After more than ten years in the lifestyle I have come to accept all the parts of me and how they come together to complete me. I am a masochist. I say this because I can cum from pain. But a true SM experience holds something much deeper than orgasm. It is spiritual. It allows me a release and an ecstasy that cannot be described in words.

I also accept that I am service oriented. This means I take pride is using my abilities. It feeds my self esteem and allows me to maintain a high level of respect (value) for myself.

Am I submissive??? Yes. I know this not because I am looking for someone to take care of me....to make my decisions for me...or to excuse me from taking responsibility for my own actions. No, I am quite capable of taking care of myself. I believe I am submissive because I enjoy and find peace in the humility of surrender.

This is me.