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I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas and Happy New Year ♥ I have an announcement... I'm ENGAGED! He asked on Christmas Day and I said YES! He has made my heart smile and He had me from Hello. I love Him so very much and can't wait to start this new chapter in our life ♥ Just here for friends and my journal entries ♥
The dark takes me, sinking to sleep, and I look into the eyes of a dream.
I fall slowly, my arms outstretched,
in a yearning immeasurable,
and a longing unfulfilled.
My heart pounds, pulse racing madly,
writhing as my body is filled with fire.
I lie on the floor trembling,
before a dream desired.
Does the dream know, and how can it,
what I ache to give, what drives me?
What draws me to a submission that binds,
and frees this woman's heart?
It is a sweet pain of the flesh,
and an agonizing whip to the soul,
this need to give myself.
It's the heated touch of illusion
searing my being.
I look into the eyes of the dream,
and struggle to awake,
shuddering to my very core.
Eyes piercing the darkness, I look,
and beg, screaming it out.
Take this gift I can't deny,
Accept all that is me,
and give me the freedom of bondage,
take me to that other world...
to a Dream that becomes reality.


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1/6/2016 9:58:12 PM
I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas and Happy New Year ♥  I have an announcement... I'm ENGAGED!  He asked on Christmas Day and I said YES! He has made my heart smile and He had me from Hello. I love Him so very much and can't wait to start this new chapter in our life

12/24/2015 9:55:06 PM
I just wanted to wish Everyone a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year ♥

12/16/2015 9:38:54 PM

They say Blondes have more fun. So today I went and had my hair dyed Blonde.  I just added a new picture to my album.   Please be kind and let me know what you think lol


11/14/2015 4:09:29 PM
Finally all unpacked and moved into my new place.  Was a hard and long move.  Am so glad to have it over with.  Now looking for a full-time job with benefits.  It was my daughter's birthday the other week. She turned the BIG 20.  They grow up so quick!  With her turning 20 it is making me feel OLD. lol  I watched 50 shades of Grey the other week too.  I did not care for the movie but LOVE LOVE LOVE the soundtrack.  I went out and bought it and have been playing it over and over again in my car and on my computer :)  What did everyone else think of the movie?????  Hope Everyone is having a great weekend ♥

10/18/2015 10:14:46 PM
I just wanted to let E/everyone know that I added some new pictures :P

10/12/2015 5:18:43 PM
Been under the weather the last week fighting a really bad cold ugh.  I'm also in the middle of packing and moving in the next week.  This will be my 6th time moving in the last 3 years.  I'm so tired of moving.  I just would like to settle some where and be able to call it home for a while ~sigh~ 

9/21/2015 5:15:33 PM
Question of the day....  I know when it comes to sex a lot of people are into the visuals of it.  My question is are there any people out there that are into sounds too?  For me I'm into sounds.  Hearing the sounds of sex or someone masturbating is a Huge turn on for me. If it was made possible to indulge in your fantasy and hear someone masterbate and climax would you want to hear that and would you be willing to pay to hear it?

9/14/2015 5:46:39 PM
Sometimes I enjoy writing Erotic Stories and Poems.  This morning was one of those days.  This is a short Erotic Story I wrote this morning.  Please enjoy and feedback is greatly appreciated :)  Also when I write I go back and forth on trying to decide if I should use the word "dick" or "cock".  Your thoughts?  Which word do You like better?

My eyes open, the early morning light filtering through the window curtains.
I turn my head looking over at You admiring Your naked body laying next
to me. My eyes roaming down Your body as my attention goes right to Your
beautiful HARD dick.  My thoughts drift to last night. A smile forming as
I think about how much pleasure Your dick gives me and how wet Your dick
makes my pussy. Feeling the wetness between my legs grow as my eyes go right
back to admiring Your dick. My hands cupping my breasts and pinching my now
erect nipples. Sliding my one hand down my body to my wet pussy. Sliding a
finger into my wet Cunt and slowly fingering it. Coating it with my juices
as I slip my finger out to rub my clit. My finger easily gliding over my clit
back and forth. Slowly at first then faster feeling my clit getting
harder and bigger. Biting my bottom lip as I feel my orgasm building inside me.
My breathing becoming heavy.  I stop.  Knowing that I am going to cum soon and
wanting and needing to feel Your dick inside me.  I pull back the covers as I roll
over straddling myself over top of You.  Grabbing Your dick and rubbing the tip
of it up and down my wet slit.  Coating it with my juices. I lower myself down
slowly onto Your dick feeling the head of Your dick penetrate my pussy. I let
out a moan as I feel You stir underneath me. Your eyes open as You look up into
mine. Seeing Your lust and need for me in them I feel You grab my hips pulling
me down as You thrust Your dick up into me. My moans turning into screams of
pleasure as I ride Your dick.  Your dick slamming in and out of me harder and
faster. I lean over kissing You, slipping my tongue in to meet Yours as I kiss
You deeply. Moaning into Your mouth as You continue fucking me. My orgasm
building as I am so close to cumming. Biting Your bottom lip as I pull on it.
Pulling back from You, my nails digging into Your chest as I feel my orgasm
roll though my body. I hear You say "Cum for me babygirl. Cum for Daddy".
Hearing those words sends me over the edge and I scream out to You... I'M
CUMMINGGGG Daddy. You grip my hips and slam Your dick deep inside me. Hearing You growl as I feel You fill my pussy with Your hot Cum.  I collapse on top of You feeling You wrap Your arms around me. I look up at You kissing You on the lips as I whisper... "Good Morning Daddy.  I love You".

