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Male Submissive, 41, cleveland area, Ohio
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Female Submissive, 38
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About subdelicious
 Searching!!! Searching!!! Searching!!
I have searched too long to find my dom, a man I can connect with on every level and succumb to his desires and wishes. Someone that is intelligent, interesting, exciting, and fun. He needs a combination of caring sensitivity with a strength ad determination to reach my inner soul and desires. I want him to hold and mold me
I want a deep connection that goes beyond the realm of this world, a love filled with great passion, want and desire, I want to willing need to submit to his every command. I need to feel I am a part of him, I need him to lead the way. At the same time a mix of the vanilla world with the BDSM that I require for my own survival.
I have searched before to no avail, so I gave up for awhile, but I am back and more determined to find what I seek as it is a necessity to my existence. I need to be filled as I am empty without a dominant one to love, care, share, lead, and take me where I want to go.
Maybe I seek too much but my soul mate, lifetime partner and the man that will claim me as his, and bring me to new heights of ecstasy is out there somewhere. Once I find him, I want desperately to please him, to grant his every wish and desire, to belong to him, and for him to own me mind, heart soul and body!!
This time I will persevere, as I will not give up until I find what I so desperatley long for!!!
WARNING: Any institutions or individuals using this site or any of its associated sites for studies or projects - You DO NOT have permission to use any of my profile or pictures in any form or forum both current and future. If you have or do, it will be considered a violation of my privacy and will be subject to legal ramifications.
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To those that may think I just disappeared off the face of the earth. I have been having personl problems and will be back in touch at messenger and here ASAP! |
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Today I received an introductory mail at CM, and it consisted of one question, "Do you take it up the asshole?" That mail sums up the problem at CM!!!!
Though I may have found a tiny ray of light! |
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It certainly would be a plus if I found a dom that had the capability and desire to invest in his submissive and help her with a tune up or possible overhaul, And to all those who keep sending messages stating I still look 25, the picture is my body currently, and yes it has remained young, but the face does not match the body, the face is pushing 50, while the body still thinks it is 29, a strange phenomena but true. Hopefully someday I can match the two!!
LOL This is a partly a joke with some truth |
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I become more confused and lost everyday, it could be the fear and uncertainty of taking the leap of faith needed. It could be that my life is in chaos and distress at this point in time. I want to choose carefully and wisely, and not just seeking an escape. My need to submit I know is real and by not living it out fully in the past I have not reached the fulfillment in my life I desire. I wonder if it is too late for me, did I come to my self actualization to late in my life. I am older and that concerns me and brings up many insecurities regarding my search. Will a man still want me as I pass the age of 45? So many questions so few answers. I may remain lost, sad and lonely forever! |
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Why?? Why??? Does my search have to be so painstakingly difficult. I want to find the right dom for me now, I want to serve him love him and give my all. I want him to love, protect, care for and guide me. Does he exist? Or just a figment of my imagination?
I may just be seeking too much in one person, but I want it to be real and lasting and that means we must connect on many levels, and that is truly tough to find! |
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I receive so much mail it makes me wonder how inundated a 25 year old sub/slave is with mail. I wish there had been such an avenue as the Internet when I was 25. I always had these desires and yearnings but did not know this world even existed, or that there were others who had similar thoughts and cravings. I didn't realize there was a name for it, just thought I was somehow perverted or disturbed in some manner. I did not know where to seek, and it is sad that so many years were wasted.
The one positive about getting older is I do not care what people think about my passions and desires anymore, Society does not need to understand it, they can judge me and psychoanalyze the behavior all they want. As I now understand it is an inate characteristic, it is a much a part of me as the color of my eyes, it is neither good, bad sick or evil, it is just who I am! |
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I currently have 30 pages of mail. How am I supposed to ever decipher it all. How do I know who is real and not, and who I mat be compatible with. I find one I think has true potential, start interacting through chat. I begin to open up more, sharing personal information and the depths of my emotions and two days later, there profile has disappeared off this sit. So I have major trust issue! Isn't there an easier way to find what I seek? |
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Still searching????? I want real, genuine and sincere, why is that so tough? I am real, sincere and genuine! |
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I have great hope now, I just hope I am not disappointed or hurt! |
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I have been experiencing problems at this site so I have hidden my profile, but will unhide for short periods of time for specific people to view upon request! |
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What is the difference between a submissive and a slave????? I really do not understand the difference! |
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I have bee so inundated with messages that I can not keep track of who is who? If you are serious about getting to know me and want to pursue the endless possibilities. Please send me a long letter with as much about your life, history, interests and as much as possible.
A little more about myself that may weed out some of you, I am college educated, I was married for 16 years, a bad unhappy married, I have three children mostly grown, I love to horseback ride, water and snow skiing, volleyball, bike riding and am a great Texas hold-em player.
I consider myself intelligent, and know a little about a lot of things, and am very knowledgeable in a few areas. I am politically active, and am a liberal, I love writing, history poetry and music. I am a real good dancer, and can write an interesting blog.
I am adventurous, complicated and I have baggage, I have had tough times and good times in life. I have had many tragedies and experiences that have shaped me in many ways. I am mostly confidant but have many insecurities also. I am older not a youngster anymore and it shows but I am lucky enough to still have a body of a 25 year old, but have other issues such as problem teeth that I would like to eventually fix. I am not perfect or ideal, I am real with all the shortcomings of any real person.
I do not use drugs, will drink very occasionally,or in a new situation that I am nervous about, such as finally meeting a possible prospect here. I still smoke and have since I was 14, a bad habit I know, but one I have been unable to kick thus far, though I do not smoke in peoples homes.
I am a submissive in some areas of my life I am a bot controlling in others so am unsure I would be able to completely succumb to another, I have some experience with BDSM but it is limited, I am not sure I would ever want to go as far as some of you would. I have no problem with spankings, being tied up, blindfolds. some humiliation, being told what to do, even been flogged lightly, had nipple clamps but mildly, I do not think I want severe pain, or suspension or many of the other things that many are into. A red ass butt is a turn on, but cuts or any scars not at all. I have no tattoos, or piercings other than the ones in my ear and never want them. NO PIERCINGS, NO TATOOS, NO ASPYIXIATION< NO BLOOD> NO ELECRICAL and more I can;t think about now/
I want to belong to someone and want to be owned but with many limits, and respect and love. I am mostly searching for a Straight dom man but would consider a dom dom couple, or possibly a dom male with a sub couple as long as I was equal in the doms eyes with the other sub and it was a total commitment. Yes commitment is important to me, I do not want someone that wants to just play with me and use me and throw me away. I am serious and if you are write me details and pictures as there has to be some attraction.
Hopefully this scares some of you off and opens up the possibilities of those that are ok with who I am. |
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Overwhelmed by the amount of mail already in my inbox. Need time to decipher, check profiles, asess if there is commonalities, so it may take time for me to respond. Please be patient. |
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