.  

Master has a surprise weekend planned for me this weekend  i am sure it wll be fucking fantastic, as usual!

Master is asleep beside me.  i love to hear Him sleep.  i love adjusting His sheets and covers so that He is the right temperature.  :)

Happy New Year everyone!  2011 promises to be the most fun and kinky year ever!!  MWA!  XOXO!

Missing Master tonight.  Hes out of state until Thursday night.  i just hate sleeping without Him.  We are so linked tight.....in everything.  i'm catching up on my CM girl shopping though.  

So, all you cute sub girls, drop me a note if you want us to introduce you to the good life....read my journal entries if you want to know what I mean.  Must love serving in the way of housework, cooking, and offering yourself in every sexual way possible (except for the gross stuff).  i won't dominate you....too submissive myself.  But if Master asks me to do something to you, i will have to comply.  ;)

Must be cute & petite....He has certain tastes.  Should be fun and light, no drama queens.

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Played with a fabulous couple, who were both journalists from Washington, DC, when we were at Sea Mountain.  They were sooooo fun!!!  My favorite parts are always Master's orders.  ;) 

This weekend we are playing with a couple who are becoming fantastic friends, and their swinging group.  Should we take a potato dish or something else as a side?  LOL!!  Recipe ideas anyone?  I love to cook these days!

A good time will be had by all!!!  Wink.  Wink.  Wink!

Yay!!  Going to our favorite play spot this weekend:  Sea MountainInn!!  near Palm Springs.  For their Halloween party Master will be Batman and i'll be His slutty bondage bat ;)

We always have great sexual fun there, although it's mostly vanilla, but that's ok!  i always get good ideas watching people play there. 

I CANT WAIT

Had a really fun play date with our wonderful friends L & t last night!  i showered and shaved with slave t and i learned that if you shave that sensitive area with baby oil, it is a much closer shave.  Master ordered me to pleasure t, which was really sexy!  She has breasts and a pussy that are so young and pretty, you would think she was 18, but we're all .....um....more mature.  She looks Fabulous.  And Master L is so great!  i have a big thing for Dominant voices and commands and real Dominance, which my Master is so perfect at and makes me wet just telling me to do things.  Master L has a great voice too and i like hearing Him order slave t to do things.....and i love her obedience.  A lovely time was had by all.  i loved Master L fucking her.  At first it hurts her and she screams, ....she's so tight......and then she really loves it!  As does He ;)  Thank you Sir and slave sister.  And thank you Master for giving me the perfect life.  :) ILY!

OK girls.  Who is the brave and lovely sub to be treated to dinner at a wonderful restaurant, and, if things click for everyone, come to our spacious desert home for some sensuous and serious fun?!  Master will tie you and me up, sometimes together, and order us to do things, while He teaches us both.  ;)

Last night we watched a thunderstorm from inside our garage with the garage door open.  We were eating pizza and veggies with a delicious blue cheese dip and drinking chardonnay.  When we were done, Master laid me back so the back of my head was in his lap.  He pulled up my skirt and started fingering me.  "Spread your legs." He said.  "Wider", slightly stern.  "There..that's it." He said approvingly.  He pushed down my shelf cammie so that my breasts were exposed.

i had been ordered not to cum because He has special cumming plans for an exciting Monday. But i was already so close, with images in my head of being a training tool for doctors learning about the female body or for a varsity sports team or being ordered to soothe the nipples, of a girl that we are going to play with, after He makes them erect and red with His attentions, or, or, or!  i whispered to Master that i didnt know if i could not cum, that it felt so good. 

He reconsidered!!  :).... asking me if i could be a good girl and be just as wet and cum just as well Monday if He were to let me cum now, all while He was getting me closer and closer to the edge.  i said intensely that yes, i promise i can be just as aroused and slutty Monday, maybe more so, if i could cum now.....that it seems that the more i cum, the more i want to cum!  i started pleading with Him to let me, ...pleeeease Sir.......please Master, over and over while trying desperately NOT to cum, knowing there would be painful consequences for disobeying that order!

He said,  "If i let you cum, you have to hold nothing back, even though we're outside.  Can you do that?"  He knows that i get pretty loud, kind of a laughing scream... and very bucky when i cum.  i didnt care what the conditions were for my cumming, i would have agreed to anything!  "Yes, Sir" i said.  He said, "O.K.  then you can cum now.  Cum now.  Hold nothing back." 

Jesus Christ!!!!  That was it.  Screaming, laughing, kicking, (trying not to kick the vitamin box off the edge of the futon.)  i scared the cat and dog away and certainly any neighbors that might have been outside.  Whats funny is that when He first exposed me, i would sort of shyly turn towards Him when cars went by.  By the end, i didnt care and in fact, liked the idea that they might see me, spread and played like a violin by the Master violinist! 

Then an episode of True Blood and off to bed, to be spooned, while drifting off towards some lovely dreams.  i love my life as His slave.

i love this incredible person...have never met anyone like this...deep ...sigh.......gentle advice to all of those men around....own your woman/women.....love them so deeply that they know that nothing would be better......make everything grow..not diminish.  Respectfully, You will then keep them forever....they will always love you.  they/we can't help it.