8/2/2015 12:31:18 PM
I just added 2 new pictures to my album.  Check out picture 4 and 5 as they are my new ones I took yesterday :P   Hope everyone is having a great weekend.

6/21/2015 12:29:22 PM
I just wanted to wish all the Father's and all the single parents here a Happy Father's Day ♥

6/20/2015 6:56:21 PM
I just want to know when its suppose to get better. I have been through so much in the last 3 years. Every time I take a step forward I end up having to take 5 steps back. I spent a good part of my day stranded in a parking lot with my daughter as my car would not start. So as my daughter and I stand with jumper cables in our hand and our hood open a young man got out of his car next to us and walks by and I kindly asked him if he knew how to jump a car. He looked me in ...my face and told me I can get my car manual out and read how to do it. I looked at him and said but don't I need another car to jump start it. He said yes and just turned and walked away. I am thankful for the kind Manager that came out afterwards to try and jump start my car from the store. For 20 minutes he tried but nothing :( To make a long story short my altinator went up. So my car sits until I can figure out what to do. It's so hard being a single mom. I sometimes just feel like I am falling down a black hole and there is no end in sight. It's just very frustrating and lonely at times having to do it all on my own. *sigh*

6/2/2015 6:58:11 PM
Her secret desire is to be ravished, lovingly forced open in unbearable pleasure and taken fully open to love by a Man of deep spiritual wisdom, strength, humor, sensitivity and integrity.

5/23/2015 1:39:22 PM
So an ex of mine asked to take me out for a belated birthday dinner tonight.  I agreed.  So here I sit ready and he just texts me an hour before we are suppose to leave to say "I had to cancel the reservation.  I do hope all is ok and take care".  No explination or nothing.  I texted him back and tried calling and no response. 

What kind of person does that?  I just don't understand Men.  What ever happened to a Man having manners and treating a Lady with respect.  *sigh* 

5/10/2015 8:54:33 PM
I came across this and it just really spoke to me....

She's not there, like this, on her knees, head bowed and wearing a collar because she is less than me.  She's not there because she is undeserving of respect.  She's not there because she is humiliated and degraded.  She is there because she is the strongest woman I have ever known, the woman that holds my heart and captures my imagination.  She is there because I respect her more than anyone else in the world.  She is there because I protect her, nurture her and love her more than anyone ever has or could, not because she needs protection, but because she deserves it.  She is there because she trusts me and submits to me and she is there in submission, most of all, because she chooses to be.  That , that choice, is a gift and a strength that many could never understand and my responsibility to her is absolute....

5/9/2015 10:11:39 PM
Just wanted to wish all the Mother's out there a Happy Mother's Day ♥

5/9/2015 9:39:06 PM
It's becoming such a rarity nowadays to find somebody to fall in love with and stay in love with. People seem to forget how beautiful it is to grow old with someone, to build and witness someone's progression and to conquer obstacles as a team instead of facing them alone. I guess it is safe to say there's not enough thrill in that for them. There's no thrill in comfortability and knowing someone like the back of your hand. I guess that's why you can say I'm an old soul. I don't need to go out all the time and switch people up every other week to fullfill my boredom with temporary happiness. I always wanted something real, someone so genuine that they're worth lasting a lifetime with. Someone who's willing to invest the time and effort that's needed to win instead forfeiting when "there's no coming back." I understand it's nearly impossible nowadays to count on someone with all your heart and soul. It's more dangerious, if anything, but I guess that's why you can count me as one of the rare ones. I'm not just in it for a reason, season, or lifetime.... I'm in it for all three.

5/2/2015 5:05:58 PM
Came across a quote that really spoke to me ♥

"Be strong enough to let go and wise enough to wait for what you deserve"

5/1/2015 8:07:00 PM
Just wanted to say Thank You all for your Birthday wishes ♥  I had a wonderful 40th Birthday. My Birthday gift to myself was getting my hair colored and I LOVE IT!  Posted a picture in my album of my new hair.   Tell me what you think?   :)

4/24/2015 9:52:04 PM
I am turning the BIG 40 next week.  Wanted to hear suggestions from those of you who have turned 40 on what to do on my 40th Birthday.  How did you ring in your 40th Birthday :)

4/10/2015 10:18:05 PM
I just went through 2 years of Divorce proceedings and my Divorce was recently Finalized and I am officially Divorced.   I was married for 21 years.  It has been a long and very hard 2 years but I am glad that it is finally over and I can move on with my life.  I wanted to hear from others that have been through a Divorce.   How to deal with being "single", moving on, meeting people and socializing and being able to trust again?  Any advice or suggestions would be greatly appreciated :)

12/31/2014 12:16:10 PM
I just wanted to wish Everyone a Happy New Year!

2/22/2014 9:58:24 AM

 

Question of the Day...

 

I would like to hear from the Dominants what they feel are the responsibilities they have for a submissive. I also would like to hear from the submissive's what responsibilities they feel a Dominant has for His submissive.


