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	About submissiveseeks **************Greetings Aall, I am a 33 year old female submissive new to the lifestyle and NOT interested in men! I am new based on my experience, but not so much new, based on my years of interest in this lifestyle. A while back Iwas given the opportunity to experience a short Ds relationship. During that time, I found home I found my sense of security and stabilization that I have sought for so many years. I know this is where I belong. There is no doubt about it. Now, the difficult part of it all is finding the One for me to share my life with. I seek a Domme whom is older than myself, One whom has experience within the lifestyle. I feel I will best suit One with a soft, gentle, caring, affectionate side but also One who will assert Her authority when need be. I am not looking to top from the bottom. I will, however, push my limits and my boundaries until I learn them, until I know them well. I will ask Her to be consistent. I am able to focus on Her the most when everything else is structured and I know what is expected of me so I can work to exceed those expectations. I am hard on myself when I love Someone. If I disappoint You, I will be disappointed in myself and work to do better to please You. I am not looking to be harshly whipped or beaten. I am not looking for extremepain. The way I see it, is that if my Domme, the One I love more than anyone else on this earth, has to resort to hitting and hurting me, than I have obviously done something terribly wrong, and I must deserve some harsh punishment. I still dont think that its the right punishment, but my point is that I am not looking for that pain aspect of a relationship. I admit to being flogged once before, not in the harsh painful manner, but in a more gentle manner, and Id be lying if I said I didnt enjoy it and want more I have learned that being spanked does not necessarily mean I was bad or that I am being punished. Ive been able to accept that sometimes thats just what pleases a Woman, as long as things are safe and consensual, I am down for whatever makes my Mistress happiest. I find a great sense of pride and love in being marked by someone who loves me and leaves her mark on my flesh. Having marks under my clothing is interesting. I know I have them, my Domme knows I have them, sometimes I feel them if theyre sore... But no one else knows and its a secret I must keep hidden from the world. Within the past year I have had the opportunity to witness a play party. It was a great experience and nice to be around safe, good people in this life. i experienced this play party while I was owned. It was awesome to be there watching (and deep down wanted to feel some of what I saw) with my Domme at the time. Feeling my Owners arms around me and Her hand down my shirt I front of Her friends was an experience for me! Im such a shy and modest girl, so this was new for me. LOTS of feelings, emotions, and desires went with that! That was a great experience from That relationship that I will take forward with me! I seek a Domme who will be my life partner. One who will understand me, and know me better than any other. I want Her to be my companion I want to complete Her life, as I hope to complete Her. I am not looking for poly, but rather One on one. I know She is out there....somewhere and until I cross paths with Her, I will continue to learn about myself, and the lifestyle. Ive come to the conclusion that a good challenge is important. Not necessarily a challenge in a game manner, but rather have strict requirements, and knowing that I must keep myself within certain boundaries that were placed around me.************Okay - so with some conversations with a Friend, and a book recommended by Another, i have finally come to realize that as a submissive, i need to gain control power over my every day life. Yes, i am independent and self-sufficient, but i need tohave that self-power, the self-control.. otherwise, if i dont have it, how am i ever expected to hand it over to Another? if i dont have it, i have nothing to give, nothing to offer to aDomme whenShe comes along..... ************* If You take the time to view my profile, and like what You see... please leave me a note and let me know. i would Love to hear from You. But please, no one-liners or men! Guess Im needy... That, or i want to find Someone whos real.... Wanting Someone true real seems so impossible to find...

I'm keeping my heart open to the possibility of one day crossing paths with Someone wonderful and genuine, Someone who actually wants to be as committed to me as I am her. Someone who wants to share this life and this journey with me, hand in hand. The likelihood of meeting Her is slim, my schedule is crazy, and I have become adjusted to being independent and single. The mistakes I've made with relationships have taught me a lesson, and will make me cherish this super Domme I hope to find that much more. I know She's out there, she has to be.

Please take the time to write if you want to get to know me and what I have to offer you. A one line email won't do much except most likely get deleted with no reply. Getting to know someone takes time and effort... not to mention the desire and time invested into the relationship.

