Submission without domination is when you keep doing what he wants even after he keeps insisting he doesn't want it. Domination without submission is when he keeps telling you to do something and you keep telling him to fuck off.
I am a 32 year old woman whom doesn't play games except for sharing pics only with those whom I've grown to trust. If you're looking for an online plaything keep moving, I'm not interested. My time is precious, I am a single mother of an elementary aged child and a full time student myself. I also work full time, so I have very little extra time to devote to kowtowing to your whims.
As for my goals in life, I hope to find that right man out there who can give me the mixture I seek. I am not a slave, nor am I a doormat. I will gladly submit to the person whom earns my trust and respect, but I require my son know nothing of this.
He doesn't need to be subjected to this until he is old enough to handle it. He's a good child and someone I love dearly.
Ask what you want and I'll give you an honest answer. If you want to know something I can't answer then I will tell you that. But the rest is all to be discovered.
One last thing, you must like animals at the very least. I have two dogs and a cat, they are indoor animals and will always be.
10/10/2010 3:30:42 PM
there have been many disappointments of late and I decided that I am done with this site, done with this lifestyle, and done with men in general.
I will continue to have ONE man in my life, my son and only my son. No one else is needed or wanted.
It was nice being here but I've had enough of the BS. Enjoy life, I can't wait till I can leave the state permanently in July.
7/9/2010 1:31:32 PM
Wow vacation was seriously short...what did I do throughout it??? I worked... Yeah loads of fun but hey it needed to be done.... Now I'm back in school again and first week is finally over.
I'm sitting here at home debating about giving a speech on how to properly place a condom over a penis, yeah I know wild topic but seriously I'm BORED with speech.... Well it's that or Henry VIII and his syphillis.... Hmmm might be fun. lolol...
This morning I felt like crap, had a fever, sore throat and stomachache... Well I feel better somewhat but still have the fever and sore throat. At least I don't have the stomachache anymore...
Went out to lunch with a friend who didn't make the cut at school, we had fun laughing for thirty minutes before I had to bolt back to class... She's moving to another city and I'll miss her terribly but that's life. At least I'll have a place to visit when I go to Sea World... =)
Monday I have a lovely conversation with some nice people then I go back to my life being totally preoccupied with work and school.... UGH I need a real vacation!
6/29/2010 4:36:01 PM
I PASSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That says all that needs to be said on the subject, I passed all my classes and get to continue on in school... Damn was a hard fall for a student who is used to almost perfect grades to go so close to being booted... I'm sure I'll be on academic probation come this time next week which is FINE. I will NOT make this mistake again!!!!!
On the bright side, my kid needs about 600 in dental work done in two weeks.. Thank god for insurance... Omg that brat needs to learn to brush his teeth, I'm having to have some extracted for tooth decay (baby teeth thank god) and having fillings/sealent in others... UGH!!!!!
6/27/2010 7:00:41 PM
Well school got the better of me, waiting to see if I'm going to pass a class or not... If I fail, then I'm in big trouble and have to sit out the next four months before I can retake that stupid class... UGH! Even after going to the dean requesting help and trying to get through the issues which were knocking me down I still have one particular teacher who can fail me...
Granted this was the woman I was worried about, she hates me and I never did anything to her, I don't understand why she was so against me. I gave her the benefit of the doubt, I gave her 8 weeks to prove she was a good teacher before I got upset with her... It was after she EMAILED a test copy to another student that I got upset.
Is it so wrong to be upset when someone is obviously playing favorites? I went to her for help, and only got confused... Even when the dean excused my absences HE FAILED TO EMAIL HER! So she's holding them against me... UGH!!!!!
Tomorrow I'm going to the school to talk to the dean again, make a last ditch effort to pass this class. I have fought to the bitter end, when many in my cohort have rolled over and given up...
Is it wrong of me to be upset at one particular classmate who was a friend, but in reality turned out to be a user? She is angry because I was talking to another friend who asked and I didn't understand why she rolled over and gave up. She wouldn't come to class even when there instead she'd sleep claiming thryoid problems... Fine, accept responsibility and don't blame your failing on the teacher.
I PASSED THE CLASS, except from my absences I PASSED EVERYTHING... it's those days when I sat there with a knife in my hand and debated ending my life that will possibly cause my failing out of school... I worked through my depression, yes I'm still depressed, yes I'm still broken hearted.. Yes I will always hurt like hell but I worked through it on my own without medication...
If I'm out for that then I'm out... I accept that I should have not listened to the teacher and gone home the day I had a migraine, I should have stayed even though she TOLD me to leave in an earlier class... I accept I should have stayed the day I found out my baby girl was gone forever despite the fact I was hystarical and in tears... I accept that I should have stayed despite the fact one day I had a knife in my hand in my car and was pressing the blade into my skin...
UGH! I've had enough, too many things have gone wrong and I can't fix them... I can't fix my life right now and I throw my hands up and say enough already. If you're trying to break me you've already done it, I give up! Do you hear me I give up!
I refuse to deal with the pain anymore, to deal with the aggrevation, to deal with the heartbreak! I GIVE UP!
6/2/2010 9:25:34 AM
Well one testing session down off to the doc soon... First have to pick my son up today. =) Life is good.
5/24/2010 3:07:43 PM
Wow it's been a month since I've had any time to update... So much has happened, I am seriously hating the fact that the only time I have is when I sleep...
I'm always working, doing homework, or going to school. I hate being so busy. My life revolves around things that it shouldn't, oh well at least my son is benefiting from constant attention.
I actually have an hour before I have to do pharmacology homework, off to playing Guild Wars with a friend since it's one of those you can pick up and put down without consequences.
4/24/2010 5:47:57 AM
Gotta go to work a very long shift today.. I wonder what cases will come into the clinic... How many patients will I get of my own and will I get to assist in surgery????
I hope so I can't wait to do surgery!
4/23/2010 8:28:44 PM
Oh joy.. Just bumpped into a profile of a masterjeffrompa which is rather interesting... He pretty much deletes almost everything unread unless there is pics there.
Ummm, wtf is the point of even contacting this person? Not that I would being as he's in the NE but still...No one is getting my picture until I am certain they are not a psycho hose beast with an incurable obsession for stealing my pantyhose!
LOL!!!! Oh well, back to Transformers we go!
4/17/2010 2:49:42 PM
So I'm sitting here in my living room watching Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince with my son. I've worked already today, and having been home I'm completely relaxed although disappointed by my movie.
WTF is up with the crappiness of the Harry Potter movies lately? I mean seriously I LOVE the books. I can get lost in them for hours, seeing every word in images within my mind but when I watch the movies I get so disappointed.
Oh well guess they don't make things as good as the books, but still couldn't the Inferi seen be better?????? UGH!!!!