2/14/2014 1:37:09 PM

Wishing E/everyone a Happy Valentine's Day

 

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2/8/2014 5:38:45 PM

Song I heard today and liked :)


"Flesh"

This is not the way into my heart, into my head
Into my brain, into none of the above
This is just my way of unleashing the feelings deep inside of me
This spark of black that I seem to love

We can get a little crazy just for fun, just for fun
Don't even try to hold it back
Just let go
Tie me up and take me over till you're done
Till I'm done
You've got me fiendin' and I'm ready to blow

Push up to my body, sink your teeth into my flesh
Get undressed, ta-taste the flesh
Bite into me harder, sink your teeth into my flesh
Pass the test, ta-taste the flesh

Hold me up against the wall
Give it till I beg, give me some more
Make me bleed, I like it raw
Like it raw, raw, raw
Push up to my body, sink your teeth into my flesh

Hold my hands above my head
And push my face into the bed
Cause I'm a screamer baby, make me a mute
You put your hand upon my neck and feel the pulse beat, beat, beat, beat
It's like a trigger, get me ready to shoot

Wanna wrestle with me baby
Here's a sneak, little peek
You can dominate the game cause I'm tough
I don't play around that often
When I do, I'm a freak
So you'd better believe I like it rough

Push up to my body, sink your teeth into my flesh
Get undressed, ta-taste the flesh
Bite into me harder, sink your teeth into my flesh
Pass the test, ta-taste the flesh

Hold me up against the wall
Give it till I beg, give me some more
Make me bleed, I like it raw
Like it raw, raw, raw
Push up to my body, sink your teeth into my flesh

Hold me down and make me scream
Lay me on the floor
Me on the floor-or-or-or, me on the floor-or
Turn me on and take me out (Turn me on, take me out)
Make me beg for more

Push up to my body, sink your teeth into my flesh
Get undressed, ta-taste the flesh
Bite into me harder, sink your teeth into my flesh
Pass the test, ta-taste the flesh

Hold me up against the wall
Give it till I beg, give me some more
Make me bleed, I like it raw
Like it raw, raw, raw
Push up to my body, sink your teeth into my flesh

Push up to my body, sink your teeth into my flesh
Get undressed, ta-taste the flesh
Bite into me harder, sink your teeth into my flesh
Pass the test, ta-taste the flesh

Hold me up against the wall
Give it till I beg, give me some more
Make me bleed, I like it raw
Like it raw, raw, raw
Push up to my body, sink your teeth into my flesh

Push up to my body, sink your teeth into my flesh
Get undressed, ta-taste the flesh
Bite into me harder, sink your teeth into my flesh
Pass the test, ta-taste the flesh

Hold me up against the wall
Give it till I beg, give me some more
Make me bleed, I like it raw
Like it raw, raw, raw
Push up to my body, sink your teeth into my flesh

2/8/2014 9:08:04 AM

A submissive's needs...my needs...

I need to feel safe. Before I can begin to open my submissive nature to You I need to feel safe and have reason to trust You. To let down my walls and give You control of my will may take time and testing before I feel safe enough to permit either of us to go beyond the initial stages of our relationship. Even after I've given myself to You fully, I need to be reminded I am safe with You. I may like to feel the thrill and excitement of fear and the unknown, but I need to be sure no matter how You stimulate those emotions during an intense scene or situation, I will remain safe in Your care. 


I need to know You accept me for all I am . I will be many things to You as our relationship grows and I need to know You accept me as a person during each transition along the way. I need to know You accept me as a friend, lover, companion, and Your submissive but also accept me as parent, child, employee, community member or other roles I fill in my obligations to family or society. 

I need to have clearly defined limits . I need to know exactly what You expect of me and know that You also understand my limits. In some ways I am like a child that needs a fence around my play area so I know how far I can go and feel secure inside those limits. I need You to reinforce those fences by correcting me when I try to climb them without Your approval. 

I need You to be consistent. I need to know You mean what You say and that today's rules will apply to tomorrow's behaviour. Nothing confuses me more than giving me mixed signals by allowing me to break rules that You've given me. From time to time I may test You to see if You are capable of accepting control of my life by consistently bringing me back to the path You've chosen for me. It's not done to try Your patience but is my way of finding reassurance You are paying attention to my progress. Very often it's not done consciously and I promise I'll not use it as a method for provoking Your negative responses. 

I need to expand my limits . I need to grow and to be challenged. Left on my own, I'll become bored or stagnate within the boundaries I accepted in the beginning. I need to be pushed, but never shoved, to go beyond the places I've been. I may drag my feet and pout at times, or sit down and refuse to move because I'm unsure and need Your guidance in overcoming my obstacles. I depend on You for strength and encouragement to get beyond them. 

I need You to teach me . I need to learn and it is You who are my teacher. My mind is hungry for new things and learning helps me to become all that I can be. This may require You to continue to learn new things in order to keep me challenged. Together we can grow to the fullness of the gifts we have and deepen the diversity we share. 

I need goals. Part of my make-up as a submissive makes me very goal-oriented. I need them to measure my progress and need You to provide them for me. Take time to explain those goals in ways I can comprehend Your plans concerning my growth as Your submissive. Without Your direction I quickly become lost so I'll look to You frequently to provide a purpose and aim as I continue in my development as a submissive. 