I've ideally always wanted a One on one relationship which seems impossible to find. I don't try to be attracted to the poly women, it just happens. There's just something about them personally that drew me to them. i am saddened to say that I am now 3/3 with poly women dumping me with no notice, all within less than a week from my birthday. I was so hopeful and excited that this would be the year I finally had someone special to spend Valentine's Day with.

My walls continue to grow taller and thicker each time this happens. One day, I will find Someone.... one day

ive always prided myself on not having many sexual partners. Why? Because I am saving myself for the Woman who will cherish me and take me down this wild journey hand in hand. I don't kiss or play unless I am committed to someone.

Yesterday i had the pleassure of meeting someone for the first time. For me first meetings are casual. We were meeting for coffee and hot chocolate. The public place was busy and overcrowded. I was super nervous and fidgety, which is normal for me. After coffee we went for a short ride in her super sweet car. The privacy of her car was needed. The one on one time heated things up. It didn't take long for my body to be reacting to her. I remembered her saying she missed kissing.... there was countless times I wanted to kiss her. I am shy... I never initiate something, especially with someone so strong and respectful. My body needed her touch. I finally reached over and held her hand....

we talked, we laughed, we exchanged banter, something we do well. We talked about the future. My body was squirming with wetness and excitement. I couldn't hide it. One of my favorite parts of the date was when she grappey coat collar with both hands and held me still as she whispered dirty things in my ear. She didn't know how sensitive my ears are and how it sets me off When anyone is that close and whispering... and she was whispering dirty naughty things. I needed to feel her touch.

We talked, we kissed, I begged her to touch me. I couldn't take the arousal anymore. It had been almost two years since I have been touched. But we were there.... in her car.... in a parking lot. She knew how badly I needed to feel her. She slipped her hand down my jeans and felt first hand how much she turned me on. I was helpless. She turned me on so much and here we were in the car, she told me I was going to be the first one she fucked in her car. The way her fingers worked between my legs.... I could hear the wetness, and feel myself losing control....

i take that back. I was not losing control. I was offering and surrendering control to her. It was an amazing moment. The feeling of being in a relationship and being off the market is a great feeling! Now, to see what the future holds....

the moment was unforgetable. emoji emoji

It's a new year, another birthday has passed (with no birthday spankings!) and I am hoping that this will be the year that I cross paths with someone wonderful and true to who She is. Hopefully next year W/we can spend Valentines together! It's amazing to me how difficult it has been to find someone looking to connect and make progress towards something real. I'm beginning to think that everyone who won't voice verify, or simply disappears, is making it even more difficult for me to trusting when Ms Right does come along. I'm eager to start our journey together! I'd love it if You'd find me because I'm failing at this game of hide & seek! Question, when people disappear on here, where do they go?!?!

I've been in a few relationships over the last 12 years. I say a few because, to me, a relationship is a big deal. Getting to know someone I would essentially trust my life with is a big deal and warrants time and dedication by both parties. I am hoping this will be the year that I find the right One. The One who will always be in my thoughts and in turn that will put a smile on my face. The One who will see the potential in me, the dedication and love I will have for Her and Her happiness. Things seem so off balance when I'm a sub and don't have that dominant partner in my life to balance things out. I can be independent and self sufficient ( I always have been!) but there's something almost relaxing about being owned. There's so much less to stress over, so many less decisions to be made. Life is better other that dominant structure. Being able to follow direction and simply know what's expected of me is a wonderful gift. I admit, I do work to try and not only meet, but also exceed the expectations someone has for me. I always want to make Her proud and go to the next level..... Life's a journey. Let's do this together!

Finding Someone to communicate with whom is a really and truly looking for someone to connect with seems to be such a struggle. I'm searching for Someone to give my all to... At this point in my search, if someone writes me a one liner, and I do happen to reply (not often, unless I feel an interest in her profile), chances are that I'm going to put the same effort into my message to you. I'd love to find Someone who I can spend time writing Her a long thoughtful message, and reading Hers, which will be an inspiration to give Her more and more of myself.... Who are You, how do I find You?!?