I miss Sirius Black... Gary Oldman was awesome in the series, and Richard Harris was the perfect Dumbledore. Too bad he was replaced by Michael Gambon after his death.
Also, it's frustrating.. I have a hard time watching it since my dogs were named after our favorite characters... God I miss my dogs!
4/11/2010 11:45:56 AM
So I get a bombshell dropped on me last night... My exhusband is getting remarried this summer. Apparently he's been engaged for months...
Oh boy! Final conformation has been achieved! Now I know why he took all those trips overseas when we were married... Plus I have to worry about this new woman in my child's life, how she will act, how she will treat him, and most importantly, if she will try to manipulate him.
It's not that I'm upset by the news entirely, I think it's the best news I could get actually. But it's one of those things where you have to sit down and physically wonder how will it effect the long term. I'm worried for my son, there I said it. I had a talk with him last night about this.
I told him to be respectful when he meets her, but that she is NOT his mother and will never be called Mommy. That is MY title only. He is to call her by her first name until she EARNS the right to be called Mom if that happens. I also told my son to forget about traveling overseas, there's not a chance in hell I'm sending him till I meet this woman and evaluate her.
I'm already dealing with my ex subverting everything I do with my son, trying to fuck with his head and make him cold and unfeeling. He wants to turn my son into a "REAL RUSSIAN MAN" which is bullshit.
My child is brilliant, sweet, sensitive, caring, emotionally fragile, and above all else he is Autistic. How the fuck can you screw with an autistic child so badly? I have a hard enough time keeping him on an even keel much less dealing with the other shit going on in his life.
Doesn't he stop to think that he is not only affecting the child but also causing issues for the other parent? UGH! I've had enough!!! In June he's leaving the country... GOOD RIDDANCE to the Ex!!!!
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Yes I'm ranting, but sometimes one needs it off their chest... Now I feel so much better it's back to my clinical pathology studying.
4/9/2010 5:51:12 PM
Why is it every profile one reads essentially states the same things? I don't understand the concept of micromanaging someone who is capable of making sane choices on their own.
Perhaps I'm strange but I never want to be micromanaged again, if I want a job I will have one. If I want to go to a movie I will go, if I want to wear nothing and go prancing down the street then so be it...
I have to wonder how many poor souls are trapped in that situation, micromanaged till they are no longer able to think for themselves or even act without being told what to do. It makes no sense to me that people would fall for that.
4/5/2010 8:17:06 PM
I am emotionally numb and adrift. On 3/28/2010 I was forced to give away my beloved Sheltie. Since then I've been in tears every single day, distraught over losing my beloved companion of six years. I'm living in a horror film, I speak, I eat, I act, but still the pain doesn't end.
All I feel is pain, anything else is but a dream. Empty gestures piss me off, I am very likely to react in anger than anything else. I find I am on a very short fuse, I get upset easier than normal and blow up for no reason at all.
I spend all my time online with my Brazilian friends or looking for them to talk to. They are safe, they knew my baby and loved her as did I. They will not try to patronize me or say it will get easier with time. It will never ease.
If not for my child I could see myself reaching that point where I said fuck you to life. But because he is here I will find the strength to go on. To those of you who think this is extreme, you do not know me. You do not know the time and love I invested in this dog. You do not know the fifteen years I waited for her, you do not know how hard I had to fight to keep her the first time. You do not know how hard I cried and screamed when they took her away.
You do not know me. Accept it, get over it... You have been warned.
3/24/2010 4:42:28 PM
My divorce is final! YAY!!!! I'm single!!!!!
Now to have fun!
3/10/2010 3:46:39 AM
Oh yeah today is going to be awesome! I'm learning to draw blood today... I get three sticks on my dog's leg, hopefully I have one that's easy to restrain...
But it'll rock! I'm going to pull 3ml out of that cephalic vein for certain! I refuse to settle for less than that!
3/5/2010 11:37:19 AM
Today has been an awful day... A partner backed out of a class project and I've got to make up all the work myself. Omg I can't believe it, but it will get better. At least with making up the work myself, I control the grade I get.
That's what's important to me... I am in control of my education, I tell myself when to study, when to sleep, when to goof off...
It's great but it's not enough... I guess what I'm trying to say is that things sucks these days but they are getting better. They always get better, I make it a point to look at the brighter side of life...
People comment on my photos, well they are photos I've taken but are not pictures of me. I do not want my personal images online, if I trust you I will gladly share my personal photos but if I don't then you don't get to know who I am.
I maintain anonymity, it is important to me to be safe... So that said enjoy!
2/22/2010 5:33:45 PM
Gotta love being sick.. I've been running anywhere from 102 to 104 fever, can barely swallow, and have a headache from hell... I sleep all the time, and can't concentrate to study for my finals tomorrow.
Good news is I did well on today's final, so I should be okay, major one I'm scared about is Wednesday... I am looking forward to no school on Thursday and Friday, I can sleep and rest and get well finally.
More than likely I have strep again, it is my curse every year I get it once or twice, but then every few years I have such a severe case that it requires thousands of mg's of antibotics and injections to cure... Seems like this might be the year for it. Last time was 2005, it nearly killed me. My throat swelled shut.
I'm already taking medication and sleeping, hoping my fever breaks tonight because I can't handle another day of school this sick. I barely made it through today.
2/21/2010 1:12:51 PM
What a wonderful weekend.. Not only am I sick to the point I can barely stay awake anymore but I have finals starting tomorrow. To top it off I had to sign the papers to give up my beloved dog forever...
I have finally come to realize that my father hates me. He is deliberately hurting me by forcing me to give her up. There is no good reason for him to do that other than he hates me. I give up, I will never own another animal.
All it causes is pain and heartache.
2/16/2010 3:37:07 AM
Off to school, just got a project assigned last night, honestly I knew it was assigned on Friday but it was posted last night... Didn't realize it would be so danged intenesive...
Guess this means my week is solid. No free time for me... You know this sucks, but then again term ends next wednesday! YIPPIEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2/12/2010 1:00:22 PM
Rant time!!! Lol hopefully you enjoy it, I need to get it off my chest, no pun intended...
I was flipping through profiles while trying to come up with some decent BS for my paper and kept coming up on something that puzzles me. Several of the ones I saw were into forced lactation... WTF???
Now as everyone knows lactation is controlled by prolactin which is produced in the anterior pituitary gland. Now when this hormone is stimulated the mammary glands produce milk which is let down to the glans sinus and from there dispensed through the nipple. Now milk production continues so long as there is stimulation of the breast/nipple and when it is done being stimulated the milk drys up.
