submissivesarahx

As my Profile mentions I am plus sized, I posted a photo to reveal myself, for privacy reasons, hid some of my face. Enjoy

How much am I prepared to submit?

The above question is one that has been on my mind for some time, I realized within the last few days, it was also one that made me hesitate about my submission as I notice some doubts. These doubts came from the fact that there are a few things I am not prepared to sacrifice for my submission, and I don't want to be placed into a position where I would need to choose between the two. I firmly believe if I had to choose between my dreams as a writer or my family | Friendships and a dominant or master I may serve. The ambition to become a writer, and love for my family would come first, I've been noticing though if I happen to find someone I feel I could submit to, it could go from a d/s and relationship to a m/s. There is the ability, as a strong minded, free willed and independent female in my life, handing my submission to someone I trust means quite a bit to me as it isn't something I am prepared to hand over to just anyone.

Back when I was 21, I served a dominant who I realized that we did not share the type of relationship I desired as we were not compatible with one another, but I learned that a little late. He intended for me to move in with him, he bought it up not two weeks after we started getting involved, and it was something I was not prepared for. Fortunately soon after the relationship died down, I realized for other reasons, he was not right for me, I also learned my lesson not to rush into a dynamic. I wish to connect someone with who I not only have chemistry with, but we share vanilla interests as well. A Gentle, understand, patient, yet stern dominant would be best for me. A little Romance never hurts.

In my return, I am hoping to get to events, if my public transportation and current situation allows that to happen, therefore I am going to try to allow my doubts to leave as I write this in hopes that I find the right emotional connection.

Okay,

Honestly as I wrote my profile out quickly, I didn't expect to receive the messages which I am slowly going through, therefore I am going to touch a few things I am not replying to those who either have no profile that I can access or thats empty. My reason for doing so is mine tells about me and what I am seeking even though its not my best writing, however  I want at least some details to tell me the basics when writing to someone which includes who you are and what you are seeking. Without that, I can't go my anything in going forward.

The other thing is I am not looking to relocate or long distance, in order to relocate I notice trust is needed and its hard to develop that trust if we don't meet and see one another regularly between now and then therefore those local is my preference. For those willing to travel, as I don't do casual, don't expect to play then. I like to take my time in offering one my submission along with my trust. Trust is very important to me, and I find it hard to do immediately. I am often a very caring person, but I can't offer it up without getting the chance to get to know someone.

Now, I am also going to be adding some pictures up when I am able to get some decent ones taken of myself, that is another reason I may be a bit slow. I am definitely willing to meet in real time, and hope to soon. This may also be important but I use public transportation, I don't drive, so if we are meeting I need the ability to meet you somewhere which has available transportation or you'd need to get yourself close to me. I dont think of these as demands, but an reality. I don't like to just fantasize these things out but to see what has a chance of working out.

I am returning to this site with this screen name, I believe it describes me well, for those of you who have read my profile, keep in mind its a work in progress. It's not my best ability to write about who I am and what I am seeking, however I wanted to give some ideas. I am quite limited in BDSM experiences, as I've only had a few back in my early twenties, while the the situation didn't work out, soon after I tried to fight my need to submit by going into my vanilla life or top another female partner. None of that lasted as I feel most comfortable by my partner leading me within a long term relationship, it's often hard for me to trust myself to that capacity. I believe in the right relationship, I'd prefer to move into one slowly, as I am not expecting to move in with him immediately therefore that gives us more time to last. Ever notice when things are rushed? They are destroyed quicker.