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Firstly, I won't reply or even open a message to anyone who doesn't have or include a facial photo, and I won't reply to anyone who isn't in the UK.

Me, Myself, and I


Sadistic, switchy submissive little girl who happens to be a masochistic kitten cat wolf


I'm not broken, so therefore I don't need fixing :)


I can be a complex individual at times and very contradictory and confusing to other people, my fears and insecurities can make me seem a little callous, cold, hard-faced and at times little spiteful (flaws I am currently trying to work on)


I'm bloody minded, stubborn and very opinionated.


I rarely let people into my life, not fully, though they may assume they are in.

I'm happiest when I'm curled up with someone though I am not good with intimacy at the best of times, so this rarely happens


I'm not your typical female, I have hidden depths that not many know about or see, and I have an awful bad habit of becoming what you want me to be, and not whom I am...


I should say now I have possible bipolar, my moods can spin on a coin in a matter of minutes ....if you can't handle it then please don't talk to me, the number of people who think they can but can't is quite large, all i need is a little time and patience, not someone being funny, or taking off.


People do have a tendency to become addicted almost to me, and I have no idea why, love is a word I don't tend to trust, as people confuse it so often with other things.

I are an attentionwhore at times, as well as a massive loner, so yeah kinda at polar opposites to myself.


I am suited to being a Daddy's girl.


Now I don't see myself as kinky, because what I do is pretty normal to me, however, there are people out there that see me as extremely kinky, as well as an edge player.

I'm loyal and will fight for what I believe in till the end, I don't hold many peopel with high regard and those select few that do I would do anything for.I do however, think this quality is a double edged sword


films I like

Mary Poppins, Irreversible (yes I like it, yes, i know i'm female),A Clockwork Orange, Scum, ID, Killing Zoe, Resevoir Dogs, Ginger Snaps, Snuff movie, Trainspotting, Let Me In, Lock Stock, The Secretary, 9 Songs, Snatchm Practical Magic, Live and Let Die
The Holiday

Musical Taste - -Just as diverse as my film taste


I likes in no particular order


sparkly things, anything pink (but we keeps that quiet), loud intense thought provoking music, chess, tattoos, piercings, myself, stars, snow, the sea, fresh white snow on a starry night, dusk, cuddles, sleepy cuddles, vampires, strokes, hair pulling, shaved heads, intense eyes, deep connections, fuck me shoes, men in glasses, teasing, toying, loving, every kind of kiss, lust, love, kitten cat ears, taking, talking, growling, corsets, keeping people out, letting the right one in , conversation, being told i'm beautiful, being told i'm good, being looked at is if time has stopped still and i'm the only thing in it, bras, fluffy socks, fresh bedding, teddies, betty boop, hot chocolate, cheesecake, floating, cupcakes, **the sea, trees, poetry, a reason to write, bruises, crawling, tears, tiaras, getting what i want, not getting what i want, lightening, storms, rain walking, PDA's, Holding Hands, listening to someones heartbeat as i fall asleep, cuddles, sheep skin rugs, cinnamon, the smell of petrol, territorial people, jealous people, people watching, watching sunsets, watching sunrises, talking all night, red wine, white wine, vodka, a nice whiskey, having my hair played with, handwriting, cuddles for no reason, mary poppins, and being content


I dislikes in no particular order


marmite, fakery, liars, manipulation for the wrong reaons, being ignored, having pcos, ignorant people, overly arrogant people, big dogs, dead fish, having little patience, corned beef, cold wet feet, fireworks that only go bang, doctors, hospitals, cockroaches, crows, not being able to look after people, being held at arms length, lack of respect, lack of courtesy, bullies, selfishness, people with more money than sense, the smell of pigs, losing money, judgement, feet, road rage, bendy buses, being alone, ET, conforming, smelly cheese, rough pubs, pshyco ex's, being lost, arguments, sugar coated bullshit, narrowmindedness, dolphins, garlic, racism, sexism, well basically any isms with negative connotations, and pushing good peple back


really im sweet, in a i will rip out your soul and eat you for breakfast kinda way.


if you message me with a view to trying to start something, ask yourself this: 'When arguments arise, or things don't go your way do you stalk off and ignore people/shut them out/turn your back on them for a while?' if you answered yes then I am not one to be in your life even as a friend.


if i'm lied to, i WILL find out


5/22/2013 3:49:26 AM
Having trouble editing profile, whoever, I am nit looking. In a long term relationship :-)
11/29/2011 1:18:17 PM

hospital tomorrow :(

8/8/2011 9:17:44 AM

so excited! loving having my own house!

7/11/2011 2:36:35 PM

had the keys 3 days and already lots done to house

6/9/2011 1:39:54 PM

first day of diet has gone well :)

5/28/2011 11:30:33 PM

feel poorly :(

5/28/2011 8:06:45 AM

Moving back to Accrington, offer on house accepted sooo excited

5/24/2011 1:11:19 PM

looks like i'll be moving soon

5/23/2011 9:15:30 AM

so excited....cannot wrap my head round things eeeeeep.

 

 

5/10/2011 9:50:31 AM

new piercing tomorrow :)

5/8/2011 9:36:26 AM

Fluffy blankets, jammies and how i met your mother = win :)

2/20/2011 12:31:05 PM

Is going to have a good week :)

2/18/2011 12:39:27 PM

may just need to find me a soldier

2/14/2011 11:01:57 AM

Bipolar sucks

1/30/2011 8:16:43 AM

Anyone know how to lessen the bruising of a black eye?

1/28/2011 9:45:01 PM

I can't sleep......grrrrrrr

1/6/2011 11:35:11 PM

Feel shite, but need to stay awake till the Doctor has been rang grrrrr

1/6/2011 9:56:37 AM

Sick of being ill, being ill a month now :(:(

1/2/2011 7:24:20 AM

2010 Was a strange year for me....

 

The first half of the year was filled with harsh strictly BDSM play...

 

Some of the middle months were filled with what I assumed to be a loving mono relationship, allbeit a kinky one, but I'm not even sure that it was one, and the demise of that was pretty much a miscarriage, though we were still seeing each other pretty regularly after splitting up.

 

I kinda feel crap about that relationship a little bit, as I cannot tell what was real and what wasn't anymore.

 

Though I am greatful for the relationship as it opened up my eyes to new things, as well as got the fact that my marriage was dead out in the open to my parents (yes folks I'm married)

 

Since October my bipolar has played up majorly with a couple of near misses, make of what I mean by that yourself....but alot of wanky stuff has happened this year from deaths and what not.

 

Though I did meet the most amazing very vanilla guy in October....whom I think is probably going to end up being one of my best friends...he's kissed my scars, got drunk with me, got me drunk, spoke to me about everything that was bothering me, even when I sounded like a broken record, he has taken shit (not liteally) off me, watched the sunrise with me(that was a weird one) been pushed away by me,

kissed my tears, even came round after i'd done nothing but have a go at him all day, bit of an odd one, but there is always a hug waiting off him....

 

While I have alot of pretty shakey bad memories of 2010 I'm pretty pleased with the good ones that I have, as well as the new bonds of friendship that I have made.

11/2/2010 9:37:23 AM

I now has 14 piercings - slowly getting back up to a good figure lol

10/22/2010 5:07:47 AM

Is it wrong that The Cure and Lullaby makes me want to do a strip tease?

While Stevie Wonder and Superstition makes me want to perform a Lapdance?

10/9/2010 1:00:13 PM
tonight my soul is the devils ;)
6/26/2010 8:49:29 AM
"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring."
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 Age: 27
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