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| My Owner is BDsmTrainer, and His profile is on this site, i have added a picture of Him to my profile. Daddy is looking for a full time live-in female slave for 24/7 TPE. i would adore having a sister slave to add to O/our family. Ideally Daddy would like someone young, just out of high school, (legal, of course!) LOL . But anyone who is interested, W/we would be happy to hear from, and if you are the right person for U/us, you would definately be considered. Daddy is a wonderful Master, He is very good to me, a true southern gentleman, a hard worker, with excellent values, a better man would be hard to find. i consider myself very lucky and am extremely proud to be owned by such a man. so, if you are interested in joining a stable, happy, poly home, full of laughter, where both slaves will be treated equally, please send U/us a message.
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Up early this morning, reading thru all the journal entries, it is so sad that there seems to be so many players, fakes, and wanna bes on this site. i was lucky enough to find my Daddy here-i wish E/everyone could find what they are looking for...Seems like the only real entries i read are from those who are owned already...it just escapes me why someone can't have enough common courtesy to reply to a message, even if it is a polite, thank you for your interest, but i am not interested. What has happened to manners these days?
And all the friggin scammers!! Jesus!! go prey on someone else-W/we are not stupid people, just trying to find something real, others who are sincere and share our interst in the lifestyle W/we have chosen...
Really wish i could find a site SOMEWHERE online that was real=people probably got smart and went underground.... |
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YAY!!!! lost 4 more lbs!!! Been working hard on excercising and being healthy, trying to lose weight so i can be sexy for Daddy and feel confident and better about myself. 17 lbs total so far in the last 2 and a half months-i'm so proud of myself!!!!! |
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RESPECT THE WOMAN, CHERISH THE LITTLE GIRL, DESIRE THE SLUT-THEN YOU HAVE THE BODY, MIND AND SOUL....that says it all in a nutshell, right?
if You show me respect, it increases my respect for You tenfold, make me FEEL that i am cherished, special to You and needed, and You have my love forever, take me to unimagined heights and teach me to fly, and i will worship at Your feet always!
i am such a lucky girl, Daddy is a little bit of everything all rolled into one..
He provides for me, protects me, loves me, guides me and teaches me, not only to be more perfectly His, and to make Him happy, but to be the best person i can be so i can be happy...
He disciplines me when He feels i need it, is patient beyond belief, excites me beyond anything i have ever known, always starting with the mind and my imagination....
His dominance over me is growing stronger day by day, i revel in the control He has over me....
i now understand the freedom that comes only from being a slave and truly owned, body, mind and soul...
how could i ask for anything more?
i am consumed |
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Mmmmm...was sitting in the passenger seat of Daddy's 18 wheeler the other night when out of the blue Daddy says-"Go get a towel, put it on the seat, take your pants off and masturbate." i was shocked-it was totally unexpected and i hestitated for a moment as the embarrassment of what was about to happen washed over me..i felt so vulnerable, having never done this in front of Daddy before, yet secretly excited....i did as i was told and got my bullet, spread my legs and had one foot up on the dashboard, feeling the vibrations stimulate my clit, my pussy was instantly wet, and the thought that another 18 wheeler could drive by and look in and see me was driving me wild...Daddy reached over and pinched and pulled my nipple hard, i thought i would explode right then and there, but when He pulled my hair and yanked my head back i came undone, screaming with a wild abandon i hadn't felt in quite some time..as i lay there panting and out of breath, quaking like a leaf in a windstorm, Daddy says "Do it again" OMG!!! i knew i was going to bolt out of the chair as the vibrator hit my now sensitized clit, i didn't think i would be able to do it, but obey i must..as i worked my toy gingerly against my clit, it only took a few minutes before the climax built again, and i was squirting my hot cum all over the seat and down my thighs. i think i screamed like a banshee..lol i was quite satisfied and feeling like a ragdoll, when Daddy says "Do it again!" Holy Mother of God! the Man is trying to kill me i think to myself. How am i possibly going to touch my engorged clit with this vibrating bullet again? it felt like liquid lightening shooting thru me..i came immediately and almost passed out as i felt waves of dizziness roll thru me,,i am practically begging Daddy now. "Am i done Daddy?" He replies "How old are you?" "i'm 41 Daddy, You know that" - "38 more to go" i stare at Him in disbelief-He grins wickedly at me and says "you better get started, it's going to be a long night...." |
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Reality finally hit me in the face today-i have been fighting so hard against Daddy. This is my first time being owned, and it is nothing like what i expected it to be-i actually thought it was going to be some sort of romantic fairy tale where i got whisked away by a dark knight in tarnished armour, to be ravished...LOL!!!!! HAHAHAHA -i can't help but laugh at myself now....well, it is settling in just HOW dependant i am upon Him for EVERYTHING-and all the things he ALLOWS me to do, that i should be utterly GRATEFUL for-all these things i used to take for granted....i have NO rights, NO freedom.....THIS is my new life-and it is HIS-completely.....i have been struggling so hard this last mon th and a half-letting go of my old life has been very difficult for me, letting go of my old ways of thinking...i wonder do all new slaves go through this in the beginning....i haven't had anyone to ask or to talk to-i stopped posting for the longest time because i was so busy being a brat and a bitch, and pouting over every little thing when i didn't get my own way..Daddy has the patience of a saint..but He is wise..He knew all along what was going on inside my head even though i tried to hide it from Him...