A couple of weeks ago, one of Master's Executives from the East Coast, met us in Vegas for a conference.  Master said i should service him if he wanted that.  He did. ....so i did!  ;)  REALLY fun!

Last night, for my birthday, Master whipped me with Bob, the single tail whip,  harder and more than He has in a while.  i have pretty marks on me today.  When i try to set my elbow on my desk, like i do, i feel where i must have bashed it against our steel bondage bed, trying to escape Bob....but there is no escape!  i am always weeping, screaming and trying to catch my breath, by about 10 strokes into Bob.  But it also makes me soooooo wet!

When He was done, He showed me the stripes and wrap-around marks on my back, sides and bottom...lovely art.  He pressed his thumb onto one of the marks and i winced.  He said, "Can you feel that?"  "Yes Sir,"  i said and contentedly bowed my head into his chest.

He pulls me in very close after that, in our perfect bondage bed, and i sleep like a tired child who had a long, busy day at the fair.

This morning, He fucked my throat and came.  It's sore, in a really good way!

i am deeply in love ....still....and always..(smiles)

We had such a wonderful time at Sea Mountain Inn last weekend.  We played Wonderfully...with a lovely couple from Northern California. ....really beautiful people.

i love Master beyond what is really conceivable, even to me most times.  Thank you Sir, for taking me there for my birthday!  :)

Thank you also for putting up with my emoting.  ......Of course,....Do whatever you want to me.....ILY!    

i never put a journal entry in here about our night with one of our most recent sub friends.

she loves to play!....and what a sexual girl...(you know who you are!  She's an impressive squirter!! ....should teach a class in it!!)

We really enjoyed you!!  See you soon.

What a New Year!  Master took me to a "clothing optional" spa in the California Desert again.  I love that place!!  It's pretty vanilla, but still very sexual.  They make you get out of the pool if you have any clothes on. ;)

We met a couple, a doctor and his lovely wife, who is a writer.  Great conversations sitting naked in the hot tub with lots of other people. 

After a while, we all played together on the round bed in the "dance room".  They invited us to their house in Palm Springs (nearby).  We swapped partners on their king bed, with Master's permission, and watched each other fuck someone else.

The highlight for me though, was when Master demonstrated for both of them my disciplined but wild cumming.  i loved feeling like everyone was looking at me and holding me down -- helpless.  After my begging and Him having me on edge for-fucking-ever....i came so intensely hard and great that i laughed at myself for about 10 minutes.  Master seemed proud of me for being "such a good cummer".   

Master takes me to the best places!  i am a spoiled little slave.  i try to remember that when He whips me with Bob. 

We met a WONDERFUL new play friend last week!

We met her for sushi and then went back to Master's house-in-town.  We sat outside.  Master ordered me to go into the house and remove my bra and panty hose.  (i was still in my business clothes from that afternoon).    

When i returned and sat in my chair, Master ordered me to pull my skirt up to my waist and pulled the top part of my dress down below my breasts.  she kissed me with those really soft, sensual, warm, long kisses.  She and Master each pinched and licked my nipples, Master on the left one, lovely girl on the right. 

  Master told me to spread and draped my left leg over the left arm of the chair.  My right leg ended up between lovely girl's legs.   she finger-fucked me pretty hard but she had a sweet whispery way of talking to me.  i really liked that even though she can switch if she wants, her words and ways were more sub-sister with me, than dominating.  Master was holding me tightly against the chair, the visions in my head were fucking outrageous!!  i asked for permission to cum.  He said, "Are you ready to cum?"  "Yes, Sir" i said.  He said, "ok....you can cum,"  His voice is often enough to send me over that edge.  So, with our lovely friend really massaging my clit....i came and almost knocked my own chair over!

i cannot wait to play with her again!

Master bought a very sturdy massage table yesterday.  He fucked me several different ways on it last night.  This was between sessions of whipping with Bob, the new single-tail whip and Bob's friend ...the new rattan cane.  Bob is definitely the harshest tool Master has ever had.

i asked Him for a second whipping because i didn't feel that i had fully atoned for my terrible non-slave behavior a week and a half ago.  It was hard to ask for more whipping because Bob is so painful.  But i still felt really bad about my actions. 

Master was proud of me for asking for that. He whipped me with my hands attached over my head to a hook in the ceiling that has a chain of closed hooks coming down from it.
My toes were barely touching the floor.

Sometimes He whips the air with Bob so that i can hear it.  It makes me shiver.  Sometimes He runs the whip along my naked body so that i know which implement He's going to mark me with.

i screamed with some of the strokes, cried and screamed with others. 

When He was done, He held me close and then i gave Him a massage on the new massage table.

When we woke up this morning, He fucked me again but said this was a "no cumming morning" for me.  Leaves me in a bit of a jonesing froth!!  So, now i'll go for a run and probably drip down my leg!  Maybe He'll let me cum later today. 

i'm so smitten...smote...with love and devotion.  mmmmmmmmmm

i'm back in good standing with Master and i'm so happy. 

So, ...We are looking for playful girls....