I don't know who You are, I don't know what You look like, but I know You are strong, loving, passionate, sensual, and You love control. I know You will cherish me when I dedicate myself to You and give You my all. I know You will love the opportunities we have to share together. I have been searching for You; I can't seem to find You. I am waiting to love You, grow with You, and offer You more each day. I hope You find me!

I've been reading this wonderful blog series about a Servant Mistress. A type of Mistress who loves and protects Her subs to the highest of levels, a Mistress who knows Her girl inside and out, often better than the girl knows herself. A Mistress who loves watching Her girl grow and blossom... The series is very inspiring to me! This gives me hope that I will cross paths and have an opportunity to one day offer myself to Someone who will gain total control, but also be affectionate, firm, loving, and help guide and mold me to be the best I can be for both of U/us :) I look forward to finding this Mistress whom will have all of my love, dedication, affection, and control over my mind and body...

I'm looking to find my future Owner... I know You're out there somewhere! Until I find Her, I am open to talking with Dommes and perhaps even learning more about myself as a submissive until I find Her. I've always gotten along better with, and felt safer and more content with women older than me in an authoritive role...

I'm ready for Spring and more time outdoors! I'm hoping that by the time summer comes around, I'll be in a committed relationship with someone. I love the thought of having Someone special in my life, and being able to sit somewhere outside on a warm summers night. In my mind the perfect image would be somewhere quiet, away from city noises and lights. A night filled with the sounds of crickets and maybe frogs, kisses and soft moans, all under a starry night. Hopefully one day that dream will become a reality... Just wondering, why is it that it seems like the majority of Dommes are seeking male subs/slaves, and their profile is written to reflect that? Even those bisexual seem To write their profile towards men.... How's a girl to find a Mistress?! :)

I'm back after some time away. I'm missing Love and control being in my Life. Some things about me... I enjoy the outdoors, and I keep busy. I'm an independent person (after so many years alone, I have to survive somehow!) who sometimes struggles giving up my independence when in a relationship. It takes me a while to let Someone in my world, and in my life. Once I care for someone in my life, I am very loving, loyal, and protective of that person. I want them happy, and as stress free as possible. I'm looking for someone real, and a long term relationship.

I usually don't put stuff like this 'out there' but due to struggles finding my Mistress and exploring with her, I've recently playing and exploring with self breast bondage. I find it absolutely amazing!! It makes me wet just getting the ropes in place!! Clothespins seem to be a necessity as well, as if the ropes and clothespins go hand in hand. Love it!!

To my future Domme/ owner, I have been searching for you but it's been difficult to find you. I am ready to start my journey with you. If you see my profile and like it, please let me know. I'm having trouble finding you; maybe you can find me a little easier? Thank you.

Sometimes I wish I belonged to Someone. I wish I could be taken... To be open and exposed to my Mistress... To be pushed and tormented beyond what I felt I could handle... To be completely helpless, weak from orgasming for my Owner over and over... To be bound and at Her mercy.... I imagine how powerful She will be. How strong and beautiful. I can feel Her strength and control as I am helpless and look into Her eyes.... Ughhh I'm ready to be Someone's property.

my body hasn't felt the touch of Someone in such a long time... I would met right into You or Your flogger....

I'm ready... Ready to let go and find someone to take me and make me Yours... I want to be everything You've ever wanted and needed. Im ready to be taken any way you see fit....

It's funny how Someone can come back into your life and how after exchanging a few emails, your heart feels like it's Hers once again.....

Lately I've been thinking about how long it's been since I've been intimate and sensual with Someone. What I wouldn't give to find Her and surrender myself and get some experience and release....

It's amazing to me that there are so many people out there who consistently write one line emails. People who do this without viewing a profile at that! Yep, that's someone I want to share my life with -- NOT! If I don't respond to your email, it's because 1. you're younger than me, 2. you wrote a one line email., or 3. you're male.

i want to put it out there that if someone writes me a one line email, i will delete it. i realize i may be passing up someone wonderful by doing that -- but i am hoping to find someone to share my life with, someone who wants to put more than 8 seconds into an email -- someone who is willing to take the time required to build a solid foundation and close relationship....

Whether that makes me needy, or just real, i am not sure... maybe both! :)

Well, apparently i need to put it out there from the beginning: i have dogs!!!