every constructive critisism he gave me i acted like He was attacking me..and the walls went up-it took me forever to realize Daddy wasn't insulting me, that He actually DOES care , and just wants me to be the best person i can be..it is difficult changing who you are, but i know he has always been right, just sometimes the truth hurts, and i didn't want to see my own faults...
Acceptance has settled in, i am a slave, even if i don't always know how to act like one, but i am being trained..it's just not all fun and games like i thought it was gonna be....Well, ...it is for Daddy.....LOL
i love Him beyond reason, even if i am just a possesion to Him, but i am HIS , and one day i hope to be worthy of Him
for now, all i can do is thank Him for not throwing me out the front door because i have been MORE than a handleful, and he has offered me an opportunity for a life beyond any i ever imagined..i know he wants to lead me to a fulfilled and happy life, and i am so proud to be His... |
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been a couple of weeks since i have written anything here, mostly because i am on the road with Daddy, and don't have internet acsess, but mainly because i have been struggling within myself so much...talking, planning, thinking about slavery is one thing, but actually living it is an entirely different matter-i have been an absolute brat, and a selfish one at that, and i am ashamed of myself for the way i have acted this last month since moving in with Daddy. i am not going to elaborate, He knows what i mean, and i only hope He can forgive me, and i want to thank Him for the patience He has shown me thus far, i have had a hard time accepting my place, and have had to be shown, it has not been an easy pill to swallow, but i adore Him so, He is my Reason, and i will continue to strive towards becoming everything He needs, each and every day... |
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i wonder if He knows...
the way my heart skips a beat when He walks into a room?
the way i long to hear my name coming from His lips?
the way i want to hold Him in the quiet of the night?
the way i want to kneel before Him, and worship at His feet?
i wonder if He knows......
the way i hunger for His touch?
the way i need His guidance?
the way i ache inside with an all consuming need?
Only He can satisfy my craving- to learn , to grow, to serve His every whim, to be more perfectly His with each passing day:
Does he know the doubts and fears that fill my mind? the way i long to hear those simple words-"good girl"-to know that i am what He needs?
i wonder if He knows.......
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a day home with Daddy! YAY!!! got up early this morning and made Him breakfast, packed for the coming week, just need to cook for the road now. i love being home on weekends where i can really serve Him well, and let Daddy relax-He works so hard-looking forward to O/our day together.... |
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Been with Daddy two weeks now..still have so much to learn, i am struggling, but so want to please and be pleasing, this lil girl feels so unworthy at times, i hang on every word He says, looking to Him always for guidance..just want to see that smile in His eyes.....sometimes i feel like i am floating on a cloud, so happy just to be near him, other times so lost trying to find my way.... |
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Daddy is looking for a second, a lil sister slave to join O/our household, this has been posted on my profile, but haven't had much luck, so i thought i would try posting here. if anyone is interested in chatting and getting to know U/us, please read my profile and send U/us a message, W/we will reply to all-thank you |
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Daddy is sleeping right now, W/we r stuck parked in the rig for 11 more hours-too much time to think...and my imagination is running away with me-thinking about Daddy tying me up to the bed-arms above my head, legs spread wide open, totally exposed to Him, flogger hissing thru the air, across my tits, His cunt, the burn , the sting, the wetness i can't control as i feel His power over me, He sees the shine of my moist pink lips, begging Him to enter-i see the knowing look in His eye-secure in the knowledge that his little girl is always greedy for Him, craving his cock in all my holes, using me roughly, over and over-taking me to the edge, bringing me back, again and again, never allowing me that sweet release until i beg shamelessly-He drives into me-i shatter into a million pieces....He grabs my head by the hiar and forces his cock down my throat, fucking my face til i can't breathe, gagging me with his fullness, fills my mouth with his seed, i part my lips and show him His life upon my tongue-swallow now My jewel..... |
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on the road with Daddy again. W/we are in South Carolina headed for Myrtle Beach. i love traveling with Him, i get to see so many new things, and spend every waking moment with Daddy. what slave wouldn't love that? lol life on the road is not easy, but it is my pleasure to serve Him and keep Daddy company. i am honored that He has chosen me to be with Him.
