TelltaleTurncoat

About TelltaleTurncoat

About Me

In serious need of an update considering recent events and activities. Milestones as well I suppose. Not as though you were going to read this whole thing anyway... Also I need to get my own place if only so I can set my webcam up and get a decent picture. I hate this goddamn, pretentious looking, myspace-esque photo I have as my profile pic.

A Brief (Hardly Kink Related) Introduction

My name is Tyler and I am currently a resident of Kingston, Ontario, the city were I was born and raised and unfortunately never wanted to return to. I have been interested in “the scene” for as long as I can remember though I am certain that I was not always aware of the vernacular or its sexual implications. Back then I was just the innocent, naïve little boy who had an indecent enthusiasm for the schoolyard game of Cops & Robbers. However as the years progressed, age and the ability to bypass parental controls brought about a loss of that innocence. Gone are my days of unproductive cheating and skipping-rope handcuffs as I have since some to know and fall madly in love with nearly everything that is BDSM, Kink and Role-play.
Though you might not think it to hear me speak (or to read this) I am actually a very shy person. I feel very uncomfortable being the subject of attention for people whom I do not already know personally. This has been very contrary to my goal of meeting new people and leaving favourable impressions. I am not one to hold eye contact with strangers though I am almost guaranteed to say something stupid in a barely concealed nervous fit. I personally find this frustrating because no matter how resolute I am in overcoming my own social awkwardness I always seem to end up being “that guy”. You know that guy, the one who hangs out by the punch bowl looking determinedly at other people’s feet? That’s me and I could do with a hug.

"The Scene” and I

Though I have been something of a fan of such things as bondage and role-play for most of my life I am not likely to be considered more experienced in these areas than any other member and should certainly be considered less experienced than most. Though my perverted mind and decent internet access have given me an eyebrow raising familiarity with various kinks I can still only (truthfully) claim to have been an active participant in scenes that all but the most vanilla of us would call juvenile. At this juncture in my life I am fit only to discuss the various uses of duct tape and the pleasing sounds of the pestered helpless while I fantasize of something more edgy.

I have very little practical experience with toys, props, kinks or fetishes though I am practicing what I have found my way into and am eager to learn about and throw myself headlong into others. As I have only just begun to explore my facinations with BDSM I am not truly aware of my preferences and am at this point only able to share what I desire to try more than others. I am very much looking forward to exploring all the kinks and fetishes I can stomach the thought of (so ix nay on the scat play) so that I may truly get to know myself better. And the way I look at it: The sooner and more thoroughly I explore them the better.

Hot n' Bothered

As mentioned previously I've had an interest in the lifestyle pretty much before I knew how long division worked. I have always been particularly interested in restraints as I am sure most are. I've always loved tying people up and being tied up, there's just something about not being able to defend yourself that's supremely arousing and watching someone struggle and squirm is second only to nirvana in terms of satisfaction. I mean think about it; you're all tied up and can't stop what's going to happen to you. What is going to happen to you though? They could explore your body and watch you wriggle when they cross your sensitive areas, getting a feel to how you react to different touches in different places. Are they going to use their discoveries later? You bet your ass they are! Are you a little scared now? You damn well should be, you don't know when their touch is going to be a slap, they might make sure you're in near ecstasy until **WHAM!** they hit you with an onomatopoeia and a hard slap to something sensitive. You don't like being tickled? What the hell are you going to do about it? Flop around begging them to stop because you can't escape of course. There is just so much that they can do and you can't stop any of it. Restraints are exciting whether you’re a top or a bottom. For me it's always been the feelings of dread and helplessness coupled with anticipation that make being tied up so desirable. And it's the look on peoples faces when they're experiencing the same emotions that makes me love tying people up.

Aside from the extensive creative licence that restraints give a Master, Mistress, Dom(me) or Top I have always found the idea of control appealing in both dominant and submissive roles. The feeling of steering someone or being steered to do something is powerfully attractive whether by obedience or forced compliance, stick or carrot methods. Are you to perform a perverse act on your master? Will they render you unable to act against their wishes? Will they grant you pleasure only if you endure pain? Will you be punished if you are disobedient? Are you in such a state that they will simply have their way with you? There are many flavours of control to choose from and I love them all.

Sensory deprivation and what I can only think to call 'bodily manipulation' are other things that I know I enjoy. Not being able to see what's coming is both scary and erotic which is why blindfolds are so popular. Hearing the sound of what’s comming but not knowing when it's coming is sure to get your heart going and I have yet to meet a Dom/me who doesn't love to watch your head turn, body go rigid and ass shake in expectation of the unknown. If you can't hear then how can you tell if someone's behind you? It's quite a shock when they grab you or have other such fun. If you can't see or hear then you don't know what's going to happen until it does. You might jump, you might turn to get away and walk right into something or someone else. Cat got your tongue? I can't hear you say **"Stop!"** though your own panties. Slap a ring gag on and watch you drool all over yourself or pop a ball gag in and listen to you moan when your jaw starts to hurt along with your freshly raw hindquarters. The way I look at play, everything fits together and nothing ties every sensation together better than crippling one of yours. Or mine, depending on who's on the receiving end.
Apart from those elaborated above I have not had much experience with anything outstandingly sexual let alone kinky but not for lack of interest. I have never whipped or been whipped for example but I am as curious about whips as I am about most other things. I like restraints and control, gags and blindfolds, men and women alike but I have not experienced enough to form any opinions on other kinks, fetishes and activities.

