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WOW it has been forever right? but i got permission to update my journal. i have still been in the hands of both my Master and my Trainer. Not sure still if i am pleasing enough to them. i was sent to Trainers place after an 8 month break for a harsh treatment as i was getting a little out of shape and out of manners. As soon as i arrived there i presented my outfits for his choosing and the shoes (out of 3 pairs for his preference as well). After that i was given a little bit of wine, was given the pleasure of making myself cum with a vibrator right in front of him sitting at a chair "but please be discreet and feminine" where i raised my dress and with thigh highs and heels i arched my back and didnt take me long to reach an orgasm. Then i was to undress, stuck a dildo up my ass with a full view for him of course and to leash myself on my piercings down below and follow him to the basement (or should we call it dungeon?).
As soon as we arrived down there, he got the leash and pulled me so hard i thought i was about to lose my pussy as he was about to tear it out of my body. He then took it up and up to hang it to a beam and i am holding a scream i could not contain it anymore. i screamed and slap cam across my face and tears down my face as damn that freaking hurt so bad. He pulled the chain up again and put an extra clip to extend a little bit so that my height would get adjusted a little better but still my pussy was stretched to the limit. Then my hands were tied to my back. my niples were then pierced with safety pins and he lit up a lighter right under it. my piercings and the safety pins got really hot really fast and my nipples started burning bad. i held position for as long as i could. and he burned and he burned. and then more safety pins were pushed on my ass and he got a cane. and started caning me on my pussy and clit that was totally exposed. i had no way to hide or to protect myself since my hands were behind my back. i was in such a predicament. burning some more and then the burning got a little more intense and more to the point of touching the sking with the hot iron tips of the round end of the lighter and since the safety pins that were removed from my ass started to bleed that was one more reason to cauterize the open wounds. Then he decided that my ass and my back had too much hair and fuzz and started burning the little hair that i have around my skin and that hurt, but it is a way of waxing right?
Then he got me down from the beam on my knees and to suck him and raining down with the riding crop on my ass. But i am to concentrate not on the pain but on his cock. Well then came the shoking dog collar that he made it into a thing i have to put on as a panty and it shocks my pussy so bad i jump. i have to count as he gives me the shocks. and he may be nice and give me a level 2 or a level 10 it depends if i am doing the right thing or responding to him the right way.
then the decided to take me to the exercising machine. he then decided to play with the dildo in and out and got a baton that one would use to play croquette I think (plastic yellow baton) and slammed agains my ass and it burned as i gave him head. He then decided he wanted to piss. I had to drink and i did drink all of it. Not a drop on the floor. I was the target for the darts that he threw and it was time to remove the pins and the safety pins. and THAT hurt. I was a mess. Lets burn until the blood stops. It has to stop with fire. I was every kind of toy.
After that. we went upstairs and i was permitted to get dressed, cleaned up and to orgasm again. I was given one more glass of wine and i gave 1 more blow job where Trainer came. My job was done and i was sent home. |
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Well, well, my Trainer was not happy i was sent to serve another Dom. First thing he said as i presented myself in front of him was... "let me see what damage this guy did to you"... i lift my skirt and he got up and came down on me with a crop over and over on my ass and then got the paddle and hit me so hard. "i am not happy with it. i am really angry and now you will see some marks". oh God, he came down so hard and reapetedly that at one moment i stopped moving and he asked me ... Have you passed out? i said "no" with my head and he asked me " are you in space? " i said "yes" with my head. He took me right out of it. He went back to the living room sat down on the couch and started barking orders at me. "Serve me some cold drink, you come crawling right now, serve me something cold". He was NOT going to let me enjoy my ride. He only gives me that as a reward. No sub-space for you my dear, not tonight. i had to sit on him with my open back door in one shot and that was really not good. it hurt like hell, and it was not the kind of good pain either. He was brutal with me. He was i think a little jealous :-)
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Saturday night i was to be naked under a coat, only with garter, stockings, heels, weights on my pussy and a vibrator egg inside me + collar. Master was going to pass the "leash" being the control for the egg to my dear girlfriend subsister toy's Owner. We met at a restaurant and had a drink. Master had to leave for his meeting in the city.