I need to be corrected . I need You to correct me when I make mistakes. Without Your correction I will develop bad habits that can be very difficult to break and do great damage to our relationship and to us as individuals. Without Your correction, I may never know I've made a mistake. Allowing me to continue unchecked will only cause me to fail both of us in the end. I admire firmness in Your correction and feel secure in knowing that You will never be afraid to take steps needed in keeping me focused on the goals You've set for me. 

I need You to be my role-model . I look up to You and try to follow in Your footsteps. If You fail to live up to a standard, I will follow You into failure, often without You noticing until it is too late. I learn quickly by the examples You provide for me and often base my reactions and behaviours on my observations of You in similar situations. I will blindly pattern myself in Your image so be aware that my eyes will always be on You as face Your own challenges and daily activities. 

I need Your approval and reassurance . I need to know when You approve of me or what I've done and to know I belong to You even if I fall short of my goals. I sometimes confuse approval with disapproval when You do not provide positive reinforcement when You are pleased by my actions. I will constantly be seeking Your approval when I'm unsure of myself and may need to rely deeply on Your support and reassurance when I'm confused about a situation or apprehensive about a new challenge. 

I need to be able to express myself. I have a need to express both good and bad things to You but it may be difficult for me to put the negative things into words. I fear Your rejection and hate disappointing You, so I may need a little space and time to voice all the things I need to say. You can help me by reassuring me that my feelings are valid, even if they aren't something You find pleasure in hearing. There may be times when I'm upset or angry with You but without freedom to express those feelings there can be 
only festering resentment or misunderstanding. Guide me in ways that I can learn to speak my heart without breaking it or Yours. 

I need to learn from my mistakes. I need to experience things that may be painful in order to learn successfully. I know Your protective nature will struggle with allowing me to be hurt but I need to learn the consequences of what I've done and to experience the feelings that go along with making mistakes. I will need Your comfort once I've faced my failure but will sometimes feel unworthy of asking or unable to voice my disappointment in failing. Allow me to sort out my feelings before wiping away my tears. 

I need forgiveness when I fail You . Nothing hurts me more than to know I've failed or displeased You and I need to be forgiven once I've made amends. It is very hard for me to forgive myself for a wrong-doing and I may need Your help in getting beyond the feelings of remorse I am carrying. I may even need to be punished, if my wrong-doing was traumatic enough, in order to feel closure and accept forgiveness. I depend on You to make that determination for me and need Your help in making an atonement that is acceptable to You. 

I need to feel I contribute. I have a deep-set need to give and must have outlets for this need. My basic nature is to give of myself and You will be the primary recipient of my gifts. Allow me to contribute to our relationship and our life together. To do less will leave me unfulfilled and unneeded, a fate worse than death for me. Provide me with ways to contribute things to others, also. I may need to give of myself to those I hold dear but You will always receive the best I have to offer. 

I need to enjoy successes. Without experiencing and enjoying my successes I may give up my fight to be all You desire for me. Allow me the pleasure of savouring the taste of victory when I overcome an obstacle or if You find pride in my attempts. All of my successes belong to You and I need to share their rewards with You. I don't expect You to spoil me with grand displays for little victories, but when I've reached beyond the limits of my past attempts, please don't deny me the sweet feelings of knowing I've achieved a goal You've set. 

I need to share with You. Sharing with You is a compelling need and one of the cornerstones of my submissive nature. This includes the emotional and spiritual aspects of my being as well as the physical body I inhabit. It may be difficult for me to give You access to the deeper levels of my emotions and feelings but those are the things I need to share the most. I'll depend on You to direct me in ways I can achieve total openness with You. I also need to share in the things You are. Trust me enough to share in Your fears, failures and struggles. I'll never see You as weak or incapable because You have shown confidence in me by giving part of Yourself in trust. 

I need to feel loved, respected, and protected in Your ownership . No matter how well I've done or how miserably I've failed, I need to know I'm still loved and protected by You. Nothing will prevent me from trying new things like fear of losing Your respect and love. By the reverse, nothing will encourage me to expand my limits and grow to be all I am capable of being more than knowing You will be there to protect me from harm and will love me even if I fall short of the target. I need to be loved and to love You in return. I can't survive without it. 


1/18/2014 4:18:02 PM

A Poem that I came across in a book that I am reading called "The Submissive". A Poem that touched me.

 The red rose whispers of passion,

And the white rose breaths of love;

O the red rose is a falcon,

And the white rose is a dove.

But I send you a cream-white  rosebud

With a flush on it's petal tips;

For the love that is purest and sweetest

Has a kiss of desire on the lips.

 Why is it so hard to find a Man that is a Dom that is loving, caring, honest and sincere and romantic.  That knows how to give love and knows how to treat a lady... ~sigh~

 


1/9/2014 8:45:25 PM

Here is to 2014 and hoping this year is ALOT better.  The last 15 months have been very hard for me.  It's hard being a single mom and going through a Divorce.  I work three jobs and it just seems all I do is work, work, work just to barely make ends meet.  All I can do is keep my chin up and keep pushing forward... 


