SubmissiveDiane

happy Happy HAPPY!  *smiles*

i tear my heart open, i sew myself shut..

my weakness is that i care too much..

And my scars remind me that the past is real..

i tear my heart open just to feel..

"Losing Him was blue like i'd never known...
Missing Him was dark grey all alone...
Forgetting Him was like trying to know somebody you've never met...
But loving Him was red..."

"Well they don't even know you, all they see are scars... And they don't see the angels living in your heart... Let them find the real you buried deep within... Let them know with all you've got that you are not... You are not your skin."

*wish i didn't know now, what i didn't know then...*

Well, maybe that's not entirely true... living the dream is always wonderful... much more fun than dealing with the harshness of untruths and secrets revealed... being oblivious definitely has its benefits, but sooner or later the truth always shows itself... sometimes by accident, sometimes not...   and when it's all said and done... i know, in the deepest part of my heart... that reality, even though it can be painful.. is still better than living a life of fantasy...  i'm sooooo open minded... just give it to me straight - and whatever will be - will be...

"At some point you will realize that you've done too much for someone, that the only next possible step to do is to stop... Leave them alone, walk away. It’s not like you’re giving up, and it’s not like you shouldn’t try. It’s just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation... What is truly yours will eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be."    (oh, soooo true!)

Just got back from 4 days in the Mt. Pleasant/Clare area.. always nice seeing old friends :))

i am going to the munch in Jackson this weekend... who's gonna be there??? hmmmmmm???   :))

yessss ~ i couldn't have said this better myself....  

"i do not want to be the leader.  i refuse to be the leader.  i want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness.  i want a Man lying over me, always over me.  His will, His pleasure, His desire, His life, His work, His sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot.  i don't mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman... oh, God, as a woman i want to be dominated.  i don't mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling and to be all that i am capable of being, but i need to be pursued... fucked... possessed by the will of a Male at His time.. His bidding."  ~ Anais Nin