Well, i got that beating the other night, Daddy made me go get the flogger and bring it to Him, then bent me over and beat my ass, my thighs and my back, and i'm such a bad, naughty girl, what was supossed to be a punishment only turnedme on, but Daddy is always one step ahead of me, so i got kissed and carrassed, and worked into a frenzy til i was so wet i soaked thru my panties, then Daddy ordered me to me knees to kiss and suck on His cock, then made me get up and go nake Him dinner. Daddy loves teasing me-always keeping me wanting Him-kept me waiting for a whole week!! But finally He allowed this girl to feel His cock inside His cunt, and i was saoked and ready for Him-Daddy came so hard-i was so proud of myself for making Him feel so good, it gives me so much pleasure to hear Him moan and feel His cum inside my mouth, holding it there until He allows me the honor of swallowing it. i adore Him more with each passing day. i am a lucky girl to have such a wonderful Master |
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just got in off the road with Daddy, spent the whole week with Him while he drove. i really enjoy spending so much time with Him, and i got to see how hard Daddy works. i am trying hard to learn His ways so i may please Him and make His life easier, but i feel like i am failing miserably, one mistake after another-it's all i can do to keep myself from crying-but i just keep trying, i know he will teach me what he needs, the hardest part is trying to anticipate what he wants before He has to ask-i am so damn hard on myself, everytime i do something wrong, i feel like i am not worthy of Him-Daddy is so good to me-he spoils me too much, i don't deserve it-he is so sweet and kind and patient with me, all i want is to make Him happy-i want to be the slave he deserves and i want him to know everyday how much i love and adore Him-but i'm a brat, and stubborn and hard headed-what i really deserve is to be beat.... |
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well, i have spent the entire day thinking Daddy was going to fuck His lil slut-since this morning when he made me get on my knees and ordered me to worship his cock, which i did with enthusiam!!! to mid morning when he made me get on my knees again and told me to kiss his cock, then slapped me in the face for licking it, (i just couldn't help myself *wink) to the three separate occasions he grabbed me by the hair and kissed me so deeply, grabbed, pinched, twisted and slapped my titties, ran His fingers over and over my clit til i thought Niagra Falls was originating in my panties-Daddy has kept me in a state of intense sexual arousal the entire day, til the last time He had me begging for Him to touch His pussy-but to no avail-this hot cunt is craving to be fucked-oh god, when will He stop torturing me? and the fact that he has so much power over me-controlling me in such a way, has me even more desperate for His cock-i've never felt such intense lust-he is awakening me in ways i never imagined-and all i want is more-i worship him even more each day... |
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yesterday i moved in with Daddy, i was so excited the whole way down, i can't believe i am actually here, OWNED and happier than i have ever been in my life. all i could think about was what Daddy was going to do to me once i got here, and it didn't take me long to find out...after he picked me up, Daddy took me out to dinner, and when it was over he brought me home, ordered me to go into the bathroom and freshen up and come out ready for him, i came out in my black lace panties and matching bra, Daddy grabbed a hold of me and kissed me so long and deep and passionately my panties were soaked thru within minutes, he commanded me to kneel before Him and take His cock in my mouth, omg , AT LAST Daddy's firm cock inside of me, i was sucking and licking, taking Him all the way down my throat, i couldn't get enough, the taste of Him, the feel of His firm smooth head againt my tongue, the lil taste of pre cum, mmm...then he pulled me up and kissed me again, so fuckin hot the way Daddy kisses, had me so weak in the kneees, i almost fell over-he had to reach out to steady me, the next thing i knew i was bent over, hands on the ground in front of me feet, open and exposed to Daddy who was standing behind me, inspecting me, His asshole, his pussy, i felt so vulnerable open to Him like that, and it made me so hot, i felt His fingers slide inside my cunt, over my clit, back and forth, oh SHIT -i'm fuckin squirting all over myself and the floor, knees so weak i'm begging Daddy to let me sit down, i don't trust my legs to hold me up, He orders me to crawl across the bed, He climbs up behind me, i feel His fingers stretching my ass open wide, then He is in me, fucking my ass so divinely, making me scream, maoning groaning, i cant help myself, into my cunt, back in my ass, i cum so hard-:Daddy-u shouldn't be fucking ur lil girl!" He lays back on the bed-"coime take care of Daddy" His cock is back in my mouth, His hands in my hair, on my head, guiding me back and forth, showing me how to please Him, my tongue wonders to His asshole, i lick all around it, wanting to show Daddy that i'm a dirty slut, licking his cock, wrapping my lips around His dick as he honors me by filling my mouth with His precious seed, i hold it in my mouth as i am told, tasting Daddy's life within me, sweet and salty, coating my tongue, -swallow now jewel, and i obey, he takes me in his arms and i relax, thinking it is over, but no-Daddy whispers to me of al the dirty things he will make me do as he strokes His pet, working me into a frenzy with the stories he tells-until he has me begging Him to touch me yet again, Daddy's fingers slide inside, in my pussy, my ass, rubbing my clit, i am so filled, all i want to do is cum, i feel my juices gush out of me, wave after wave, squirting over and over, the man has me captured, trapped by His desire-i am his to do with as he pleases, whenever and however he wants, the power he holds over me is intoxicating-i am so in love, i adore him so-he is my life |