12/24/2013 12:51:05 PM

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10/28/2013 7:53:51 PM

Lyrics to a song I like :)

 

The only aphrodisiac I need is your voice
Hearing you speak my name
Beckoning me to answer
Telling me you want me
So I tell you that you're the answer to every question I've ever had about love


Without words I use my tongue to tell the tale of us
Tracing your shadowscape
Kneeling before you my eyes feast upon your masculinity and
All its divinity and I praise you
Because all of that is for me


I begin to indulge myself of your delicacies
Digesting semi-sweet dark chocolate decadence as it melts
Dripping down my chin
Your taste is something Godiva couldn't re-create

Needing every atom of your anatomy
Necessity is placed upon me knowing you are the source of my serendipity
Dipping in and out of me stroking more than my consciesness
Subconsciously I find myself rewinding our love scenes
In my daydreams
Seeing that face you make when you're making me cum
And it makes me want you right there and then

Thinking of you in inappropriate places I get
Tingling sensations in private locations where I wish to be caught between a rock and your hard place

As wetness develops my legs begin to open and my spot turns to a backdraft and all I want you to do is extinguish it
You know my body like the back of your hands
And touch me and send me into ecstacy


My thighs quiver in anticipation of deep penetration which gets me high
Body rising
Sweating
Panting
Make-up melting
Pulling my hair and
Scratching my back
I get a temporary case of tourettes because all I can say are four letter words in a four octave-range screaming your name

Aye papi.... *English Translation of Spanish Lyrics* "You are so big and so hard, you give it to me so good, you are my mortal sin."


You fucking me makes me bilingual
You fucking me makes me bilingual
You fucking me makes me bilingual
You fucking me makes me bilingual
You fucking me makes me bilingual

I see your tongue pink between your lips and I want it between mine
And I struggle
As you lick torturing me
I try to get away but
Not really


Running out of room begging for more up against the wall that has been scuffed by my stilletos
Again
You pry apart my thighs and tell me to be still
And I willingly submit to you because I love the way you dominate me
Demanding that I cum for you so I do as I'm told


You've molded me so I'm good to no-one else but you
You've conquered this once orgasmicless world and multiplied it
Again and
Again

My face radiates with after-glow
My pillow scented by you
A fragrance which haunts me
My room smells of the best sex


Covered in body prints and finger prints and you above me
Your name written indelibly upon my body in your genetic history


You fucking me makes me bilingual
You fucking me makes me bilingual
You fucking me makes me bilingual
You fucking me makes me bilingual
You fucking me makes me bilingual
You fucking me makes me bilingual
You fucking me makes me bilingual
You fucking me makes me bilingual
You fucking me makes me bilingual



10/10/2013 8:45:13 PM

 I've made mistakes in my life. I've let people take advantage of me, and I accepted way less than I deserve. But I've learned from my bad choices and even though there are some things I can never get back and people who will never be sorry. I'll know better next time and I won't settle for anything less than I deserve.


9/22/2013 6:08:46 PM

Words can't express enough the pain, hurt and disappointment I am feeling right now.  A Dom is suppose to Love, Cherish, Protect and be a Man of His word to His sub.  I have spent the last 9 months giving my all to a Dom that in a blink of an eye just abandoned me.  How does a Dom in one breath say He loves you and wants to spend the rest of His life with you and in the next stops texting and calling you and does not return your text or emails.  I am so sick of the broken promises and the hurt.  Why is it so hard for a Dom to be a Man of His word and a Man that keeps His promises.  Communication is an important part of any relationship.  If You can't communicate with Your sub through the good times or bad times then You should not be in a relationship.  This Lifestyle is about Respect.  Abandoning a sub shows no Respect.  It shows a Coward.   


1/1/2013 8:06:03 AM

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12/25/2012 7:34:21 AM

I just wanted to wish E/everyone a Merry Christmas ♥

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10/18/2012 10:18:20 PM

Had a shoegasm today looking at Iron Fist Shoes.  One day I would like to own one pair of their shoes.  Love em!


10/16/2012 8:07:08 PM

~sigh~ So today I got another ignorant message from the same person from the other month that sent me a rude message.  I have never talked to this person and have no idea why they keep sending rude messages to me.  I have reported them and it seems CM has done nothing about it.  

 

 

hey fatty I see your husband went on a diet and left your fat ass

 

 That message was sent from Maryland22.


First off I'm not fat I'm curvy.  I have lost 30 lbs so far.  Secondly my husband didn't leave me.  I left him because he did something to my daughter and me that is unforgivable.  


9/22/2012 9:09:52 PM

The beauty of a woman, isn't in the clothes she wears.  The figure that she carries or the way she combs her hair.  The beauty of a woman is seen in her eyes, because that's the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides.  The true beauty in a woman, is reflected by her soul.  It's the caring that she gives and the passion that she shows.  And the beauty of a woman, with passing years, only grows...


9/13/2012 8:45:33 AM

Have been through a lot in the last month.  Was hit with some devastating news in the last month in regards to my soon to be ex husband.  Have been dealing with real life and picking up the pieces.  Will be moving to Richmond VA in the next few weeks to start a new chapter in my life...  


6/19/2012 7:59:42 PM
I sometimes feel that what I seek just simply does not exist...

5/31/2012 9:50:45 AM

WOW so today I get an email from someone that I have never talked to and this is what it says.

**One nighters, players and trolls look elsewhere** you cheat on your husband you fucking fat cow slut weather he is ok with it or not you are just a cunt

That message was sent by maryland22

 ~sigh~ Sadly this is not the first time I have gotten an email like this and I'm sure it won't be the last.  Some people just have no manners. If you don't like BBW's then fine.  If you don't like married submissives then fine.  Why waste your time and energy sending out ignorant immature emails like that.  Grow up. 


