SylliLittleSlave

Sorry I haven't been on much or even replied to many messages..I am sorry..I will  get to those as soon as I can..well the ones deserving of a response I will. The past few weeks have been very....um...tough to say the least.  I no longer work at  Little Darlings as I still have no money for my license and, honestly, I don't want to go back. Yeah the attention was nice on stage.  To flaunt myself and have that confidence was nice, knowing that they could  do nothing and  if they tried I could easily get their asses beaten and thrown out.  Dancing for them was another matter. Yes there was the occasional respectful guy which was very  refreshing.  But the horn dogs who are too desperate for anything else and have no hygiene what so ever or regard for your body or mind or self being..yeah...they can all go to hell. Anyway, enough of that. We are just trying to get by  praying that something or someone would just lend a hand or point us in a good direction for that matter. And someone did, surprisingly, my mom (And I do not doubt God as well, or another high being for those who don't necessarily believe in him) Brought me a surprising opportunity to be a caregiver (Big surprise, is there any other job more perfect for a slave? lol) For her boss's mom who is very elderly and needs help. Cleaning, cooking, company, you know  the regular typical slave stuff without the sex. But this time I get paid rather well for it. And it could set me up for a career I didn't really ever think about, well not in a professional sense anyway. Caregivers do get paid really well. The only down side is it's a live in and Mistress and I will have to separate, though is bad, and also good..we can save money easier without rent or anything if she goes back to her home state to live with her mom and spend time with her kids and possibly go back to school. Or just get a smaller apartment, that could work too, though not as well. I need to go back through my mail to the people that wanted to give her pony lessons..she needs to be kept busy. She likes to think when she has a lot of time and that in itself isn't good for people...>.<..To bad no one has come forward about wanting to be her slave..a sister or brother would have been nice. Though she is slowly admitting that maybe she should be owned as a pony full time. It is her dream after all. Anyway I am rambling now. I just wanted to give an update on things.

Well here it is....a day before Christmas.....I have to say this is the second worst year for Christmas I have ever had....it is so depressing....this month has been horrible at work, I haven't made even maybe 400 this month....sigh....so there is no money for any of the gifts I wanted to get Mistress....at first I wanted to get her a new tower for her computer, cause hers is damaged and dying. But I wasn't able to make any money for that or any of her other gifts I wanted to get her. And she just learned that she was screwed out of her bonus this year buy .01% or equivalent to 175 dollars....I mean WTF? She was first in the district for sales brought that store up from basically garbage and they screw her out of her bonus? She was going to use the money to go see her kids down in TN....but now she can't..so the last thing I tried to do the last weekend I worked was get up just 270 dollars..that's all, over the course of the weekend so I could buy her a round trip ticket for her for christmas to go see her kids....but no..I couldn't even make that...no one was there...it was horrible..and now, since I don't have the extra 300 dollars to renew my lisence..I can't work anymore..so I am out of a job. I don't know how we are going to pay rent next month let a lone any bills...Mistress's job is temporary it ends the middle of January, our roommate is moving out. Though that was her plan since she moved in, it was only for a few months.....I don't want to be homeless again...I would die in the cold...sighs...........................we'll figure something out to do I guess...we always do....I just want this season to be over and done with..