This is known as involution of the mammary glands. But when it comes to forced lactation how does this work? Do they hold the woman down and inject her with loads of prolactin and possibly oxytocin as well? Only way it could be done that I see is to impregnate the woman and make her deliver the child. Then continue stimulating the mammary glands so milk production doesn't cease.
Anyone want to clue me in on how this works???
2/12/2010 3:19:02 AM
Off to class for another day in the grind.. Exam today over urinanalysis, hope I do good...
Other than that not much going on, just sleepy. Can't wait to be kid free this weekend!
2/11/2010 2:23:41 PM
I want a stethoscope. Yeah...
One problem, it's more than 200.00....
One solution, save and buy it myself...
Second solution, ask for it from the folks for birthday/xmas or whenever holiday comes...
Third solution, extort money from brother to buy it...
Answer to dilemma.... BUY IT MYSELF! lol I know it's crazy but hell I'm a crazy gal... Going to do things for myself if possible. Besides I really want to get it on my own.
You never really appreciate something unless you get it yourself. Or at least that's me, if I don't buy it I can lose it so I'd rather buy it. But I can't wait to get that stethoscope and use it in clinic!
2/10/2010 12:51:30 PM
I kicked ass on that anatomy test! Bad side, car back in shop... Oh well! It'll be fixed soon!!!!!
2/9/2010 5:22:01 PM
Yay!!!! I got my car fixed! I'm quite happy about that! You have no idea the amount of suffering it is to beg for rides every day... Now that I have my car back I can come and go as I please!
YIPPEEEE!!! It's great for me.. I'm loving it... Time to have fun!
2/8/2010 7:43:48 PM
Gone to bed to get some rest for tomorrow! Yippee!!!!!
Watching Star Trek Nemesis while in bed... OMG I love English Accents... They are sexy!
2/8/2010 5:53:02 PM
Mood: HAPPY! Day: Eh, so so Attitude: Positive
Reason: Lol Saturday I felt like things were just out to get me... Then Sunday I find out my ex is leaving the country permanently and my son is going to be without a father. Today I discover my car is going to be fixed by tomorrow!!!!
WOOHOO!!! My car is going to be fixed! Now to figure out the son situation and get everything else in line... Can't tell you how happy I am to get my car back, it sucks not having transportation.
ADDENDUM: I MADE AN A ON MY EXAM!!!!!! Anatomy Exam tomorrow!!!!!!
2/8/2010 2:56:56 AM
Off to school for the day.. Joy Joy! Gotta love it...
It'll be an interesting class in Anatomy... Sex and Babies is always interesting... Hmmm wonder what I made on my microchipping exam?
Oh and yes I'm going to bathe a puppy today!
2/7/2010 9:46:23 AM
Peace and quiet at last... The munchkin is gone and will be back in an hour or two, the folks are doing what they do best, and the cat is NOT in my room for a chance.
How I wish that I hadn't messed up my car (still can't figure it out!) so I could pick up Bel and take her to the dog park. Oh well, super bowl party for the folks tonight, I think I'll skip it. Instead to me it sounds like it'd be a good night to lay in my bed and watch a scary movie.
Anyone want to watch one with me?
2/6/2010 3:52:53 AM
Ever have those off the wall days? The last two were ones of mine... Well early in the morning I'm back to my normal grouchy self. God how I wish I could get more sleep but my body doesn't allow it.
If I sleep longer I'll get a migraine and that hurts like heck. So I'll take the less sleep and save the pain. Pfft! Got my cat in the room driving me bonkers again and the kid is awake being annoying...
Guess that's kids jobs for you but oh well can't wait till this afternoon when Daddy takes him for the night!
2/4/2010 4:59:15 PM
As sad as it is I love Wedge Antilles.... Rogue Squadron is one of my fave games ever... OMG I love X-wings!
Sad yes but good lord.... Can't help it.
2/4/2010 4:42:55 PM
So I'm sitting in the dark watching my kid play some Star Wars game on his Wii and smiling. I'm having a great convo with a new friend and looking forward to spending a weekend free from the majority of homework.
Oh crap! I have to practice my hormone spelling.... SOB what the heck... Got a 7 page FIB test coming up in a week or two.. it'll be killer... LOL!!!!! Oh well I"M HAPPY!!!!!!
2/3/2010 12:00:57 PM
Omg so I took two massive exams today... I think I passed both!!!!!! WOOHOOO!!!!!!!
I'm beyond hyper at the moment, but it's awesome. Now I get to hang out around the house with my cat. We're watching Sabrina the Teenage Witch... Talk about your blast from the past.
OMG FULL HOUSE!!!!!! LOL I feel like a kid again!
Oh yeah, I'm writing a multipage email to my best buddy in South America. Can't wait till she reads it tonight... Maybe we can call and chat for hours. Gods I love my friends! They are awesome people and we spend lots of time with each other online since we are spread out around the world now.
2/2/2010 10:24:54 AM
Omg the reproductive system is kicking my tail... Who would have thought it would be so difficult? Huge test coming up and I'm so not prepared....
Why is it that all good intentions fly out the window. Oh well time to get back to my books... Wish me luck, I've got to figure out how to spell all the lovely terms... Damn spermatoozoon or whatever it's called!
1/30/2010 2:14:02 PM
UGH! My cat just erased everything I'd written.... Suffice it to say my baby girl is home for the weekend. We've spent over 24 hours together right now and I am in heaven. Nothing is better than my little girl!!!!
1/15/2010 3:52:58 PM
So much for a weekend with my Bel, due to a change in plans I had to scrap the weekend visitation with her. It's been 2 weeks since I've seen her, what if she's forgotten me?
I was so looking forward to having her curled up on my bed and telling her all about what has happened and how much I miss her tonight.... It was what made kennels bareable. I've had no sleep, lots of homework and little time to do it in. Now I have to suffer the whole weekend without her precious face; without her kisses, and most off all without holding her in my arms.
What the hell did I do to lose my baby girl? Why must I be punished like this? I'm so tired of crying but this hole only gets worse each day that we're apart. They say I'm strange for having found my soul mate in a dog; but she is my other half. She saw me through so much and we have that perfect understanding...
I want my baby home; why won't they let me bring my baby back home so I can at least be whole again?
1/13/2010 5:38:16 PM
I have a perfect 4.0 in school and a hellish schedule atm. But it is worth it when I look at my grades... I guess it'll pay off in the long run.
At the moment I hate my life. I miss my babies; and yes I'll confess to moments of weakness where I longed for a gun or a bottle of rum. I still have those days; my little girl is so precious. I look at her pictures and I cry; I hear her bark when I call a friend and I cry; I just miss her. She is my baby.
This weekend I will see her. Thank god for small favors. She will stay over night with me.