As my girlfriend toy started driving the car i was ordered to open my coat in the
back seat and her Owner's hands started touching me. He wanted to check if i
followed all his requests. my tits were squeezed and he told me i was there to seve him and toy. i was at the bottom of the pit. i was not going to get fucked, but i was going to serve. i was not going to get pleasure, but give pleasure.
As soon as we got to their hotel room, toy went to the bathroom and Owner took my coat off me to hang, and once again i was reminded to speak when spoken to or if i needed clarification from an order.
He took the egg off of me, put a blindfold and told me to wait exactly as i was. i didn't dare moving. All of sudden he grabbed my collar
and dragged me to the other side of the room and on my knees i wasplaced. Toy had started pouring wine and he made me drink in 1 gulp a 1/2 a glass poured another 1/2 and again i drank. i was to lay down and serve toy (eating her) while she served him sucking. Then musical chairs, i was to suck him. i sucked. He did not want to remind me of that. got beat while sucking. He held my head deep against his cock and beat my ass with something they call it the Twase. It hurts VERY VERY BAD. Then toy beat me while i continued serving him as per his comands. My jaws were in pain and locking already when i was ordered out of that
position and they placed a mouth gag on me that has a dildo on the other side of it so that while in my mouth i could use that to fuck
toy with it.
After a while he grabbed my hair and pulled me to my feet - took me to the bed and took the thing out of my mouth. He started fucking toy and i had to rim him - i
knew what i had to do when he point it out for me to go there and you know what you have to do. i knew.
Got beat some more, served his cock more still blindfolded and finally a break - i could use the bathroom, i could drink some wine. we sat
down and started chatting normal friends hanging around. i was at his feet massaging his feet and toy laying her head on his lap.
1:00 am we decided it was time to eat. We went to a dinner. Talked a lot more. He is a very nice man. Very soft spoken (thank god -
extremelly clean so i had NO PROBLEMS seving him. Soft spoken even when giving orders, even when disappointed or beating us. He did not make me all nervous, which is very deceiving as i SHOULD be afraid and
nervous.
Back at the hotel, More serving, more wine and finally we were all dead tired. 2:20 am we all passed out. 6 am i am kicked to wake up for service. Holly shit.... here we go again, toy at his cock, until she was with her jaws locked and she requested me to take over. He had those mint strips which melts in your mouth and it is like listerine - that was good for morning sevice but like you he likes it a fresh mouth at all times. We all fell asleep after he came deep in my throat. toy asked him to give it to her but he put my head and deep in my throat he did that to
shut her up and to show her her place.
10 am woke up again and this time was "MAJOR PLAY TIME". i was tied up with ropes - by toy who kept fucking up and getting beat up by him, while i am sucking him again. i asked for water as my mouth was so
dry - i had drank so much the night before - he said no and for me not to ask anymore. fine.... i was not going to be stupid. toy was doing things and going to get a sip of water and he asked her what was she doing and she said she was thirsty and he gave her 10 with the freaking twase that my hands started sweating from nervousness. she fell on the floor after a few and he softly told her to present her ass and she was crying and he gave her the 10 he said she was getting.
after that she knew her place. he said: - just because your girlfriend is here and doing her service you dont have to be all like
you are not my sub. well, he was pealing a ginger as i was sucking him and toy was placing a strap on on her self as ordered.
She placed the freaking ginger up my ass, and he then laid toy under me i was on 4s but my hands tied to the ends of the bed she put the
strap on inside me as i sat on her. He got the twase and i took SUCH A BEATING that toy under me, with a hood on her head, i was
blindfolded, crying with the strap on inside my pussy, ginger up my ass, and i started quivering and my knees started trembling as the pain was unberable.... i could take for a while and then all of a sudden one of the slaps would take my head right out of it and mad it
hard to enjoy so hard to work through the pain, my asshole on fire and he came around to the front, stuck his cock in my mouth and beating my butt from the top so deep he went i was gagging. At that point he told toy to get out of me and from under me, to get a condom - he was going to fuck me.
And so he started fucking me with the ginger still up my asshole and every time he pushed forward the freaking ginger went deeper and the twase was still raining down on me. my back, my butt and the sides of my legs, shit, it was pleasure and pain, all mixed up. and i think the ginger root was hurting him on his stomach and he took it off me. ufffff. But the twase did not stop as he was pushing hard for me to say my safe word. i never said it.
now i was finally allowed to cum. i was allowed to the bathroom, a drink (FINALLY) a shower and all.
