strawberryspell

Baking cakes... I just can't do it, I dont know why! Every Single Time I put a cake in the oven it falls apart, overflows, burns, in general sucks. Yes, with the exception of the burnt ones, they taste good. I just dont know why i cant keep a cake in one aesthetically pleasing piece so maybe for once I can practice decorating the thing!  I seriously cry when I ruin yet another cake, its almost as if the cake baking gene missed me all together, probably replaced by the gene that makes me want to run around barefoot in winter. I know it doesnt make me less of a woman, this whole inability to bake thing, but it makes me feel it. The rest of my family can bake, but not me! So to me that makes me less of a woman and less of a member of the family, very frustrating on my part.
But maybe I'm just trying too hard? I don't know.
All I know is that one of my self-improvement goals is to be able to bake a cake by May. I have a month. Wish me luck!




Oh no, I dont have till may, I have until april 20!! ahhhhh!

My first journal entry, yay me! I just read another members entry that said a slave does not choose but rather needs to serve. I feel as though this is an unrecognized truth by many that do not understand why a woman or man would allow themselves to be treated like a serving wench (or appropriate term for a man).

As a younger girl i would commonly play house and dressup with my friends. For reasons i did not understand i truely wanted every time to be the "maid" and generally be treated as such.


As i grew older i rebelled from this behavior and as of right now i still dislike doing chores and i am generally messy while on my own. However when i am spending time with my significant other i seem to do everything for him, i wont allow him to get up and put his own dishes away, or any other household tasks. i have my moments when i dont want to and since he doesnt ask i dont. Nothing makes me happier than making him happy. This behavior extends to the bedroom area, however i dont deem it appropriate to tell specifics.

i feel as though i was born to serve a man in all ways a woman should. That is why i am exploring the aspects of the lifestyle i feel im destined for.