12/29/2009 10:51:51 PM
I miss my babies... I had to give them up this past week and my heart is broken. My big Al is in a foster home at the rescue; my baby Bel is staying with a friend; and my only remaining kitty has found a new home with a new set of people to dote on her.
What hurts the most is my Bel... How I love my baby girl. I miss coming home to the loving and the kisses she would give me, I miss the barking. I miss cuddling in my bed at night and getting foot kisses before she goes to sleep. I wake up in the night calling her name and then start to cry when I realize that she is no longer with me.
It's not fair; I didn't choose to have to move much less to give up my surrogate children. But at least I get to see them again temporarily. And right now I've got two cats to help ease the loss of them. Well off to bed, gotta get some rest to finish moving tomorrow.
11/16/2009 8:24:33 AM
It's week four of school and I find myself not having time to even think much less log into CM. I'm so busy with my homework and classes that my head is spinning. Yet, I find myself maintaining stellar grades and kicking tail in all aspects of my education as usual.
If only I could get rid of the test anxiety and the fears that plague me things would be great. I don't even have time to eat some days much less have fun with other people. Sometimes I wonder what was I thinking but then I remember it's only for two years and then I will graduate and get my life together. Right now these things are very important to me, my education, my child, my animals, and most importantly my sanity.
I spent a few hours playing a game yesterday, unwinding from the day to day grind of homework. I love to study but sometimes enough is enough... Anatomy is stressing me out and Term is beyond rough. Oh well, I will get through it.
In the meantime, my presence here will vanish for awhile... I must concentrate on the things that mean the most to me and enjoy every aspect of the time I'm spending in class... Well time to go back to work... Have fun people...
10/22/2009 7:57:51 PM
Ugh it's been forever since I updated.... Well life is fun, I'm going to a concert this weekend with my son! Looking forward to that.... I'm also starting school on Monday! That scares me, it's been ages since I was in school...
I got my schedule today, it's looking fun. have a long break mid-day to study and do two classes homework before I go to my last two classes. I will enjoy the break, perhaps get a bite to eat, a drink and then run back to the grind.
I need to get it done... Well night folks I have to go to bed, pain is a bitch, and I have a migraine drumming deep within my brain.
10/7/2009 8:39:03 AM
Okay I'm so tired I delete the last post... UGH! I hate my life so much sometimes. Why can't a person after getting hours upon hours of sleep be rested? Why must I always be so tired and exhausted?
I swear I need a massage. This weekend I am so going to Massage envy and letting them work the kinks out of my neck/shoulders, and back. After all I deserve it dont' I?
Well school starts in 3 weeks! I can't wait then I will have absolutely no life whatsoever... Time to get that little toon to 80 so I can do the horseman when Hallows Eve hits.
Yes my sad little life involves spending lots of time online with WoW, or for those of you whom are not aware of it the World of Warcraft. It's my son and I's hobby. We dungeon crawl nightly, last night he took me throught he Argent Tourney...I was passed out on the couch. Apparently he's a ninja looter too, but the people he was grouped with understand he's a child and they KNOW me IRL so it's all cool.
Its amazing how online friendships blossom. I can't imagine my life without a pair of ladies iin it. They are my closest friends, even though they are in different countries. Hell the things we've gone through for one another qualifies us as sisters. I'd do anything to protect them.
Plain and simple, I love my gal friends. More than anythiing save my son and pets. They are my kimosabe's and will always be that. Disaggreements and all... Now off to try and convince the brazilian to get a brazilian... Trust me you don't want to be involved in our games of truth or dare!!!!
9/23/2009 11:54:19 AM
Okay rant time!!!!!
Lolol! Seriously guys what is it with the serial killer poses and the grizzly adams beards? Like do you think that makes you attractive to women? I'd rather have a clean cut guy than a scraggly scrub anyday... He doesn't even ahve to be the cutest, to me it's all about the connection not the looks.
I've never been that big into looks, I've got other more important things to occupy my time. Well rant is over now, seriously rethink the pics people.... No way in hell I'm going to go somewhere with someone who looks like the next Charles Manson...
9/16/2009 9:50:21 AM
Well so far doing okay, slight cough and stuffy nose with a bit of congestion but it should pass. Hopefully it is just a cold from constantly being exposed to different temps.
Isn't the weather lovely? I'm enjoying walking my babies at night. They love to frolic in the cold weather. Well cold for Houston anyways. Tonight we might go to the dog park, depends how I'm feeling and how my son is feeling. Also depends if I want to watch dance live or not.
Go figure, kids are strange... My son is being a silly goose. But I love him, he saw his father last night and was so happy. Hell my ex actually gave me a hug! Shocking!!!! He willingly hugged me I didn't have to beg for it.
I wonder what's going through his mind, after all it's been a year now that we've been apart. God has it been a year already? One year of being on my own, the first year of my life I've ever been on my own without someone there as a security blanket.
I survived it! Woohoo! I can do it, I can take care of myself. That's something which is an accomplishment if you knew how spoiled and petted I was as a child. For years I never even pumped my own gas, I had one of the guys do it. Any little problem and I called my daddy. Hell I still call him, but only after I have solved it!
I love my father, hopefully he is here for a long time still. Not so sure on my mother, just kidding!
9/14/2009 5:13:28 PM
I so love the drama in my life... Tonight I found out I've been exposed to swine flu. We've had a confirmed case within my immediate family. So I'm on quarantine until further notice.
Please understand it.
9/11/2009 12:58:49 PM
Things are getting better each day, I am feeling well but my stress level is through the roof. I need to find something to relieve it soon or I'm afraid I'll start yelling at my son for no reason...
Oh well it'll happen when its meant to happen. In the mean time I'll just have to deal with everything else.
UGH!
9/2/2009 10:30:33 AM
Well day three since my beloved Borsk crossed the rainbow bridge. I'm going to look for a pet loss support group, twice today I had to pull over as a wave of hysterical tears took over.
I can't stop crying, I forgot about my dogs last night, I forgot about my child, all I could do was cry. Tabbi is so lonesome I'm already looking for another feline companion for her. That's the last thing I need but I want another cat.
I've got a rescue helping me look for a nice one, perhaps I'll get lucky and find the right fit in my family... I've come to realize that the only person I can truly depend on is myself. Too bad you can't give yourself a hug when you really need one and are completely alone.
9/1/2009 9:04:17 AM
THank you to those who have sent their support for the loss of my beloved Borsk. He was a mean cat to everyone else but an angel to me. I hope that the grief will eventually fade, but day two and the tears will not stop.
I will be leaving work early to get some rest, I can't handle being here much longer. I need to be hoome with my Tabbi in my arms purring and telling me it's okay.
I want another kitten, a siamese kitten this time, purebred and sweet like Boyz is for my mother.