Master met us at the hotel at 12 noon and we went to a dinner where he told Master i am a very special jewel when we were saying good
byes. i think i pleased him. That was it Master. I hope you are proud of your cunt |
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Well Saturday as soon as we woke up, i had 3 very extremelly hard belt slaps that were so hard the bruises were there for quite a while. i had to exercise for 1 hour after having breakfast while Master was busy. i went to the gym in a dress and sneakers, no panties and it was really weird to run like that. But i did it. 5 miles. Hooray! i was instructed to put nipples extenders between my breast and my nipple piercings. It was to be in place by lunch time. i dozzed off a while and all of sudden i hear the key on the door and got really scared to see Him as i thought it was someone from the hotel staff. Uff i was naked in bed with the chains and the extenders. i followed all my instructions. i was well cared after that. Dinner and movie and lots of servicing. Sunday b4 He went out again, i had a beating to pay for all of my mistakes. it was belt time. i laid in bed and i think took about 50 or more slashes. Later it was time to get going and i was a bad sub once again as i asked to put on low heel boots to go on the trip as the snow was coming down. what a stupid cunt i was. HEELS, HEELS nothing but HEELS. i was put for corner time for quite a long time. He was really upset. How could i?
The trip home was a very long and silent one as i think He was not pleased with me at all.
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Time is flying and what a bad sub i have been for not writing about the weekend at service. Thursday night i could not sleep, so much fear and anxiety i was under. Friday 5 pm was here and there was no way back. My bags were in the car and i was heading to a secret location very far away. i had to drive and know all the rules that kept pilling up as we were driving and i had to remember and repeat them every so often. 1) not to call him Sir anymore. 2) speak English without an accent 3) wash my mouth with mouthwash once every hour 4) call him Master for the weekend 5) keep the speed at 73 miles an hour and once we got to the hotel i had to 6) not touch the floor without heels on my feet and 7) to be naked in the room and to wear the chains weights on my pussy piercings while in the room. i failed so many times as i am so used to calling Him Sir. As soon as we got to the hotel room He orders me to strip. i respond yes SIR.... The doorman was carrying our suitcases in and i was really embarassed to do so. i started turning my back to this man and getting undressed, but taking my time and hiding as much as i could from his view. As soon as the door closed, i was slapped so hard on my face i was sure i was going to have a bruised face. Put against the wall by his hand on my throat He screamed at my face to NEVER DISOBEY OR TAKE TIME FOLLOWING AN ORDER. i was dragged by my hair to the floor into the bathroom where He shoved my head down the toilette kicked my legs apart with his foot and closed the lid on top of my head and told me to stay there as i cried and sobbed. The man was coming back to the room to give us a wine opener and i had to open up the door and get it making sure i was not hiding this time around. i did as told. i got beat bad. Afterwards i had to open up my bags and present all heels i brought with me, the 3 implements He told me to bring and was given the 2 last rules to be followed as He placed the chains down my pussy. Then i was allowed to shower. After He showered, i had to put lotion all over His wet body and was pulled by the chain into bed to suck Him. As i was sucking He yankied down on the chain pulling me this way and that. i was in so much pain and was not supposed to stop sucking .... all of sudden he pulled the chain so hard i could not move. my toes curled inside my heels to the point that the shoes got stuck. i could not move as i whimpered and cried and was told NOT TO STOP SUCKING. i could not move. So much pain and i cried. He let go of me, took the chain off my lips that were bleeding at this point, and told me to climb on Him. i rode and took pleasure, until He told me to put it in my ass hole - stupid cunt i am, just wanting to please Him fast, did not follow rule # 4 and did not say YES MASTER before doing it. He slapped me on the face so hard i fell off Him. Stupid bitch ... don't you know the rules? He could not believe such a simple task and i was failling. i had to start all over again, sucking was my task, and then licking his ass hole, and giving Him such good service until He was pleased enough and came. It was a long night as i was not good at following my rules very well. It sure put my head right at service and i think i was better the rest of the weekend but had to pay for being so bad on Friday the whole weekend long. LOVE IT!
