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I AM AN OWNED slave NOT looking for any other Dominants...

Once again I am not looking for a Dominant for a relationship.. I love my Master with all she has.. He is wonderful and patient and she could not ask for a better Master, nor did she ever dream of one so great ..

Please respect this.... Looking forward to talking with others who are submissve Female/Male who are looking to join a poly home...

We are loving and understanding and would be taken well care of you and your needs.. We are looking for ture people no games and do not think you will play them to cause problems with Master and his slave .. It wont happen we have a strong bond..

Hope to hear form you

hugs to you all


I am 38 live in PA , I am a slave who once I get to know the other I give all I got.. I do not play games had enough players. I am looking for RT Dominant man who knows what he wants and who knows D/s is not all sex but goes way beyond that, but sex is great do not get me wrong..lol .. I love to serve.. I love total control by another.. I want to start by getting to know about you I do not want to just talk sex and be asked to show my private self on cam. I think it all starts on getting to know each other and we go from there.. I do not mind LDR's as long as we can meet.. but instead of rushing like I seem to do I want to go at a nice pace and start off talking.. I can be hard heaed and know open communication is a must.. there is more then I can say here so give me a chance to get to know you one never knows what can grow. just try me and see I am real, upfront and honest and no hidden secrets I am an open book so ask me anything please, if you like

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8/8/2009 11:05:52 PM
Ever try to go to the chat room? I did tonight got bored it is 2:02am.. figured what the hell have not been in one since msn had groups and you could chat there.

Well hell, it was going so fast all I could do is sit and try to read. I have no ideaif anyone said "HI" or not they probably thoguht I was rude or a lurker..lol..

I am neither just way past my prime for a chat room I guess.. or very slow... damn..

8/1/2009 8:18:47 PM
Hey everyone..... Thing are better I have my head on straight..I think..lmao.....I am not on here much but if you want to keep in touch please email me at tonya_lynn2005@yahoo.com

I geet on and off there so please be patient but I will reply to ur emails.

Master and I are okay, I still find I at times wait for the other shoe to drop. If you know what I mean.
Not sure how to say it.. maybe some questions and answer sessions are in order with others to help it make sense..lol..

Kids are good but job hunting sucks.. If anyone has a need for an Ex. Admin Assistant, Dispatcher, recruiter and such drop me a line.. I am a workaholic..lol...

Okay it is late better run, just wanted to say hello and hugs to all of you.. contact me if you like.... :) tonya


5/1/2009 10:02:28 AM
I think I am going nuts or have lost my mind already..

Been very much out of line lately with Master, I have given this some thought and I guess I am letting life get to me. One my son left for the Air Force Monday and Tuesday he was in Texas for Boot Camp (is that what it is called?) I am not at all dealing with him being gone well. I thought it would be easy and I know this is a great move for him but it is not easy and I am finding myself very upset over him being gone. 2nd Master and I can not be together (living together) at this time and when I go visit for a week or he comes here when it is time to go I get very moody. Yes I need to learn to control my emotions but it all gets so overwhelming.. My son and leaving Master or him me is more then I can take at times.

Then and as dumb as it sounds I find myself comparing myself to his past subs/slaves and feeling like I do not add up to them. Feeling like they were perfect in all they did and I am always messing up. I compare my body to hteirs, my serving to theirs everything at that just gets me down and as Masters said a battle I will never win I MUST stop it. Master hs said if they were such a perfect fit and soooo great he would still be with them and he is not. But my mind (and I allow this) keeps thinking I can never be as good as them.. I have NEVER compared myself to anyone before why am I now? Why can I not see he is with me for a reson and stop thinking they are better in every area...... AHHHHH

During these times when I allow my emotions to take over I am not me at all, honestly I have no idea who the person is and I get so out of control there are times I do not remember what all I have said or done.. at these times all I can focus on in the pain or not having my oldest home and not being good enough for Master that I just start really acting out and that is all at times I remember.

Master has patience thank gof for that, but how long will that last b4 he just stops it all?

I have never acted this way before, and am not sure how to control myself.. But I want/need to.. after I am done I feel awful, like crap it is so not me to avt out like that..