Fuck!  That was intense!  Master told me to go to the garage, lay on His Corvette hood with my back against the windshield and my legs spread and think about how to be obedient.

To get to the garage, i have to go OUTSIDE! totally naked and handcuffed, but i did it.

After i laid on the hood and thought about being obedient and what that means, He came in with lots of "toys" in hand.

He handed me the dildo and told mee to fuck myself with it.  i did.  He started taking pictures and video of me.  He told me to go harder and faster.  He asked me if i felt like cumming.  i said, "Yes" and He said, "Good.  But of course, you're not allowed right now."  I said, "Yes,  Sir." i was getting really wet and feeling really good and slutty.

He had me get off the car and get on my knees with my face against the dirty garage floor.  He told me to fuck myself more.  i asked if i could have knee pads.  "No."

Then He told me to lay on my back and spread really wide and fuck myself more.  i did.  i'm still handcuffed in front, this whole time.

He helped me stand up.  He put wrist cuffs on me and tied me, dangling style to the rafters overhead. 

He put clothes pins on the very tip of my nipples so that they were pinching really hard and told me to jump, wiggle or whatever to try to get them off.  It made me cry again, while jumping, shimmying...the pinching is so severe at the very tip like that!  He videod this.  FUCK!!!!!   i couldn't get them off! He  took them off after a while and put his warm mouth and tongue on each one.  phew..

He put a somewhat spicy ball gag in my mouth.  He took more pics and told me i looked pretty. 

He whipped me again with about 4 different items, one was new...like a really heavy rope or something.  It felt like it sank into muscle more than the others, less stingy, more like really getting hit with something solid.  He was only going to do 3 of those but said that He liked the marks it was leaving on my back, so He would be doing more. 

i was feeling really ugly because i was crying and drooling all over myself from the gag.  i was screaming...which the gag dampened a little....and trying not to hyperventilate again.  i do that sometimes, but He knows how to fix it. 

He untied me when He was done and told me to lay face down on the floor.  He took pictures of His art.  When i got up, i was covered with dirt that had stuck to the drool down my breasts, stomach and legs. 

Master asked if we were going to have obedience trouble any more.   i said, "No, Sir."

He has started smiling at me again, warmly.  i know we're not done, because i don't have my collar back.  So, i'll bet there'll be more entries today.  He says i'm doing well.  i'm really trying my best. 

my disciplining/slave training has begun.  Master told me to get the handcuffs.  He said i was to write a CM entry and then handcuff my wrists behind my back and lay on the hallway floor (wood floor) on my stomach.  i did that.  i laid there a while, i'm not sure how long but it felt like forever and it was sooooo cold.  i'm naked, of course.

He came to me and bent down, grabbing my hair and said "While you lay here, I want you to think about the ways you have disappointed me."  i did that. 

After another eternity, He came and helped me stand up and holding my arm firmly, He led me to our bondage bed, a canopy bed, made of welded steel.  He tied me to it, tightly, so that my back and bottom were very available and my breasts were surrounded by the steel swirls as the front of my body was pressed against other steel embellishments.  He put wrist cuffs on me and with steel attachments, clipped them over my head to the canopy, spread wide and taut.

He said that He was going to discipline me and that after each stroke (with a hard rubber whip) He wanted me to tell Him one of the ways that i disappointed Him.

They were hard strokes, certainly harder than His usual play.  This was not playing.  i was crying by the 3rd stroke, because of the ways i had disappointed and because of the pain.  The strokes started coming faster and i was screaming with each one ....and weeping. 

He untied me and ordered me to get on my knees.  "Look at me,"  He said.  i did, my face was wet with tears.  "What do you want?" He said.  Through my crying i said that i wanted to be His slave again, that i swore never to do that again.  He said that was a good start.

He helped me up, hand-cuffed my wrists in front of me.  He told me to go clean the kitchen and make us an omelette.  i did. 

Now i am to write what i want in this journal, which i just did,  check on the world,...did.....and then go lay on my back on the floor with my hands over my head and my legs spread and think about all of the good things He does for me. 

i'm glad i'm writing this out, this way.  i think i can go back to it and read it whenever i start to feel like something other than Master's slave..

...more later...if He says so.

  i am in big trouble!  i came without permission!!  i've never done that before, but i just couldn't stop it the other night.  i haven't been allowed to cum since and i think i have a serious correction session in my near future.  Eeeek.

Master had me reserve 3 days, April 3,4 and 5, for him.  i think He's taking me somewhere for my birthday.  If you're one of the girls we've been courting, i'll bet He would chat with you about when and where.  Maybe you could meet us there (wherever that is) for a night of fun. ;)

The little dog that i'm supervising for my Master's business partner, chewed part of the (*&^*&^% rug yesterday.      my Master will be disciplining me for it (wink).  Ya' know...."Spare the rod, spoil the slave!" 

my Master gave me the longest, most intense orgasm of my life yesterday!Is there a Guinness world record for that?  i may have broken it.....and how does one measure that, anyway?  Time for a new kink product....a measuring device for orgasm length.  We could call it the "O"mometer ;)