Saturday and Sunday of sevice, i will post in another entry.... Thank you both my Masters for giving me the pleasure of being at your sevice. |
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What a surprise it was. i was to spend a whole weekend at my Trainer's mercy and to serve him and please him. Talk about scare.... too late right now to give you a whole count on it, but i will - soon. It was an awsome weekend. |
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This morning Master woke me up with a hard on and fucked me for a while until there was a pool of cum under my ass. Then He wispered in my ears that He wanted to cum in my asshole and for me to hold my legs up in the air and right then and there, he took it out of my pussy and went into my ass-hole in one stroke.... ouchhhh so painful, but His orders wispered very harshly in my ears went straight into my soul and i was His fuck-hole for a long time this morning and had to keep it open for His usage and pleasure. He pinched my nipples almost to blood as my piercings help Him give me the pain He so loves to see His toy suffer and not move as i am told to hold it open and not move as He would be very upset with me. He came deep inside me and told me to hold it in otherwise He would put a but plug for the day. i had to request His permission to release myself.
i LOVE my Master so much. |
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My last training session: Master called me at work to tell me i had to go straight to Trainer's house as i had to serve and please Him. My stuff was in the trunk of my car and had been placed there by Master. i got nervous immediately as i never know what to expect. getting there i was already not prepared as i was wearing panties as if i didn't know that i am not supposed to. He told me to freshen up, and take a shower - he opened a wine and left me alone for a little while after i presented the outfit Master had chosen for me to wear. He had called chinese food. i had to open the door naked only in thigh highs closed the door behind the guy and asked how much it was. i got the money in my hand. i had to ask the poor guy whether he wanted a blow job or his tip. the poor guy was so scared of me as i was coming on to him and he probably was afraid of a suit or something. then the beatings began. i had to pee in a bucket and drink it with a straw. i had to take shocks, i had to climb on the coffee table while Trainer walked around me with a belt, slashing me with it. My body was on fire at the end of the night. i had so many bruises, and the skin was so red. as i am getting dressed to leave i am still being hit by the belt. i think it was the time Trainer hit me the most. WOW... but it was unbelievable and i think He was pleased and amazed that i never called out for my "safe" word. He did not want me to go to subspace as he says it is cheating, but i think it gets to a point that there is no avoiding, i go there and feel in peace and at service, my body does not belong to me, but to Him and to my Master. LOVE IT!!! |
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Woo Hoo after almost 4 months, i was sent to Trainer last week. Hard to get your head in the right frame of mind and to do it all right. Such a simple task became my biggest fault that night. Being so willing to do and please Sir, whatever orders he gave me i would sprint in a hurry to accomplish just to be called back and slapped until i learned i should be replying with a "Yes Sir" right before i get going to do or retrieve or follow his instructions. i had so many slaps on my face i was hearing a zooom and feeling dizzy. i cried as all i wanted was to please and felt hurt that i could not understand or see why i was getting punished. It took me a while to get back and settle into my self submissive and humble.
i was shocked and standing on tip toes on a coffee table at the very edge having to endure the shock at top level 10 and not move. i also was ordered to walk as sexy as a model would walk the run way at a fashion show while being shocked and the jumps would only get me more shocks. i had to shove a dildo up my ass and give a show. i had to take an enema and plug it through most of the night while other punishments were being given to me in order to brake me and bring me back in total obedience.
Sir then decided to play a card game where if i lost which happen almost all the time, i get the punishment and my nipples were the center of this scene until blood was running down from them. My feet also took a lot of beating. That hurts a lot.
In the end, after releasing myself while giving Sir head, i was ordered to plug myself again and go present myself to my Owner and Master.
I was totally used for over an hour in the behind, to a point where any thrust, soft or hard were unberable.
Both Master and Trainer were pleased and think i should start getting more into the training mode of Fall and Winter... we got a new toy (Lexan cane - OUCH!).
More to come hopefully soon. |
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Well, sorry to be such a disappointment but because of summer time and too much skin exposed not much happening these days.