Just got an email from a Domme whom i was growing close to for about 6 wks now... we can only be penpals because i have dogs. It was never a concern before, so i'm not sure why the sudden change of heart. i feel as if i've been released, and i was never even owned or Her property....

i really, REALLY need to learn how to not get attached to Someone... i need to learn to follow my heart, and take it as a sign when a so-called Domme ignores all requests to talk on the phone and offer voice verification.

Why is finding a Mistress so hard?

I'm not sure which is worse, not finding someone to serve/ connect with..... Or finding someone to connect with and grow attracted to very quickly, but never being able to serve her? Grrr! To my future Domme, please come find me! I am looking for You, and wanting to serve and please You!

Well, i know how much i enjoy reading the journals of Dommes to learn more about them.. so i am going to be making an effort to journal more myself. Hopefully that will help find Her.. maybe? possibly?!?

Lately i have been realizing just how much i miss doing things for someone else. Not that i am looking to be a doormat, i am certainly not -- but i was once told by a wonderful Woman that i am very service oriented. That made me smile and feel good to know that i can help do something for Someone, and get the instant gratification of being able to do something for Her to make Her smile and feel as good as i do....

i cannot help but wonder if She is truly out there... i hope to find my future Domme to give myself to sooner than later! i am going crazy between wanting to have someone to love, serve, and be close with....

Life is good! The only thing missing is the love and structure only a Domme can offer.....

I've been crazy busy with working 60+hrs weekly. It gets old fast! No time to truly invest in the relationship I'm desiring/ needing so badly. i've been going through phases of considering finding Someone to session with! i've always had strong belief in not playing unless i was in a committed relationship, but dayummm!! It's been so long.... so very long....

I've been meaning to post a new entry for several weeks but just haven't had a chance! The biggest fear I've always had being a submissive is being released and getting my heart broken, because I my heart was still full of love for Her. As it turns put, my fear came true several months ago. Being let go and not having any say or shared desire to regain a friendship absolutely sucks..... No wonder I feared it for so long!

Are You really out there? i've been looking for You....

Learning to live life unowned is proving to be difficult. The time is coming to opening myself up to moving on and finding a new relationship, and a special One in my life.

Wow it's been a long time since i wrote on here! i've been keeping busy with two jobs and school. This is spring break week so today was a day off of the three, although i still had to go into work, and to school for an hour to work on some extra credit stuff to put in a show.
i know i don't have the appropriate time right now to invest into a new relationship, but i'm going to try to start coming on here a little more often in hopes of crossing paths and being able to move on in my life, and expand my D/s life!

After a special weekend spent with Someone absolutely wonderful, i've realized that there is so much more out there in life than i have ever been exposed to. It's made me realize that i have a lot of self-learning and growing to do before i will be where i want to be (emotionally) when i offer myself...
It's given me the motivation needed to improve my life and get to a place of happiness; a place where i want to be....

Thank You *soo* very much!!!!!!!!!

Happy New Year E/everyone!!!! May it be a year of happiness, new experiences, and great memories!

i'm going to be offline for a while... not sure how long or when i can check back...

Although i am still not looking to be 'whipped or beaten', as my profile states, i have a very strong craving... need... desire... to feel a flogger on my skin once again... i also have an ever-growing desire to feel a crop upon my skin too....
All done in a safe, sane consentual manner, of course....

i haven't written in a while, and i think it's overdue!
i cannot believe some of the P/people on here. i've read some profiles that are just downright scary!!! i've been on CM for a few years now, but i don't know where some of these People come from!!!! Omg!

i've been thinking about one thing, when looking through profiles, and thinking about qualities that i look for in a Domme. One thing, small, but important, is in that interest list, where it mentions "Massage". Maybe this is on my mind, as my back has been in lots of pain, and i need a massage, lol, but regardless, i know where You could choose "giving" or "recieving". To me, it shows a lot when a Domme is able to put "Massage- giving" on one of Her likes or Loves lists. Naturally, i look for One whom likes to recieve that as well ~smiles~ but for me, it shows that She cares about Her submissive, and that She is willing to invest that time into Her submissive; Her property.. it shows that She loves Her submissive, and She doesn't only think about Herself....

