I have read some interesting profiles lately.  A few who identify as Dom's, claiming they want to abuse slaves/subs.  Do they really think we want to be abused? Seriously? No self respecting sub/slave would ever dream of being with a Dom who abuses them. Dickheads.  

Also, I have noticed a whole heap of 18yr olds - with rediculous things in their profiles - claiming to have years of experience!! Sadly, most of these kids are girls....and they also are asking for money/clothes. Again....Dickheads.....!

Pondering, thinking, contemplating.

Without expectation, there can be no disappointment. 

Wise words.

Enough of the form letters! If you are going to send me one, at least change the bloody name!! Goose!

I browse through profiles and read some things that amuse me. I read things that are left open to interpretation. 

 Example: I read the statement, and like statements : I am available to train submissive's ......" as "I am not interested in you, I just want a whole load of sub's for a quick fuck, as that is what stokes my poor pathetic ego...."

And the other one:

"You will make yourself available, at your home and you will not come to mine....." as "I am married and dont want my wife to know my dirty little secret...."

This is how I read it. I am sure you will correct me, should I be wrong......

Have a lovely day

Feeling the stress and pressure to perform and achieve as the end of semester and exams draw near.

Craving release of the kinkiest and yummiest kind :)

It never ceases to amaze me - I didnt realise that married men cant read.

If you are married and your wife doesnt know you are here, stay the hell away from me. Dont message me. Dont contact me. Dont chat request me. I will not be your dirty secret or fantasy. If you are here claiming to be dominant and trying to cheat on your wife, its because you are not dominant, you are a pathetic pussy who cant sort his own life out, yet wants to control mine....aint gonna happen!!

Life is like that....so many curve balls. Time to move it baby!!

I thought it was me that was particularly stupid....so I checked my profile. Nope, its not me...it CLEARLY says NO MARRIED MEN!!!
Crikey boys....its not that difficult, seriously - if you live with your beloved wife, stay the hell away from me. Dont contact me. Leave me alone. Dont email me with your lies and deciept - it only shows what an ignoramus prick you really are.

So, I am sitting back and wondering......A girl knows there are married men on this site trawling for a 'piece of ass'. This girl, however, is wondering just how many of the wives know......??

Interesting concept isnt it.....

I wish there was a cure for Migraine....they suck, in a bad way....

First, the aura, the ache and funny blurry bits in my vision. Often, this goes un noticed, depending on what I am doing.

Next the pounding in my head, the coarsing of blood through my veins and arteries, the throbbing. Then the vessles constrict, and the pain hits in full force. This is when i get the nausea, like I have now.....praying that I dont vomit. Vomiting with a migraine is agony. 

Why is there no cure? Treatment - Mersyndol works well, but again, its just a treatment. The codine helps the pain and nausea...the calmative allowes me to sleep.

Someone, invent a cure....this sucks....its unpredictable and it isnt fun :(

And yet another natural disaster....praying for all my friends in Chch....

Super Relaxed, very mallow, calm, at peace.....

Flicking through profiles and I see quite a few who specify Online Only, which is all good, but then they go on to say how they love bondage and to place girls in bondage. Curiosity gets the better of me.  An online only relationship surely means that they will not be putting any girl in bondage, or seeing her struggle against the tight bindings that hold her?  There are other interesting things - "i like to spank her till her ass is red and sore" - using an imaginary hand and some pixels? and..."i like to make her cum and taste her..." , even my imagination couldnt work that one out!!

Now for the controversial statment - Is 'online only' just another term for 'love to read the erotica and dirty stories your sending me....'?? (not that there is anything wrong with that, but what about a bit of honesty about it?!!!)

Yeah, and Happy Valentines Day.......

Just how tranquil is a visit to the park? Shady trees, people walking their dogs, peace and quiet, heavenly....

Riding the groove train to Glory.  What will my next step be? Is it time to set new goals? As a woman, what should I truly aim for, should I settle for mediocrity or should I aim for outstanding. Im thinking outstanding, thinking goals will help me obtain and fullfil my need to be set free.

I spent the week learning lessons, keeping quiet, absorbing the happenings around me and ignoring the frustrations within. The frustrations transcend reality and are constitutional.  What to do with the lessons I learned, the things I saw, wondering just how I can eloquently journal all of this information, in a form that will be intelligible to others.

Knowledge shared is powerful.

so good...so so so so soooooo good to be home!!

And life just gets more interesting...off on deployment tomorrow to assist with disaster recovery in North Queensland. I love my job, no two days are the same.....the uncertainty is a challenge but helps to keep life interesting. Time to buckle down to some hard work.  Would much rather be here playing......but good things are worth waiting for, so I will wait.....wait....wait and wait some more and in the meantime, I will keep a smile on my face, stay positive and enjoy life.

So many unknown's right now, surely makes life interesting though, even if a little unpredictable.  Life is good, but very busy - I would really like two weeks of peace and quiet but seriously doubt it will happen. Floods, cyclones, whats next - so many major events to be contended with. They have provided me with many learning opportunitites, but gee, I really am tired....!!

I wonder if anyone else does what I do.....I know its time to do the laundry when I have no clean knickers left.....!!