8/31/2009 4:07:22 PM
At2:24pm this afternoon my beloved Borsk was pronounced dead at the humane society. Taking him there was the hardest thing I've ever done. I held him until he was gone and for the longest time after crying over his body.
I miss my kiki bobo; I love him so much and pray that he knows that I didn't do it out of cruelty or malice. I did it because he was in pain and hurting. I love him, and without him I feel heartbroken. Tabbi has been loving on me, and the four mg of xanax I took has me mostly numb.
I just woke up, I love you Kikibobo...Rest in peace my beloved feline. Ten years was not a long enough time to have you in my life.
8/28/2009 12:00:43 PM
Okay, so I got my ranting and raving out earlier and I actually feel calmer now... Thank goodness for that; the stress of everything has got me wound so tight that sometimes one has to blow off steam. I am seriously beginning to think Fate has it out for me; come on kicking me when I'm down??? WTF is up with that?
Well on the upside I did spend the entire time in traffic today next to this sweet 2010 Camero... I seriously have to get one of those eventually but then where would I put the dogs?
Thank goodness Rally Night is next week... Maybe we'll find out when the next camping trip is and I can go spend a weekend in the woods decompressing. Right now that's something I seriously need. Decompression from stress and anxiety related to stress.
I am living for the day when I can finish school and go to work in a field that is both rewarding and makes me happy. I used to love my job; now I'm frustrated and stressed out by it. I used to be excited to go to work; now I dread getting out of bed each morning. I used to hate going home and now I can't wait to get my butt there and onto the elliptical or treadmill.
There is only so much hacking and slashing one can do to relieve stress. I think I've reached that maximum level; the things that once interested me are so-so now. I only gave into going back to one game because my little boy begged for it. I bought a new Wii title and after ten minutes of playing it I decided it was boring.
I'm even considering giving into impulse and buying a PS3. I hate PS3's, they just are large money wasting paperweights but it'd be a new toy which might keep me occupied for more than ten minutes at a time.
Dude, I'm even building my farmville on facebook seriously because it distracts me for more often than not.
I was so bored Sunday I watched "Hannah Montana The Movie". That's outright pathetic! Although I did actually like it; hey Billy Ray Cyrus looks decent without the mullet...who knew that.
I'm still lucky though; I've got my boy and that's the most important thing. The rest will come with time; I just have to have patience that it will work itself out... Patience isn't the easiest thing for me to have but I'm trying to get better at it.
Like I told my boy, everything happens for a reason and Mommy isn't worried about it at all. What will be will be; and I do believe that. Things will be better; I have every faith in that it just has to get through the tough times to find that silver lining.
Perhaps it's time that I reevaluate my life yet again... God I can't wait to spend a weekend in the woods.
8/28/2009 7:58:19 AM
Gotta love irony... I swear I need to write a book on my life; it'd be a best seller. Here I finally threw the monkey off my back only to have it settle back further on it. ARGH!
I hate stress!!!! Since yesterday I've eaten a bottle and a half of Tums.... Not to mention the sleeping pills I had to start using again. I hate my job!!!!
8/26/2009 9:48:00 AM
I am so very upset right now... I can't wait to get home, take off my sandals and toss on a pair of gym pants before getting onto my Wii Fit for 20 minutes... After warming up on that I'm going to hit the elliptical and treadmill before maybe completing the work out with some laps in the pool.
Why is it that my friends have taken to irritating me by bringing up things which I am trying my best to bury in the recesses of my mind??? Do they not know I haven't sleep in a since the incident occurred??? The best night sleep I have had since then was Monday night.. I took 3mg of Xanax for a migraine and then went to bed. I didn't want to wake up Tuesday morning but I still managed to drag myself to work.
For those who know me personally please don't bring up my mistake... I'm trying my dangest to fix it and really need some understanding... I'm the harshest taskmaster you'll ever meet... I tear myself up over the smallest things and always will do that.
8/26/2009 7:45:29 AM
What is it with these so called Dom's wanting to micromanage a sub's life? I just don't get that; last thing I have any desire to be is micromanaged. I got enough of that from my ex-husband, any guesses on why he's an ex???
If you're looking for someone to kowtow to your micromanagement needs then look somewhere else... I have no desire to put up with that bullshit, in fact if someone tries it I'm more likely than not to walk away permanently.
What I do want is someone whom allows me the freedoms I've always had and need to survive. Freedom is air to me; they can be small things or they can be big it just depends upon what my need is that day. I am 32 years old, I've managed quite well on my own for the majority of my life and can decide what to eat, drink, and wear to work by myself. If you want to suggest something though that's fine; but don't expect me to wear something just because you want me to; my office is casual and it's COLD! I'm not wearing a see-through blouse, micro-mini skirt, and 5" heels just because you think it's sexy....
And don't even get me started on this cone bra crap... Someone once said that he wanted me to wear cone bras... Dude I AM NOT MADONNA! I will not embarrass myself like that; have some dignity and respect people....
Ugh, now I'm going back to work, just needed a good rant after a stressful night... Idiot child got onto my laptop this morning; gotta figure out what virus he managed to get stuck on it.... Joy joy!
8/23/2009 2:05:13 PM
School starts tomorrow... I am not looking forward to it; but in a way I am. It means more time with homework and less time for Mommy/Son but oh well. It will be good to get my routine back, I like routines.
I kinda got hooked on my one vice again; Blizzard announced a new expansion and of course my son was "Mommy let's start playing WoW again..." So I reactivated my accounts and low and behold it's instant addiction. What on earth was I thinking??? I mean Star Trek Online comes out in September I think and I'm going to be playing that for at least a month...
Heck when Star Wars The Old Republic comes out I'm going to be playing that one... I've played MMORPG's for the last eleven years. UGH! Now he wants Lord of the Ring Conquest... what is that?????
I swear all that child does is play video games... Tonight I'm dragging him to the dogpark with our dogs. At least then we'll get away from the PC/Wii,PS2 etc and be out in the air...
Gotta run, want to get my workout in before I go there...
8/19/2009 8:38:24 AM
Well it turns out that apparently I ordered chinese in... I don't even remember doing that. Last night he woke me up from the couch; what is it with all the sleeping???
I swear every time I go to watch tv I fall asleep. It's ridculous. But tonight I will try to stay awake, I have some work to do for a friend and after that I'd like to actually play a game or two.
I think I'll spend the evening relaxing and I plan on cooking something, maybe homemade lasanga. That sounds really good...
8/18/2009 10:10:30 AM
Ugh this week hasn't started out very good... What's with Texas weather???? Every time a storm system moves through I get a migraine. Yesterday I wasn't even aware I slept for hours. Last thing I remember was crawling into my bed for a nap and the next thing I know my son is waking me up telling me I am late to work...