5/28/2012 9:15:48 AM

Happy Memorial Day Everyone.  Thank you to all our troops that are serving, for those that have served, and those we have lost.  Thank you for protecting us and our freedom.


5/20/2012 8:46:58 AM

As many of you know I am NOT into Poly nor do I want to be shared.  To me a true D/s relationship is about a deep connection and bond that only a Dominant and submissive can share together.  I just don't understand when I see Dominants that have more then one submissive.  It takes a lot of time, energy, and devotion for a Dominant and submissive to give to each other in a D/s relationship.  There is so much more to this Lifestyle then just spankings, bondage etc...  Don't get me wrong the spankings and bondage are wonderful :) but finding that deep connection with a Dominant is so powerful and rewarding.  It seems there are so many Doms that share or have more then one submissive.  I do understand to each their own but where is the line drawn from it being a true D/s relationship to just being swingers or kinksters?


5/13/2012 10:09:19 PM

So after hearing all the rave about Fifty Shades of Grey book I finally went out and bought the whole set. All I can say is OMG I am so in love with Christian Grey in this book lol. I'm already on chapter 6. This book is addicting and I can't stop reading it!!! Who else is reading this book and I want to know your thoughts on it :)  And where are all the Christian Grey's out there? lol


2/13/2012 6:47:31 PM
Wishing E/everyone a Happy Valentines Day :)

2/10/2012 11:16:20 AM
Since I have a corset fetish, I came across a site that sells some beautiful corsets. The site is called www.hipsandcurves.com :)

2/9/2012 7:22:07 PM
Am wondering if anyone is going to the LF&P at the Crucible in March?

2/6/2012 8:08:42 AM
So i have started exercising again. Last night I did Zumba. Can I just say OMG I love it but am I sore lol. Its alot of fun and you burn so many calories. I burned 380 calories last night. I burned more doing Zumba then I did working out on the treadmill. My goal is to do Zumba every night. Wish me luck :)

12/24/2011 8:10:21 AM

Wishing E/everyone a wonderful Merry Christmas and Happy New Year :)


12/9/2011 12:01:19 PM

I just wanted to let everyone know that in the last month I have been very busy with moving and unpacking.  Also I have been having a hard time finding internet for where I am at.  So I have been going to Panera Bread to use their internet when I can.  I did buy a mifi at verizon last night but it is limited and seems sometimes I can get a signal for internet and sometimes I can't.  For those that have emailed me please know I am not ignoring you and will reply as soon as I can :)


9/19/2011 8:23:15 PM

I came across a site that I fell in love with.  It's called Iron Fist Clothing and their website is www.ironfistclothing.com.  I love love love their shoes!!!.  I'm having a hard time deciding on which pair of shoes I want to buy from their.  Any suggestions?


8/29/2011 6:24:21 PM

Tonight I just feel like screaming and crying lol.  What a week it has been.   There was a mandatory evacuation for my area due to Hurricane Irene.  I packed all my important pictures, furniture, documents from my house and storage and was stuck in a hotel for 2 days to ride out the storm.  I'm thankful that there was no damage to my house and it is still standing.  On top of all that I have been busy planning for a huge business trip that I leave for this Thursday.  And now tonight my glasses broke lol.  I'm not suppose to drive with out my glasses and it will take 2 weeks for them to get fixed.  Ugh.  I swear when it rain it pours.  I really need a vacation, some tlc, a nice glass of wine and perhaps a good spanking lol 


8/23/2011 11:33:02 AM

Just experienced my first earthquake. My house shook and things fell down off the walls and shelves. Very scary. I hope everyone is safe and ok.


8/17/2011 11:13:03 PM

This is a quote for all of us BBW's.  "Once you go Big you never go twig" *smiles*


8/15/2011 9:34:18 PM

So tonight I get an email from someone that I have never talked to and this is what it says.

 

"i can't believe that you fat piggy chicks have the audactity!" ~toroloco

 

I have three words.  SPELL CHECK ASSHOLE.  It's spelled Audacity!

 

Sadly this is not the first time I have gotten an email like this and I'm sure it won't be the last.  Some people just have no manners. If you don't like BBW's then fine.  Why waste your time and energy on ignorant immature emails like that.  Grow up and Move on.  


8/11/2011 7:42:22 PM

So I have to admit I have slacked in the last week and a half going to the gym.  I have been in a blah mood.  The fact that it is 20 minutes away from me and I am paying tolls going back and forth over the bridge was not helping.  So I joined another gym that is only 5 minutes from where I live lol.  I will be back on track starting this Monday coming up.  Why is it so hard losing weight Ugh.  I need to stay positive and focused on my goal :)


7/27/2011 1:34:20 PM

It seems that my profile is not clear enough. I would like to clarify a few things.  

 

I am NOT looking to just be a plaything.  

 

Please DO NOT add me if you have not even sent me one email to say Hi and introduce yourself.

 

ALL fakes and wannabe's please DO NOT apply.

 

If you are new to the Lifestyle and have not taken the time to educate yourself and have some experience in this Lifestyle then please DO NOT apply.

 

If every conversation has to turn into cybering or sex talk then please DO NOT apply.

 

If honesty and communication is not important to you then please DO NOT apply.

 

If you are younger then me please DO NOT apply.