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Daddy called today, and talked to my roommate, told her to Domme me-i was very shocked when she called me back to Her room and told me to pleasure Her-but Daddy ordered me to eat Her, and even though i felt very shy, i had to obey. it's been 3 years since i had any pussy, but God Hers was so sweet, i spread her legs and licked up the inside of each thigh, i could smell Her getting wet for me, reached up with my tongue and licked the outside of Her labia, sucking each lip into my mouth, heard Her sharp intake of breathe, as i opened up her pussy with my fingers and dipped my tongue inside, flicking it back and forth across her hard lil clit, she started moaning, and then i wrapped my lips around that hard button of flesh and started sucking, making Her moan even louder, so i slid one finger inside, felt her clench tightly down with her cunt, and then slid in another , finger fucking Her while sucking hard on Her clit, she was so wet and juicy, i could feel Her nectar run down my chin, then feel her convulse as she came in my mouth. it was her first time being with a woman, and she just looked around dazed and very happy-told me i should give classes, i could make a million dollars lol-i very much enjoyed making Her cum for me, but Daddy would not allow me to be pleasured-so now i am sitting here in wet panties, cunt throbbing, so horny-all i want to do is feel Daddy's cock fill me up-one more day..tomorrow i will be beneath Him
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tomorrow.......i see the face of God....
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still counting down lol 2 more days! i feel like i am floating. nerves r in an uproar, will i be able to please Him? He is everything i have ever wanted, everything to me-my life is His-i can't believe this is really going to happen-i have been searching for so long, and now the life i have always hoped for and dreamed of is about to begin-never before have i been so devoted to One-i can't wait to touch His skin, see His smile, kneel before Him, kiss his feet, serve Him in ALL ways-nothing else matters-just Daddy...
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getting more and more nervous-3 days til i see Daddy, what a delicious combination of fear, anxiety, excitement, lust, and anticipation! i feel like i am going to come out of my skin
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today i told Daddy that i wanted to make all His fantasies come true; He said "you are my fantasy, jewel" how could i NOT worship Him?
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preparing for the move to be with Daddy, been busy packing , making phone calls, setting my affairs in order, only 4 more days! as it gets closer to the time that i will be at His feet, the more incredibly turned on i am becoming, Daddy hasn't allowed me to touch myself, and won't allow it until i am with Him, the anticipation is driving me insane, i feel like a bitch in heat, but it is delicious-he teases me a little more each day-building my hunger for Him-i don't know if i can bear it much longer, His cunt is constantly throbbing, been walking around in soaked panties all day long-the desire i feel for him is so intense-never have i longed for a mans touch the way i do for Daddy's....i have to feel Him soon or i will just die....
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OMG!! so friggin excited i can't breathe!! lol-been walking around in a blissful daze all day-going to be with Daddy permanently this Saturday!!!! i have dreamed of this life for so long-i can't believe it is finally going to happen-i can't wait to serve Him in the flesh, kneel before Him, care for him, be as dirty and slutty as he wants-fulfill all His needs and desires-i'm as giddy as a schoolgirl with her first crush-never been happier-I LOVE YOU DADDY!!!!!
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not really sure what to write about today, but Daddy said to write, so i am. Other than feeling very silly, and extremely disappointed in myself-nothing much else is going on in my mind today except how to learn to please my Master better-my mouth always gets me in trouble, and i am always being punished for the same thing-i just thank God He has enough patience with me to teach me to do better. i will always strive to be more perfectly His, for His happiness is all that matters to me-i have spent the day in reflection of my actions-which is what i should have been doing while i was being ignored. It just amazes me how deeply He is entrenched in my soul, and the anguish would feel if i were ever to lose Him. this girl needs to improve greatly to please Him better. i'm sorry i'm such a brat Daddy-i am entirely devoted to You, and i will learn, even if it kills me....