Chaste Interests

As whips and chains are not topics typical of everyday conversation you could not possibly begin to know me unless I were to at least briefly share my interests outside of the scene. These interests are wide and varied and can be filed under a few choice categories of fun having...

- Sports and Athletics
Though my body type would suggest otherwise a few of my favourite activities to partake in are hockey, soccer and basketball. I also enjoy taking long walks, swimming and even at 21 years old I still cannot pass up an opportunity to play a game of grounders.

- Movies and Television
I try my best not to watch television though there are a few shows such as Dexter, ATHF and Robot Chicken that I follow and I do like to catch a hockey game once in a while whether at the bar or with family and friends. Movies on the other hand are my vice. I spend way too much time just looking for new movies to watch let alone actually watching them. I have quite a collection going now, around 400, everything from Ace Ventura to Zombieland.

- Music and Instruments
Music sustains me. Having gone through a few bandwagon phases in my life I have acquired a taste for quite a few genres. I listen to pretty much anything now and am always eager to hear something new. I think that all music is pretty much shit but that every once in a while you find something truly splendid buried beneath all the utter crap that shares its label. I don't have favourite bands just albums and singles that I happen to enjoy. Apart from my love of listening to music I also love playing music. I own and play guitar's sexier cousin the bass guitar. And my bass is super sexy, her name is Molly and she is the Soul Train that cometh.

- In Good Company
I find that when I'm with friends I don't much care for what we do as long as we do it together. Good company has the power to make even NASCAR tolerable. That being said, some activities are definitely more fun than others. For example I thoroughly enjoy abusing my liver around decidedly bad influences or grabbing a cup of coffee.

Me: The Good, the Bad and the Homely

As I am not opposed to or above using this service as a giant personal ad I feel that I should at least include a description of my physical self in order to deter potential blows to my self-esteem. I am almost 5'11' with short, dark brown hair and hazel coloured eyes. I am athletic though I am not built in such a way that would lead people to believe so. I am wide set and pudgy bordering on fat, or just fat depending on your frame of reference. I'm a little lopsided and have a bulging stomach. I would not consider myself unattractive though I can empathise with those who would. I am not your Greek god, your tiny delivery boy or any other one of your fantasies. I have some serious flaws and now you know of some of my physical ones.

On the Prowl

This section needs to be revised not because the following paragraphs do not fairly represent my tastes or because they make me sound like a gigantic douchebag (which they do) but because they only represent a very narrow, shallow, incomprehensive and age specific portion of my tastes. You will find very little discussion on personality traits I find attractive which is really what sets your fantasy partener apart from your fantasy love doll, so obviously this section could be much more insightful than it is now...

I've been asked before "What is your type?" and although my usual response to this question is "to drunk to fight back." I have been giving quite a bit of thought to it lately. I used to think that to be predispositioned to find people possessed of particular features, proportions and fashion senses attractive was deplorable. Now having realised that I myself am quite a deplorable individual I have come to terms with that, although I am not selective of friends or lovers, there are particular qualities that I at least passively look for in others. And indeed I do find members of particular subcultures intrinsically more fascinating than others. Although I do think that this brand of bias is typical I am a little disappointed in myself for having it. But disregarding my own misgivings with my vain paradigm the following paragraphs will elaborate on the things that draw my attention and interest in both a chaste and perverted frame of mind.

More than anything I enjoy the company of people who are 'edgy'. People who live for themselves and don't put up with any bullshit. I find this character trait appealing because not only are these people upfront with their emotions and ideas but because the only way you can have an awkward moment with them is if you really try to. With other people I have to worry about saying something that makes them uncomfortable and reserved. But not with the edgy ones, oh no! They'll just tell you to fuck off and then you know for sure where you stand. I've always had a deep respect for people who can speak their mind and aren't afraid to hear what others have to say as well.

For whatever reason I've always been drawn to girls who could be described as being *Goth* or *Indie*. I'm not exactly sure why but I do have my suspicions. I've always enjoyed the gothic look and music myself and I love the images that the term invokes. But discounting the fashion, music and scenery I think the reason why I find goth girls attractive is because they represent something different than the norm of the world in which I grew up. Something darker, tougher and much more metal clad. I'm at more of a loss for why I like indie girls though. My image of your typical scenester is a strange, random and pretentious dick so for the time being I have to concede that I might actually be attracted to people who are abnormal and complete twats. If that's not the case then the only other reasons I can think of are because of their nouveau hipster attire, "Fuck the Norm" attitude (whether genuine or not) and their stark opposition to the mainstream. Or possibly because I think they might know of cooler places than I do. Apart from showing favouritism to members of these subcultures I also have a purely sexual fascination with a woman's feet. Again I am not exactly sure why I do though I take comfort in knowing that it is the world’s most common fetish. I've always found the shape alluring and nail polish, especially those of vibrant colours, has quite an overwhelming affect on my libido. I also tend to pursue woman who are 'cute' as opposed to how the media portrays 'sexy'. I guess I just love the innocent look and graphic panties.

My fascinations about the male form and psyche have always been easier to pinpoint and explain though are quite a bit more vain than my interests in women. I have never romanticized the male members of any particular subculture or label. Nothing a man could wear or listen to would make me show any more interest in him than without. However I am quite shallow when it comes to my physical attraction to members of the same sex. I prefer to have romantic or purely sexual relations with men who are either similar in height, fit or skinny and boyish or otherwise taller, stronger and toned. Not to say that I am only attracted to men who fit these models exactly, these are just things that I look for with hungry eyes. So if you look like you belong in a 90's punk band or have chiselled abs and pecks I will ask that you not grab me for fear that I might melt in your arms.