Hopefully soon.... |
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Believe it or not, after such long time i was sent to Trainer once again. i was to present myself with tight blouse with push up bra with lots of cleavage, mini skirt, tigh high and heels. i had to do some enemas and be nice and clean with no panties of course. i was to be gagged and to keep my eyes cast. He did not want to hear my voice .... i had to present certain apparatus that Master had chosen for the occasion. They were an extremelly hard cane, a leather strap, a wooden paddle, and another leather aparatus also used for beating and pain.
Barely there i was dragged by my hair, and put against a wall, i was examined - skirt lifted and again pulled by my hair i was pushed to my knees. My face got slapped real hard a few times that brought tears to my eyes, but i dared not lift my eyes to look at my Trainer until he ordered me to look at Him just to be hit again and again. i had to present my ass for the cane i am so afraid of. i was dragged by my hair through the floor back and forth to the kitchen and to the living room and back to the kitchen and to the bedroom and living room...to the point of tearing my hose. He was not happy ... i was not fluid in following instructions.
i was there for 1 hour and got so much beating and had to present my back door to sit on His hard c o c k and man it hurt.... dragged again to the kitchen bent over the counter just to be used again and again. i was fully used and abused and kicked out at the end of the session with a spit on my face. i better be better the next time. |
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Well, well... have i been bad... i know, i know. i should have been updating more frequently my journal. i am sorry and promise i will try to be more diligent in doing it.
Well almost 6 months have passed and i have been in heavy training. Every other week and sometimes every week i have been sent to my Trainer's place for a lesson. i am always graded and all i want in the world is make Master proud of His property. i have failed a few times and this last visit was not a pretty one. i was there for almost 5 hours as a cleaning slave. i folded laundry, i vaccumed the whole house, i washed the bathroom 3 times and when was almost done with the 3rd time, Sir needed me to be his toillet and i failed to drink it all up. Got really slapped for i let a lot of it fall all over me. i was supposed to report at His feet every 10 minutes during cleaning up. iOne of the times He told me to play with myself with a dildo and to cum. i forgot to mention i was cumming when i did and got paddled so hard the stupid c u n t i am for not announcing it. i cried a lot but deserved the lesson. Got back to work. Had to wear the dog shocker on my pussy as i was moping, dusting and Trainer kept shocking me as it has a wireless remote control, as punishment. At the end of the night, i was so tired. my whole body hurt, and Sir tells me that i was going to be paddled once again for not being fast enough. i started crying as i was trying my very, very best to clean the house to the point that someone could eat off His floor - it was the first time i was cleaning His house and really i was trying to do it extra well. He asked me confused, if it was for His pleasure to beat my ass again would i cry? i controlled myself and stopped crying and told Him probably not. He told me to present my behind for 3 more paddles and He did not want to hear me. He came down so hard, i could not control myself from calling for God's help as it hurt SO bad. He gave me 1 more for He did not want to hear a word out of my mouth. i came home crying. Asking Master for forgiveness as i disappointed Trainer for being too slow. |
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well was i a liar or maybe a bad sub not to update my journal? should i be punished? lol... well, 3 times being that 2 of them i got a 10 and the last one i got an 8 - those were the grades i got from Trainer. i was very disappointed with myself to be an 8 as i want to make Master so proud of his property. i just have to try harder the next time right? i got so beat up and i was doing little mistakes and not following orders as fast as i normally do but still trying to keep my head straight. Maybe better next time. i will try to post some pictures of my poor little black and blue ass.  |
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i saw my Trainer 3 times within the past week. my ass is so black and blue and swollen i can barely sit. i will update with more details on each of the sessions during this weekend. |
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Saw my Trainer on Wedn. last week and He was pretty angry with me at first, as i really lost control at one point and screamed.He had put 3 of those very very tight biting black aligator clips on my clit. i had to walk with them, i had to dance for Him with them, i had to put a broom up my ass and sweep the floor by moving it with my behind (He cut the handle stick in 1/2) (must had looked really ridiculous, but it was for His entertainment, right?) then He used a new paddle Master made such a hard one, thin and it stings and if i tell you that 2 hits and my behind was numb i am not lying to you. When He decided that He wanted to hit my poor little pussy that had those aligator clips all over that were hurting so bad, i broke down. i begged and moved away from Him. To that He got really upset and pushed me to the floor where He was going to make me sit and scrape the floor with those clips on my clit. i did not obey and He literally fought with me. Do you know how tiny i am. He is over 6 feet tall and He is big. He plays sports. He was not able to put me down. i told Him i was not obeying Him on that one and maybe i should leave as i was so disappointing Him and myself, but i could not do what He wanted of me. i took off those clips (they hurt even more as the blood runs back in)threw them on the floor and marched out of the room. In between sobs and apologies, grabbed all my stuff and started shoving everything in my bag. He sat down on the couch and at one point called me to come in front of Him. He told me to go on my knees. we talked for a little while and He asked me to calm down. He made me suck Him and that pacified me. He told me if i was to be there and for us to share what we enjoy, i would have to take a beat to redeem myself. i agreed. I took it on my pussy (which was really in pain) after taking on my ass a whip for i dont know how many times... on my nipples that the bar bell rolled away and my nipples were bleeding. my pussy had scabs from the whipping. but at that point, i was able to present, and open up myself to receive it. Then He told me to get the "fricking" alligator clip and put it myself on my clit. i did as told and the pain i thought i was going to pass out. He told me to sit on His cock with my ass hole open for Him. And He kept telling me all the while " you are here for my pleasure, isn't that right? your suffering is for my pleasure isn't it?" and i responded "yes Sir, yes Sir".