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ok i am a very foolish, stupid little girl-i just need to learn to accept my punishments better. all is well in my world, Daddy didn't leave me-it was ridiculous to think He even would-but my dumb ass got drunk over it and now i am in ever more trouble-not looking forward to the flogger.....but i brought it on myself-i will learn to do better
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i think my Daddy has left me-He wont answer me-i cant fuckin breathe my heart has stopped beating-i don't want to live without Him-i can't live without Him-Y?? why?? has He left me?? why won't He answer me?? my life is over-i don't know what i did-He won't tell me-i gave Him everything-Daddy i have begged and pleaded-what did i do??? He wanted me totally dependent on Him-my life is nothing without Him-i'm going to sleep-i hope i never wake up again... u wanted someone who worshiped U-i gave U that,why did U throw it all away??? why r u hurting me like this why why why? Why Daddy? why? my heart is broke into a million pieces-there is a difference between punishment and totally destroying someone-i don 't even know what i did-anyone that reads my journals will see how devoted i am to U-how much i love U-plz plz plz plz plz stop hurting me-i love U Daddy-my tears won't stop falling-just tell me what i did and i will make it better-don't leave me Daddy-i am nothing without U-plz stop hurting me plz Daddy plz-did i ever hurt U? all i ever did was love U-i love U still-why r u doing this to me? i am destroyed inside i love U- have no pride, no dignity, i am begging naked on my knees- i need U, to guide me to teach me, show me what U need and i will be that-all i want is to please U-stop hurting me Daddy plz plz plz-i can't do this-i am Urs-if U throw me away i am nothing...Daddy i love U-and i don't care who sees me beg-i have no pride-no dignity-my life is yours-if U want it-and nothing if u dont
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cant sleep-Daddy is all i can think about
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slowly figuring out it doesn't matter how i feel and that He has more important things to worry about than my childish fears-i need to learn when to keep my mouth shut-reminds me of something my Grandfather used to tell me when i was a little girl:
"A wise old owl sat on an oak-the more he heard the less he spoke;
the less he spoke the more he heard;
why can't we all be like that wise old bird?"
i think i should follow this advice.....
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Why am i a slave?
i don't know if i was born this way, or if events in my childhood molded me for this life, what i DO know is it's something i didn't chose, it just comes as natural to me as breathing does. With every fiber of my being i know that i am a slave. It's something that i didn't fully understand until Daddy explained the difference between a submissive and a slave to me.
i always knew i was different-the obvious being my sexual appetites, but to me the kink is only 10% of this lifestyle-i have always been a people pleaser, my happiest moments were always when i made someone else smile. The man in my life was always the center of my universe-i have always felt things more deeply than other people. There has always been an INTENSITY about me-and it hasn't been until the last couple of years when i discovered BDSM that i truly understood what i needed.
What do i need? Structure, discipline, to be controlled in every aspect of my life, to be owned, knowing that i have a place in this world, that i belong to One, that i am needed, loved, and cherished. i NEED to give all of myself, body, mind, and soul, to know that i am special.
and in return, i will serve, obey, adore and worship my Master like a god.
That's what it's about, right? O/our MUTUAL needs. it's give and take, i give a man the most precious gift he could ever receive, and by giving Him what He needs, my needs are met.
But it is a gift i give out of love, i don't expect to be treated like a doormat-i want that love returned. i want that intense emotional bond that can only be felt between a Master and His slave-that is the most important part of a D/s relationship to me. BDSM is about respect, honesty and loyalty.
i am a new slave, i have only been owned for a month, and after 2 years of searching, of trial and error, i have finally found the One. Daddy embodies everything i ever imagined a Dom could be, i feel blessed and honored to be His, and i do my best to show Him this everyday. W/we have O/our good days and O/our bad, the worse being when i feel i have failed Him, it tears at my soul, then i feel insecure and unworthy. my only concern in this world is pleasing Him, and while i know i cannot be perfect, i strive to be for Him, my greatest wish is to be everything He ever wants, needs, or desires, and that is the essence of who i am, His slave.
i know i try His patience, i frustrate Him, i disappoint Him, then the punishments come. i HATE them, being as Daddy's favorite is ignoring me, the worst thing He could ever do to me, because i am incomplete and lost without Him, but it is effective and he knows it, because it makes me try even harder to please Him, makes me even more devoted, and as much as it hurts me, it makes me feel that much more loved because he takes time out for me, to make me strive to be my best, more perfectly His, and i am humbled...
i am also shameless. it must be quite obvious by now that i am being punished again, and i have no pride or dignity left when it comes to pleasing Him, or begging His forgiveness, i only wish i was naked beneath His feet, so He could see my tear-stained face as i plead with Him, please don't turn Your back on this unworthy girl, Daddy, forgive me, for i am nothing without You......
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feel like a complete and utter failure....
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sometimes i just don't know if i can bear the emotional turmoil-the psychological torment-feels like my heart will shatter into a million pieces-i try so hard, but keep making STUPID mistakes, does He know what a blow to my soul it is when i displease Him? but i was told a mistake is only a mistake if you don't learn from it-so all i can do is keep trying my best-<sigh> i am so damn hard on myself-why is it that the one thing i want to do more than anything-which is making Daddy happy-seems to be the one thing i keep failing at? this girl is forlorn....
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i sit here and wonder sometimes about why people don't seem to have any manners. i mean, a large part of BDSM is about respect, am i correct? so why can't people be polite enough to respond to their messages? even if they r not interested, it would be nice if they acknowledged the fact that you took the time to sit down and write to them, and took an interest...