Perhaps i am reading way too far between the lines - but for me, personally, that one topic speaks volumes.....

~Smiles~ Life is good.... really, really, really Good!!!!!

*sighs* i do not understand why this is so difficult for so many people to understand; i seek someone older than myself - When i say that, i mean someone who is not 20... not 21... not even 22. Let's keep it simple (as it's so hard for so many....) and i'll say, 27 or above, please...
Also... if you cannot take the time to actually write something meaningful and thoughtful, how do i know you have a genuine interest in me, as a person, rather than just anyone who happens to be online???

In conclusion, please be 27 or above, and write more than a line or two, more than "hello", or anything even remotely limited to that!!!!!!

Thank you!

Okay - lol, i cannot help but laugh - but pleaseeeee read this! i am interested in the following:

* Someone older than myself
* Someone who has enough interest to write more than a one line email to me!!!

i am looking for something real, not just a "fix".... please!

If You're going to take the time to write to me, please, write more than one line!!! i cannot help but... well... not take it serious, if Someone cannot take the time to actually spend a few minutes to write something meaningful. This is not a game to me... it's serious... and i really am ready to meet Her.... where ever She is...

i feel more ready than ever to be in a relationship with my future Domme. i am aware that it is not something i can rush into, as the relationship needs to be built on a solid foundation of a friendship, then allow things to progress naturally.
i have become aware that i need One whom will having a loving, affectionate, compassionate side, as well as One whom will provide a stable, safe environment for me.
i look at myself & my submission (as well as my trust!) as something very delicate and fragile, and it needs to be handled with care....otherwise i will be broken & crushed....

i look forward to the day i can grow and blossom into the beautiful flower that She wants me to be.....

And still, i await to cross paths with the One whom i will give myself to. Why is it so difficult to find Her? It seems so incredibly impossible to find Someone whom wants a One on one, committed relationship, One whom will be my best friend, lover, companion, and Mistress.....

i want to live my life for my Dominant Lover, and my Dominant Lover live Her life for me..... the question is; is She out there??

Well, over the past few days & weeks i have had the pleasure of experiencing some new sides of D/s. i've had my first experience of talking (verbally) with a very proper Dominant. This was a new, and scary thing for me. i realized how easily i can throw out "yes Ma'am" when i am sitting behind a computer, but how big of an impact it has on me, when i hear myself verbalizing it. After the first few times, i found myself craving, almost needing to be in that place. i felt that i was finally, for the first time, feeling what it was like to be a submissive, RT, rather than just the discussions online. there is soooo much more to it than fantasizing it online!!!!!

i've also spoken with other Dominants, who have different points of view on the matter. i've realized that most Dominants have different points of view on most topics. what have i learned from this? that Dominants can be very complicated!! lol Well, seriously, it's hard to explain. i have realized that my submission is truly a gift, that i can choose Who i give it to. yes, i will be polite and respectful to all Dominants, but to really give over my heart, mind, body, and soul, and fall in love, i realize that the choice, and the control of that matter is in my hands.

i know that i want to be the apple of my Dominants eye... i know that i want to be the world to Her, as i know She will be for me. sometimes it seems so hopeless and so endless -- is there really a compatable Dominant for every submissive? sometimes i give up hope, sometimes i feel that i am simply wasting my time. Recently, however, i've finally accepted that my being patient for so many years, will only do me good, when i cross paths with the right One. i realize that it is in my own best interest to take this time of being single and seeking, and to utilize it to learn about the lifestyle, as i have been. i'm also using the time to learn about myself - and try to figure out exactly what it is that i have to offer to Her... in addition to that, i need to make sure and be confident in my decision of Who to give my submission to, as i want it to be a very long-term relationship...plus, it will be the biggest decision that i have ever made in my life.

anyways, enough rambling for now. i hope that E/everyone had a Merry Christmas, and that E/everyone will have a very safe and happy New Year... and that Y/you are able to spend it with the O/one Y/you love and adore.... if Y/you are like me, and not with A/anyone... then let's all hope that this will be O/our year for finding O/our soulmate, and compatable Dominant or submissive!!!!

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