He was very happy and proud of me, as i still afterwards, cried on His chest apologizing and He said that if i apologized one more time i was going to be beat and whipped again as i was still not in peace. More to come... |
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just saw my Trainer again last Thursday. He was able to bring me to tears by beating my pussy and shocking it as well - he made a panty with straps that hold a dog buzzer right there on my pussy (used to train dogs - big dogs) underneath and that thing hurts a lot when He turns the knob to a level 9 or 10 on His remote control. If the thing is too low it actually feels good, like a vibrator of sorts, but when it is turned all the way up, i want to vanish. i almost jumped to the ceilling at the first jolt. i was bad at the very begining of the training session - and He put me in the right frame of mind. it is not about me but about Him. i was acting like a little cry chick and had to be reminded of my place - a piece of meat to serve and obey. Thank you Sir for one more lesson. |
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Summer time is such a terrible time at least for me in the sense that i can't be marked or bruised as family obligations do not permit. We go to the beach a lot and to the pool - travel with family and i could not explain bruises. Master does not want family members thinking He is abusing me so we play much lighter during this time of the year and i actually got a break from being trained as well. Just dying here to play rough and hard, can't wait to start getting put in my place once again. |
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i have been in full training and lately have seen my Trainer more than usual. 2 Fridays ago i saw Trainer for a total of 15 minutes. He was able to do more "damage" in that little time than in two or 3 hours together. my legs looked like i had varicose veins. my ass as well. My tits were black not black and blue, but just black. brutal that is all i have to say. |
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i must say, there is a mizztress on this site, i do believe it is a man pretending to be a woman. i obeyed and went on webcam to show her i am who i say i am. i "asked" politely for her to let me see her as well, so i would not have any problems knowing i am talking to who i think i am talking. She went crazy. Started calling me names and was disrespectful and that i was giving her orders. i was not. i asked her very politely. Her attitude and rudeness does not mean to be of a true dominant person. Is it being abusive and rude the same as being a dom? i don't have to take this kind of abuse. i think i am a real submissive, but don't need to be a carpet for her to treat me like a piece of garbage and receive abusive and rude behavior like that. |
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i am under intensive training right now. i must have seen my Trainer about 4 times in the last month - which is a lot. i am probably getting better at taking a beating, but still i don't feel secure. i do need a lot of work on putting my head where it belongs and i think Trainer and Master have this nailed down now. i need to be hardly handled as soon as i do an infraction and from there on, my respect and whole demeanor changes completely to submissive, obedient little slut i am. All black and blue and loving life. |
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boys, boys, boys... some of you are asking me to dom you... i am very, extremelly submissive. Some of my girlfriends think i could be an excellent domme and some of them think i could do wonders since i do enjoy serving so well. Not sure Master would ever go for it... only time will tell. If Master does order me to do it i will have to obey Him, right? So let's see what Master decides.
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i was sent to Trainer this past Friday and i think i was ok and i pleased Him. took such a beating on my tits and carried weights on my pussy...drank from the fountain and licked the bathroom bowl clean. then He grabbed me by my hair put my ass up in the air and fucked the shit out of my ass hole.