Apparently he slept on the couch, which was nice of him because he knew I wasn't feeling well. I hope he ate something; I didn't evne prepare dinner. What the heck is wrong with me?
Well a phone call answered that question but where did he get General chicken????? WHat the heck is going on why can't I remember anything????
UGH!
8/12/2009 12:42:08 PM
So last night I took 3 OTC sleeping pills and actually got decent sleep! But I couldn't wake up, even Starbucks failed getting me out of the daze... Needless to say the drive was an adventure but Sandstorm got us here in one piece...
Yes for those who don't know my son named my car Sandstorm and at the moment it's an Autobot... Last week it was a Decepticon... I swear that child has an imagination that won't quit but I encourage it. He's a good kiddo, although I wish I was at home. Instead I'm watching the boss's daughter until he comes to get her.
But oh well could be worse; today has been a good day. I got alot accomplished, and am planning a Schlitterbahn trip for Labor Day!!!!
8/11/2009 12:04:20 PM
Update: lol Couldn't resist it. Well the meds put me to sleep but 2mg Xanax will NOT get rid of a serious headache. I woke up and still have the pounding at the base of my skull and the stabbing pains in the eyes. It's progressing to a right fine migraine and at this rate tonight will SUCK.
And to boot I had plans to clean the bathroom, scrub the floors, wash the pawprints off the doors, scrub the tub and shower curtain, and disinfect the whole place from Boo's incessent not using the litter box!
It's breaking my heart but it's time to put Boo down; he's only 9 years old but the crystals are back in his bladder and he's peeing blood again. That coupled with never being able to let him out of the bathroom isn't fair. I think I'll do it this weekend; it's going to hurt like hell but I really have no choice in the matter.
I love my cat but he's got the short end of the stick. At least with him gone Tabbi can come out of the bathroom and join the rest of the family. God I wonder how this will affect the rest of the pack.
8/10/2009 8:39:16 PM
Interesting; I spent about 20 minutes tonight flitting through profiles bored to tears while I waited for my meds to kick in. I have to say that some were interesting, some were silly, and others were downright laughable.... But to each his own I suppose.
Last week was interesting; I actually enjoyed my birthday for the first time in years. We went to see a movie and I hung out with my mother after work. It was nice, the movie was interesting.
Well I think my pills are starting to work; I have one hell of a headache from the moron upstairs and his heavy feet. Hopefully the meds will keep it from going full blown migraine by morning; I can't afford to miss a day of work this week.
Have a great night and thanks for giving this a read... Lord knows I haven't updated in forever and who knows when I will again. Things are hectic with work, school, and my munchkin being home. =) Being a single parent sucks but I'm a whole lot happier as one than I was with the Ex.
8/4/2009 6:28:33 PM
My son is home and my attention has been on him as is expected. Right now we are doing our thing laying on the couch playing Pokemon on our Nintendo DS's. We're also watching Hell's Kitchen together. It's nice having Al and Bel laying at our feet as we relax together.
Hope everyone has a great day. I know my life is hectic but I love it.
7/17/2009 9:32:49 PM
Well I didn't get to see HBP today but I did go watch Transformers again... Yeah I know it's like the 10th time but I was feeling lonely. Sitting in the theater in our customary seats reminded me of taking my son right before he left to be with his daddy.
I miss him so much, it's getting difficult to remember he'll be home in two weeks. He's my munchkin; I love him more than anything in this world. I hope he had a good time today out doing things with his father; he was so busy he forgot to call me yet again.
Oh well time to go to bed with my little girl and wish that the big boy was there... He's at the kennel tonight; I can't go out if he's home, he'll destroy the place. At least I've got my little girl to keep me company; she's probably sleeping on my pillow right now.
I'd better go get Ducky for her to sleep with.
7/16/2009 6:49:29 AM
Well it's been a long week. I'm swampped at the office and when I get home (finally!) all I want to do is curl up on the bed with my dogs and watch movies. I rarely even turn on my laptop anymore except to load Itunes as I cook or clean. I am looking forward to the weekend, I'm going to spend all day Saturday at the movies and then go home and watch even more movies.
Tonight I'll catch up on the tv shows I've missed, god I love VOD and DVR, and then watch Order of the Phoenix before I go to see Half Blood Prince...
I'm dreading this movie, next one Snape dies... and he's my favorite character. Oh well it happens... But don't you think Daniel Radcliffe grew up to be a cutie?
7/7/2009 6:56:56 AM
I just realized that Warehouse 13 is premiering tonight on SyFy or Sci Fi... Give it a chance, I watched the unfinished first episode in Las Vegas last September. I had to do a Q&A on it and got paid to spend an hour and a half sitting inside... It was really good, kinda a Bones meets X-Files without the Seely Booth of course.
I will definately be checking out the finished version; I enjoyed the unfinished cut so take a peek, you might find something you will enjoy.
7/7/2009 6:53:10 AM
Well I'm feeling a bit better, of course my son is calling me constantly and that helps. I love him so much, I can't imagine my life without that little boy.
So yesterday I got all upset and frustrated I couldn't find a decent copy of RoTF online... How hard is it to cam a good copy with good sound??? And to boot my copy of Star Trek had been taken down! I was left without anything to watch! So what did I do, I pulled out Quantum of Solace and popped it into the DVD drive. Ahh nothing beats a good Daniel Craig Bond flick; he's so damn sexy.
Then again I've always felt that he's sexy; what can I say I just like the type that kick ass and take names. lol Reminds me of my brother actually; hit first question later when it comes to protecting his siblings.
7/4/2009 7:05:04 PM
I'm frustrated, I shouldn't have taken my frustration out by yelling at Al. My son is gone and I am feeling horribly lost and lonely. I feel so bad I missed the fireworks at the Rig tonight...
Is it too much to want to keep my son with me and to forget he ever had a father? I just want my little boy back; the days are already looking ahead horribly... Oh well, I'm going to watch the Boston Pops, the host has a sexy accent, either he's British or Aussie, but either way DAMN I like a man with an accent....
Happy 4th everyone! And thanks to the people who keep us safe...Today I found a picture of my father in uniform from when I was very young... It reminded me of a lot of things I forgot over the years.
7/4/2009 4:13:10 PM
I am gone not even four hours! Four hours!!!! I come home to a warzone, Al decided to shred 2 boxes of matches, a bag of kitty liners, and the entire contents of the top of my desk, table, and kitchen counter!!!
I'm so mad at him!!! Somewhere he found this nasty thing that apparently my son had hidden, don't ask the kid is creative hiding food for "later", and got mold all over my carpet!!!!! Now I have to have the place professionally cleaned!