And the frustration continues....do I laugh, or laugh harder? What is so hard to understand...

• Yes, I am into anal, unbelievably so
• No, I am not into married men
• Do not send me form letters
• Read the profile!
• Read the profile!
• Read the effing profile!!!~!!!~!~~

Read the profile!! Is it seriously that difficult?? I am soooo sick of form letters! To make things worse, form letters from a 22yo twat, who cant spell, tells me how smart he is and that he wants to lead me on my journey to self discovery......eeejittt!!!

Is it any wonder I have a coffee addiction? MMMMm Coffee.....yep, time to go!!!

Form letters as an introduction - WOW, impressive, not!! Dont send a girl a form letter, its so easy to spot....so rehearsed and tragic.....and really quite insulting....

Yet again, the same fool from last night contacts me - I think he must have some kind of Alzheimers. After being told to leave me alone last night - I did it politely - he contacts me again with an absolutely stupid message....what a fucking idiot...

'have you been used by a Dom lately"  thats it, nothing else written...fool.  I responded, not politely this time. Your an idiot = take your scraggy old beard and penis-extension motorbike, your zimmer-frame, osteo-eeze and steredent and fuck off away from me.  Fool.

Got to love it...

I got a message from a man, who calls himself a Dom.....second message he sends me says

'when were you last inspected and what position did you adopt please'

Nothing else in the message, just that....how about this dude....there is no need to be rude...having that information will not make a scrap of difference to how our conversation travels - unless of course it is just all about you gathering yourself a bunch of dirty little stories to wank over....

Thankful....

I have been involved in the floods we have had here - working around 18-20 hours per day. I am tired, so very very tired. 

I am alive. I am dry. I have a roof over my head. I have not lost a loved one. I have empathy for those less fortunate.

I am thankful for my lot, and devestated for those less fortunate. It has been truly tragic.

So, I get a message from someone, regarding my journal entry about posting a persons location. 

The response is that people have nothing to hide but are sick of being judged.  Interested, so I read his profile.  Negativity. Loads of negativity. Sounds like the world owes him a living. States being unemployed because of society views, states poor health and being a smoker to top it all off. He also states that he has no money and that what money he does have he cant manage.  He then goes on to say that he knows he wont find what he is looking for as everyone here is shallow and not interested in the real person, or the person above the neck.

He has a few journal's, all of which claim "if you cant find happiness and think its others fault, perhaps you should look deeper".  Perhaps he should do this himself. Perhaps he should re-evaluate.  He also sends out messages to folk, who, going by said journal enteries, then proceed to block him - and wonders why and then degrades and devalues them for it...!!!

Negativity sucks. It is a natural turn-off. If you are so certain you wont find what your looking for....well.....FUCK OFF AND CLOSE YOUR ACCOUNT!! Seriously dude, stop trying to infect others with your negativity. Go have an attitude adjustment. Stop trying to get people to feel sorry for you. Take control of yourself, go get yourself some help with your psyche.

So, a friend tried to shock me today, and tells me she wants to ask me a question, and want an honest/realistic answer....

The Question - If you woke up with a sore arse and $50 in your back pocket, would you tell anyone?

I blinked a few times.....and said...

"Hell yeah, its $25.00 more than I got last time...!"

She went silent.....she says...."um, Oh, it was just a joke"...

I said...."Oh, really?" dead straight face......she walked away, quickly. I laughed. I laughed a lot...!!!

Bet she wont ask anyone that question again!!!

I read on profiles for location as being "not specified" or just "Australia" and wonder why this is there instead of putting down the correct location.....that, and age as 99.  What exactly is it that people are trying to hide, I wonder?

....why do midgets laugh when they run????

Because the grass tickles their balls.....

Have a nice day!

And I just received a message from 'savage garden' telling me i am a 'racist' for the joke....interesting concept..

What an interesting day....started off lovely, then got a little rough, but i think i may have redeemed myself - only time shall tell. Very enjoyable...

It seems that every time I open my messages there is at least one from some moron in India offering to fulfil my wildest dreams. Does anyone seriously fall for that shit anymore? Is anyone that stupid anymore?? Got to love the 'block' facility for that reason!!

Downloaded and reading "The Story of O". Nice.

So, its the New Year...2011...what will it bring?

Will I find the Master/Dom of my dreams? Is this my year?? Only time will tell....

Have a safe year everyone!

So I am actively searching for the "Dom of my dreams".  I want the quintessential strong, firm, masculine Dom, whom I can serve, unquestioningly, safely, with respect and respected. Respect is a huge thing for me. I do have hard limits, which need to be respected, as do all folk. 

I want to be taught, mentored, shown exactly what it is I must do to please "the one".  I am a willing pupil. I am smart, I want to please, I learn fast.

I have been asked if I like pain. This, for me is a strange question with more than one answer. When I am spanked for my Masters pleasure, I enjoy knowing that he is getting pleasure. When I am spanked for doing the wrong thing, I accept with grace, I know that it is a very effective tool to teach a lesson, but dont particularly enjoy it - who does enjoy getting in trouble for being naughty?!

Where are the strong firm Doms, looking for the sub they can train for their own? Looking, looking, looking....waiting and wanting to share.