svetlanaPET

i guess i should clarify.....it's like a gamble for you.....either i want you dead, don't give a shit about you, would like to have you as a friend, or will dote on you with all i am and give you my heart earnestly of my own free will as long as i care to-in the latter case, sadomasochism will ideally become mutual and not fatal, of course

huge sex drive, but don't care about yours and not into giving pleasure on any level; submissives bore me, as they get off on the pain....i'd rather have the unwilling.....i guess that pretty much null and voids this site.   i only want to get off on my terms and not if you like it.  i want you to suffer with your entire being.   it seems like most of it is sugar-coated and fantasy moderated with 'good sense', 'respect', and 'moral discretion'.  everybody's so full of shit and in denial.   i embrace the violence within.   nothing short of your corpse could satiate me.  i AM disgust and disenchantment; jaded to the extreme.  i am a contradiction, though; a hypocrite and 'at one' all at once.  you could become beloved to me either through mutual admiration and existence or through torture and death.  i don't want to just wail on you with no solidified culmination of ultimate pain.  so, i guess the question is, in which way might i love you?  to your death or unto mine own?

i am the unwanted, unashamed.  misanthropic to the extreme.  fuck you :)