So as I grieve yet another broken heart I reflect on what I've learned from my last attempt at finding love.
First, I don't fit the traditional definition of submissive. I've never identified with being a slave but now I know anyone seeking that is not for me. The idea of spending my life in service to another is, well, to be frank, repulsive.
That said, I believe my core values align me with a sub's heart. If I'm treated well I will WANT to do things for you. I will go above and beyond to make you happy. Your displeasure with me will cause me more pain than anything physical I could ever experience.
I want the safety and security of loving arms around me each night. I want to find comfort in your touch. I want you to want to be a kind and gentle lover...hmmmm...most of the time anyway. ;)
I realize this sounds like I want a vanilla relationship but there is always a piece that's missing when I go that route. There is something in the control aspect that just can't be found in the traditional relationship dynamic and I crave it when it's missing.
Most surprising lesson learned...tall skinny guys in the proper shape are sexy as hell! |