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i am going to meet Daddy in a week. 7 more days-we have been talking for a month now, the connection is there, we have done all O/our negotiating, and yesterday i made the final steps towards my new life, by saying goodbye to my old one. i have just walked away from everything and everyone, given my whole life up for Him. i thought it would be hard-but i don't regret it for one second, my life is His now, and nothing has ever felt so right to me -i just can't wait for it to begin
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my definition of what it means to submit:
to me, when i submit, i am placing my life in my Master's hands with complete trust and blind faith, knowing that He will ALWAYS do what is best for me in ANY situation. It means total obedience, without hesitation or question-and no matter what, my Owner's needs , wants, and desires, are the only things i need ever concern myself with.
i was thinking about this today when i recalled a conversation i had several years back and was asked what it meant to submit-and i couldn't answer, but thanks to Daddy, i now know that wonderful freedom that can only come from giving all of yourself...i am just grateful He chose me
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can't wait to be with Daddy-2 more weeks-i am a new slave, but so eager to learn and please Him, W/we have been talking for a while, and already He has complete control over me-i feel so lost and incomplete without Him-the sound of His voice sends shivers down my spine and makes me weak in the knees, i can only imagine what His touch will do to me, to feel the sting of the flogger He has already told me i will feel, i am nervous, excited, frightened, turned on beyond belief, the anticipation is divine......to finally be able to kneel at His feet, serve His every need, want desire, feed the beast..........i am hopelessly devoted
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7 used to be my lucky number, now i HATE it.....lol i love You Daddy!!!
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trying hard to let go, sometimes my mind wants to rebel, i get confused and feel lost, i need Daddy's firm hand to guide me, trying to readjust my mindset and learn His ways, feel like a newborn babe just learning to crawl, trying to take a step and falling flat on my face, getting up and trying again, stumbling once more, but i have faith that He will teach me to walk tall....i want to make Him proud
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had such a fun day. my girlfriend and i went outside to sunbathe, when we noticed our neighbor peeking at us through the window-lol-we whispered to each other and giggled, and i called Daddy to tell him about our admirer. daddy got a big kick out of this and gave me detailed instruction, which i followed of course! we took down our tops and i oiled my friends back, then curiosity must have gotten the best of our neighbor because he strolled on over to say hi. i just smiled and rubbed oil all over my huge tits and layed back-(more giggles) i could se the outline of his cock through his pants-we were having so much fun teasing him, next thing i know, T is throwing water all over me-so i grabbed a bottled and returned the favor- water fight and tits flying everywhere- i thought the poor guys eyes were gonna bug out of his head-t decided she had enough and went into the house, leaving me behind, to clean up-soo-, as i bent over to pick up the blanket, i spread my legs wide and let loose with a stream of piss, knowing he was watching me, and feeling like a very naughty girl (lol) i felt his hand between my legs catching my pee in his hand, i just looked over my shoulder winked and giggled, and ran into the house-i'm such a bad, bad little girl.......
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so swept away by the intensity of my emotions, i never knew it was possible to love One so deeply, i am utterly devoted..happier than i have ever been before-You are my entire world Daddy-this girl adores You
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I AM TOTALLY ENRAPTURED, POSSESSED, ENSLAVED....
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woke up early this morning, and Daddy had some orders for me-i was to go outside in the backyard in my nightgown and masturbate for Him-i didn't want to do it-but i did want to please Daddy-i was so afraid the neighbor's would see-the yard is open and anyone of 5 neighbors could have seen me-i was very shy and hesitant at first, but as my fingers worked my hot cunt-i got wetter and wetter, and even more turned on by the thought of being watched without my knowing, and the naughty lil slut in me took over-i hiked up my gown and spread my legs, placing my feet up on the arms of the lawn chair-i was wide open for anyone to see, reaching down ans sliding my fingers in and out of my dripping pussy, finger fucking myself hard, Daddy said i was to squirt twice, so i kept working that cunt til i exploded and cum shot straight up in an arc, flying thru the air-lol- i wonder what the neighbors thought of that? i wondered if they were watching, if they were turned on, if they started fucking as they watched me make myself cum, and then the second explosion came, so much juice flowing out of me, i made a huge puddle on the ground....i love being Daddy's lil slut
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Sometimes i think Daddy's punishments are cruel, and too harsh, especially when i don't understand-i have been ignored for the last 24 hours, and i about lost my mind before Daddy finally explained it to me. i thought i had lost Him forever and was in totally misery. i still have another 24 hrs to go without hearing the sound of my Daddy's voice-i have done nothing but cry, first because i felt so lost without Him, then because i realized how terribly i had disappointed Him. i am ashamed of myself...and i don't know how to ask for His forgiveness-but the lesson has been learned-and i will strive to do better in the future-so the punishment was effective-i don 't EVER want to go thru that again-i think i would have handled having the skin striped from my back better then the silence-i don't ever want to feel that lost and alone again-sometimes i forget my place, and that Daddy's needs must always come first, i am a bad, selfish little girl-but i am very happy i have a Daddy who is strong enough to stand firm and withstand my begging and pleading to do what He knows is right for me-i must remember that His role is not always an easy one either-i love You Daddy!!!!! thank You for teaching me an invaluable lesson, your adoring slave, jewel--Kisses (all over Your feet of course!)