I've spent well over a thousand dollars in the two months I've had this puppy, not to mention he finally ran through 100 pounds of food!!!! At almost 60.00 per 30 pounds!!!!!!! UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to get rid of him but he's my son's puppy and I can't do that.
Why did I have to get a second dog? Why wouldn't I listen to my parents and not get one? I didn't need another dog but I wanted one....well now I'm paying for it and it's time to find him a crate and leave him locked up all the time.
I wonder if Arnie's is open yet!
7/2/2009 10:47:38 PM
I'm up late... My munchkin fell asleep in the middle of Transformers but it wasn't so much about his being awake for the movie to me. It was our being together enjoying quiet time before he leaves me for the rest of the summer. It was having him lay there on the seats and holding him in my arms like he was a little boy again that brought a tear to my eye.
I already miss my son, how can I survive so long without him? This is just the second time he'll be gone for an extended period of time, last year I didn't sleep at all the entire two weeks he was on vacation. It's even longer now, and I don't have the help of my ambien anymore.
My heart is breaking, times like this I should have just put up with the hell I was going through and stayed with my ex, at least then I wouldn't have to give up my only child to him at the courts whim. But then I think of the harm it did my son, growing up in a household of torment and agony, where both parties actively hate and sabotage each other. He needs a stable environment, one he can grow and learn to become a man in. Already I'm struggling to instill respect for women into his half-formed psyche. His father saw to it that anything I tried to teach my son was ruined, I do not want him to become a man-whore like his father. I want him to be a good man whom I can be proud of.
I love that little boy more than life itself, I'd do anything for him. That's how it should be, we should protect our offspring and make sure they are happy and loved. My son is spoiled, I know this...I give him almost everything his heart desires; if I can do it then why not... This is not a good thing; but how can I say no when I look into those eyes so like my own and they are full of the tears that I try not to shed?
Less than forty hours before my world collapses; even my beloved dogs will not be able to pull me from the depression I will sink into. I hope it only lasts a few days, my tears are already falling down my cheeks only to land on my shirt.
7/2/2009 11:24:10 AM
Today I'm feeling good! Of course tomorrow I actually have a day off of work (gasp) but last night I went to the store to get my beautiful emerald ring repaired, it cracked in thin band of gold, only to find...yes you guessed it!!!!!
More emeralds!!!!! So of course I bought them on the spot, then threw in a pink sapphire and diamond ring, some tanzanite rings, a gold chain to hang my beautiful emerald pendant on, and an amethyst ring... I have expensive taste when it comes to jewelry.
I love jewelry, what woman doesn't? But then again some people want the biggest and flashiest stones out there, I'm happy with a small stone that means something... My emeralds are not that big but they are MINE. I bought and paid for them myself. I love emeralds! I waited years for the first, and now I don't plan on waiting for more...
So this weekend its back off to the store in search of the perfect pendant to give my son on his special birthday! You only turn 10 once and he wants his birthstone so I'll buy him a pretty chain and pendant that is not feminine. =) Maybe I can convince his Daddy to chip in on it... Eh, not worth it... Let's leave the ex where he belongs, in the dust.
LOLOL!!!
6/30/2009 8:04:00 PM
Still flying, took another mg of xanax and will be asleep wihtin 10 to 15 minutes most likely.
I like xanax, note to self renew script when I go to doc for bloodwork... seriously i'm bruising so badly it's even worrying the folks/friends. That coupled with the migraines has me thinking somethings going on with my blood chemistry... Hell I'm probably just anemic again, I've been that way for 16 years and it never goes away.... The joys of being allergic to iron.
6/30/2009 5:19:46 PM
weeeee i found my xanacx. i[m fllying sohigh butpain is gone finally. goingyo doc for bloodwork onwhy i'm sobruised soon.
Weeee i see pink unicorns and purple elephants.
6/29/2009 6:25:09 PM
I have a horrible migraine today... Too much damn heat I think... But I think you should think with your dipstick. Oyie I am watching a Castor Oil commercial.
I hate these things, migraines suck. Life sucks when I have one. It makes me feel like crap. Oh well It'll get better eventually.
6/27/2009 6:19:31 PM
It's Saturday! I spent the day at the movies with my friend and a restaurant, we took my son out and had a blast. Then I came home and walked the dogs before sitting down at the pc.
Loads of fun today, but it was also a large amount of drama, I got to yell at the theater manager for a mess up in the movies after my son irritated me by taking off in the store... Gotta love kids who don't listen because they want a toy... What sane person spends 50.00 on a LEGO???? Good grief! The toy market is pathetic... Now if it was a Transformer I'd have bought it immediately, especially if it was Optimus or Bumblebee but damn... Not for a LEGO!
Yeah yeah I know I love Transformers a bit too much but hell one has to hold onto a few pieces of their childhood. I used to watch it when I was young and it makes me smile to see it now. Plus the comments are downright hilarious... Okay enough for today, I'm off to get dinner with the kiddo and then watch some movies...
6/26/2009 12:04:40 PM
Weeeeeee!!!!! It's friday! Yay!!!!!!!!!! I'm going home and going to the beach!!!!!! Well after Transformers tomorrow.....
Yes the boy has decreed we're to see it again, but then again I don't mind because my eye-candy is in it! I'll laugh, cry, gasp, and rail at the injustice of it being over so soon, then go pay another 26.00 to see it again...
Oh man, I've got it bad but seriously who wouldn't kill to have a truck like Ironhide or Optimus? Omg, I'm not a truck gal fyi but I love those two in particular... Too bad I already decided next time I buy a car I'm getting a jeep.
6/26/2009 8:20:01 AM
If it hasn't been figured out yet I am very random. I take pride in my randomness. It is more than a facet of my personality it's a way of being.... Random is good, it means your unpredictable and I like being unpredictable...
I'm a chameleon, I can be sweet and nice or vicious and manipulative... It all depends on how you treat me as to how I will treat you back... Yes I make sarcastic comments and poke fun at people. Yes I laugh and joke around; but it's all in good fun.
Now I'll ask the million dollar question to the poofy haired kid... Did you find Kyle yet??? (FYI, inside joke... If you have to ask it won't be as funny)
6/25/2009 6:13:35 PM
I am shocked and saddened by both losses this day. Farrah Fawcett and Michael Jackson were both icons, I grew up watching them both and will miss them.
I will especially miss Michael, I would spend hours listening to his music and even once tried to do his Thriller dance in my bedroom, very badly I might add. I think I got two steps and tripped over my own two feet, dancing is NOT my strong point... I had hoped to get tickets to his comeback tour but that didn't happen and now we'll never get to see him preform.