 

Sorry it has been a rough week and I just needed to get these things off my chest. Hope E/everyone is having a better week then me :)

 

 

 

 

 

 


7/26/2011 10:31:56 AM

Yesterday I worked out at the gym for an hour and a half.  I am so sore today lol  I'm committing myself this week to the gym Monday - Friday.  Wish me luck I'm going to need it :)


7/20/2011 11:28:33 PM

I came across a verse today that spoke to me.

 

"A Man cannot turn His back on what is His"

 

I'm not sure why these words spoke to me but they just did :)


7/18/2011 9:21:30 PM

Recently, in a large city in Australia, a poster featuring a young, thin and tan woman appeared in the window of a gym.
It said, "This summer, do you want to be a mermaid or a whale?"

A middle-aged woman, whose physical characteristics did not match those of the woman on the poster, responded publicly to the question posed by the gym.

To Whom It May Concern,

Whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, sea lions, curious humans.) They have an active sex life, get pregnant and have adorable baby whales. They have a wonderful time with dolphins stuffing themselves with shrimp. They play and swim in the seas, seeing wonderful places like Patagonia, the Bering Sea and the coral reefs of Polynesia. Whales are wonderful singers and have even recorded CDs. They are incredible creatures and virtually have no predators other than humans. They are loved, protected and admired by almost everyone in the world.

Mermaids don't exist. If they did exist, they would be lining up outside the offices of Argentinean psychoanalysts due to identity crisis. Fish or human? They don't have a sex life because they kill men who get close to them, not to mention how could they have sex? Just look at them ... where is IT? Therefore, they don't have kids either. Not to mention, who wants to get close to a girl who smells like a fish store? The choice is perfectly clear to me: I want to be a whale.

P.S. We are in an age when media puts into our heads the idea that only skinny people are beautiful, but I prefer to enjoy an ice cream with my kids, a good dinner with a man who makes me shiver, and a piece of chocolate with my friends.

With time, we gain weight because we accumulate so much information and wisdom in our heads that when there is no more room, it distributes out to the rest of our bodies. So we aren't heavy, we are enormously cultured, educated and happy.

Beginning today, when I look at my butt in the mirror I will think, "Good grief, look how smart I am!" :)

 


7/7/2011 1:31:35 PM

I just started my third week of exercising.  I weighed myself today and I have lost 4lbs.  It's not much but it's a start.  I have been doing 35 minutes on the treadmill, 5 minutes on the stepper and I just started doing circuit training (I think that is what it is called).  It's 12 machines and you are on each machine for 45 seconds.  I hope E/everyone had a wonderful 4th of July :)


6/30/2011 8:27:25 AM

I was wondering when you start working out in the beginning can you lose inches first before weight?


6/27/2011 12:59:59 PM

Today started week 2 of working out.  I am doing 30-35 minutes of treadmill and 5 minutes of the stepper.  My muscles have been sore the last few days lol. I appreciate all the emails I have received of advice and encouragement.  Please keep them coming :) 


6/23/2011 5:34:31 PM

A few days ago I signed up at a local Gym.  Today was my second day.  My goal is to go 5 days a week.  I can say I am feeling the burn today lol.  I need all the support and encouragement I can get :)


6/20/2011 12:54:12 PM

I am interested in hearing from a Dom's point of view what it means to them to be a True Dom.  What do you think it takes to be a True Dom?  What qualities does a True Dom have?


6/18/2011 6:38:45 PM

Just wanted to wish all the Father's out there a Happy Father's Day :)


6/7/2011 5:36:21 PM

Quote of the Day:

 

"In my submission I have found freedom"


6/5/2011 10:09:43 PM

I came across a poem today that I wanted to share.  There are a few lines in this poem that spoke to me "I need to know I'm still alive", "that I may feel this sense I lack", and "I've been numb for such a time".  There are times in our lives that we need to feel needed and touched.

Touch me

by A Thomas Hawkins

Touch me,

it doesn't matter where
and it doesnt matter how
I need to know I'm still alive
so someone touch me now
Shake my hand and say hello
or pat me on the back
kiss me on the cheek
that I may feel this sense I lack
slap my face and pull my hair
make me bleed I just don't care
dig your nails into my skin
so I can feed this need within
I've been numb for such a time
that even pain would be sublime
so touch me, touch me now
i don't care where, I don't care how

 


4/28/2009 11:41:29 AM
I just wanted to say that Friday is my Birthday.  Let the spankings begin *smiles*

3/5/2009 7:42:20 PM
::::::Question::::: When should a collared sub ask to be released or remove her collar?  I am asking this question in general.  

2/24/2009 1:44:15 PM
The Beauty of a woman isn't in the clothes she wears. The figure that she carries or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman is seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides. The true beauty in a woman, is reflected by her soul. It's the caring that she gives, and the passion that she shows. And the beauty of a woman, with passing years, only grows.

2/16/2009 5:00:50 PM
Quote of the Day "I am not here to be a convient past time.  I am here to be your passion."