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why is that the One we love the most, has the power to hurt us the most?
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Didn't know it was possible to cry as much as i have-i'm miserable
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full of anxiety...i have displeased Him again..only this time i don't know why....i'd rather be flogged senseless than feel this turmoil in my soul, knowing i have failed Him yet again, i feel as if i may just come apart, as delicate and fragile as the wings of a butterfly- i'm so sorry Daddy, i will try harder, please forgive this girl-i am nothing without You
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i'm such a needy lil mess...i feel lost when i'm not with Him, i try not to think about Him so much-it's like asking the sun not to shine...cold, dark, rainy day...matches my mood. i never imagined someone could capture my soul so completely, that i would feel such a deep physical ache when He is not near me, so i sit and wait....
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punished again......i opened my big mouth and forgot my place-i know i was wrong -so i asked for my punishment-it's funny-i think about how defiant i was as a child and how i resented my punishments, not realizing they were for my own good, and now i am asking for them. Now that i am older i realize that there is always a lesson to be learned, and punishments are given out of love, so that i may be a better person, so i am grateful to Daddy, because He cares enough to spend His time on me-i am His always, and gladly submit to His recreation of me-to better serve His needs
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i couldn't even imagine ever having to live without Him, not when even an hour without hearing the sound of His voice seems like an eternity of unbearable torment........
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.....emptiness is filling me, to the point of agony.......
Metallica
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i had almost given up hope and was ready to throw in the towel-i have been on so many of these sites searching for the One, for well over a year-and all i found were posers, players and wanna bes-wasting my time and theirs-leaving alot of hurt feelings in their wake-then one day i open up an e mail-and found someone who was honest and real-i am so very grateful that i did not close my account-because He has become the light of my life-there are Doms out there who have integrity and honor, who really do have their slave's best interests at heart, and i am the luckiest girl in the world to have found my Daddy-he makes me happier than i have ever been before-and for that i will always adore Him and proudly serve Him always
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i'm in my black panties and bra, garter belt and thigh highs, long dark hair flowing down my back, stiletto heels, He walks into the room, stopping behind me, i feel Him reach up and slip the blindfold over my eyes, and i am plunged into darkness, only the sound of His voice to guide me. "clasp your hands behind your back, slave" i do so, and feel the cold steel snap into place. my pulse is racing in anticipation, excitement building in me at the thought of being used by Him. then i hear the click of the leash as He attaches it to my collar, my stomach flips as he starts tugging on the chain to lead me forward, i stumble but i know he wont let me fall. Where is He taking me?
i am lead to the car and laid down in the backseat with a blanket thrown over me-i try to be brave, but i am so frightened, not knowing what lies ahead of me. what will He have me do? will i be able to please Him? Doubts fill my mind as W/we drive thru the night. the ride seems to stretch on forever.
finally i feel the car slow to a stop. He comes around to open the door and help me out. Once again the insistent tugging on the leash as i am pulled forward. he opens a door and i enter. it is so cold in here, the clicking of my heels echoing down the hall the only sound i hear besides my ragged breathing. my knees are so weak i don't know how i keep moving, but i have no choice but to obey. W/we enter a room, and He removes the blanket from my shoulders, and unlocks the cuffs-i am pushed gently backwards and layed down on a low wooden table. he places straps around my wrists and ankles until i am firmly held in place, spread eagle, open and vulnerable to Him.