Rest in Peace Michael and Farrah; the world will miss you and thank you for everything you've done over the years...
6/25/2009 11:48:29 AM
Okay I've come to the realiziation I have lost my mind... Well that's fine because I lose my keyes 20-30 times a day and my cell phone even more times... Have you ever found your cell or keys in the freezer??? In the washing machine??? In the dog food bowl???
Well that's me, they are always where I least expect them to be... I seriously wonder why I can't keep track of things, ask me where something is on my desk at work and I can tell you in one minute flat...ask me where something is at home and I'll look for five hours and still not find it...
Based on that the chances of finding my mind are nil. Dang it, I was looking forward to a good night reading intellectual type things, guess I'll have to go watch Disney with the munchkin instead and rot what little is left of my brain.
6/25/2009 7:35:09 AM
"Fate rarely calls upon us at a moment of our choosing."
This was said to me today by someone very wise, of course he was quoting the movie we saw just the other day but still it had me thinking... Why are we called to something at the worst possible moment in our lives? What is it that hard wires us to do what is right even if it is not what is easy???
For not all people do what is right, some choose to take the easy way; to subject people to their will, to treat them like they are nothing; to commit crimes either against a person or against humanity as a whole... Many thoughts race through my mind and I ponder the great mysteries of the universe... Is today the day I choose to follow my heart and ignore the callings that I hear? Or perhaps is it the day I continue to ponder things over deep in the wild recesses of my mind and seek what truth I can find in it...
I know many people will not understand this, and that is something I accept. Each person must choose for themselves what fate they wish to live. My fate has been chosen and it's something I'm at peace with, I will always be a mother first before I am anything else. My child will always have that most important space in my life and heart... His words I will listen to and his tears I will soothe away. He will always be the most special child in the world; every child is special but he is more so because he is mine...
So I leave you with another random quote I found online, hopefully it will inspire some goodness in everyone... There is not enough in this world to go around and we all need it. Remember this could very well be your last day on this Earth... How do you want to be remembered????
"Today can be a healthy unusual day for you -- and for others -- if you take time to give someone a smile ... to express a word of kindness ... to lend a helping hand to someone in need ... to write a note of gratitude ... to give a word of encouragement to someone who is temporarily overcome with problems ... to share a portion of your material possessions with others."
6/24/2009 11:28:16 AM
My mid-morning was pure hell... I went from the mother of all caffiene rushes to immediate panic and paranoia. Sure enough I'm driving 100mph down the freeway desperate to get home and find out why my alarm was tripped...
Thank goodness it all ended well; I will not make that mistake again and I look forward to being able to rest tonight hopefully getting rid of the panic induced migraine I currently have. One day I will learn to not react so violently to anything that frightens me...but who can blame me after finding out the police were at my house...
Something to think upon: The obscure we see eventually. The completely obvious, it seems, takes longer.
6/24/2009 5:52:39 AM
I'm utterly wiped out. Monday night I got next to no sleep what with not feeling well and then last night I had the most awesome time out with the kiddos. We went to the midnight showing of Transformers; oh boy was there lots of eye-candy! I had a blast staring at Shia LaBeouf during the whole movie...and yes I cried at two particular parts!
I won't ruin it for those who are going to go see it... So I drag my sorry tail into the house at almost 4 am and have to get up before 6 for work; plus the cat kept meowing and waking me up the whole time I tried to sleep... But oh my god I have GOT to see Transformers again; we're going this weekend since I've got nothing better to do than hang around the movie theater and go to lunch afterwards with the munchkin.
While we waited for the movie to start my kiddo and I made fun of the other patrons, it was amusing and I nearly died laughing. I must have busted a rib I laughed so hard. It was great, I only laugh like that when I'm utterly exhausted and oh boy was it totally worth no sleep...
Well I'm off to the coffee pot to try and stay awake even though I know I'll regret it later... LOL!!! Next midnight movie will be Harry Potter with the kiddos. The preview totally rocked! I can't wait to see Snape, god I love snarky bastards!
6/23/2009 7:03:59 PM
Wow I actually had some time to kill before going to the movies tonight to see Transformers and was flipping through some profiles. Dear lord there are a large amount of jaded people out there... I had no idea so many scammers were online; no check that I knew there were a lot but didn't stop to put two and two together.
Oh well, that's life I suppose there are scammers everywhere... Well so be it, believe what you will I can't make people realizing what they don't want to. But I will ferret out scammers and I do take things slow. Get used to it! I'm a submissive who doesn't take shit from anyone; you earn my respect it's not automatically given just because you say you're a Dom.
Well I'm off to my shower and to do my hair.... Capris, tank top, and a pony tail.. Can't get much better than that.. Lolol!!!!!
6/22/2009 6:30:50 PM
Just a thought... Don't ask for my phone number, don't ask for my address and sure as heck respect the fact if I choose to give you my yahell that it's not a sign you own me. If I want to give you my personal information then I will however you WILL respect my right to privacy and to getting to know you before I pass out anything sensitive.
If you don't then you will find yourself on ignore; I am not sure yet what I am searching for and if I find it in you then I can guarentee you'll be the first to know.
Most importantly, you must understand my life revolves around a child. His needs always come before my own which is as it should be. If you have a problem with this then don't even bother contacting me. I will not compromise his health and happiness for anyone.
6/22/2009 10:37:23 AM
Day 3 of the migraine and I've come to realize it's got to be hormonal... I haven't had one this bad since November. Then again it could be the stress of dealing with lots of icky issues....
Yes I've decided that issues suck! Wow what a deep thought, who knew I could actually think that deeply....Hmmm obviously something is wrong with me if I think that is deep. Oh well...
Tonight's plans.... I hear a pool calling my name! I'm going to put on my suit and lay out in the sun with Al next to me scratching his fluffy head as I read a Nora Roberts romance. Then maybe I'll go home and watch a movie while laying on the couch scratching Al's head...
Yes there is a theme, Al is always in the picture, he's my protector, my guardian, and quickly becoming my second best friend behind my little girl. Al will always be in the picture; animals are important and keep me quasi-calm. Not that I'm usually calm, hell most the time I'll bounce off the walls if you give me some kool-aid or sugar...
Yes I'm a mom, I have kool-aid in my house! WOOT! Time to go grab a bottle of water and a Hawaiian punch packet!
6/21/2009 7:28:26 AM
Well the migraine is down to a dull roar now; soon it'll be time for more medication. I really should go cook something for breakfast but I don't want to get out of my bed... Yes today I feel lazy; it gets like that when my head aches terribly.
6/20/2009 6:55:54 PM
Today was an interesting day, I had a migraine and was trampled repeatedly by a moose of a dog... But all in all it was a decent day... I've met some interesting people and look forward to meeting more.