Went home and after sleeping for 2 hours Master rolls me over and fucks my ass hole once again very, very hard... Saturday night once again Master fucked my ass and beat me to tears. Sunday morning again...He is having my ass being trained to be fucked at all times....i love Master with my whole heart and soul, actually it is deeper than that if it is possible to describe such feeling of adoration, respect and total love and surrender. |
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When Master wants me to obey, He only says it once and then looks at me. i was a bad girl to Him last night and had to pay my dues this morning. First He beat me and then used me for His pleasure and while doing that He was biting my back and shoulders and neck so hard and so painful. Then He got a dildo shoved it up my ass and continued fucking me while i was begging to cum and He did not let me. Only after He came deep into my throat to use me as the cumdump i am did He let me cum.
i love Him ... He is the best. |
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Last week i got double wammy...was sent to Trainer's for some sharpening of skills and i got beat so bad as my head was not as sharp and i was not too sure of my place.
Then i got a severe punishment 3 days later for replying to someone here on this site without pointing this Dom to Him - my Master and Owner. He is the only one Who will allow me to be trained by someone else or not.
So, if you are seriously interested send Him a note indicating so.
His address right here is - IDOMU728.
Thank you!!!! |
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Wow... i can't believe it has been 1 month already since my last entry. Well, Master and i continue with our relationship and the other day He sent me out to get us a new toy. i went to Petsmart and got Him a new strap that is amazing on the skin. It is actually for horses, but it makes such beautiful sound when hits my ass and the tingling and pain is unbelievable. i love the new toy i got Master.... and i am sure He loves it too as He has been using it a lot lately... i like it so much i got one as a gift to my Trainer... and i think He likes it too. |
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i must apologize if i was not clear enough... i am collared and owned. Master knows of my activities in this site as i/we are just looking for more training of His property. His handle is idomu728 here and only with His approval will i be able to receive training. On past journal entries i did state the reasons why of my profile here but some of you have not read them all. i know it can be tiresome and i apologize for not being more specific and clear. |
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Happy New Year to all of you and lots of kink and pain/pleasure for 2007.
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This morning Master just went out early to put the garbage on the street and came back to bed and just like that started touching me and rolling me face down. Separated my legs and just went about His business. Told me to be quiet and that maybe He should have invited the 3 garbage men to use me as a Holiday gift to them. i was quiet but really wet... he fucked me and used me, fisted me and fucked at the same time, and it was FUCKING AMAZING!!! Do i deserve ???:-) |
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Last night Master told me to come out of the shower and put my collar and a blindfold. Once He got me at the door, He put a leash on my collar weights on my nipple rings and took me crawling to our bedroom. There He had a new leather strap to "warm" me up and gave me such a beating. Then He had me suck Him good, checked me while i was in crawling position again for wetness deep inside and fucked me hard and good. Those darn weights kept going back and forth and man do they hurt. Then He told me to open my ass and He pushed with a very strong push and tears were rolling down my face... i was crying and whinning but all i could hear was His voice telling me to keep it open as i am His pleasure toy - His fucktoy and all He wanted was to cum deep inside me- which He did after fucking the 500 orgasms out of me - lol.... Master is so good to me. |
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Master took me to meet another couple who like us live this kind of lifestyle. it was extremelly hot. we met at a place somewhere in Pensylvania that seemed like O's chateau. i was introduced to this other fucktoy and her owner and kept my eyes cast and took such beating but had such a great time. we were there Saturday and Sunday and it was AMAZING! that is the tip of the iceberg... i got a story for you...... Thank you Master for such an experience! love you Sir. |
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last night went to Trainer's and as usual my heart was in my mouth since i am never sure of what may come of it. Followed all the instructions and was actually early not to have one more punishment on my plate.