"Daddy?" i whisper "SSH my slave-Do you want to please Me?" "Yes Daddy"-"What are you?" -"Your slut Daddy."- "And who owns you?"- "You do Daddy."-"Now open your mouth"-i obey immediately, waiting for His cock to be placed inside, straining to hear His movements as i am engilfed in blackness-i feel Him approach me, feel His hands caress my face, feel His cock enter my mouth, i whimper, and shake my head from side to side-That's not Daddy's cock!!! His voice in my ear, sharply'"suck it , bitch" i feel this stranger climb up on the table and straddle my face, a knee on either side of my face, feel him slide the head of his hard shaft past my lips and into my throat, i suckle him hard and swallow his entire cock, my hips start pumping in rythym to the way he is fucking my mouth-then i feel another mouth. a warm tongue flicking at my click, long soft hair brushing my inner thighs, i moan deeply, but i am frightened-how many people are in this room? i feel so vulnerable and exposed, helpless and weak-Daddy's voice in my ear again-"that's My good girl-don't think-just feel-let yourself go lil girl" another mouth biting at my nipple, fingers pulling on the other, my entire body is on fire, alive, cunt dripping wet, i feel another cock enter me there, a pussy settles over my mouth, i'm sucking greedily at the honey flowing from it, as she grinds down against my mouth, fucking my face fast and hard, one cock removed from my pussy, and another inserted pumping me hard-i feel the orgasm building-Daddy's voice again in my ear "What are you?"-"i'm Your whore Daddy!" i scream it out as i climax, beyond caring anymore, i don't care if there are 20 cocks in the room-i want to fuck them all-all i want is to FEEL -be a wanton , dirty slut for my Daddy-another cock-this one shoved up my tight lil asshole-i scream again, but keep pumping my hips-i can't get enough-i want more-i want it deeper, craving always more, a cock in each hand stroking , jerking, i'm moaning and writhing, begging for more, then i feel the hot cum spurt across my chest, my stomach, my thighs, even my face, my tongue darting out to catch it. How many cocks have cum on me? i am covered in it-my face is slapped, my head pulled off the edge of the tableby my hair, another cock shoved down my throat-i'm being pinched and poked and prodded by god only knows what, cunt fucked over and over and over again. i feel a vibrator on my clit, a cock in my ass, a hand around my throat, i fel the most intense orgasm, building taking me higher and higher, i'm about to explode, my pussy squirts cum all over the faces of those who are watching my cunt convulse-i am screaming beyond reason, knowing this is what i am, what i was made for. Daddy's voice again- "such a dirty, greedy slut" i feel everyone retreat, daddy's hand on my face-"who's mouth is this?"- "Yours Daddy"-"yes slave, MINE" His fingers between my legs-"Whose cunt?" -"Yours Daddy"
Then he is standing over me, i know what is coming, i await the warm flow against my skin, running down my chest, my stomach, my thighs, marking me as His-"You have pleased me well tonight, slave" my heart thrills at his praise-i live only for Him-he releases my wrists and my ankles, i fall to my knees at his feet, placing tender kisses there-i feel His hand at the back of my head pulling it back to look up at Him-he is smiling and His cock is throbbing inches from my face, he guides mymouth towards it, i open my mouth and suckle Him greedily, worshipping Daddy's cock with my tongue, loving the way he feels, the way He tastes, trying to milk all the cum from him, i feel Daddy tense and i know what is coming-my mouth fills with His seed, and Daddy says-"Swallow my life" i come undone-totally consumed by Him, knowing always this is where i belong, at his feet, kneeling before my God
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i lay here thinking of Him, standing over me, as i am bound and helpless, totally at his mercy, heart racing, as much in fear as in anticipation, breathing shallow, mouth dry, His cunt dripping wet, waiting for His touch-will it be kind or harsh? will i feel a gentle caress, or a stinging lash? the uncertainty drives me into a frenzy-and yet he just stands there, staring down out me, whip in hand, smiling with His eyes-delving into my soul-He knows what i want-what i need, what i crave, and yet he stands there still..waiting, patient, knowing he will break me, waiting for those words......Daddy...please....
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i can't stand being away from Him for one second-i am constantly longing for the sound of His voice, to hear His commands, my only need to please Him-He has awakened me to who i have always wanted to be-a slave-His slave-i will serve him with total devotion always-i am nothing without Him-i don't know how i existed before he came into my life-He has opened my eyes to a whole new world-His world-which i forever want to be a part of-Thank You Daddy-You have made me whole
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i close my eys
and He is there
always inside me
the air that i breathe
the blood that runs thru my veins
the beat of my heart
He is all that i can see
hear
feel
taste
my savior
my redeemer
my love
Owner of my soul
he is my reason
my Master
my God...
and i will kneel at His feet
and worship Him forever
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i am so deliriously happy words cant even describe how whole and alive i feel-i have found what i have been searching my entire life for-i now know what it is to be truly owned body , mind and soul-thank You so much Daddy for finding me and making me Yours-You have opened a whole new world to me-and i adore You-everything i am is Yours
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Daddy and i are looking for a lil boy and a lil girl for weekend play-both MUST be bi-if interested contact me and we can chat-if right person may turn into LTR-no roleplaying or cyber-looking for real time only
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i was a bad girl yesterday and had to tell Daddy what i did and ask Him to punish me-after Daddy made me cum and squirt in my panties he made me take them off, turn them inside out and eat my cum, then stuff my wet panties in my mouth for an hour-i was so upset that i dissapointed Daddy-but so very grateful that he cares enough to teach me to do better-i love being His dirty lil slut-i am the luckiest slave in the world-my Daddy is the best Master a girl could have
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it's only been 2 hours since i heard His voice-but each hour feels like a day..i wonder if He knows how empty i feel without Him here with me,,how i long to feel His touch..how every waking moment is filled with thoughts of Him...i am consumed
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Daddy made me so very happy today-he is so wicked...*giggles* So glad He found me
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Officially owned property!!!!
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A slaves true beauty lies in her submission.....
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| Age: 42 |
| Washington,
Pennsylvania |
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