And on top of all of it loosing my job fue t a lay off, loosing my apartment becasue work messed up my unemployment and for months I was w/out income so I had to move in with my sister who I love but she is so darn controling right down to any money I have she wants to help me budget and she wants me to give her any $ so she can help me save.. I know she means well but heck.. I can not even go visit a friend w/out her calling me 50 times to see where I am at, what I am doing, if I am going ot come home? it is like I am 16 and she is mom// I am 39 I do not need to be called so much and looked after like this..

combine all of this and at times going postal sonds good..LMAO..

I think it is the combination of it all that builds in me then explodes on the wrong person Master.. I could never explode on my sister to be honest she makes me go into a shell she is the type of person who is like in your face.. so I find with her I am shy, backwards,quiet and always agreeing just to keep the peace.. when all I want to do is tell her to backoff a little let me alone. But she has done so much and I am very thankful I could never hurt her..
The job market sucks, no work out there so I am feeling very stuck..

this week Master cam down just to spend his 2 days with me becasue he knew I was having a hard time with driving my son to the recruiters and leaving him there. I actually cried and my son had to take me to another room amd he just hugged me the whole time telling me "it was going to be okay, he was going to be fine and to please stop crying this was not easy on him leaving me and his sister and brother" Heck I am cryingnow..lol.. anyway Master takes the time to come down and all is okay till it is time for him to leave and I lost it on him was very rude and it he left under a bad situation and I hate not working things out but having one leave under bad situations.. We have talked and he is changing his training I think he is going to be more strict and that may be what is needed.. But man he was here for his slave and she was just so worng..

Life feels like is it closing in on her and she hates living where she is but is glad she has a roof over her head (thanks to her sister ) but she so wants to change, stop comparing herself to his past subs, stop dweling on her faults, learn to let go of her son just a little, learn to trust her Master more and just relax be happy in her service to him..breath more..

oh my!!! anyway time to go sister and hubby will be home sooon and there is no privacy here at all no place she can g to be alone or to write on here, answer emails or mesages on here.. but do know if anyone writes she will in time get on when she can and reply..

Take care everyone and BIG HUGS to you all..

sorry she vented but she had to get it out adn this seemed like a good place.. She promises she will soon wirte some good things aboput her play time and serving.. so much is new to her and her Master has opened up sides of her she did not know she had and he has done things to her she thought were limits she would never explore.. so she does have much to tell take care


2/2/2009 3:21:10 PM
I have had some questions on if I am owned or not, sorry for the confusion.. I am owned and am not looking but I still like to talk and make friends. As in my profile if you are Dominant and want to talk please come to me and I can give you Masters CM ID and you can talk to him first.. I have to focus on my training at this time work through some fears I have and he wants to make sure I stay focused..

To the ones I am talking to already THANK YOU all for your kind words and help and friendship -- hugs... it has been a pleasure getting to know you..

1/25/2009 6:24:36 AM
Ever have one of those days or hell months where you just feel like you do not matter?

who ever said slaves/subs have no feelings? I should find them and kick em..lol..

no sense in talking about it, does not seem to make a difference....

How do you deal with things when you can not wrap your head around it?

11/16/2008 3:39:34 PM
I can not use the chat option...it shuts down my computer every time.. so if you invite me and i do not do it please understand for some reason i can not do it..not sure what the problem is ..if anyone knows how to fix this please let me know..

thank you

9/11/2008 5:26:33 PM

I can not get on IM much at this time for I am working 12-14 hour days or more .. I am tired.. I do look on here but honestly can not keep up with all the emails so if I do not relply do not think I am being rude I will try to get in touch as soon as I can and when I am awake.
 And if allowed....

I want to thank everyone for their kind words it was very nice. and to the few who act out of anger becasue I can not be around all the time I wish you well in your search but please note real life has a way of interupting in things and that is life. Not always perfect but it is how it goes.. Also, you may not like the fact I can not be around at your every call at every moment but it would be nice to stop and think before you call someone a player or a fake.. I may not be the right one for you nor you for me but I would not call you a fake or player I would just chalk it up to not a good fit. I think respect is important and if I see I am disrespected then why should I bother even taking to the one who shows he has no respect.. so understand I do not mean this in a bad way but it is getting old being contacted by some who all they want to do is call names.

And once agian for the ones who have been so very nice and understadning I thank you very much.

subone

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KissMyToesBOY
 
 Age: 21
 Clemmons, North Carolina