there was another man there for me to serve and i had to serve him sexually. i served food and beverages. i gave massages, i danced for them and took pain for them. i had the buzzer that i hate between my legs and was facing the wall while they ate. i pleased the gentleman who was there and Trainer, even thou at the very end, Trainer gave me such a beating that his cane went flying all over the place in 1000 pieces, that makes me think he was not that pleased. Actually i think that is when he was pleased. More to come. |
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i have been chatting with SelectiveDom from South Carolina and he is for real.... if i can validate him this is it. Nice person, firm who knows what he wants from a sub. Maybe we will meet up someday.  |
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Last night Master brought me to my Trainer's house. There was a stranger there and i was made to service this man and to be good to a Domme and obey her. i do love serving Master and Trainer. MY GOAL IS TO PLEASE MY MASTER AND MY TRAINER. WHAT A NIGHT IT WAS. I HOPE THEY ARE PROUD OF ME. |
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Well, nowhere in the profile is asked of me of my situation. i am married with my Master and we have been living our D/s relationship from day 1 (aren't we so lucky?).
Yes i still am searching for training. When you are in a relationship for such a long time with every day social obligations and other commitments it is hard to keep up with the training. i am submissive and want to be able to always serve in any circumstance and to be able to serve all kinds of doms... each has their own characteristics and strenghts and push my limits differently. if i am not clear here, please ask your questions and i will try to explain.  |
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Ok now... i do understand some of you don't want to have pictures on your profile, but please, if you send me a note, i do expect a photo attached to your note. Not for the whole world to see but me. No picture, no response. You would not have sent me anything if i just had a profile there with no photos at all, right? Thank you!  |
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Some people are concerned about my Trainer's techniques and about me. That is very sweet, but really my Trainer is just doing what he is supposed to do. It is true i was very frustrated the other day and i complained about Him. But He is really supposed to push me to new levels and He only does it because i assume He knows how much i am capable of, otherwise it would be a waste of His and my time.  |
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tonight i am very sad. it is so,so hard to please my Trainer. all i want is to please him and my Master. my Trainer sometimes gives me orders and i try to comply but he has to give me a chance to do so. he is a little impatient and does not give me a second chance. i know he is here to push me to be faster and to do things asked of me. i try and try but in his eyes i only have 1 chance.  |
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Today my Trainer and my Master will have full access to my profile and letters. They are keeping an eye on my obedience and i think they just have my best interest in mind. i love that they care so much.  |
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ok, for once and for all... my Master knows and is ok with me in this site now. We both need some sort of therapy to keep the focus on what we enjoy so much ... BDSM. He trains a sub as well and He knows i need a trainer. Actually i do have a Trainer, a very good one, but He has other commitments and is not as available as i would like to be trained more. And i think training should be broader. I should be able to fullfill more than one style of Dom. Each has their own thing and pre-requisites. |
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some people do not understand why i am here. Just because of the dynamics of a 24/7 life partner relationship like i have with my Master can impair the dynamics of a 24/7 D/s partnership so i put out a search for a trainer. It is hard to keep the discipline and structure in place when He knows that i was up caring for a sick kid for example and things start to slide...with everyday life - and generally the reason that an outside disciplinarian is a necessity ofsorts. |
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yes, i am still here and alive. Master let me keep my profile online. He allows me to reply to a few letters and i do apologize if you didn't get an answer from me, but i am still his property. i tried to upload some more pictures lets see if the people who run this site will allow them to be viewed or not. Let's hope so. |
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my Master wants me to think about closing this account. i really enjoy it and don't think i am doing much damage on anyone's lives. what do you think?  |
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 3/28/03
so many tempting invitations... i gotta tell you.? i am not very happy that my picture is not seen by others.? dont' know what to do.... |
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Well, i have been in this site for a little while. Got a lot of mail regardless of my short profile. i know i am not the perfect sub, even though that is my goal in life. i know there is no "perfect" dom, and maybe i should be a little more specific about it. The perfect Dom is the one that is sadist enough to correct and keep his sub focused and in balance with her reality at the same time caring enough to provide support, to acknowledge and show appreciation for her efforts. i know i can be real bad and i hate when i disappoint my Master. i think i am even harder on myself than He is. That is why i am searching for "a trainer" Dom. i am in no search for a LTR or for love. |
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?submissive woman/dom Master?- i am owned and collared and searching for couples to play with Master and myself.?Master wants me good for any kind of Dom...whatever His taste is:? pain slut, service, for degrading me or just plainly using me for His pleasure.? Master's site is IDOMU728 right here on collarme. Leave us a message please.? ?