2/14/2009 11:06:34 AM

I just wanted to wish E/everyone a Happy Valentines Day.  Hugs


2/3/2009 8:21:17 PM

Drama, Lies & Friendship

It is amazing how much drama can be started when people don't have all the facts straight. This can cause unwanted relationship problems between people as well as hurt feelings and lost friendships. People should have their facts straight before spewing out lies about others. The term Frienship seems to be used loosely sometimes. A True friend is suppose to be there for you and and help protect you from things that could be potentially hurtful to you in the future. They are not suppose to tell you things to hurt you by waiting to tell you. Telling half the truth is not telling the truth. I have never been one to tolerate Drama & B/S games. To me that is so childish and immature. Honesty & Respect have always been very important to me and it is something that I give but also expect in return. It seems there are a few that could use a good lesson on Honesty, Respect and Friendship.


1/12/2009 9:16:47 AM
As a sub i find the need to want to submit, be spanked, restrained etc more stronger some days. Today is one of those days. i was wondering if Dom's ever have those days where those cravings are stronger? If so how do You deal with it? As a sub how do You deal with it?

1/8/2009 11:07:10 AM

Ok I dont know if anyone has seen this on the news yet but we have 19 days or so left before Obama takes office and Mrs. Bush just recently went out and spent 425,000.00 on new china for the White House.  With the economy the way it is this upsets me.  How can one justify going out and spending 425,000.00 on china that they are not going to use.  That 425,000.00 can be put to better use with feeding and suppling shelter for those in need etc...  I think it is time we stand up and say ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!!


1/7/2009 2:02:33 PM

i just wanted to let E/everyone know that i added some new pictures to my profile.  They were taken on New Years.  Hope You enjoy :)


12/31/2008 10:09:18 PM
I just wanted to wish E/everyone a Happy New Year!!!  May this year bring me more spankings :)

Hugs

10/18/2008 7:00:44 AM
Wow nothing like waking up to an email like this.  Keep in mind that i have never talked to this person.  i guess he didnt like my previous journal entry.  Just as a Dom, a sub has the right to have qualities that they look for in their O/one...  If you don't like what i posted on my journal entry why waste your time and energy.  Move on.  No need to hate and be negative.  Just my opinion.   

"Take all of your demands and shove them YOU dont play well with others and your married give us all a break.You people who call yourselves subs/slaves and start making demands like your the Dom.Im sure you Dom him.Go to myspace or e-harmony .com if you want to top from the bottom.Better yet just GO.   StripeMaster"

9/25/2008 5:22:29 PM
my Dom:

1. Be friends first and want to get to know me for who i am on the inside. 
2. Confident but not cocky.
3. i do have limits so please respect them.
4. i want a Dom that is a Gentleman but with a firm hand.
5. For Him to be loving.
6. For Him to be caring.
7. For Him to be romantic.
8. i want Him to know Who He is and where He is going in life.
9. Won’t leave me hanging.
10. Won’t disappear for awhile without telling me.
11. i want Him to be honest about everything.
12. Enjoys doing things outside the Lifestyle with me too.
13. Realize that there are times i want to be held and times i want to be taken.
14. Has eyes only for me.
15. Can get inside my mind.

9/16/2008 7:12:55 PM

Quote of the Day...

"Never make someone a priority when they only make you an option"


9/4/2008 12:11:50 PM

It has been a rough few weeks.  I lost my Grandmother on August 24.  She was like a second Mom to me.  I know she is in a better place and is no longer suffering.  I miss her so much.  During that time a Dom that i had been talking with for a long time decided to turn and walk away.  At a time i needed Him to be there to comfort and guide me through this time of loss.  It is something i will never understand.  I know the healing will take time and i hold my chin up looking ahead, walking down the path and continuing my journey in search of my One...   


8/26/2008 8:41:05 PM

Quote of the day

Fear not the journey into your darkest desires

Fear only the strength to return to the light of reality.


8/26/2008 8:38:50 PM
Some things i seek in One


with His thoughts...He will direct me.
with His discipline...He will guide me.
with His chains....He will free me.
with His whip........ He will heal me.
with His hands........He will teach me.
with His heart.....He will always take care of me.

8/11/2008 8:40:06 PM
i am reading a book called Going Down... Surrender to his skill by Vonna Harper.  There is a quote i came across that i wanted to share.

"You know you crave what I offer.  No matter how much you try to deny what lies deep inside you, the truth is in your eyes.  And here."

i am not sure why this quote touched me but it did...



7/7/2008 8:01:29 PM

Be careful of who you meet, for what you say
of what you do.

Guard your heart well. Don't let it go too quickly to another.  Don't look for words spoken, but for actions shown.

Don't dream too much. Don't let your thoughts consume you of what 'could be', lest you be left with the heartache of what might have been.

Don't follow the pathway made by others you admire and trust.  Dare to dream you have a better route and blaze a trail.

Let your heart soar, but don't let it fly to another.  Let your mind wander, but keep yourself grounded.

Don't fear the things unknown to you..fear the lack of courage that keeps you from trying.

Don't be afraid of the fall...just be careful of who's hands you trust to catch you.

Open your heart if you dare, but be ready for another to shut it for you.  Just be careful with your heart, but be more careful with someone else's.


5/29/2008 1:36:14 PM

Quote of the day

"To say you have no limits is to say you have no value on life or yourself"


4/30/2008 9:18:14 PM

Happy Birthday to me.
Happy Birthday to me.
Happy Birthday to me.
Happy Birthday to me.
Yay me i'm turning 33!!!
Yes i'm a may day baby :)


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deborahjames
 
 Age: 21
 London, United Kingdom