subinheartnsoul

Insight given to me by Master Alex.........Thank you. 

"…a man's sexual choice is the result and the sum of his fundamental convictions. Tell me what a man finds sexually attractive and I will tell you his entire philosophy of life. Show me the woman he sleeps with and I will tell you his valuation of himself. No matter what corruption he's taught about the virtue of selflessness, sex is the most profoundly selfish of all acts, an act which he cannot perform for any motive but his own enjoyment….It is an act that forces him to stand naked in spirit, as well as in body, and to accept his real ego as his standard of value. He will always be attracted to the woman who reflects his deepest vision of himself, the woman whose surrender permits him to experience…a sense of self-esteem. The man who is proudly certain of his own value will want the highest type of woman he can find, the woman he admires, the strongest, the hardest to conquer, because only the possession of a heroine will give him the sense of an achievement, not the possession of a brainless slut. He does not seek to gain his value, but to express it. There is no conflict between the standards of his mind and the desires of his body."

- Ayn Rand

Do not presume to know the reasoning behind the actions of others, for you do not walk in their shoes.

The definition of delusion: a persistent false psychotic belief regarding the self or persons or objects outside the self that is maintained despite indisputable evidence to the contrary.

I am beginnig to think I am bordering on delusional, simply because of what I am seeking in a partner.

Is it absolutely impossible to find a gentleman this day in age? I am beginning to think so, sadly enough. I have never met so many self proclaimed "intelligent" men, who can find nothing else to talk about other the sex. Amazing.

Is it honestly that acceptable to discuss or ask about all my sexual secrets and desires the first time you meet or speak to me? I find that so very sad for our society today. what happened to getting to know someone? what happened to just wanting to spend time with someone to be able to enjoy each other's company? is that such a small part of life these days?

Now, before you cast judgment, sex is just as important to me as the other aspects of my life. but seriously, there are more things to life than that. I mean, honestly, even if you are the most sexually compatible couple on the planet, you cannot have sex 24/7, so what are you going to do with the other hours of your day?

Do I want somone who is sexually dominant? Absolutely, without a doubt.

Do I want someone who will grab me by the hair, force me to look him in the eyes? Yes.

Do I want somone who will hold me down and take what he wants? Yes! 100%

But, I also want that someone, who will be able to give me that exact same feeling with just a look while out in public, someone who I know always has my best interest at the forefront, who will keep me safe above all else, who will cherish me for all i do for him and for the person i am, who can just stand next to me and his presence will make me feel subservient to him yet capable to the world. THOSE feelings do not come from just sex, it is impossible.

so, you want to talk to me? seperate yourself from the crowd.

Thank you.

oh also, if you could not "hear" the saracsm in the beginning of this journal entry, then you are also not for me. LOL, a sense a humor and the ability to smile are requirements.