submissiveshe4

This is who I hope to meet.

You Sir, will know who i am the moment
that You read my profile. 
You will see in my eyes
that i am
who i have described myself to be
from the beginning of my journey,
and more importantly the one that
You have been seeking.

Perhaps You will also notice the
faint shadows of wariness haunting these eyes 
but i believe that
You will understand
why they might
be there,
and You may even
contemplate the benefits
of being the One
who is able to make
those shadows go away.

You are Dominant in all aspects of Your life
without any doubt as to Your
entitlements in this life. 
Very little if anything has ever caused
You to doubt Your Dominance. 
Yet upon discovering this lifestyle, 
You became of aware of the many things
that You had been denying Yourself
due to society or religious influences.  
 There is no need to wear
Your title
for all to see and
if the truth be told,
You don't understand those
that do. 
You simply are Who You are,
but You are only half of what
You seek to complete
Your destiny in this life.

i think that covers the specifics of
Who i am waiting for. 
Because i try to be respectful of
other's time, i would ask that
those who do not fit the above description
to please pass me by.  That way
You will not be waiting for a reply
from me and i will not have to
hit the delete button so many
times.

Oh...almost forgot....just a little fyi for
those laughable pranksters that have
numerous nic's and profiles or those
that simply are looking for kinky flings,
i must advise you that i have an
extremely fine tuned "bullshit" detector
that has only failed me when i refused
to pay attention to it! 
giggles.....and that won't be
happening again.

Peace and success to all
regardless of what you are
seeking.  ss4

It has been over a year since i began exploring myself and my place in this life, this lifestyle..  What a wonderful journey it has been!  Not that it has been always easy, nor has it always been pleasant.  The ups and downs, the good & the bad, the joy and the sadness all combined are simply a part of the journey.   And to not savor each moment would be to loose the lesson that was taught with each.  So, a wonderful journey it has been!  And while i can no longer claim to be inexperienced, i rejoice in the knowledge that i am still just beginning!
One of the most intense discovery's for me was to realize that i was not a submissive, but a slave!  In my world, submission was simply the first step.  As i journeyed deeper into my submission at the hands of a True Master, it became apparent that no matter how deeply i went into "space", we were only scratching the surface.  After many times with this Master, i still crave to venture deeper to reveal a new layer in my soul. 
Discovering more of my submission/slave soul cannot be accomplished by physical experiences alone any longer.  Although the physical experiences are detrimental in achieving the depths that i seek to explore, i realize that it will require me to work on the emotional aspects of truly releasing all of my own desires, wants and needs in order to really surrender myself into slavery.  This is a challenge for anyone regardless of their experience within the lifestyle.  It means retraining the mind to react in a completely different manner than what it has always reacted.  It means releasing all of society's preconceived and imbedded influences in my life, even those that have been taught to me since birth. 

she breaths deeply, eyes closed...breath....she inhales deeply....entering herself....her inner self....breath....deeply hidden & protected from the outside world....breath....she reaches that inner core, her submission....breath....trembling & afraid......breath....she reaches out with her mind to her gift.....breath.....her gift, her submission.....gently she strokes her gift.....breath....soothing her trembling and stroking away her pain....breath....she reasures her self that she is still whole.....breath....gently soothing her....breath....reassuring her that her path is still very real.....breath.....her gift is still very much intact.....breath....she acknowledges her aloneness.....breath.....she embrasses her aloneness and allows herself to accept her path....breath...."don't be afraid little one" she tells herself....breath...."it is as it should be" she says....breath....she remembers that it is her path to travel alone until she is found....breath....all the trials and deceptions....breath.....they are but a test of her endurance....breath....she remembers that her path is only part of her training, to build her strength....breath....accepting the challenge, she must continue on......breath....because to take a shorter or easier route would not get her to her intended destination....breath....she knows she must continue on reguardless of how tired & alone she feels....breath.....she know that He watches & waits, always....breath....she remembers that she is never alone really....breath....she is simply on the path that He has placed before her....breath....a path that leads to Him.....breath....she knew when she began, that it would not be an easy path.....breath....nothing worth having is ever easy....breath....she knows that the pain of all of the struggles before her will only build her appreciation of Him when He is ready for her.....breath.....He watches her struggle....breath....He smiles at her determination....breath....He licks the tears from her face as she cry's in frustration and fear....breath....He smiles at the taste of her anguish....breath.....He watches her struggle & fight through her life, admiring her strength and desire for Him, for her reward....breath....this pleases Him....breath....she knows that He watches and enjoys testing her....breath....He must be sure that she is the one that He seeks....breath.....she must continue on....breath....she senses His presence in the dark and ominous clouds that surround and encompass her.....breath....she desires His approval, so she continues on....breath....when He is ready for her, He will take her.....breath....and she knows in the depth of her soul, that nothing will have been in vain....breath....through her tears, she continues on, knowing that He is there.....breath....through her tears, she smiles...breath